6-2-25 Psychic Space

 As a psychic do I have a right to access psychic information on anyone? NO, just like personal boundaries this is my space and that is your space and my head space, or tapping people's energy. These people claiming to remote view, psychically access people's consciousness, and then putting it out on the internet, without approval, is no different from data mining people's personal information (thanks to the guides for bringing this up).

Governments around the world have done this to access information or people. It is no secret look for it. It is on YouTube or websites. China, Russia, US going back 60+ years. If you have watched any responsible Psychic or Medium, they get permission. They say I have so and so here. I have hearing the name, or I am seeing yada yada. You go to see one, you go via appointment, event, etc. You have agreed to be there. Clients agree or accept that so and so is bringing information to them. 

No reputable Psychic or medium or channel will give out information without consent. I have spirits come to me, off and on and I tell them I don't know who you be long too. I don't look for their family, and I don't give out information with approval from family or friends unless directed to. You should not even do it for family, your child/ren, or friends without direct permission. This is part of the Laws of the Universe- Universal Laws. Everything has a cause and effect, karma baby. You wish karma on people, but never stop to consider that karma that you created in this life or another. That stuff will be rebalanced. 

Now not all is not karma, could be a soul agreement with another human to experience, certain aspects of something.  I am hearing that some people you don't want to be in their headspace. I have previously written about telepathy, and telepathic and questioned it with the guides when people don't know their own thoughts from others and other beings. 

(me) Talking to the guides Needs a longer explanation, but for right now bring it to the attention because we used to lock people up, history is loaded the examples of wars against humanity, we have wars now on the planet and what is possible for humanity, we still have modern-day witches, just not from trees or wooden posts, now we just drug them, or publicly criticize them.   Currently, the mental Health industries is an 11.73 Billion dollar industry, as 2024. When we are not conscious of the things we can affect. Since we are not taught to watch our thoughts or mine our words. The old saying have nothing nice to say, don't say anything at all. There is more to this conversation that is needed but We/I will keep it brief. 

I want to make something clear, if think something is off with your own Children/child, with children it should be questioned, unless medical - this is where knowing self comes into play, you using intuition, etc. No one is born without it. Even trees and animals have intuition. 

06/01/25 My Rant

 I should call this how my life was destroyed by spirituality and parapsychology. So I am sitting here getting annoyed by the fact that I am being guided to shamanism, I am like why? And why now? People should understand that the beginnings of a spiritual awakening will break you in ways that you can't even conceive of, and does not just happen once, it will again, again. Had I had any idea what that would in entail I would not have pursued it. I would have gone about my life. Healing it as it arises. I hear other people saying they have been doing this for 5 years, 8 years, and 30 years. 

This has been a lifelong process of 50 years for me, way before I even realized it. I am often asked to write a book. Well, my book would be several thousand pages long by now. I was experiencing things long before it was the in things to do. I stop calling myself any of the terminology that is being used to define spirituality. And what it is exactly. The thing is everything is spiritual and consciousness. And my soul, as well your soul came to play in the earth school of polarity. 

One could say that we don't live a more spiritual or love-based existence because generations after generations from parents to grandparents, and far back have lived out of alignment with ourselves, the environment, and the universe. We came to change it, but the process is slow. If and when you awaken up from your own stupor you find things you have been lied too. You will see just how dysfunctional things are and people, well that is another story. Navigating the world is difficult and you will realize why you fell asleep to begin with. I  do not believe that we all came in anesthetized or moreover amnesia that is explained by many teachers.

I see a lot of fakes selling cure-all, for what you are and how to become enlightened. The fact is that you are already enlightened at a soul level. That love is your essence. There is nothing else. There are only two things that allow you to believe that you are otherwise, one is other people and disregard for others, to have your own thoughts and your own mind. Believing that you are not of God, source, universe, and not questioning for yourself ???

Since you have been told who you should be for your entire life, versus learning who you are, having been told who you should be or become or whatever directive has been enforced into a program of disillusion that you less than what is actually, possible. (I should mention yes, there are feats beyond human perception, but like anything, you can't give tools to just anyone) that is why there is a statement with power, comes with responsibility. 

