Woke up this morning thinking about patterns and so far that
is all that I keep seeing all over the course of the day, people’s patterns at
the doctor’s office, patterns with children, and no matter what I do
differently the same patterns keep showing up in my life. Trying to understand
how these patterns are reflecting or a reflection to something that I am not
seeing or doing in my own life, I decide to take a deeper look at what was
being shown, since most reflections that show up have a way of showing me
something that am not see within myself.
So how are these patterns
affecting my life, are they directly me to look at things that are not working
or are they there to show me that the patterns are in all of us. By
observing the patterns I notice that most people repeat that same patterns
over, over again expecting a different outcome to the same problem or situation
that we find ourselves, in at any given moment. So in realizing that patterns
exist with everyone, including myself and deciding that if I want a different
resolution Am going to have to address why these patterns keep unfolding.
First, I realized that I was
putting energy into an expectation, of having to go to doctor office and not
wanting to deal with the doctor, who I did not t much care for and this was
going to be a problem, instead just doing what need to be done. I put the
belief in my mind, that so and so was
going to happen once I got there, and
already I was feeling pretty bad about have to go, doing what needed to be done.
Because in my mind, I had already expected this is what I wanted and this is
what I expected to happen, once again the pattern was showing up. My brain
searched for the very thing that I wanted to happen. It was not what I truly
wanted to happen, but I had unknowingly told myself that I was expecting this
outcome.
When I finally realized why I
was being, shown these patterns. If I turned it around, and said lets’ not plan
for that outcome; and see what happens, maybe it will be different. Well, with
s no attachment to an outcome, it turned out to be better than I could have
plan. There were no issues, my visit went smoothly, and I was in the moment.
Then after this “Ah moment”, I realized how many time have I repeated the same
pattern over and over to walk away upset, frustrated and drained of energy,
because I decided the outcome before the
event ever happened. Therefore, in conclusion, realizing that I keep trying to
move a mountain when all I need to do is keep my thoughts clear and the
mountain will move itself. Things can change we just need to believe that our
beliefs in repeating the patterns can change, as long as, we are willing to
expect a different outcome.
