6-25-2020 - The Hall of Soul Lost

The following is dream that I have visited several times. I am calling it the Hall of Lost Souls. The are the parts of people who separate from themselves due trauma they are what a Shaman would call a Soul lost. They are normally parts that leave due to some type of Trauma. I am no shaman, but I have had Soul retrieval and experienced a soul lost even after the fact, at which point a piece of myself leaves and floats off. I not sure what happens exactly, but the following is what I have experienced.

I was in house again, the one with long hallways that twist and turn. It also has many rooms, more rooms then I can count. In one room I found myself in a room with children 5 or 6. There was even an empty bed. I questioned why it looked as if someone should be in it and was told by the children that it was for another spirit. My thought on it is when a child’s soul splits from their body.

There was a flower and few items on the side table. The bed belonged to boy’s spirit. I can’t remember if the boy or spirit were there at the time. I think the boy was, but not absolutely, sure. Then I found myself wondering the halls. It was dark, but I could see. I turned a corner and there was Caretaker, she said I hear you have be calling out looking for me. She was sitting in front of a fireplace. There was a fire burning. I seemed to be wearing some type of dark coat that went to my knees. I sat down next to her on the floor. The Women Caretaker seems to some type of keeper for the children and spirits.

I remember asking why these things are happening to me, then as she spoke, I woke up to find myself back were I was sleeping. I know that I have been in this house before and even on the roof. It a strange house with many hallways, rooms and staircases that lead to other places in the house. It always dark there with barely any light but I always find my way around.

It was not until I looked into Soul retrieval and shamanic journey work that I realized what this place was. I found myself there several times over the years. I don’t know why I go there or why I have no memory of why I go there, except that I know that I been there before, enough to describe it. Since I don’t know of a shaman to have a personally conversation with, I left with these encounters, which I am sharing today in hope that it helps someone or anyone who may have questions.

Predictions of the world events or Celebrities 2007-2012 (some 2020)

Predictions of the world events or Celebrities – Firstly, prediction are just that! Due to multi-timelines of these events, they can and will change, nothing is finite or written in stone. The following are visions or images that I received during meditation or during my sleep from 2007-2011. As any psychic or medium will tell you they could happen tomorrow or 5, 7 10, 20 years from now.

2020 as of June

Avalanche - Turkey

Nuclear symbol

Easter eggs – symbol like in Stan Lee movies there was always previews for the next movie or events

2^nd pandemic ,and 3^rd  attempt to control

September, October and November of 2020 (moving targets)

Water, water and Water in the Fall – Atlantic City Flooding

Something with the NSA

2012-

1.Human trafficking on a World scale and the players involved.

2. Something being tri-effective – three fold

3. New York ? 

1.   Ring of Fire and activation of 13 Glass skulls. When I researched the area in the Pacific Ocean where there are volcanic and earthquakes eruptions. As for the glass skulls I have not done enough research to quote any reason for this information. I have also received information regarding the tectonic plates – but no indication as to why or a specific area regarding these plates.

2.   2009- Kenya

Hawaii – A Volcano

Haiti- again

Mexico – Flooding

3.   Some type of waiting room children sleeping, sponge Bob and the initials RJ – A hall in the back of house, looking for a bathroom or shower, water. Someone saying they all smoke out there. Then I was in a morgue with cigarettes, that broke. There was tobacco all over the floor and other items that they sell to celebrities. They look like stick or statues (they were odd looking) Not everything we see nice – from creepy to cruel and sick.

4.   Two towers (not twin towers) PECO (Philadelphia Electric CO.) or Radio station crashing to the ground. Small airport -planes on fire (Miami)

5.   2009 -Obama in news – water, Chicago a controversial around Obama in Chicago- Headlines in a few months in the spring.  (not researched)

6.   Something with India and possibility of something with the water wells. (On a belief search there is indication of wells running dry in 2017)

7.   2010- Message about something being in the air up Bucks County Comm. College – at nighttime in sky a light or UFO on a weekend night. (There has been multiple sighting over the years over the College)

8.   Unpredictable weather patterns, terrorist attacks, problem with trains and tracks, X-ray machine at airports for body scanner (Problems with) X-ray currently being used as of 2020.

