Fighting for what you believe! 10/02/16
I have not written in few weeks. I have been pretty busy with
school and work. I decide to write because I do love learning about all kind of
things and get discourage in the fact that some people in the profession take
it for grant that not everyone processes information the same way, as everyone
else. And I am one of them. I have to be able to relate the information or at
least draw on another experience to process the information. It becomes
difficult when I am unable to relate to the material that is being presented. I
bring this up because I am currently studying history, even with my personal
feeling aside history has always been difficult for me when someone is teaching
it to me.
It always amazed me that in an hour class or that someone who (a
teacher) could fully expected anyone person to understand the material they
presented and then have to recall, such material verbatim. Now I remember even
as child that my teacher would teach or talk to us about some part of history
and know that it was wrong regardless of it being in a book or not. The fact is
that history is based on people who were educated on some level. Education was
seen on level by the social status or people in power not necessary by common
people and on many occasions, I have gotten this gut reaction that information
presented is in fact just wrong. But we are taught to accept it as fact,
because it written in book or a teacher or professor is teaching it to us. This
bring me to the incident at hand. I had a quiz on this past Friday and was
removed from the class because I apparently did not hear my teacher say that we
could not use a certain guide for our terms.
Now regardless of the misunderstanding, it took me back to grade
school where I was made to feel stupid for not knowing the answers to the
question or questions, when asked. Now I know that there are things that I am
very good at and there are things that need more time to ingest. I now have
several options to fix the problem that I encountered in class. What amazes me
the most is that I am paying for my education and even when I was younger my
parents were playing through taxes for me to get an education and yet we are
continuously failing are children or young adults, even on a college level
because we sit in a class with a teacher or professor who has spent their
entire career researching this same material because in their own gut or
knowing they needed to research this very same material.
Then they expect people to repeat what they learned in years of
research in less time then it took them. I am at a standstill, as to what I
want to do with my re-test. I was offer to take my test at another time, which
I now have to change my schedule or miss work to prove that I in fact know the
information that this person gave in class. The problem with this for me is
that history is riddled with the same thing over and over again. People in
power, great battles for power or wealth over people, people enslaved, trying
to control the masses and people thoughts and beliefs, women treated as an
object versus a person, free will, to poverty, homelessness and despair. It
just repeating its self over and over again. And we still can’t cannot get it
right and can we never.
Even religious doctrine has these same dogma as history. Even as I
consider my thought and beliefs of what I should do about my test to prove that
I can repeat my teachers or the book version of history and consider whether my
job will depend on whether I tell an employer about the history of Sumerian or
the Spartan’s, or does it really matter whether I treated another soul with the
respect they deserve or even myself with the love the care that we all seem to
be looking for and that we all deserve and the details of life is what it is
and were just in it, for a belief time.
I should tell you the entire time I am writing this I am walking
back forth between the laundry room at my complex and I encounter a woman whom
has an issue with me over the fact that her grandson cause 1200.00 of damage to
my Suv when he collided with his bike. Now I could have flipped out when it
happens, but I thought as an adult one would take responsible for their actions
and his out of control behavior. No I was sooo wrong! I offered to not call the
police and thought this woman or the mother of this child would step up and
offer to pay for the damage. This happened a year and half ago and as I was
told by her, the grandmother, that it was my fault that my parked vehicle was
in her grandson way and I was wrong.
So after this incident I called the police and reported it, too
let them know and any other person who would go near my vehicle that the police
would be involved. Now I have let this go and still have the damage to car.
Yet, every time I encounter this woman, she has a grievance with me. The
issue is not with the car, it is the fact that her grandson was illegally
staying at the complex and was caught on camera numerous times involved in
situations with other tenants. Yet, she continues to carry this issue around
with her.
It just goes to show that what we harbor continues to affect us
and its everyone else’s fault, the “us or I” part that takes no responsible for
our actions. Just like history, if it’s not working then change it or change
yourself. The worst thing that could happen is we keep repeating it until we
get right, so what if it takes another 20,000 years plus to see that it’s us
that help create these problems and we are all on this planet together for a
reason. When it comes to basic needs we want to be loved and love, be part of
community and family. We need shelter, food, clothing and transportation to
support ourselves and our family. As well a need to feel safe and secure within
ourselves to be who want to be, yet we still have not learned that we are all
the same, battling ourselves over money, power and knowledge and outdated
belief systems.
