6-18-16 Finding common themes throughout our life.

6-18-16 Finding common themes throughout our life.

     Patterns of beliefs that hold us back in more ways than one. These could be money issues, relationships, career or job, belief about self, things that we desire to have in our life. Let say you keep dating that same type of person and keep getting the same result. Have ever just step back and really looked at what is before you. The same behavior, the same type of commits, the same everything that you think you want in a person. And then we put our good side of first. Then after time you realize things are not what they seem.

     This person that you thought was perfect is far from it. You then again have to face the fact that this is not what you want for yourself. We live is a society that places so much on face value of what a person worth or the value is to them. We have read the story tales of the person in shiny armor and dream of what that looks like and for men is one who special, drop dead looking and turn other men’s head eyes.

     When really what you are looking for is that connection to each other or the community of embracing each other as ourselves. It not the sexual attraction, it not the looks, it not the financials, it not material things between you. It the connection that no matter what he/she gets you and you get them. Things are expressed and communicated between that two of you regardless of situations. It completely open and real, shared between the two of you, or group of like-minded people. Many times these things are expressed without realized that you never even spoken a word. You already know on some level without communication a single word.

     Women attend to be more advance in this area because they are more in tuned to watch for the sudden signs. This is more inherit as mother’s intuition that somethings are right or off. Mothers seemly know what their child is feeling from birth and through life. Both men and women carry these qualities in their DNA. For centuries it been pushing aside for many reason for the time period that it represented. Power, greed, war of land, goods, religion, and over people each is testament of beliefs that one hold.

     If you look at history what was the upheaval of the moment. What is each war! We have been enslaving for centuries believe that if don’t follow the status quo we will be punished and rightfully so, because in your past lives you have for many reason. If you think about the great thinkers of the world you will find that all of them, have encountered opposition for their beliefs and idea’s from the world being flat, to landing on the moon, to your current technology.

     The connection and community has always been saw out by power over another, not a coming together. What divides ultimately destroys. Your election that is at hand. Is a true reflection of the works of the mind! Who’s really speaking truth. What if you build a wall, how far into the ground would it go, can you not fly over it or climb over it, or dig under it. Did the Great Wall of china keep people out or the Berlin Wall, or what of any wall for that fact. Your history is loaded with evidence of the battles that were and are still being fought. What of the men and woman who fought against these rising?

     Womb = wo-men, men plant the seeds just as tree blooms, or bee’s help the fruit grow on trees. Mating for life, do all animals mate for life, no! if we look back at when Adam ate from the forbid tree and what about Eve. What if the truth is that Eve attempted Adam with the forbid fruit, why would Eve attempt Adam? Was Adam not responsible for his own choices. Did Eve knowing that true knowledge of the questions being ask are with the seeker to ask. If it was to seduce Adam, were they already created as one from the rib of Adam. Were they not already equal, except for the womb, which births life, creation and idea’s, thoughts.

     Why would a might god, not want you to have knowledge to birth thought and expansion of the universe. If there is only one god, would you not be created as equal part to communicate with its-self. There is great pain and suffering in the world, because it was created. There are society that live by simple mean and collectively work together, so no-one left without.

     What if the world is to see what you can create, until you to come back to self! If you look at the last 100 years what do see? What advancement and changes have affected the world? Would your child or grandchild truly understand amount of growth that has taking place? People say that there is no more middle class, that it has diminished. The fact is that you have come closer together, you now understand that separation is created by the ego of what you believe. If you believe less, than that is what you will have, if you believe that you deserve more to allow to be fruitful than you will have more. It’s a mindset of your own creation. What if the only rules were that you needed to see every equal to yourself.

     If every person born is a child of God, an expression of itself, is every criminal, every person bad because you believe it is or they are bad, or a homeless person, are they not an expression of self. Did you ever just think about what cause them to do what they did? Their choices or choices that their parents made to provide for them in life. The Jones’ are everywhere. You define yourselves by what you have, not who you are. What if everything you knew was taken away without you truly understanding why it happen, then what would you think?  Today you have a job, tomorrow you don’t. Then what! You believe in a god, but not each other. You see people a less than yourself, what makes you more valuable than another, your money, your house, your job, your relationships, your family, your faith. Does your faith incorporate all people regardless of religion or physical appearance?