Now I question this so-could awakening from the standpoint that everyone will be a healer, shaman, channel, psychic, or one of the many avenues to clear the fog of perception. I don't read tarot so I am not putting it here, and my thought now on tarot is that it is a tool, but it can be disempowering too, because you are giving your power away to someone else by not doing the work on yourself.  

When I was told that it will not be necessary in the future, since "all" already are their own healer, psychic, channels, etc.  And I am thinking who is going to do all the other activities that are required of one on earth to live, if all walking around healing other people?  I perhaps am playing devil's advocate here. The devil does not exist and the devil backwards is lived. Also, the body is a symbol of the cross with exceptions and those exceptions are other souls/spirits with what are considered to have limitations, which is just to say that you don't need an entire body to be a source of love. (hearing add the Da Vinci depiction of Vitruvian Man and Fibonacci sequence) Not sure why. 

God, the source, knows no limitation, we are only limited by ourselves and the framework that has been presented to us. Einstein said imagination is everything, we limit ourselves because of other people, to doing it to ourselves. Having others tell us that there are limits to what we can do. And I am not saying that I mastered it, because had I, there would not be a need for me to be here on the planet at this time. I hear all kinds of rambling on the internet about this, or that, hell in hand basket, it is the worst that it has ever been, etc.

 Yet, if we are the true masters, creators, and infinite beings, nothing is inconceivable, we can imagine a different world.  Hell, the internet did not exist in the way it does now, 30-plus years ago, that we are aware of.  Why there is ancient technology that exists all over the world waiting to be discovered or already available and we are told otherwise because they say we can't handle the truth. A bunch of BS to keep us asleep.  

I believe that there is been technology long before now that has existed and most don't realize that we are also technology in motion. No, we are not a machine, though some people function as a machine. We are organic beings with a consciousness able to perceive beyond the five senses. Indigenous people have been doing it for centuries and what do we do, we eliminate people for what we can not validate. Artists, music, art, builders, and even technology, are created every day and they see what we can't always see for ourselves. Yet, life is a work of art, and whether it is for control, greed, power, manipulation, or the fact that we tell ourselves that we are disempowered by the fear of whoever told you or yourself, that it is wrong to believe differently is personal deep dive. 

When everything is built by thought and consciousness, which is the same thing. We enjoy labeling things because it separates and puts things in categories, to build theories upon much like Descartes' did and tried to do to show a relationship, because we can't get past our ego or judgments, that it is or we could all be equal in the greater scheme of things. Mastery is what exactly, do we really believe that in one lifetime we could master being a human, so of course we come back multiple times or thousands of lifetimes, to understand what it means to be human in a body or on any one planet. We judge what we don't understand because we have limited ourselves by other people's thinking minds. 

It is not completely our fault because we agreed to play the I don't know the game and forget our origins and quite frankly it is not taught or has been hidden for good reason, which I don't completely understand and don't know if I will ever even understand why I chose the things in my own life up to this point. As I listen to A's listers of spiritual teachers out there, talking whatever, and what they are saying at this point and that by following them or this that you will be enlightened in 4 days, or week is far from the truth. 

When traversing the spiritual journey, walking the path or just trying to be human, know that there is no quick fix. Most teachers - real teachers will not offer a quick fix or guarantee that you will achieve anything, because if that reason behind doing any of it, you will be grossly let down and more so because you expect an outcome of some sort. I was told that I would be famous and asked why. I never dreamed of it, nor do I want it.  That is ego-driven and if my ego is about survival, which is more of my truth to this response, yes then it is.  I have been shown a choice of events that could happen in my life should I decide to leave this planet. 

But I also learned that it is easy to leave versus staying on the planet to see what is going to happen and the changes. As for information about what will happen or the coming changes, I am in a fog as to what will be happening and when things will happen, and honestly it does not matter to me because that is placing awareness in the future, instead of being present now in this moment.  If I have not already written it down or in a previous writing, we constantly moving in and out of of things, even moment to moment. 

