What you learned from Ex relationships 6-19-18

            We have exes for a reason! Are Ex’s show us what we don’t want and what needs to be healed within ourselves. They are our one of greatest teacher in life. We love them and then one-day things change or maybe it’s happening all along; where we were lying to ourselves. I want you to think about your parent’s relationship because that is the keys to your problems now. Knowing that many people come from different backgrounds I cannot give you the answers, because you already know the answers to the questions. Did you have loving parents or was there a separation, power struggles, money issues, cheating, loveless…etc. You get the idea. 

If you look at our history, there has always been dominating over another. It does not matter what gender you are, or culture, religious upbringing this energy of balance does not exist on a global scale. We would like to believe that we live in a state of equality. But the truth be told we don’t. WE have become so out of balance that these imbalances are playing out in the world. The control, the power, the greed where does it end. It ends with you and you taking your own power back.

I see ex’s as the things that I did not want in my life and or the things that were hidden from me. One of many things that I started addressing were my issues and character flaws so I could really start to understand what was happening to me. It started the day my second son was born. He was not even 12 hours old and my relationship was rearing where there were problems. I dismissed it as first-time father fear and figured would work its self out. It did not! It was as if everything that I knew collapsed at that moment.

My son’s birth was marked with control, power struggles, denied feelings and thoughts. It didn’t matter that I had another son, or that I came from a big family with years of experience around children. My life was not my own anymore, I was a person who was responsible for this child but was not supposed to breathe. I went from being a person in a relationship to a person of insignificant.  Looking back there were signs and I saw them and just figure again that they would work their way out.

By trying to be supportive and understanding when I wasn’t allowed to have a voice or say anything in the upbringing of my son. Yet it did not end there, conditions were placed on me. I considered myself a strong and capable person with thought’s that again that it would work itself out. I have never enjoyed conflict or fighting. It seems pointless that two people cannot work it out. But when you are denied as a person there is only so much you can take before it just crumbles.

This is where the journey begins: With questions, why was I attracting this type of person again and again. What was my part in it? I remember certain things that happen when I was a child living with my family and I remember from an early age that I said to myself that I would not put up with things that happen then in my life, but here I was years later reliving my childhood with a man that was much like my father. The only difference was that this Ex played me and just like a light switch my son’s birth was the light bulb that went on.

There is a cliché that “you should honor your parents and elders”. But what if you been carrying the energy of your parents lives forward. We would like to believe that we are not our parents, but on a subconscious level, we are carrying everything that they were or are, including their hurts, pain, love, and fears. We carry their expectations and their hopes and desire. Much like school and society, people inundate you with following the rules or be punished. We like to believe that we are free, but are not to a certain degree. Things are pushed on us to conform to what others expect.

Ask a child who has rebelled in any direction to break down the walls that separated us. We separate ourselves because we tell ourselves that were not them, were not causing others pain. That could not be me or I don’t act like that. But you do and you’re not even aware that you are doing it. There is a saying that “like attracts like” if all you know is what you been told or shown, how can you see any difference. You see different by realizing that your part of the problem. What you think, say or do, effects everyone that you encounter.

Unfortunately, you cannot hide from the world. Believe me, I have tried, and it does not work. You and We are not your family and friends or the childhood that you lived through, you are your own person, who came here to be the person you were meant to be: “love”. And to use your gift and talents to change yourselves and the world around you.

So, how well do you know your own life or yourself? If what you believe is truth can it be a false belief that you have about yourself and others? We can’t change people they need to change themselves, we can’t heal or save them, they must first want to heal themselves, but we can take accountability for the way we or I show up in life.

Finding the root or cause of the belief and how it developed, to how we have taken ownership of it, was never ours to carry in the first place. Do you realize that we have been recycling beliefs for generations!

All misbelief come back to one cause: Fear. Fear of not knowing, not understanding, and fear of not challenging the belief about ourselves or about another.

 It so simple that we forget to ask the right questions, but then were you allowed to think for yourself. Once you start questioning, you then have to decide, if this is your truth or not. Your Ex is just a signpost for you to heal or challenge your belief about you or what you want in life. And if you keep getting the same thing, then you’re missing the lesson.

Note: the above can involve deeper questions, but this was written as a general thought and not an answer to all issues.

