02-10-23 thru 2-22-23 Intuitive information

 

Strange weather phenomenal 

People displaced

Decimate

Rapid Response

Something with anthropology

Life crisis center

House divide against itself- Both biblical and Famous speech by Abraham Lincoln

All flash and no cash

I wrote in one of my writing about using the word derailment, I believe that information was coming through than, because I even questioned that word use at the time with my guides and felt that it was supposed to be there, but now realized that there has been two since I wrote the article. Maybe more are coming.

Smelling cloth burning -like cotton

Randall Williams – Football player?

Brian Quinn – I think this is practical joker guy

Up rising

Harvest moon 9-23-23

Sydney, Australia

Something about "Uni"- university in EU- Europe

I heard lowery- I know it is business, but also means (English) dark, gloomy, threatening

War- not necessary – Per guides

Internet blow-up – some type of news

02-11-23 Growing up in a dysfunctional family

Growing up and having no one to rely on creates an over-independence in myself. Like I have no one to help me, there is no one I can trust, no one loves me to even care. Asking for help is somehow wrong. (in the family stays in the family)

My encounter with a man who by all counts was a children sex predator at the age of five, told me before I walked away after a neighbor walked out the door of his home, who save my life that day in other ways, that If I said anything, that he would kill me and mother and family. And then to walk every day after that same walk to school fearing the worst or to come and see if my family was alive.

To a father that if I didn’t do as I was told, I would be punished or even told to pack my bags and leave the house at a very young age, to be punished for the food that I refused to eat, to then go to school after the encounter with the predator, and be punished at school for not doing my school work after taking that same path to school wondering if I was safe or this would be the day that my family would be killed.

 To then be told that I was a defiant child who didn’t listen, or was difficult, to my teacher at that time would make me sit with my desk at the board or next to her desk because I was the problem child. All the while, I just wanted to feel safe and protected.  To then be told that I had learning disabilities, which I was told because I was taught at home, but because no one bother to question if something had actually happened to me. This has stayed with me my entire life, as to why. Or why people who were friends would jump me on the way home from school or when I was hanging with them. To watch other friends, stand by while I would be assaulted for no reason, other than who I was without cause.

These assaults both in school, with friends, and even with my family have created some of the biggest fears for my safety and trust, which does not come easy. Even as an adult no one questions what happens to that person that they are that way. Even when you tell people they say you are too sensitive, or over imagination things. Or you are outright crazy!  My sensitivity and my intuition which I had for a very long time, have saved my life more times over than I could say.

The dysfunctions also come with boundaries, with my family boundaries and problems were never addressed or even spoken about. This creates conflict on what is right and what is wrong and when things happen whether in the family or outside at school or with friends, it was as if it didn’t exist. There was no talking it over, addressing it, or comforting what I was feeling. So, when all these factors, boundaries, assaults, abuse, neglect emotionally, physically, and spiritual (spirit of yourself) and people actually giving a Frick that you actually exist or count, or that you are capable of being loved and respected, cared for. These leave huge gaps in the psyche. 

These are undercurrents that the subconscious is saying without you realizing. These are shadows aspects of yourself because they are not known. They may come up as I am afraid, I am sad, I am depressed,  and or I have anxiety, I am overwhelmed, or fear of just speaking your truth because along the way it was not ok to feel, what you were experiencing or have emotions, opinions, much less thought for fear of being punishing, neglects, rejected, mistreated or that you just did not matter in your family, your school or even society because you could not live up to other people's expectations of what, exactly.

Whether you want to believe it or not, some people can see what is hidden, even from yourself. Most of the time it is not addressed because you’re a mirror to them. And it has become the norm to wear the many masks that we do. Everything is great, fine and I am ok. Or that people are so caught in the drama of their own stuff that they never look at their own shit, and when people offer help or wonder why people don’t stay around them, not because they don’t care, it is because you’re not even listening to yourself. 