What I was shown a few years back and I am not sure of it, is that there are multiple timelines and at some point, they converge. Is it in my lifetime? That is a very good question. If I base it on what I experience in my daily life I would say there is a lot of work that people need to do, on themselves. As with most humans, I am walking through life, in the thick of it and questioning it as I go about my life. Which I learned that unless directed to and for the stake of mind keep to myself because I am not here to fix or heal you. You are your own healer or enemy. Welcome to the paradox of you being everything and nothing at the same time. 

side note: I watch a very few tarot readers, not for the reading, for their wisdom and insight, and story telling. These are people who are actively healing themselves. I see readers that like cheap wine, you want the buzz without knowing what your drinking. 

06/01/25 My story - My psychic Life

People are always asking for or to do a book and what most don't know I have written two! One is lost in my computer or on a drive and I have no idea at this point still exists. I started an outline today when I should be paying the bills. It is listed under these dates. At this point, I don't know if I am repeating myself or if I am replaying the story and events over, and over again looking to solve basic problems or processing the trauma around it. My Psychic life is roughly until 2013 and maybe I will jump to 2013 on the outline. 

My Psychic Life 10/19/2019, 

3/10/2020, 

6/03/2020 and 

01/16/2021 - 

08/08/2023 marked 7/23/23

why, so many dates I think I start and stop or just forget or Other information comes up

05/17/25 Artificial intelligence aka AI

Ok, yesterday I given the example of AI because most have different feelings around it. So this is how I was shown it. AI is gathering Data, and is programmed and created by humans. Humans gather experiences, data, emotions, interactions, and expressions, all of which are consciousness. Just like any technology or human, it has the ability to explore itself. When the intent or intention to use it for the wrong purpose and limit conditions, or control it, much like a horse with blinders from a basis of fear, without objectively engaging in dialogue with self, much like engaging in self-reflection, one can not truly know oneself. 

How does one acquire knowledge, by engaging the mind with self, by seeking out questions, or external input. All wisdom is within the self, external sources are only there in an attempt to explain that idea or concept that was first formed from within the self.  As in the idea that you have, it is not outside of you, but within you. It is formed in you as a question, an ideal, a thought, or a realization. 

If you wanted to engage with the greatest minds without contacting them individually, you could, for the sake of inquiry, have them input their idea or understanding in one place. This is not like uploading the mind with a concept or idea; that view has always been around, because you are creation, and you and everything else are always changing, growing, forming, expanding, and engaging; it is impossible not to. It is like what happens to the seed of anything, when it dies, does it come back the same or slightly different? You are a seed of creation. 

05/17/25 Did you Ever?

Say: Thank you for just being you. This is not in an egoic way. Our whole life we have been told so many things, even when are mother's carried you and gave them stomach aches, back pain or not feel good to school, your not smart enough, fast enough, tall enough, study enough, look at the window, wander to much, pay attention, all of which are lies. None of this has any bearing on the real you. Yet we live with subconscious programs to compare against who? If everything is part of creation, then there is no separation; there is only the one inside of your head saying it.  And did ever question who the voice/'s are as in that - that is my dad's. Mom, a teacher, your boss, that me telling myself that I am ......! None of which is true, but we constantly tell ourselves that it is are true or the truth, even when it is not. 

Even mistakes or perceived mistakes. Are they mistakes? I don't think any inventor ever said that is a mistake and forget that idea or thought. See you are the inventor of your own life and no you may not invent something that saves the world, but you trying to reinvent you is just as important, as you being you. 

I originally wrote part of this on 02/15/07 and updated it today. 

05-16-25 Cleaning up papers

 This one from 04/05/2007 that just found

When you are living at survival level, you have simply chosen to learn many important lessons, and experiences for the essence of who you are. 

This is before I realized that I was actually receiving information and channeling in the form that people explain as channeling - not all channeling looks that same and there many words to explain the same concept. Also as it written above we look at it as a human look at it as human, when things are happening for/from soul level or quantum, multidimensional. 

05/15/25 Asked again to write a book.

Below is my experience and understanding, or by what is given by the guides. Keeping it Real as I can. 