9.   A building splitting apart, down the center and then into smaller pieces, Remembering holding on as the building and floors started to collapse, elevator, escalator, big building public building for entertainment.  A lot glass windows, spiral stairs, white marble. Glass vases some kind store front.

10.        Hearing Paul Revere’s – Poem

11.        Copenhagen -2011

12.        People are concerned in all this uncertain about losing everything that they have worked for, home, food, and car. Where will they turn to for money. This statement could cover multiple years – with stock market crash, Financial market, real-estate market, Pensions investments, and now in 2020 virus. Not there has various virus over the last 20 years.

13.        Heard - Card credit company insurance against people who will default against Debt.  Playing both sides of the same coin.

14.        Something about the turnpike – I believe this about the bridge that was near my home at the time requiring repair due to structure damaged.  

15.        Miami – again

16.        Image of people watching a building sitting in chairs or sofa, Tents -three story building.

17.        World changes need to be looked at as a personal level.

18.        NATO

19.        Birthing tools are wrong?

20.        This was written 2011 – People to be freed to Love, from taxes,

Support themselves, feed themselves, shelter themselves, cloth themselves. Provided for needs: All people Income, Transportation, healthcare, more choices, clean water, air, food, Better education, know your true history.

21.        Mayan Elders

22.        Egypt god – Tu nelly – toot nelly ?????

6-23-2020 The Mouse and the Elephant.

Sometimes you have to be the mouse to understand the power of the elephant. 

6-17-2020 Not your Fluffy Spirituality

Image of a road with car and trucks lined up while along side the grass medium the ground looked black and gray, like it had caught on fire. No idea where this was.

2nd Image of a view of garden with a opening that viewed into a garden of flowers. It was surrounding by tall (6ft) maybe box wood. The opening was off center to the left, if you were looking at it.

The words On Wounded Knee - When I researched there have been two incidents in history. One is 1890 and again in 1973. What is strange is that between 1890 and 1973 is 83 years, which added to together is an 11. Secondly, from 1973 to 2020 is 47 years, which is also 11 if added together. There is a Band that sang a song about Wound Knee called Redbone.  I am Not sure of the significance, but rather event. 

6-6-2020 The Word - Ruse

Noun. trick, ruse, stratagem, maneuver, artifice, wile, feint mean an indirect means to gain an end. trick may imply deception, roguishness, illusion, and either an evil or harmless end. the tricks of the trade ruse stresses an attempt to mislead by a false impression.

6-9-2020 Water. Water

I had three images of water, lake or body of water and something with Atlantic city, NJ.  Possible in the the Fall 

My Psychic Life - pgs 41-46 Past life memories & Psychic information Posted 6-03-2020

Past Lives Memories:

9/13/09

1.    I had a memory of being a woman with two children that were brutally killed. I think that I Indian woman.

2.    I died during childbirth and was Indian and passed over.

3.    I was a man at the time of Jesus walked the earth. I did not personally know him and had only heard of him.

4.    Another vision of seeing a woman and child – no idea if there any events or causes around that lifetime.

I went to Rice’s Flea Market and purchased some crystals and had a conversation with the man who said to me, that I had a yellow aura around me. He indicated the following: That I was a little shy, that I was an expression person, that in general, I like people, I am a giver. That someone or something has hurt me in the past. That once I get my spark back, that I will smile from ear to ear and thing will look a lot different.

2/13/10    I went to an event where I was one of the thousands of people who had turned out. I had never been to an event this large other than some concerts when I younger. The event was held by Dr. Brian Weiss. He would take us on past life regression, and this is what I saw:

1.    I saw myself in a life as a man, I saw my sister as my brother, and she set fire to an orchard that I apparently owned. (note: this explain to me that why I feel I have a connection to the trees and never been close as sisters.

2.    The second one was vague and something about healing my fears and saw a fire again. Also, something about a Sabre – I never look into it. So, I don’t if a type of knife or animals or meant something completely different altogether.