This is not shaming or guilt but what we have been taught, it is not ok to express even our happiness or joy because others and even family it was ok to be happy, because I am not happy why should they be happy!  These generally come from what I call a dark soul, narcissist, and psyche, poor boundaries, of self and others. The flip side of this is that they are people who too did not learn and were taught the same lessons. These dark souls, narcissists, etc are just people too that had different or even worst experiences.

I don’t know any child that says I am going to grow up and do killing, criminal, murder, etc. Unless their life is riddled with childhood trauma unless is spiritual intrusions and that is a whole other topic. We are not taught to reflect on our own life or process information, more or less told to simulate information, do as your told or said, don’t question. Our education is steeped in for over 50 years, maybe more. How many book reports have you written about the story verse what is the storytelling you? What is your own story saying about you, because by all accounts the outside world is telling you to live in fear, instead of how do I/we fix these things!

If you look at any inventor- they see a need. My need became why do I keep getting into these relationships and what was happening to me spiritually, and experiencing the things that I am. Not that it happened my whole life and had no one to validate my feeling and emotions because again from the beginning it did not exist. Parents as well intended, forget that a child/children are humans that grow up to be adults. I remember coming from God, source or just talking to other beings when I was little and still due to this day. You call God, spirits, angels, masters, and other crazy shit.

All these things have affected every area of my life, from the men I dated to the jobs that I worked, to sexual assaults, to wanting to help people, to just live in peace and not constantly have to figure out how to fix this problem, as a soul in a human body, I have agreed to these in these experiences to relate to other people or just begin to say that there is a different way and it begins with you.

02-05-23 Intuitive (foreseen) No timetable

Cataclysm event

May Lynn, My Lynn husband- I felt like I was in was London.

I saw two fires on where the smoke was coming out of a dryer Vent and second one was car and house on side of house like a lightning strike hit it. I felt like I was in Red Cedar and on a circle.

Subdural hematoma? This blood clot between the brain and skull. Like bad bruise from a head injury.

HPV is question – I looked this up and there is a lawsuit against the maker of Gardasil

Basile – Brazil – I don’t is area/country or a person.

Vatican

I am hearing the song – Danny boy as if being sung to someone.

3 days or 3 weeks?

Something about torque?

Land variances

Snow drift

A charlatan

Ariana

Something with eyes- 01-31-23 not sure if it has to eye drop issue

2028

I saw a box with ice in it and drill press.

I went looking for something and somehow, I was subscribed to Elon Musk regarding his new phone

I have 3 three indication that again came up in my feed, about how they are collapsing economy. That somehow, I was subscribe too.  

Hill berry?

Dream Vision: I got the following back Sept of 2022 – I not sure who this is or for and whether it apply to own life. I was shown a body floating in water, it was a person around 40 male, brown male. The body is laying face down in the water. I felt there are two people involved with this, I feel and sensed these people involved had thought that this person had turned them in as in the police and this person in the water previously had connections to them and had left it behind and was turning their life around. I also kept hearing that they unable to resuscitate this person.

I not sure if wrote this but I had strange dream about men in plastic Bio suits.

Hearing the song Bye, Bye – Not sure if Nsync or Marshmello/ Juice world?

Hearing on the Road again by Willie Nelson?

I got Safeway? Not sure if Food store or something else.

I have gotten Nazi many times – I have asked for clarity, and it still keeps showing up.

Wild ride 2023-2024

Shift coming

2x I heard who is afraid of the Big Bad Wolf?

Previously wrote to pray or chant Peace, Equality, Solidarity

Raising the Dragon?

Hearing “sound the alarms”

The tectonic plates

I also got name Karen, I did not know if was person, So, I looked it up not realized what it was and that it is slang. I am added now because I thought about the use of the movie and slang term of it. It is concerning that this another attacked against women, to separation and create fear. I not saying it does not exist, because does (all diversity), but what are the ramification. In my experienced this attempt exemplify all people need to realize that are created by God, source, universe. 

Maybe this why I giving the following: Don't cast the first stone, or story about the lottery. Is the world you want now or in future for ourselves, children or grandchildren. We need stop and look at what our moral compasses are telling us. 