VoiceWithin©2018

6-7-18 My Brother’s Story

The following is my brother story and what I experienced during the first few days and verification of what I witnessed afterward. In June 2010 my brother was involved in a serious accident. He was run over twice by a trash truck. Apparently, he had fallen off back under the wheel well and when the truck moved forward over him and when they realized that they were on top of him the truck ran back over him. He was taken to the local hospital and then flown to the nearest trauma hospital. He has since survived the accident and recovered.

I was not able to go to the hospital the first day that the accident happened. I did drive to the neighborhood that the accident occurred in the following day. The accident happened in a cul-de-sac. I drove onto the street and parked my car. I did not know where the accident transpired other than a street name. As I got out of my car I started looking for markings on the ground where he would have been laying on the street.

Then what I experience was an image of him lying on the ground and him standing over himself, looking down on to his own body. I did not question what I was seeing, nor did I think I was making it up. It was as if he was right there all over again. I was startled and amazed at the same time. It was not until I did some research into Near-death experiences and other research that I realized the during a traumatic event that an imprint of energy is left at the location.

This would explain other things like why I feel the energy around homes and other places, as well as people and objects. I have gone into antique stores and felt incredibly uncomfortable. I have gone to historical places and felt overcome by the energy of the emotions that were left behind. I have since learned that other people experience this energy and just tend to brush it off. Which got me thinking about how our loved ones make contact with us, by touching are shoulder or face. Or by sending a song, that reminds us of them.

Or how we see someone and we think that it someone we know, only upon farther examination it someone else and we just pass it off. When it is a thought of energy of that person of them thinking about us or reminding us that they are still around. Did you ever wonder how in the world is that song playing here?

When I finally got to see my brother, it was a day or so later and in words, I can’t imagine what his body was experiencing. He was swollen from head to toe. Parts of his body were two times the size that they should have been and the pain that radiated from his body that it tremendous pain. As I think about now and then, it’s amazing that he survived.  Other than the fact that his body crushed in ways that one can’t even imagine.  When they're in the hospital room I got the feeling that there was someone there with him. My brother was put into a medical coma because his condition was so severe.

The other thing that I encounter within the first 24 hours of my brother’s accident was at roughly 4:30 Am, the next morning my brother crossed over and I knew it. I remember praying for him after being awakened out of sleep and started to see colors like I was experiencing his death.

When my brother finally was taken off some of the med’s that kept him in the coma and transferred to a nursing home for follow up care. He had said to my mother and myself that he thought that my now passed father, grandfather or someone was in the room with him the whole time. See he knew this even as he was unconscious from the medical coma. He later told me about the experience the day of the accident where I ended up finishing his sentence for him, about him seeing himself standing over his own body. I asked him if he’d remember crossing over and being sent back that he was not finished here yet. He indicated that he did not remember and because of legal reasons we have not verified if something did happen that early morning that day. 

Long story short, it’s been eight years and he is fine for the most part. He is able to walk and drive and pretty much do everything he did before. I share his story because we don’t die, this body that we call home is only a vessel that holds the infinite energy being that we all are. That there are people looking out for us: call them guides, angels and loved ones they are always watching over us. It’s up to you to ask them for a sign that you would recognize that they are around you, then pay attention. It might show up right away or over next few days.

With appreciation and love, I share my brother’s story with you, in hope that you think of your loved ones and death in the whole different light. And if you are curious for yourself YouTube (NDE) Near-death experience, too.

Happy Birthday to My Brother.

VoiceWithin©2018

6-7-18 It can happen!

I keep having a story that keeps popping  into my head that apparently someone needs to hear. A few years back I ran into an acquaintance that I had not seen in about 15 years, or so. I was shopping at a department store and we started talking and at some point, she told me that the two children that were with her were her grandchildren. I don’t remember what prompted her to tell me, but she informed myself that she had custody of them because her daughter had lost a child and was not well enough to take care of them after an accidental drowning of another child. When she told me the story I happen to look over to one of the children and was shown that the youngest child who apparently was born after the incident was the child that had in fact, pasted.

Now I can’t know without certain, that this child, this soul, did, in fact, return to the same family. I have not experienced this again and did not say anything at the time, because how do you explain to someone they are right here next to you, reborn into the same family. I am not saying that it happens often, or every time there is a birth in the same family, it a child that left before it time.  I have never experienced it again up to this point. So, if someone is questioning whether it is possible for return a child to return to the same family, I would say it could happen. 

