Guide have asked me to speak about my mom's passing. I am not sure as to the reason behind it, but here it is. Prior to me receiving a call that the family was called together because my mother's condition had changed, and things were not looking well. I had not known of her condition prior. I had not spoken to my mother in over 11 years. I had known that 18 months prior that she would be in fact transitioning. I have had other experiences where my guides used the wording transitioning to indicate that she and her soul would be leaving.
When I saw my mom before she passed two days before, I had spoken with my sibling after finding out that she had been in and out of the hospital for several years, which aligned with the time frame that I had been giving or known about. My mom had already requested that she not be put on a vent again and there was a do not resuscitate in place.
Now as hard as it was being that I had been distant for so long, I had spoken with my brothers and said the unthinkable, and that was “we should tell her that it would be ok if decided to go and that we would be ok”, if she wanted to continue to fight or leave to go home. There is something to say about rest in peace, which reaches beyond words and is more truly understood that we know that they lived their life to the best that they could and that their soul was being called home.
As I drove to the hospital there were many signs in the way of butterflies in the middle of traffic, where there really should not have been any. When I got the call two days later that I needed to go back to the hospital I told my brother that I would not make it because I already knew that she was leaving. Here is the thing my mom did not want to pass alone, but by us letting her know that it was ok to leave, I think gave her comfort that we would be ok. And in the end, she didn’t want us there to see her leave. My brother's when to the hospital but she passed minutes before they arrived.
I think that reason that I asked to speak of her passing is that we tend to feel guilty because they were alone, and she decide before her passing that she was ok that we were not there. And I think that the alone part was from the fact that she was not there with her own mother, my grandmother passed, but at the time of death from the physical and to the afterlife, we are met with family and guides, angels that we may or may not questioned prior too, in life.
I only have knowledge of this because I had an overnight visit in the hospital, and I was roomed with a woman who was in fact was in transition, and as hard it may be to conceive of, her side of the room was filled with people and even children. The woman was not lucid as to where she was at the time or coherent. At the time I could understand why I was placed in the room. But looking back it makes sense to have had that experience.
So, I guess the point is that your loves are always greeted, regardless of the place that they pass at. And there is no need to feel guilt for not being there in the end. Since we live in the 21st century where death is a feared experienced, instead of a natural process that is honored in other cultures and history, they are taught early on that a natural process, where we live in a time that no longer respects that process.
Oh, should mention that when I returned to my own home that night, both the clocks in my home had stopped working, one at the time of her passing and the other a few minutes later.
You are loved and return to love because that is who you are at the core.
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