02-04-23 What quackery is this? Having a sense of humor in the nonsense. (channeled)

I had a lot of people question things when I say

them, but they don’t question their own thoughts and beliefs about things. For

example, all the things that were said or experienced as a child, you’re not

smart enough, you’re not pretty, your enough of this or that, you don’t listen

yada, yada, is any of true! We have taken in what others thought about

us/yourself or make our own conclusion based on what exactly. This started when

you were very young and maybe in the womb. 

 

This baby is a pain in the body, this child is

strong-willed or unruly or whatever was present to you as a child. When the

fact is that you as a person are not any of them. Your source consciousness in

a body having a human experience. Most of what you know about who you are is a

learned experience or perceived reaction. None of which you are. These are

programs that run through ancestry lines, social conditioning and religious

beliefs, and cultural diversity to explain who you are about your birth family. 

 

When one does not question the innermost part of

their being and simply relies on what they have been told, to who am I really?

Whatever avenue you use to discover your truth, is your journey. Denying that

there is not possible anymore to me, that is what you be told, is denying that

there is so much more to know. One relies on the outer to get acceptance or

approval from many who don’t even challenge themselves. 

 

This is what I learned and told, so it must be

true. Every aspect of yourself must come into question. The hard part is

realizing that it is an inner journey because the outside will continue to tell

that it is out there. The heart and mind in conjunction with the body, as a

whole, in a whole being, not separated. The physical senses tell you otherwise.

Fearing the unknown of yourself is what has kept you from experiencing more of

yourself. When you were younger (not all) but you push boundaries. Why did you push

boundaries, because you knew that there was more! 

 

You only stopped when you got hurt, or in a situation

that you did not know how to handle. Or you did whatever to fit in or conform

because it was safe. And if did push the boundaries beyond what was the

reaction of the people around you? Did they support you with guidance and

direction or did stop you from becoming more! Curiosity is a skill developed by

intuition to naturally question. Most programs don’t question, color in the

lines, to look into it for it is not safe to wonder what is possible. These

beliefs hinder the expression of who you are, and what is possible. 

 

Had, any inventor stopped with that belief, many

of the creature's comforts you have would not exist. You are the inventor in

your own lives, you create every day, all day, the thoughts that surround you.

One could say it is wishful thinking, that it couldn’t possibly be different

than what it is. Again, this is another's belief, is it yours? You are relying

on others to tell you what is possible, instead of challenging your own

thoughts. This dear one has walked through things that she would otherwise tell

others not to. It took courage to keep walking to see things that most don’t

see. Just the wizard of Oz, we don’t know until look behind that curtain of

what people have experienced. There are stories of the depth of false beliefs that

span generations, or it is playing out and blowing up in the media. To have to

change things must become known and transmuted to create differently. If you

were to project yourself back or forward 50 years what would it look like? If

present enough and observe, as a witness to change and create by observing

yourself where is the mind taking you to fear or love, because everything

hinges from these core emotions. You must become that what you wish to see. It

is not out there; it is your inner being. We leave this day with this – To be

one with self, one must find the true essence of who you are. 

 

*side note I questioned the title and the guides

state that when eggs are more than gas and inflated at the same rate as the

the housing market, to how foolish do they think people are at this point, remains

the indifferent. I had to look up the use of indifferent- Cambridge defines it

as not thinking about or interest in something.  

 

* Dalai Lama Quote: “To remain

indifferent to the challenges we face is indefensible. If the goal is noble, whether or not it is

realized within our lifetime is largely irrelevant. What we must do therefore

is to strive and persevere and never give up.”Jun 25, 2022

02-01-23 Unnamed

Since I was a little girl, I have always known that I was here to teach or do something. I never dream about being a psychic or channel or much less an empath. I knew I was here to help people in some way. I now see it differently, when I have to process and heal my own life from the things that I have encountered.  The guides have asked me to speak about my life and I have tried to a degree, to write about from a point that I won’t be attacked, expose the players by name and their actions by their hands or words. I don’t know if I can be sued for slander when most of the things were not openly seen by other people.