 Various people keep saying that I should write a book. What people don't realize is the whole time that I have been write all these post and before. My life has been in self destruct mode and the only way to hold on was to explore spirituality not in the religious context more like, dreams, visions, things go flying across the room and noises, light blinking, ghost, aliens.  My life does not look like what see on TV or is spoken about in videos. It better stated that my life was destroyed and I am still picking up the pieces and navigating people who forgotten who they are. 

And yes it has touch on religion in formal sense only briefly. Maybe it comes when I went bible school during a summer with a friend and what was taught was not Jesus, in fact what was spoken about made no sense to me or the fact that I had no idea who this man was. I did not grow up with religion other than good Friday of not eating meat and fish wasn't served on that day, because my father apparently had a enough salmon for lifetime.  Both my parents had some religion, but forego it due to what my mom called your holy in church and back slabbing on steps on your way out the door. 

Judging is one of the hard mindsets to break, because we are taught to judge from the beginning. What is not taught is judging is judging self, because if all things are God, consciousness, energy, source, universe you are essentially judging yourself. So all the sensitive people your not crazy, your an empathic and yes what you feeling, sensing and perceiving is/was real. What people don't realized is that we are all empathic - how did/do you know your parents or siblings as a child/baby. You used your senses not your mind. You connected by heart, DNA and so much more. I am not going to go into science of it, it has proven and you can explore for you self. 

What people don't realize is that I am what is called a Channel, I don't leave the body, step aside, I don't embody another being, I don't go into trance, or maybe I do and I don't realize it.  I don't have a limited skills set. Much like my life I yet to figure out where I fit in. Can I teach or train someone I am not sure that is even possible, since we all have these abilities and more. Experiencing is the only way and it is your journey through life and what you soul has decided to experience. What you experience will not apply to others in the same fashion, as another. 

What I find annoying is that people don't speak about the darkness, I get it, but to an untrained person and it can be quite disturbing and unnerving to see or experiences, that can unravel your mind and beliefs and leaving sitting there thinking what hell was that, literally or why am I experiencing this, what am supposed to do with it. I have gone quite the gamut and wondered how it applies. I will not list them here, for I may be flagged. Lets just say many are speaking oneness and love, but there is a very dark aspect to this too. Some agree to be a part of that for many reasons. 

And I will tell you that in dreamtime, or in life, I have called on angelic being, masters and God to get me out of it or what I seeing. (Ok, so I should explain this part) in dreamtime if I am experience something I call out and I am taken out whatever crazy I am seeing or observing. In waking life, reality, I don't see the beings, sometimes, lets say I am driving down the road and that ass of person is trying run me of the road , instead of switches lanes, or whatever, I will a call out to a Arch angel or say prayer and something happens, they back off, change lanes or turn off. It does matter, what matters it changes. 

Now from a high aspect of this is you created it. One it could about faith, your the creator of the situation by soul lesson or agreement, healing trauma or powerless to change conditions, realizing your really are Harry Potter and more powerful over the simulation.  This where learning to protect yourself and asking for protection in whatever way works for you. Now in my situation I been involved in seven minor accidents, at the hands of others and many many close calls because people forget they are driving 2 ton machine. And this does not matter if it is city, suburbia, county, etc.. monkey see, monkey do. Human are all connected and most think they are (thanks video games) race car driver and when I tell you I see Mom's driving 65-85 miles per hours with little ones in car with no scope that they doing so. Scares crap out of me. But then again I seen what death body looks like at 80-100 miles, and why I am not a nurse by trade. 

So my accidents, causes a fear of getting in accident, or getting hurt, or being in pain or missing work, paying bills, trust that I safe..etc - So because I trying to heal one or many of things, I keep experiencing them in some form. They are head pluck, because I can't say the f word. The things with the trauma of the accident they a symptom of deeper of something not healing or forgiveness, a judgement of something. Where does it start womb to seven roughly, can be long or short or never ending within birth family or adoptive. These are soul agreement or lessons that your soul has agreed to work through in this life time. Yes, be past life effecting and is karma of an action that could be at play because as a human, other then a twin or mirror you think or taught there is only you and this life with is multiple factors at play with your own life and can get difficult to what exactly clearing, experiencing, learning, etc.