3.    The third regression I saw a dog in the snow, mountain, a wolf with spots with white fur.

9/25/09 I got death around my Ex’s Grandmother – I never asked him or confirmed this but was told she was met by her husband and other relatives.

2.) I remember having a conversation in my sleep about the man at the Flea market and something about India.

3.) Being told something about water wells

On this same day, I went back to an event with the same psychic that my earing and feeling spirits became stronger.

9/27-9/28/09 Hearing a message that if a family member did not stay clean that he will end up in federal prison next. (note I do a family that has traveled down the wrong path with people and drugs – he has several times over been to county prison, but not federal prison.

10/04/09     I received a message that another family would lose his job – I believe that this has happened multiple times.

I had another family member say that they found a lump under their arm, I heard my father voice say that if she did not get it check that it could turn in breast cancer. This family member stopped speaking to me that day and has avoided me ever since that was in 2007 and it is now 2019. (I have not contacted them because I believe that it is not my place. If this person or anyone refuses information to seek medical clarity, it is not my job to drag them there. We all have free will and chose the life that we live in.

They say that we have lived other lives with people in our current life. I visually saw the following in meditation or dream not sure which and I did not note it in my journal.

10/27/09     Button, snaps and shoes. My brother towing an old-time truck and my sister folding laundry. Someone questioning my shoes because there was no room for them. A driveway with three gates. A large truck picking up tree stumps and having to sell my shoes to make money or for a room.

11/09/09     I received that if you can’t find anything good in a person, place or thing, then forgive it, release it and see what comes back. It just might surprise you and change your perception.

11/17/09 A woman with holes in socks or legging. Light blue in color or teal. They seemed to dancer's legs. A table with a large poster picture on it.

A small boy climbing on something. He was hiding from another child who is being mean to him – around the ages of 4 or 5 years old.  There was another child present too.

12/09/09 a train wreck

12/21 12/25/09 I had a dream that a woman that I knew, was driving along a road that had a cliff when she drove over the side of the cliff. We headed to our death and I called out to God and Arch Angel Michael and I was saved, and the woman didn’t make it. (note: that I realized the relationship that I had with this woman had come to an end. I did like that fact that she bad mouth one person and then turn around be there long-lost friend the next day.) I took that we were traveling on different paths.

2/18/09 I tried to do a tea cup reading and read the leaves. I just playing around with it. Saw a horse and two CC mixed up and I think tree. I was not very good at it. I think that I may have over thought what I was seeing, and it was only for fun.

4/11/09 The following is a message that I met a woman connected to information and knew that I would  meeting her for other business, but knew that I was being guided to pass the following information to her to tell someone the she was friends with:  A young woman with a young boy went to ghost store to purchase John Holland’s oracles cards, when she went into the shop her eyes begin to tear up. There a seminar or event going on. She went and left by a back door and turn around, there was a small boy playing Superman and had a skateboard. I then saw a river with a large boat and a battleship possibly and then I saw the young boy again calling out for his mother. There was a painted alleyway near the ghost store. Then they walked down a hill or up. She saw a car back up backward and hit the cement medium and pulled away fast. Then the (they) did it a second time, again hitting the medium. Then after that, the boy was in a big puff of dirt smoke and boy was calling out. The boy and the woman had been walking along a river maybe the Delaware River. There were two other boys who came by her with her son following behind some feet away, she got pushed away. I remember her stopping and looking for son. There were different colors and writing graffiti. Then I woke up – It was the boy who was telling and showing me this and the hill maybe been an overpass with a bridge under it. There were train tracks and water. Always skateboarding in this area. (note: the woman did not verify the letter that I wrote verbatim but indicated that she didn’t know all the details but sound like it was accurate.)

5/07/09 written down 5/18/09 something about tires or something is wrong with the tires.

My Psychic Life Pgs. 37-40 Psychic Information Posted 6-3-2020

2009

01/02/09 A girl or woman missing, body missing, the name Christopher for the baby’s name. Keyport, Keyport, Keaport, Philadelphia on the map end of Pa. Oil refinery, Three months old. Changed name to or last name to LaRue – La R ?, Dropped baby off to visit, took off with baby in blankets, white cap, a pile of clothes, something about two months.