     Can you walk out of your homes and get in your car, drive to work and say that every person driving is an expression of god, regardless of their driving. You look for God and pray when in distress. God is everywhere, everything is expression of god. the person driving that car is part of god, the car was created from an idea, thought or action of a person who then created it. Can you fix the world problems as individuals, most likely not, but collectively you can! You have to want it too, or contribute to whole of humanity not fight alongside it. 

The Voice Within : 6-18-16 Finding common themes throughout our life....

The Voice Within : 6-18-16 Finding common themes throughout our life....: 6-18-16 Finding common themes throughout our life.      Patterns of beliefs that hold us back in more ways than one. These could be mo...

The Voice Within : The Voice Within : Loving are stories 6-13-16

The Voice Within : The Voice Within : Loving are stories 6-13-16: The Voice Within : Loving are stories 6-13-16 : Loving are stories 6-13-16 We all have are stories that we tell to ourselves. The family t...

Gas-Lighting Ourselves 6-13-16

Gas-Lighting Ourselves 6-13-16

So this morning I woke up to gas lighting repeating, repeatedly in my head. I understood what it is because I experienced my whole life, as person, long before I had even knew what it was. I have since acknowledge that what I knew a child that things existed outside of our reality. Whether there were ghosts or angels or the existence of guides that help us in our daily lives. It has been a long journey to come to grip that things are not always as they seem. And the small voice that has led me to now, has forever changed my life. As a child I experienced many of the things listed below. I did not realize that it was emotion abuse until my life was turned upside down. For an intuitive empath or just human, many things have happen to me and that I experienced.

Many times I questioned what I saw to be told that it was not really there or you’re imaging things. Or how could you possibly know (when did happen) or I don’t smell anything, see things, hear things. These all have terms after years of searching for answers. They are Emphatic, Medium’s, Intuitive and Healer, Shaman, Light workers, Way showers, and many more. Were raise to believe that humans, people are the highest species on the planet and nothing else exists. But, with any research, and filtering through counts books, articles and internet research you will find that people all over the world have their own thoughts as to what exists and what does not.

Even science has speculated at or confirmed the existence of over beings back before the bible existed. Yet, we have learned to not speak of the many things that we have felt or experienced. It like living a perpetual lie of sorts. Now, if you look up gas lighting you will find it listed an emotional abuse, which is a form psychological abuse by a person, but it is hard to prove in a court of law because it’s a “she said or he’s said” situation and without being truly provable, when the person in involved out right denied it over and over again. It becomes an on-going argument of conversation, if you engage with the person. You either learn to shut-up or deny it’s even happening, because people tell you that you don’t know what you’re talking about.

I bring this up now, because I had person attempt to destroy me and any future that I saw for my family and myself, and because it was a repeated thought this morning of how people use this type of behavior to distort our own thinking long before we realize it’s happening to us. What if all the well-meaning people and society have been gas-lighting us to distrust a birth right that we’re to remember who we are! What it there fears throughout all time was to awaken to the possibilities that all is not what it seems. There are powerful people who would have you continue to sleep and not question even yourself, and for you to see you less than one or another. That to have what you want it takes lots work and enslaving you to your fears. It like the man who flashed me a child and then threaten to bring harm to my family and myself. I was gas-lighted into thinking that I powerless and then confirm by my own family when I questions things of paranormal or what is very normal. Making myself think that I could not trust my own eyes or thoughts. That what I perceived was in fact there and those blimps of lights or shadows, waves of reality bending or morphing, ghost, angels. I leave it at that.

I share the below with you, as a way to expose  Domestic Violence and Sibling Violence, Addictions running through families and co-pended, depend relationships’, that is not necessarily physical in natural, but become physical after the person tries to take measures to protect themselves and leave the situation. It starts is childhood, not when there in these relationships with people. This type of mental abuse is not limited by color, culture, age or gender and normally is pasted by one generation to the next, and so on.  

Gaslighting ~ An Effective Form of Emotional Abuse

“You’re making that up.”, “You see everything in the most negative way.”, “Where did you get a crazy idea like that?”, “You have an overactive imagination.”