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Untying the Knots 6-5-18

Can you imagine being a struggling writer all your life because at the age of 2.5 years old you were yelled at and scolded for something you have no memory of! This is my memory and it was uncovered in (QHHT) Quantum Healing Hypnosis session that I had a year ago. I have had a lapse of memories when it comes to certain areas of my life. I looked into hypnosis because I tried therapy and it seemed to not get to the cause of the problem. I don’t know about you, but I don’t want to spend the rest of my life in therapy.

I found that I had these cycles of patterns that would arise when it came to jobs, relationships, financial and so many more patterns that arose from this event. I am still untying the knots that were created. Now just imagine for a moment that subconsciously you are creating situations in your life you have no idea what you’re doing and it can be anything from drinking to drugs, relationships that don’t work out, not finishing projects that you start to so many avenues that it takes on.

I am writing this because my life is amidst turn point and certain parts of it I don’t want to repeat. I have already done it once and even twice, much of it I rather not do or see again at this point. So, after losing my insurance years ago, which was a blessing in disguise I took my healing into my own hands. I was tired of taking medicine that I really did not need or want. This is not to say that you shouldn’t seek out medical care when necessary and do your own research, which is what I did.

We have so much information available to us. But be warned there is a lot of miss information too. I had no idea that I was an empath or psychic.  I did have an interest in psychics and mediums that I supported the locate event. Outside of that, I went about life much like anyone else does. I remember being a teenager and going to the library and being in search of something, but not yet being able to find it. This was before computers were readily available.

I think you know on a deeper level. It’s a calling or void that something is missing. And mine was both something is missing and avoid, which I wanted to know why I could see, and hear things and smell things that others could not. Why I would have they dreams where so real at times I could touch the people in them, or they would come true. Now I was told at an early age to not tell people. I understand it now we treat people terrible when they are different than what we know or how we were raised.

We don’t take the time to understand people or even to get to know them. Can you imagine being a child and perceiving information that you cannot put words too! Or knowing that someone is lying directly to you from the adults around you to the teacher who would teach you in school.  (channeled) I want you to think about an incident that you may have encountered were someone miss treated you or did something to you, in angry or hate. These are powerful emotions that stay around long after the situation.

Now that you have the image, we all have them. I want to memory where you were, what time of day it was, was it cold or hot, raining or sunny – I want you to tell the person or persons involved that it is your stuff, your pain, your hurt, your angry and I will longer carry that energy. It was never mine to carry, I forgive you and release you.

Depending on the situation it may take a few times. We all carry these energy cords to people who have hurt us, whether it be our feeling, emotions and yes feeling and emotions are two different things. You feel a person but you do not necessarily know what emotions they experience, less you are in tune with your own feeling and emotions.

Long story short, where and what are the recurring patterns that show up in your life?

Voice Within©2018

6/01/18 - Messages

Ok, so I am working a Karmic Wheel theory when I got the example of myself to understand some of the processes:  I was named (Donna) after a song. The singer of the song is Ritchie Valens whom my Mother apparently like before I was born. Thing is that my Father name is Rich, Richard who has passed many moons ago. And this where I stopped because I realized who needs to hear this message other than myself. Normally when you hear their name, a song or something that reminds you of them it’s their way of communicating to you that they are still around and they hear you talk to them. And by the way, Ritchie has popped two times now.

I have gotten others and can’t put my finger on their meaning yet.  So, I figured I would just share them for now:

Yellow – the color

Seeing smoke where there should not be any or there is no source for the smoke to be there.

The name Peter

Lemon Coke which is apparently Soda or Pop sold in Japan

Singularity of focus: To inspire a singularity of focus, a challenge must be important to you and it must be something you feel you should do now at this moment. If it's trivial or not time-bound, you won't engage. So, in selecting your next challenge in life, choose one that is meaningful and will demand your complete concentration.

Read more at https://www.brainyquote.com/quotes/brendon_burchard_487233

Camel Totem - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R67eXzcfa2s

Turkey Totem - https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i2peb36VJSo

When I click for the turkey I accidentally click the Vulture so I am including that too.

Vulture: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KWJIxcUhzp0

As noted these above links are not mine to own. All credit is to Gina Land on Youtube, because I am not about reinventing the wheel and sometimes visually seeing the information has a bigger purpose.