01-9-09 At someone apartment a female will long brown hair cleaning the bathroom or packing. Picking up things from under the sink in the bathroom. There was a new bag with two items in it. Pack of sheets or shower curtain, then something about a home invasion. The bathroom was separated by lights from under a wall. Under the sink were pieces of the tile missing or broken. Razor, dental picks on the floor of the bathroom. A small child being carried by a man, white with a black man. They walk upstairs they went towards the kitchen in the apartment and something about the left of the wall, spinning, and spirals around.

01-12-09 Some type of waiting room, children sleeping, Sponge Bob PJ’s, a hall at the back of the house, looking for a bathroom, Shower, water. Someone saying they all smoke out there, then there was morgue with cigarettes that was broken. There was tobacco all over the floor, items that they sell to celebrity. They look like sticks or statues (they were odd looking)  

01/19/09 House fire, two towers (Peco or radio) crashing to the floor. Small airport, small planes on fire Miami.

01/24/09 Omaha in the news, water, Chicago or conversation around Omaha and Chicago – some type of headline in few months in the spring.

03/02/09 A room or garage, brown in color, money drugs, partying.

4/29/09- 4/30/09 A female in a wedding dress, the dress looks like a cake, something about being very ugly.

Someone about a Mont Senior at a church. (I believe this had to do with a priest that was part of the investigation that happened in Philadelphia and relocated to a church in Bucks County- this was in the media) Something about having a connection to Harquinn Family like the publishing company. I think this was someone that I knew who was attending this church at the time.)

5/04/09 I received a message for someone I worked with – That her Grandson would outgrow out of his lung issues and that from a previous life where he and his Mother were brother and sisters, and both had TB tuberculosis and they were very fond of each and because of the lost in that life they carried it into this life because of the lost that they both felt. (Note I did research and there is a famous painting called the Sick child and it is in London. I was visually shown this image)

5-16-09 A motorcycle, a pizza shop, road name Canal street, Puerto

5-19-09 My son had a dream about tour bus getting in an accident with the one person would be critically conditioned and two other people would have minimum injuries. (few famous people have been injured in bus accidents)

7/26/09 Vision of that someone that worked in a soup kitchen or attended a soup kitchen was stabbed in the neck by another male.

8/01/09 Arch Angel Michael and day prior my mom said something to me about Arch Angel Gabriel. The following was something that I verbally heard:  You have long awaited the movement which is coming to you, but you must start cleansing you, your heart of any ills feelings towards others. This needs to be done. You must open your heart and yourself to the gifts you will receive. You must be in thanks for your journey and power. You must cleanse your thoughts that you are receiving to divine assistance. You must realize that you have it within yourself to be the person that you were sent here to be. You must choose your path. We support whole heartily. You must trust that you are being guided to your highest potential. You must love and let go. This is your path. Be true to yourself and everything else will follow. God has blessed you now and in the future. You must listen to the divine coming thru you. We are here to support you in your efforts. Be god’s light and love and everything else will follow. Blessing to you and your path and journey. Put your sadness away turn it over to God to spread his light a pond you. (Note: I had no idea or memory of writing the above at the time of writing it.)

08/02/09 Threats of a shooting at the Bristol elementary school, 6-8th grade. (Note: I look this up and there was an incident in Oct of 2012 of a threat. Not sure if there were previously threats or any other reporting).

My Psychic Life Pgs. 33-37 Psychic Information posted 6-3-2020

02/07/08 Dream about wires and something round and that the wires were mixed up and were a problem.

02/07/08 Strange dream about being on top of a mobile home and people inside watching the guy next door because he was stripping a blue car for scraps, then following the man down the road when the mobile home lost control and went flying through the air and landed in a schoolyard. And the truck was hanging for dear life and someone praying to God asking for it to be put down safety because only a small tree of 6-8 ft high was keeping this vehicle from crashing to the ground below.

02-16-08 Seeing visual images of a crack pipe- (verified)

02-16-08 The names Dave & Julie seeing someone and calling them Mother  F-er. I felt drugs were involved.