Have you heard something along these lines from your partner? Do you end up questioning and doubting yourself? Do you often find yourself questioning your instincts?

Gaslighting is a form of emotional abuse in which  the abuser manipulates situations repeatedly to trick the victim into distrusting her own memory and perceptions. The term Gaslighting comes from the 1938 British play, “Gas Light” in which a husband tries to drive his wife crazy by dimming lights powered by gas in their home and then denies that the lights changes when his wife points out the change. In this play, the wife questions her own perceptions and sanity which is exactly what the victim of gaslighting does as well.

There are various gas lighting techniques that the abuser may use on the victim. These techniques throw the victim off topic and can lead them to question their own thoughts, memories and actions

Withholding ~ the abuser pretends to not understand the victim, refuses to listen and declines. For example, the abuser may say “You’re just trying to confuse me.”

Countering~ the abuser questions the victim’s memory, even though the victim is correct. For example, the abuser could say, “Remember what you thought last time and how you were wrong.”

Blocking & Diverting ~ the abuser changes the subjections and questions the victim’s thoughts. For example, the abuser can say, “You’re imagining things.”

Trivializing~ the abuser makes the victim believe that her needs and thoughts aren’t important.  For example, the abuser may ask, “Are you really going to let something so small get in between us?”

Forgetting & Denial ~ the abuser pretends to forget what happened and may also deny promises made to the victim. For example, the abuser may say, “I have no idea what you’re talking about.”

According to author and psychoanalyst Robin Stern, Ph.D., the signs of being a victim of gaslighting include:

•You constantly second-guess yourself.

•You ask yourself, “Am I too sensitive?” multiple times a day.

•You often feel confused and even crazy.

•You’re always apologizing to your partner.

•You can’t understand why, with so many apparently good things in your life, you aren’t happier.

•You frequently make excuses for your partner’s behavior to friends and family.

•You find yourself withholding information from friends and family so you don’t have to explain or make excuses.

•You know something is terribly wrong, but you can never quite express what it is, even to yourself.

•You start lying to avoid the put downs and reality twists.

•You have trouble making simple decisions.

•You have the sense that you used to be a very different person – more confident, more fun-loving, and more relaxed.

•You feel hopeless and joyless.

•You feel as though you can’t do anything right.

•You wonder if you are a “good enough” partner.

If you find yourself relating to these signs, then you may be a victim of gaslighting which is emotional abuse.

Credit for above: http://wingsprogram.com/tag/gaslighting-techniques/ 

The Voice Within : Loving are stories 6-13-16

The Voice Within : Loving are stories 6-13-16: Loving are stories 6-13-16 We all have are stories that we tell to ourselves. The family that we did not have or the mother or father tha...

Loving are stories 6-13-16

Loving are stories 6-13-16

We all have are stories that we tell to ourselves. The family that we did not have or the mother or father that did not pay attention to us, but what if it was for us to see that were not much different than other people. As you listen to other people tell of their hardship and the pain that there going through, we often wonder why such thing happen to people in the way that they have. Everything starts with love and sometime it more of an attachment verses what is considered love. Many people believe they are in love because another soul see them as a missing void of what they think love is, when the fact is that it is not.

Love just is, it is not attachment to things, and it is not controlling or separation of. It is energy in emotion that allow us to accept what is. Accepting is a key factor of most things in form. We what matter most to us. Some like the cold, some like the warm weather, some relish in the fact that the fall brings winter to celebrate the changing of the season. No matter what love is, it’s formless in that it takes but a moment to see it is another. Sometimes it does not play out the way we vision for ourselves. Did you ever just sit next to someone in silent, is there love flowing between the two? They really don’t need to say anything, there just being. Did you ever watch the wind blow their the trees or the rain come down ever so lightly that it did seem like it was raining. 

Did ever attend a baseball game and watch the dirt float into the air to be pushed through the air. How many birds have crossed your path while driving to slow you down because you’re driving in car too, fast! Have you never look down off a hill or cliff to see what was beyond you. These moments are the essence of your being. The people that you work with are they not fellow human with a soul expression that love flow between you to work as a community to accomplish a goal. 