I have thought about ghostwriting and changing my name completely, as these people who now leave the planet. I am faced with releasing the trauma caused by them and the effects that it has had on my life. I am to the point that I don’t know what I am here to do, and my own resume looks like my life, pieces of information that I have not quite put together to be a whole. I have avoided creating a more public stance because literally, my entire life has been about being attacked, abused, or neglected to feel safe and protected to just be me.

I am tired of protecting myself from these people and anyone else who disrespect children, or people whether male or female, all for some false power over another. What I see are bullies, raised by bullies, narcissistic people who are so wounded that they have no idea how to find their own light and love for themselves that they have to step on people like bugs for them to feel powerful. The sickness is everywhere and I for one realized that I may never feel safe or protected in a world that seems to be breeding it, so why to try to fight these sickos.

From fear or a tyrannical system, my own family to my last job and where I was given work, to do more of and faster, that was placed on me because someone paid me, not to think but do. To the woman who befriend me then when I realized that she manipulating people to cut ties with her, decided that she going to make me her personal target every day and openly expressed that she did this to other people in her past, but would consider herself a spiritual person in the sense that she justify her action, as I was trying to process the death of my mother and trauma that had been created from it in my life.

To then report these conditions and explain to HR. that they could investigate, and she would find another way to create problems for me and the burden of proof would lie on she said, or I said. I explained that here is what could happen was for me to get a lawyer and file a lawsuit against them, or to me leaving the company, I chose the latter. Because I could see where this was headed. I could have stayed but why. Fight it out with her or them or a court, these people will never own their stuff, it simply is not part of consciousness.

There is a two-fold to this and that is to stand up for yourself because we are not here to play victims or martyr to anyone or a falling system that thinks that the planet is overpopulated to control the food, water, financial market, or housing market.  People in general feel powerless because you have been taught from the beginning that we are at the mercy of the people around us from our birth families to the world at large. And I am not talking about starting a revolution, as to what I see being put out in the world. As the guides have stated it is not necessary to be aggressive to make a point.

But my understanding is that through our pre-birth and soul contracts we have agreed to clear ancestry trauma, something else that I don’t agree with. Even with family crossed over, who did a so-so job when they were here. To we are here to be the change in the world. That does not mean looking the other way, but to stand in peace and intent that we can be the change that is so needed in the world. I arguably think this is the worst experiment to try to get 8 billion people to stand in solidary, that equality and the planet are more important than the top elite, who are trying to create a dystopia society where we don’t give a Frick about one or another.

We can’t even have one on one conversations with one another, for what fear of what, expressing ourselves and being attacked and this cancel culture is not silencing them, it is silencing ourselves because we are not thinking about resolving problems and stopping the madness that All children and people now and in future deserve to be happy and live in peace, vs a world that seems like a time bomb waiting to go off. To think about what if just half the population is displaced, are these things not happening now! No one wants to live in that type of society, but we fail to realize that whatever elite group or shadow people are running things, there is more of us than them.

The guides and master teachers teach that we are more powerful than we know. That our heart and mind in this hologram take focus thought. That one minute of intent to see peace and equality and solidarity can change our world, but that must become the focus, not saying or thinking I am powerless and live in fear of the unknown. That we heard the call to come to this planet and change it from within. Within ourselves not by destroying the planet or people to make that happen. That comes from challenging who am I afraid of – if we are children of God, source, and all that is, then we must learn to create from love, not fear.

Peace, equality, and solidarity – just thinking about these words or chanting these words alone have the ability to shift the planet, I am being told.

Until the underlining Fear is addressed – we will always feel like victims, instead seeing ourselves as a powerful creators of change.

The guides are saying to look at all the people that you have ever known, in school, the store, the jobs, the people you speak with on the phone, to doctors, to your vacations, etc. Everywhere you go there is another you.  You tend to think that it is just you or your family, but since your birth, you have been involved with people your entire lives, there is no – I am not connected to anyone. If everything is the source, God, consciousness it is impossible to not be connected to everyone and everything. Your Church/religions tell you that only they can speak to God. That is malarkey. It is a way of keeping you powerless to own divinity.