2/21/08 Had a dream about someone running through a freezer.

2/26/08 A small fire the size of a dinner plate.  Then there was a massage or cleaning business with a building with emblems on it, secret passage. Two women and 5 altogether.

03/28/08 The name Joe, a dog named Tommy, a drug dealer, a baby, someone’s Mom

4/6/08 – Had a dream about a woman losing her child to Child Services or the Dept of child services. I felt she blond and thin and had a Thyroid problem and was not using her medication the way it intended. This was added to my book on 6/19/08 from another book. Sometimes, I would get information and did not have a journal around, so I would write on the paper that I had available at the time and translate later into my journal.

8/05/08 Visually seeing in a dream that someone again had ovarian cancer – they first thought that they were pregnant but instead had cancer. (verified)

8/08/08 Woke around 2am to have someone (not physically) standing next to my bed and I heard City of Angels – not sure what they met. Either it is was about the movie or Los Angeles.

08/08/08 Someone name Laila in a thrift store looking at a blanket or rugs and then her running away from someone or something. She seemed to be afraid of this person.

2) Three times I had this dream about women being under a spell, treated with cruelty, abused made to prostitute, Russian or the same origin.  (12/04/08 there was a prostitute ring running in the same county that I lived several months later. The made the TV networks and local papers and it was run by Russians) Note also that I gotten that these type of business are in a lot of neighborhood but are fronted by other business to under them up.

3) Had the following dream two times something about a pocket door and someone bleeding.

8/21/08 the following are the words that I wrote down to explain what I saw: Camping, trailer, something looking strange, house build all around. Being on a bus with 5 adults and several children, one adult getting sick, something about a uniform and medicine being too expensive to buy, hearing Protect the children over and over again. Told to pray for them. Something about the toilet being backward or stuck out very strangely.

8/26/08 Penn Grove. 2 girls, under and then just park. Not sure a physical park or parking lot at park, Where cars are.

9/12/08 A dream about a police car, a woman of color who is a police officer telling someone she “knew” the person and said to them that she missed placed her keys. In a parking garage or a parking lot, the person had a red shirt on. (I believe that this maybe about the police officer that killed in the nearby city.) Note on 12/04/08 There was an article in the newspaper about a police officer being killed in a parking lot.

12/05/08 A vision of a refinery in Upper black Eddy that destroyed the 150 years old building.

12/30/08 Kenya- volcano erupting in Haiti and flooding in Mexico

My Psychic Life Pgs. 29-32 Psychic information from 2007 to present posted 6-3-2020

Psychic information

I have decided to release psychic information that I either seen in my dreams or verbally gotten this information. This information has never been verified unless I noted it here. This is my interpretation only:

Date of event: 11/15/07

A body rolled in a carpet. Something about a room on the left side of this room. There were two vehicles one white and one silver – one a truck and the other a car.

The body was put in the back of a white truck or Van, there was a smell’s funny.

(Note: 8 years passed, and I befriended a security officer who I later found that he was a retired Norristown police officer – and one day out of conversation he told me that about an event where he was on duty and came an across a car were there was a body found in carpet in a truck of a car.)

12/27/07 – Had a dream about a child being hit while on the toilet. It was a little girl.

Also had a dream that there would be two passing for someone that I knew.

12/28/07 Dream about a blue & yellow truck in the driveway with writing on it.

01/03/08 Make-up and hair color a woman running on out on stage from a fashion show or something happening.

01/06/08 I happen to be boiling water and the pot on the stove begin rocking, not to the point of turning over but enough to make it noisily. My one son that it was a spirit of my father trying to get my attention.

01/07/08 I kept having dreams and impressions (visual pictures) that a man kept falling asleep with smoke and fire around him. It was verified when someone told that because of the medication they were on, they would fall asleep and at the time would be smoking which would leave burn holes in their mattress and clothing.

01/09/08 Intuitive feeling – I would run into a male person and I would get the feeling that their head was not on straight and they were still using drugs. It was later verified when a crack pipe was found in their sneaker’s. They were telling people that they not using drugs when in fact they had never stopped.