We tend to dismiss the very core of our existence. The idea of love has changed and altered to only be a physical act, when it is always around you. Do you not walk out your doors each morning to see the wonderful things that are about you? All things are energy in form. The love of creation, which you and everyone created. People see separation because they themselves feel separated from themselves. They don’t see the beauty that is all around them, whether you live in the mountains or the cities. When we vacation, where or why do you chose to vacation, it is a time of rest from the world around you or is to venture out to see the beauty in different way. 

Yet, often enough we get displease with what we see around, because that is what we created around ourselves. From drama to situation to lifestyle choices or our very struggles. Often we seek relationships that reflect the very core of what is missing from our own lives. When we look at a relationship that seems quite odd to us, we deem all the qualities as different as our own thoughts. We look for the negative of why’s. Instead, of accepting that each has its own growth and potential to be so much more. Just a light casts a shadow we cannot fully understand what is being reflected by the light. Just as if one should take that time to be with themselves, they would see that they have been dishonest with themselves. We deem things as good or bad, and rightful so, that is what you have learned by many. But have you truly learn to be honest with yourself. Deeming things as wrong, has been a way of life. How many of you were taught by your parent that the stove was hot. You were taught it was hot to not hurt yourselves. It was not wrong, but a way to keep you safe. Have you ever search for what was really wrong with what you perceived as wrong, and then question whether you have done it in some form,  of it yourself.

Those extra sugars packets that you didn’t use, is still stealing. Can you honestly say without a doubt that you have never done anything to any one? What about the spider you killed the other day or the bee you freak out about? Are they not entitle to a life too! Did ever look up what a spider work is or snake?   Who taught you that they were wrong? Did someone else fear get in the way and how instead of challenging your thoughts or beliefs you go with what everyone else as taught you. 

Oh, what a mighty bridge it must be, to all jump together. Ah humor, to think that all should follow in the same direction, as jumping off the bridge!  Did you ever stop and think about what makes you, you? It can’t be you hair, or eyes, or the size of body, or the knowledge you have, or job, how much money you have or what car you drive, or the things that you own. It’s your essence, your soul. Your personal vibration in the world that is vast and infinite all the same time. 

What makes you, you! It not your parents, husband, boyfriends, girlfriends, children. Are the things that you’re afraid of, the things that you fear, are they the part of you that you don’t know about yourself? Really, think about who are you? And when you think you know and then look again! It bigger then what you think you know, smaller than the smallest cell. Then look again! 

Writing My Life 6-11-16

Writing My Life 6-11-16

When I first started to write. I entirely started because my life turned in a literal mess. I left and was laid off from multiple jobs, sold my home, had to cases in the courts for child support and my entire home was in a storage unit. I lived in one bedroom with my children and myself. There were times when there was no heat or even hot water to shower, it was a nightmare. Outside my four walls were children being left to fend of themselves! Drugs were done and sold right outside my very door. When I spoke to anyone about it, it was deemed not a problem or that I was imagining that there were problems or I was the problem.  

It was not the dream life that I desire or even though that I would be living. What had happen to life that I want and dreamth for myself? Why was the right and wrong that I had grown up to learn, an absolute mess around me. And here I was in the middle of it, attempted to understand what happen to me. As I search for jobs and tried to keep my family safe in all of the mess around. I started reading to focus my mind on things that were well out of my control.

As I persisted through the chaos around, I read everything I could get my hands on, with my trusted notebook that I kept asking the why’s, to all the questions that were unfolding before me. I started writing down all my thought and plans for changing what I could, which was really hard being and living in an environment that was unhealthy, I could not understanding why was I was the only on seeing what was happen. This was not how I was raised or I could even conceived of. Not that my childhood was perfect for there was always an elephant’s in the room, all the time. I remember think as a small child that this is not what was intended for us. Not just me but everyone in life. I could not have been much more than 6-7 years old and knew that life here was not to experience pain, angry and much suffering.

That it was a place of wonder, not broken dreams and world that experiences extremes. So, my trusty notebook became my friend of sorts. I begin write daily of the things that I encountered and that upset my very being. I read daily between searching for a job and trying to keep some balance and normalcy in my life. When it was really quiet and things that need to be taken care of at the moment were done these wonderful words of love would come to me in the form of inspiration.

