6-18-23 A Rant kind of 07-15-22 What is the point of all?

 

07-15-22

What is the point of all?

What is your legacy going to be?

Were you loved and did you love with all your heart?

Does it even matter?

These are questions that I am questioning after finding out that a childhood friend has passed after a battle with cancer.  As an intuitive, one would think that we are not affected because from a higher perspective this person completed whatever s/he came here to do or experienced.

One of the greatest lies is that this is it. Our whole life is just one of many experiences that come to be known, as life. The good, the bad, the evil or fear more like it. To seek God or not. That we are all gods because were created from the infinite of everything. Everything that you see is God in action. Every emotional experienced, is God experiencing itself. Many books speak about the vastness wanted to experience itself. And in order to do that, it began to create other selves, which we are all part of it. I have been asked whether God is human at this point in my life I don’t believe is such a thing. God just is and lovingly created everything.

Now if you do enough research, they say that we were seeded from other planets, civilizations, and societies. That was infiltrated by an alien race or Lucifer or what have you. That we also live within this body suits as soul stream within a hologram, illusion or we create a reality with our thoughts, actions, behavior and so forth. I don’t know whether any of it is true or none of it.

And left to think about these things it is definitely something to consider. I look continually for answers because my soul or spirit is not at rest from my own experienced so far, as to why I would create or experience the things that I have. I could not possibly list them all because they started as a child and remain consistent today. Do I enjoy being a medium or psychic? that is loaded question.

Why, because I have witnessed and seen the damage that is caused. I have coined the term soul raping because stealing the light of a person is essentially what is happening and Light raping just does not justify the horrendous scars left for anyone to walk, live through, or experience. Now from a higher perspective, nothing affects that soul because the “you” that think you are, is not completely embodied. If we, were, we implode into millions of stars because our light is so powerful. 

Now as a child I knew everything was Love and could understand why others did not. It is not something that I experienced as a child or even in my adult life fully. This is in no way egotistical and question it daily, that if I am love because I created by the infinite why is there so much that is projected at me by others, or why would I create this to experience it and the I, who happens to be also one with the infinite! 

Why does it take death for us to stop and realized that one person affected the whole! Even if they are physically unknown to others. What is it about death that we fear or avoid, that we can’t see what is right in front of us and we are led us to pursue material wealth over connecting to one another or God or wherever? Is death not the same in every culture or religion. We experience that loss profoundly.

Then when someone passes we question our own moral compass and just move on unless the person was of celebrity status. What a world we live in. I get that we live in the material world, because well we need a house, food, a way to travel, and a way to get goods. But when it to the point that it is destroying ourselves and the planet because we want to fit in, or bigger toys or think of only of ourselves and somehow the government should solve all of the world problems when each one of us is or has played a bigger part in the world problems, to line our pockets with something you can’t take with you, sure you can pass it next generation but it only perpetuates the problems.

Had we/you be taught from that beginning that you God in human bodies and have gifts that are beyond words and instead of be led to fear generation after generation for millions of years and the control of fears has created that world that living in and that instead of looking for who you/we are by the outer world and taught to question who am I, by going within. We see fear everywhere in the news, in people’s conversations, that projections by media, all forms of social networks.

You know I had a conversation with someone just yesterday as to whether I should carry a gun or not, because I might encounter someone who attempts to harm me. Without going into my story, that I can’t possibly write at this point or even explain it to myself. I would not get a gun because I, as a person do not know if I could live with what could happen. 

Could and would and what if, comes from fear and I know that this life is not our first or last. I don’t fear death, there are many times that death has crossed my path, or people attempted to harm me with their own pain and suffering,  trying to destroy me, or harm me that it would somehow change their own life, well it didn’t. These people claim to believe in God but they soul rape another human for their own personal gain for what!

We all claim karma and look for it to be justified whether it is this life or next – Whether it is true or not. Can anyone truly say without a doubt, that they have not done harm, with words or thoughts, if you really understand how powerful they are. Whether done in private or not. Just the thought is just as powerful. We are only partly to blame because you we never told in this life or did understand the true meaning of the words. And of course, we come back into this life to not remember. Amnesia as other speakers, and channels writers call it. I disagree. 

 Whether that is true or not at this – because of the chemicals in everything, who knows. Even yesterday I watched something and said this is Airy Fairy that we're trying to clear multiple lifetimes, generations, and the programming from this lifetime and now we are being told that unless the trauma is clear and healed that we don’t progress evolution wise, or even evolve and we will keep repeating that same patterns over, over again until we learn the lessons. 

Then what the is the point to it all. I don’t fear death, I fear living because of what anyone one of us has been through is more than words can even explain, much unto myself. Even if my mission is to write this down to express the things that I have learned or not learned I did my mission here by this alone. I think I need to stop asking questions as to the why’s and get a new hobby and just find peace because that is far from where I am at this moment.