01/15/08 Dream about house white in color and there was an explosion which shook the entire house. I believed that this was due to a gas leak or something hitting a pipe. (this may have regards to complex or apartments) in New Jersey. I am not sure – but there was issues lines being hit or some digging and hit gas lines.)

01/19/08 Sweaters separated in a basket or laundry, something about a sofa being ruined.

01/23/08 Delaware river walk, curtains over a doorstep to office. Someone selling drinks and food (orange soda). Names Fran, Susan another woman, a small sill with a plant white and green. The plant seems like it was part of the painting. Some type of accident by the river, need to go say prayers. Something about the head and the body.

01/23/08 I kept feeling that there was going to be a fire or multiple fires. It just so happens that where I was living there was a problem with the heater and that had someone not come and fixed it, it would have catch fire. There was also an outlet that sparked and caused the outlet to burn out.

01/23/08 A dream about male and female in early thirties being in an alleyway or near some type of sewage thing. Looking to make a drug deal with they came an across a small girl 3-5 who overdosed on drugs and they debated whether to take her to the hospital. Something or someone else said to them that if it was their daughter would you take her to hospital.

01/25/08 I got that a family member would be passing and somehow preparing for the transition to happen. I also kept getting a heart attack around another family member, sure enough in 2012 this family member did, in fact, have heart attacked, and multiple stents to open the blockages. (They were only in their thirties).

01/28/08 Again I felt fire – I, myself experienced a small fire in truck.

01/24/08 or prior I kept having dreams about sewer and I asked someone that I knew, and they informed that it means death or a serious illness. I not sure why sewage was used to explain illness, because prior I would just sense darkness on certain people. But I was informed on 1/28/08 that a female who I knew, in fact, had ovarian cancer. 

My Psychic Life Pgs. 24-28 post 6-3-2020

38. The night of the event with the psychic medium. This was first of many that I would attend, not only with this medium but others. No one ever said a word to me that I had gifts and needed to learn how to use and master them. I arrived, along with 100 or more people, who apparently had questions or wanted to hear from there love ones. For me it not about my loved one, it was about the questions and was this something that I was supposed to be doing. The psychic medium opened up by talking about his life and how he connects to the departed. And before he started his session of connecting there was a belief break. I remember getting up to get some water and there was a little line of about 10 more people. I was standing in line and felt something brush up against me, I turned to see and there was no-one there. I then felt like I had to apologize because I somehow was standing among the living and the departed. For the first time, I realized that there must have been hundreds of departed in the room they filled the entire back of the room. I was shocked and amazed. This was first time that I felt the departed or realized that there was truth to what I was experiencing.

There may have been other times in my life, but this time I could not brush it off, as something other then what it was. The psychic medium did his readings and then he opened the floor to ask questions. Ok, here is my chance to ask questions and get some answers. Let me just say that I have never in wildest thought the following would happen. Every time the mic would come around it seem to choose people right in front of me or beside me or blandly dismiss that I had my hand raised. 

After the event, I left to get my children and let me say that I was never so pissed off or upset. I left in tears by the time I reach my Mom’s house, she asked what happen. She thought I have gotten in an accident or hurt in some way. I was a mess. I told about the night and how I raised my hand and got passed by to be able to ask questions. I left my Mom’s with my children and went home. I put my children to bed and still pissed started yelling at the universe and my guides asking what the hell was that about. Why did they send me there when I could not ask one question and seemed no one was asking anything close to what I was looking for in answers!

That night would be another step in my development. When I finally calm down which several hours later. And saying I am not doing this anymore because I don’t know what you want me to do. I kept trying to read tarot cards and understand their meaning, but it hard when you are reading for yourself and not another person. Or you get information and question is this for my life or another person. That night information poured into, I started getting information on neighbors about their life and them being on the wrong path or in a relationship that was going down a bad direction and it would only end badly. I got up wrote down everything that was coming to me. It felt like I could hear them and their thoughts. I also felt that that was a room full of people in my apartment. Like they were watching me freak out. I did not sleep the night or the next day until the evening I finally crashed. I remember being a waking 24 hours later and when I woke up, I heard two older women in the bedroom at the foot of bed say” she does look like very much”, I could not see them but without a doubt I could hear them and they were in my room.

