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Tuesday, August 5, 2014

Patterns 7/25/14



Woke up this morning thinking about patterns and so far that is all that I keep seeing all over the course of the day, people’s patterns at the doctor’s office, patterns with children, and no matter what I do differently the same patterns keep showing up in my life. Trying to understand how these patterns are reflecting or a reflection to something that I am not seeing or doing in my own life, I decide to take a deeper look at what was being shown, since most reflections that show up have a way of showing me something that am not see within myself. 


So how are these patterns affecting my life, are they directly me to look at things that are not working or are they there to show me that the patterns are in all of us. By observing the patterns I notice that most people repeat that same patterns over, over again expecting a different outcome to the same problem or situation that we find ourselves, in at any given moment. So in realizing that patterns exist with everyone, including myself and deciding that if I want a different resolution Am going to have to address why these patterns keep unfolding. 


First, I realized that I was putting energy into an expectation, of having to go to doctor office and not wanting to deal with the doctor, who I did not t much care for and this was going to be a problem, instead just doing what need to be done. I put the belief in my mind, that  so and so was going to happen once  I got there, and already I was feeling pretty bad about have to go, doing what needed to be done. Because in my mind, I had already expected this is what I wanted and this is what I expected to happen, once again the pattern was showing up. My brain searched for the very thing that I wanted to happen. It was not what I truly wanted to happen, but I had unknowingly told myself that I was expecting this outcome. 


When I finally realized why I was being, shown these patterns. If I turned it around, and said lets’ not plan for that outcome; and see what happens, maybe it will be different. Well, with s no attachment to an outcome, it turned out to be better than I could have plan. There were no issues, my visit went smoothly, and I was in the moment. Then after this “Ah moment”, I realized how many time have I repeated the same pattern over and over to walk away upset, frustrated and drained of energy, because I decided  the outcome before the event ever happened. Therefore, in conclusion, realizing that I keep trying to move a mountain when all I need to do is keep my thoughts clear and the mountain will move itself. Things can change we just need to believe that our beliefs in repeating the patterns can change, as long as, we are willing to expect a different outcome.

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