I should call this how my life was destroyed by spirituality and parapsychology. So I am sitting here getting annoyed by the fact that I am being guided to shamanism, I am like why? And why now? People should understand that the beginnings of a spiritual awakening will break you in ways that you can't even conceive of, and does not just happen once, it will again, again. Had I had any idea what that would in entail I would not have pursued it. I would have gone about my life. Healing it as it arises. I hear other people saying they have been doing this for 5 years, 8 years, and 30 years.
This has been a lifelong process of 50 years for me, way before I even realized it. I am often asked to write a book. Well, my book would be several thousand pages long by now. I was experiencing things long before it was the in things to do. I stop calling myself any of the terminology that is being used to define spirituality. And what it is exactly. The thing is everything is spiritual and consciousness. And my soul, as well your soul came to play in the earth school of polarity.
One could say that we don't live a more spiritual or love-based existence because generations after generations from parents to grandparents, and far back have lived out of alignment with ourselves, the environment, and the universe. We came to change it, but the process is slow. If and when you awaken up from your own stupor you find things you have been lied too. You will see just how dysfunctional things are and people, well that is another story. Navigating the world is difficult and you will realize why you fell asleep to begin with. I do not believe that we all came in anesthetized or moreover amnesia that is explained by many teachers.
I see a lot of fakes selling cure-all, for what you are and how to become enlightened. The fact is that you are already enlightened at a soul level. That love is your essence. There is nothing else. There are only two things that allow you to believe that you are otherwise, one is other people and disregard for others, to have your own thoughts and your own mind. Believing that you are not of God, source, universe, and not questioning for yourself ???
Since you have been told who you should be for your entire life, versus learning who you are, having been told who you should be or become or whatever directive has been enforced into a program of disillusion that you less than what is actually, possible. (I should mention yes, there are feats beyond human perception, but like anything, you can't give tools to just anyone) that is why there is a statement with power, comes with responsibility.
Now I question this so-could awakening from the standpoint that everyone will be a healer, shaman, channel, psychic, or one of the many avenues to clear the fog of perception. I don't read tarot so I am not putting it here, and my thought now on tarot is that it is a tool, but it can be disempowering too, because you are giving your power away to someone else by not doing the work on yourself.
When I was told that it will not be necessary in the future, since "all" already are their own healer, psychic, channels, etc. And I am thinking who is going to do all the other activities that are required of one on earth to live, if all walking around healing other people? I perhaps am playing devil's advocate here. The devil does not exist and the devil backwards is lived. Also, the body is a symbol of the cross with exceptions and those exceptions are other souls/spirits with what are considered to have limitations, which is just to say that you don't need an entire body to be a source of love. (hearing add the Da Vinci depiction of Vitruvian Man and Fibonacci sequence) Not sure why.
God, the source, knows no limitation, we are only limited by ourselves and the framework that has been presented to us. Einstein said imagination is everything, we limit ourselves because of other people, to doing it to ourselves. Having others tell us that there are limits to what we can do. And I am not saying that I mastered it, because had I, there would not be a need for me to be here on the planet at this time. I hear all kinds of rambling on the internet about this, or that, hell in hand basket, it is the worst that it has ever been, etc.
Yet, if we are the true masters, creators, and infinite beings, nothing is inconceivable, we can imagine a different world. Hell, the internet did not exist in the way it does now, 30-plus years ago, that we are aware of. Why there is ancient technology that exists all over the world waiting to be discovered or already available and we are told otherwise because they say we can't handle the truth. A bunch of BS to keep us asleep.
I believe that there is been technology long before now that has existed and most don't realize that we are also technology in motion. No, we are not a machine, though some people function as a machine. We are organic beings with a consciousness able to perceive beyond the five senses. Indigenous people have been doing it for centuries and what do we do, we eliminate people for what we can not validate. Artists, music, art, builders, and even technology, are created every day and they see what we can't always see for ourselves. Yet, life is a work of art, and whether it is for control, greed, power, manipulation, or the fact that we tell ourselves that we are disempowered by the fear of whoever told you or yourself, that it is wrong to believe differently is personal deep dive.
When everything is built by thought and consciousness, which is the same thing. We enjoy labeling things because it separates and puts things in categories, to build theories upon much like Descartes' did and tried to do to show a relationship, because we can't get past our ego or judgments, that it is or we could all be equal in the greater scheme of things. Mastery is what exactly, do we really believe that in one lifetime we could master being a human, so of course we come back multiple times or thousands of lifetimes, to understand what it means to be human in a body or on any one planet. We judge what we don't understand because we have limited ourselves by other people's thinking minds.
It is not completely our fault because we agreed to play the I don't know the game and forget our origins and quite frankly it is not taught or has been hidden for good reason, which I don't completely understand and don't know if I will ever even understand why I chose the things in my own life up to this point. As I listen to A's listers of spiritual teachers out there, talking whatever, and what they are saying at this point and that by following them or this that you will be enlightened in 4 days, or week is far from the truth.
When traversing the spiritual journey, walking the path or just trying to be human, know that there is no quick fix. Most teachers - real teachers will not offer a quick fix or guarantee that you will achieve anything, because if that reason behind doing any of it, you will be grossly let down and more so because you expect an outcome of some sort. I was told that I would be famous and asked why. I never dreamed of it, nor do I want it. That is ego-driven and if my ego is about survival, which is more of my truth to this response, yes then it is. I have been shown a choice of events that could happen in my life should I decide to leave this planet.
But I also learned that it is easy to leave versus staying on the planet to see what is going to happen and the changes. As for information about what will happen or the coming changes, I am in a fog as to what will be happening and when things will happen, and honestly it does not matter to me because that is placing awareness in the future, instead of being present now in this moment. If I have not already written it down or in a previous writing, we constantly moving in and out of of things, even moment to moment.
What I was shown a few years back and I am not sure of it, is that there are multiple timelines and at some point, they converge. Is it in my lifetime? That is a very good question. If I base it on what I experience in my daily life I would say there is a lot of work that people need to do, on themselves. As with most humans, I am walking through life, in the thick of it and questioning it as I go about my life. Which I learned that unless directed to and for the stake of mind keep to myself because I am not here to fix or heal you. You are your own healer or enemy. Welcome to the paradox of you being everything and nothing at the same time.
side note: I watch a very few tarot readers, not for the reading, for their wisdom and insight, and story telling. These are people who are actively healing themselves. I see readers that like cheap wine, you want the buzz without knowing what your drinking.
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