I knew then, that they were not mine. How could they be mine, I was living in hell and nightmare and could bearing stand the environment that I living in and around me. The only source of encouragement was my children, my books and my notebook that I logged things that I faced. I could not tell you how many job that I applied too. I lost count after a while. Here I was single mother with two small children living in a nightmare, some of which was my own making and that rest of the world was falling apart on the globe scale.

These words that encourage me to keep believing that there was a life still too, lived and to keep researching for answer that I needed to find. I went through book after book, attending lecture and taking classes when I could afford them. The library became a second home for answer that I need to question. My drive for understanding would be answer in the quiet refection of mediation, books about relationship with people, addictions and co-depended relationship, the power of our mind, our family of ancestors and families of each generation.

All the while in my search I kept having visions of events and dreams of events that would happen in my presents or even globe. I would get words of things or places that I had no idea what they meant at the time. I get things like the ring of fire or the activation of the 13 skulls. What were these things that I never heard of before, the ring of fire are volcanos that make a ring along the edge of the Pacific Ocean. The 13 skulls are knows as skulls that hold knowledge of the universe and transformation of planet and its guardian or keepers. When aligned they bring changes to the planet and enlightenment, to see from a different perspective. I would wake up to “being” in my room or see angels to the left of my view when I was feeling overwhelmed by the environment.

I would have words repeat, repeatedly in my mind and later find out that they playout or they show up in different form. I can remember opening that the refrigerator one day and beautiful white feather came floating out. I was like how did that even get in there! It became a daily thing to see or learn something about things around. Some of the lessons were hard and very painful. I cursed at the universe more times than I can say honestly, I thought that was the hardest thing that I would live through, boy how wrong I was.

If I look back now that was not the hardest thing, much of life I been misguided and bad information by other people and their beliefs that they taught me about the world and their pain that they project out to the world. As child we expect that people are there to guide, to help us understand the world, but much of the world is in so much pain from their own lives and the generations before them. It just keeps getting pass down to the next generations and the next. The cycles just keep going until someone remembers or stop and really starts to think, this cannot be the way it’s supposed to be.

Now I didn’t grow up in a religious family were church was present in our lives. Much was past to me from family or friends about going to church. I really didn’t self-inquiry until the chaos of my life had fallen about me and I started questioning why would any god, or any human treat people the way they do or why was I finally remembering that as a child I saw and knew things and then told I was told that I imagine them and I didn’t know what I was talking about. Why was I difference and always felt different. I am crazy or is this really happening to me.

How could I know that someone was not who they were claiming be or project to me, or that a friend would lose her child only hours before it would even happen. Or that I was in the car when someone had a car accident and feel the impact before I would have confrontation of the incident. Why is it that I feel people pain and their emotions when there standing before me and telling me they ok when their really a walking mess. These are but a few of the things that I have encountered through my life.

My notebook has become my trusted friend and record keeper of my life in trying to make sense of the life and world around me. So when I write or post it, it is coming from a great source within me, but is also part of me in every way. We are not alone and nor we ever left to do this on our own. We are all sleeping gods and the world is infinite in possibility. It’s up to all of us to see that we do have the power to change the world and it’s up to you to take it back for yourself.

On that note I have not left my notebook behind I still use it and have many now, now I chose to use technology to express the words that have help me learn about the world and myself is ways that I can’t even begin to explain in words. For now I leave you with this, your never alone. That what you seek is within you. You’re more powerful then you realize and it’s up to use it to enlighten yourself, or help people or harm. The choice is always yours. So when I write these words they come from my truth, my experience and a guiding hand that people real need to know that we were not meant to live the way we do.

The possibility are infinite and so are you. 

The Voice Within : Different Time Frames 6/6/16

The Voice Within : Different Time Frames 6/6/16: Walking in to different worlds is expression, the reality of it is your working with different time frames. Just like when you/I was readi...