A week or so later I was seated in the chair holding my youngest son and because he would never sleep in his bed and was a morning person. I got pictures in my mind that my son had somehow drowned in a previous life and it involved riding a bike. My other son came out and told he had a bad dream, and in a moment, I saw his dream, too.

He had been a soldier in a war and I said to him that you are the supposed to do that in this lifetime. These pictures were like seeing a story as to why my other son did not like be around water or swim or even ride a bike in this lifetime because that is how he had drowned in that life. It was like watching a mini picture show in a few seconds. As for my older son he always had a toy gun that had to take everywhere with him and always wanted to wear boots, even if they were rain boots.

One time he dug a trench at our old house. It had to be close to 8ft long and over foot deep. I let him dig when I realized that he could be a hazard, if he was playing and not paying attention. He also would draw volcano erupting and trucks all the time when he was much younger.  I then realized that I would draw trees a lot when I was around this age. I still have hard time when I see people cut tree down that don’t necessarily need to be cut down. When I was much younger, the school would say that I didn’t read well, yet I love to read. I don’t think it was because I could not read, it was because I could see or hear things that other people did not. As for my neighbor I got up the courage to write her letter, I never really saw her other hearing her below me. I wrote a letter to her explaining that information that I was given and she may have thought I crazy, but I didn’t care. What was important was the information, mine you within a short time she ended up moving. Maybe due to the letter or she step back and looked at her life and where it was going. This would not be the last experience at this apartment. Another time another neighbor was being attacked by her boyfriend, I looked out the window had to call the police. Somehow my hearing and sight had somehow improved with me being upset by the psychic event and new opening of psychic gifts. Just image hearing and feeling people every thought or emotion, it was un-nerving. Thankfully, it did not last too long.

Along with everything else that was happening I woke up to open the blinds and for the first time everything looking brighter almost magical. The colors of the trees and flowers looked so different. I was in ah of what I was seeing like it was nothing that I have ever seen. My eyes even seem to see clearer. I found that I did not need my glasses to read as much, other than when I was on the computer. It was as if something was lifted off me. Then I kind of felt bad that I had flipped out on the universe and my guides and all these strange and new things were happening. It like a person getting sight or hearing for the first time. I was overwhelmed by what I was experiencing. I still did not tell anyone. I did not know anyone who was experiencing anything like this or otherwise. Books was and were the only sources. The internet was still in the early stages for locating information.

While trying to function in my own life there was this whole other world presenting itself to me. I was struggling to put my own life that in order. I could not get or locate a job; the market had changed since 9/11. The financial and housing market collapsed. Pension being taken and lost to shady deals. You would think with all that we have been over last 20 years that people would be concern with what is happening out in the world because it does have a direct relation to what is happening to all of us. I don’t know if the people who survived losing their home or these collapses have ever fully recovered or whether they just became more knowledge to survive it, should it happen again.

39. In November of the year, I had to move home to my childhood home again. I had to start over again. I move everything to storage, except but few items. I got the impression that my Mom did not want us to live there. But I had two small children and two fathers who were unsupportive and emotionally unavailable or stable.

There is something about having blind faith and trust that the things that I was experiencing, was for a reason. That faith has been tested and re-tested more times than I would like to say at this point. I found that the best way to understand people and their situation is walking in their shoes. You know when your young and you dream of about your life, what you wish for yourself and even plan out the detail or at least in your head. I am still chasing that dream because where I am, I could not have dreamed of or even thought of the things that have happened to me.

My Psychic Life Pgs. 19 -23, aka Spiritual Journey

33.    I have asked why me, and it is not a matter of myself. It is that we all can be and do this as well, and so much more. There has to be calling or wanting to understand. It a journey and quest at the same time. There is saying “many are called, or few are chosen”, it should read, only a few accept”. Most people are in fear of themselves because we're taught to fear what we don’t understand. Ignorance is bliss because you can just stay asleep to the fact you were made in the image of God, source or universe, call it what you like. Hollywood has produced movie after movie, exposing truths and lies at the same time. History does the same thing. In the US were taught from pre-school up that Christopher Columbus found America but there were people here before him. They also don’t teach that he killed the native people, brought disease and he stole from the people by force and by fear. Our history is riddled with lies and fear, for control.

