Fighting for what you believe! 10/02/16
I have not written in few weeks. I have been pretty busy
with school and work. I decide to write because I do love learning about all
kind of things and get discourage in the fact that some people in the
profession take it for grant that not everyone processes information the same
way, as everyone else. And I am one of them. I have to be able to relate the
information or at least draw on another experience to process the information.
It becomes difficult when I am unable to relate to the material that is being
presented. I bring this up because I am currently studying history, even with
my personal feeling aside history has always been difficult for me when someone
is teaching it to me.
It always amazed me that in an hour class or that someone
who (a teacher) could fully expected anyone person to understand the material
they presented and then have to recall, such material verbatim. Now I remember
even as child that my teacher would teach or talk to us about some part of
history and know that it was wrong regardless of it being in a book or not. The
fact is that history is based on people who were educated on some level. Education
was seen on level by the social status or people in power not necessary by
common people and on many occasions, I have gotten this gut reaction that
information presented is in fact just wrong. But we are taught to accept it as
fact, because it written in book or a teacher or professor is teaching it to
us. This bring me to the incident at hand. I had a quiz on this past Friday and
was removed from the class because I apparently did not hear my teacher say
that we could not use a certain guide for our terms.
Now regardless of the misunderstanding, it took me back to
grade school where I was made to feel stupid for not knowing the answers to the
question or questions, when asked. Now I know that there are things that I am
very good at and there are things that need more time to ingest. I now have
several options to fix the problem that I encountered in class. What amazes me
the most is that I am paying for my education and even when I was younger my
parents were playing through taxes for me to get an education and yet we are
continuously failing are children or young adults, even on a college level
because we sit in a class with a teacher or professor who has spent their entire
career researching this same material because in their own gut or knowing they
needed to research this very same material.
Then they expect people to repeat what they learned in years
of research in less time then it took them. I am at a standstill, as to what I
want to do with my re-test. I was offer to take my test at another time, which
I now have to change my schedule or miss work to prove that I in fact know the
information that this person gave in class. The problem with this for me is
that history is riddled with the same thing over and over again. People in
power, great battles for power or wealth over people, people enslaved, trying
to control the masses and people thoughts and beliefs, women treated as an object
versus a person, free will, to poverty, homelessness and despair. It just repeating
its self over and over again. And we still can’t cannot get it right and can we
never.
Even religious doctrine has these same dogma as history.
Even as I consider my thought and beliefs of what I should do about my test to
prove that I can repeat my teachers or the book version of history and consider
whether my job will depend on whether I tell an employer about the history of Sumerian
or the Spartan’s, or does it really matter whether I treated another soul with
the respect they deserve or even myself with the love the care that we all seem
to be looking for and that we all deserve and the details of life is what it is
and were just in it, for a belief time.
I should tell you the entire time I am writing this I am walking
back forth between the laundry room at my complex and I encounter a woman whom has
an issue with me over the fact that her grandson cause 1200.00 of damage to my
Suv when he collided with his bike. Now I could have flipped out when it happens,
but I thought as an adult one would take responsible for their actions and his
out of control behavior. No I was sooo wrong! I offered to not call the police
and thought this woman or the mother of this child would step up and offer to
pay for the damage. This happened a year and half ago and as I was told by her, the
grandmother, that it was my fault that my parked vehicle was in her grandson
way and I was wrong.
So after this incident I called the police and reported it,
too let them know and any other person who would go near my vehicle that the
police would be involved. Now I have let this go and still have the damage to
car. Yet, every time I encounter this woman, she has a grievance with me. The issue is not with the car, it is the fact
that her grandson was illegally staying at the complex and was caught on camera
numerous times involved in situations with other tenants. Yet, she continues to
carry this issue around with her.
It just goes to show that what we harbor continues to affect
us and its everyone else’s fault, the “us or I” part that takes no responsible for
our actions. Just like history, if it’s not working then change it or change
yourself. The worst thing that could happen is we keep repeating it until we
get right, so what if it takes another 20,000 years plus to see that it’s us that
help create these problems and we are all on this planet together for a reason.
When it comes to basic needs we want to be loved and love, be part of community
and family. We need shelter, food, clothing and transportation to support ourselves
and our family. As well a need to feel safe and secure within ourselves to be
who want to be, yet we still have not learned that we are all the same, battling
ourselves over money, power and knowledge and outdated belief systems.
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