Different Time Frames 6/6/16

Different Time Frames 6-6-16

Walking in to different worlds is expression, the reality of it is your working with different time frames. Just like when you/I was reading an article yesterday were someone was speaking to someone is another part of the world and the time lapse is real and ever present. It could be tomorrow in another part of the world or even still yesterday in another part of the world. But, you yourself are currently working in reality that is between both, which is both true and a deception of the mind. Just like believing that we’re singular in form and that there is not another part of your existing beyond this moment. If you ask anyone who has had a near death experience they will tell something other than you perceive. Or ask someone who experienced an out of body experience, where you physical see events, or yourself being in a room is which they are present.

There are multiple aspects to you and what you perceive as self. The physical body is singular as whole but each part of the body plays it part with its own universe called the body, yet the body and each individual play apart in the whole of the world. From every atom to the stars and planets. Each plays a part in creating a reality that you have viewed from your reference point. Ask anyone who has travel out of their familiar area called home. If you go in any distance, the life that you know is different. Leaving the city to go country is its own reflection of see the world from a different view point. Your life and what you perceive is only your view. 

Obviously, with the expansion of technically you call see the world from a more objection view but it is subject to the experience. Whether it’s information, knowledge or physically experiencing, it's still a different view point. 

Giving up your dreams 6/06/16

Giving up your dreams before you even get started 6-6-16

We live in world that is unsupportive in that it requires much of one’s time in doing rather than being. We set out in life pursuing dreams that fill our heart and because of survive we generally place them aside to feed our needs. Most dream of worldly accomplishments, but fail to stay on course to see their fruits of their labor. Other demands take position to see an attained goal. You travel down many paths. Some encircle the very concept of what you hold dear too. Some stray far of course of the path that you seek. The wonderment that once filled your hearts, falls hidden to your very breath. What was once a concept of the heart and desire has limited your view of the world around, you!

Your encounters with the outside world has dramatically changed over the years. You have seen much without fulling understanding the thoughts behind it. If words have the power to create or destroy what is living in your world in a creation of the beliefs that allow to see the working of the mind. In organic matter things begin to form in the breath which form words, then with intention and action. Those random thoughts that pop into your head suggest inquiry of what is true.

Let say the grass is green, but if you look carefully at the grass you will see it is not green. It is multiple colors and hues with deep rich color. Then you add little droplets of morning dew and it you see the dazzling sparks of light that shine on the grass. It reflects that light that you are all part of. The light never leaves you. You’re are the richness and the depth of the color that resonance within that soul. Did you ever realize that even on the darkest night that is still light! It radiant from within you. Each person is a spark of divine, regardless of the journey it has taken.

It’s a planned course that would create that most of the experience of growth. You see other as separated from you, you could have make the same choice for the journey, but you didn’t. Your journey was a gift that you made a decision to take. Have you ever wondered what your life would have been if you chose to come experience that same hardship that a fellow soul has encounter. There is countless expressions of humans living a life that you would deem bad, good or different, than your own expression. Everything is choice, choice to see, choice to expression, a choice make a decision that can alter your life in so many ways.

You been taught to see people as unworthy of their choices and to have complete arrogate of their own journey. You should be grateful that you chose a different journey and life has given much opportunity to travel that course that you have. It only takes a thought to change directions. If you traveled with any soul, what would their story be! Would it tell of the challenge’s that they overcame or would it be facing how the mind created demands that allow them to see their strengths. You all have your stories of beliefs, the demons that haunt your very soul. Think about this for moment who perceived you a different? What challenges did you face and why was it that they perceived you less than the spark that you are! 

All throughout history there has been need to control others to be same as another, what if the purpose was to see everything as divine expression of yourself and god, regardless of the journey. Can you look a child and say that it’s an expression of yourself. Can look at another and say that an expression of me/myself in form. God did not create evil, he/she created you as the divine will of god/source. Call it what you like because you all know that there is deeper sense to you and what you call yourselves.

Regardless of what some will tell you! You know at your very core that there is a profound connection to it, even if you fail to see it at times. Your connection is real and it’s within you, seeking love and connection; but you have to seek it from yourself first. Is that not what created you! Love and connection to another. Even in if it didn’t exist between two the intention to connect and love was still a thought form of the breath of life to have that connection to another.

Don’t think about, feel it within you, feel it with your heart and when it shadows your view remember it within you and it is you.  

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