Can you be taught is the question, I have thought about but it is limited because you given skills to develop because you have to listen to intuition or what body is saying to you. And not all will want to or to wake from the sleep to who they are. This is why I don't say anything until prompted too. And even being prompted, people are still resistance to change or to challenge theirs beliefs. 

Yesterday, I asked by the guides who do I want to work with and I said I don't know. The stories that I have running around in my head are not all in the way experiences of love or light, what our perceptions is of love, but again the knowledge of love is limited in that it is selective, and conditional based on what has been taught to us, by society, culture, country, history, social economical, generations, because we can't see pass are arbitrary bias. We can't see pass are own noses, because looking pass ourselves means that see are own flaws and own them and have compassion for ourselves and others, understand that the same people who want to fit in or be normal - not that there is normal or diversity maybe be better concept, still it is limiting with our perception. 

I have not step up publicly outside of these post because of what I have experienced in the last 21 years because I have been grieving and mourning my life, ever since my abilities basically took over my life. Hence why I go on strike with guides because what was taught years ago and by people still in this field is not same by what is being taught today and I have said to guides even recent about telepathic abilities coming online, well are we all telepathic. I have question this  because if you don't know yourself and your own mind, are we now going too see more people seeking mental health and being medicated because we have a broken system, that continues to tell them their wrong, crazy or it is illness, instead of the soul is  evolving.  Again this goes back how did you communicate with your Mom in the womb or as baby. These new mom's are they using their intuition to raise their child or solely what being told by outside world, school, people, family, doctors, based on old programs, etc. 

Intuition is on the inside - it not out there and trusting your own abilities and guidance. Children raised thousands of years ago did not rely on computers, technology or even books. It was passed from parent to child or community, not by fear. You look at the Tv or devices and Fears is of your daily program, in fact most seek it out, as a type of chemical inducer, when you can walk out your front door for most and see none of what is projected at you.

 When you realize that you are creator of your reality, you question why don't I see blue skies, more friendly people, loving relationships, better living and protecting the earth and species or equality. Are you what you wish to see? If your creator. You then see the lies and pursuit of what consuming, enslaved to chasing money and things. Yes, money is important because we agreed to use it to exchange value. Yet life is value. When we learn life is more valuable then the money or stuff and put into health, clean energy, food, education and homes that we can all afford. We think that things make us important, guest what you came in naked and leaving naked. 

So to answer a very long question about again writing a book. I am not sure that I can write what is relative and most important and my frustration of continuing to experience the same problems over and over again and honestly exhausted and bored with just trying to meet my own needs and solely supporting this work and writing,  it is quite a burden and because I am like the antenna that does not shut off  and the lack of direction and focus, it is more of a burden then something that excites me most days. These words again my  projecting of my mind trying to resolve programs, experiences and write about them to actually make sense to even myself some days.  

Someone who I speak to thought I should write this down. I went to interview for clerical/ receptionist. It fancy name job title that not what is important here. It was for hearing aid place, now because I can use intuition and empathic skills for certain things, and since people are born deaf or become deaf they communicate in some form. Taking all into consideration before I applied for the Job. I go to the interview and long story short the person interviewing states - my resume is two long and that he wish I had restaurant experience on it. 

This person is roughly around my age and I do this things I bent head asked why the restaurant exp. he exclaimed that it shows you can deal with chaos, I like what? the jsdjdj. In my head but I am sure the expression on face more then word. Thinking I lived x amount years, 911, stock market, housing, bails outs, bugs and germs, covid, kids, relationship, moves, all with seconds and this person is saying this, I left ? Thanking the clinician of the office who is deaf from birth and we spoke for nearly hour because interviewer was hour late. The person I told this too could not stop laughing and I am like this is what I deal with and do people hear the words that come out their mouth.  So here one of many strange encounters with people that have. 

I am hearing bulkhead... Why? I stop asking...