34. I am going to jump ahead a few years because the time between was me trying to get a grasp of own personal life and that requires all whole book; in itself. I worked in a building that has a history for well over 100 years. When I worked in this building I did cleaning there too, as well. I would see brown stuff leaking from the walls and felt that it has a connection to an old hospital or even some type of mortuary. It had a creepiness to the basement, much like older homes do. One night while working 3rd shift I looked up from a book that I had been reading and on the ceiling was a mist or fog. 

At first I thought it was smoke because it was only along with the ceiling, I got up and looked around to see if there was a source.  I check the basement and no alarms were going off. There was nothing out of the ordinary, no sign of a cause to the mist fog thing. I don’t know how long it was there I watch it until it seemly disappeared. I was taken back by what was it. To this today, I have no idea what it was or why it was there. This was an old house and it apparently had a long history to tell.

35. One time I down by the river and friend wanted to honor his mother for Mother’s Day. I had no idea what he was going to do to honor is Mom and I left him to go off onto small side beach or landing during low tide. I was off with my two children and I felt something, or someone walked through me, then I collapsed to the ground. After I got my energy and strength back, I went to find my friend and told him what had happened, and I told him I wanted to leave. I felt very uncomfortable and not understanding what just happened and did not feel safe, for my children or myself. I did ask another person about it who inform me, that most people don’t survive it. Just more questions. They could not tell what it was? And to this day I have not found any information regarding what happened to me that day.

36. It now 2007 and one morning in the summer I woke up to hear go get the newspaper. It happens to be a Sunday and I kept getting D1. I had never paid attention to the different sections of the newspaper nor ever purchased it for no reason. Since the store was right across the street, I went and purchased the newspaper. When I got home was I surprised to find the D1 section was the section that had the obituaries. I was questioning what am looking for and am I going to see someone that I know in the paper. I had not discussed any of the psychic situations that I encountered except for maybe two people and it was not all the time. It enough that things would happen every day, but again there was no one really talking about what that see or experienced.  

The newspaper – within the newspaper in the D1 section there was a listing for an event that local and nationally known psychic was holding an event in two weeks. I was low on funds. I thought maybe if I went, I could get some answers to many of my questions. I went ahead and purchase a ticket and then I call my mom to see if she could watch my children, so I could go. She was like where in the newspaper was it and here her paper had no such listing of the event. Which was surprising because that this is one section that she would read in the paper faithfully. This is way before social media and all these social chat groups like twitter and snapchat. I realized that there was different edition to the newspaper and there were articles added to the course of newspaper runs, but it seemed strange that her paper was completely void of the event. I had encountered other things too were I living at this apartment. 

Another time, I had lived next door to a man that I felt and got the impression that he was going to pass and in fact, a week later was killed on his motorcycle. There was great sadness was around his family and younger sister. I would have a strange conversation, I call them strange because they not like about the weather, idle chit chat of hello, and or have a good day. The postal man said that he had seen an albino animal down the street were they building new homes, out of know where, I said, that should not be building there that the land is sacred. I no information to base what I just said to him and he never questioned my response and just took the information and went about his day.

37. One day I got told to tell the little boy that my son was friends with that he should not to talk to people and strangers. I realized one day that his mother never kept a tab on his whereabouts and he would be out early in the morning or late at night at a young age. I later found out people in the neighborhood kept an eye out for him and even fed him. There was another woman in my neighborhood that did not speak English well. I would see her on way to my son’s bus stop and one day I said to her that she needed to see a doctor because over several weeks of seeing her it seemed to have this heaviness around her heart area. I think she had the beginning stages of breast cancer. I don’t know for sure because she barely spoke English and here is me trying to tell her in English to go to a doctor.  She must have thought I was crazy. I prayed that my guides would translate to help her understand what I had said, crazy or not, she needed a doctor.