01-31-23 Behind the scenes

 

01-31-23 Behind the scenes

As most know who my blog that I have these ability that I research to no end as to why others don’t and why is that I had all these experiences, since I was child. Now yesterday I woke up to get upset and sadness just pour over me and I could not shake for the most of day. When I questioned the sadness, was it because my life is not like most people. I don’t own a home; I don’t have partner and friendships come and go. My experiences are so far from normal that most people would think they are so farfetched that they are outlandish.

After trying to shift my energy out of this self-loathing and sadness that I felt that I was feeling, I became angry at the fact, that with all good intent I was in this energy that was not very comfortable and questioned was this really mine or collective energy that I was feeling. As complicated as my life is to determine whether this was me or the outside world. One looked at social media and fear that projected both by us and what the media would have you believe is truth, that all of life as gone to hell in hand-basket.

Now all my research indicated that we are the creators of our reality. I am simplifying this understanding to a degree, and I don’t know if I can adequately explain it with the complexity, but the simple reason for this other then we taught and learn fear from beginning. If we are born of love and that it is our natural state of being and peace, why is there such conflict within us, to see it and be otherwise. As child I knew this and experienced the opposite and my natural state of it was forced to adapt. One for survival and other to feel safe.

By all accounts the outside world looks and feels scary. I for one have turned away from listening or watching the media. As for people and relationships have disappeared, one because I don’t see the world or people the way most do. I understand that we all came from source regardless of what it appears to look like. I still have my moments when I have to catch myself to not judge what I am observing or even experiencing because the ego mind wants to label and understand why it is that way.

What I learn is that “I” as individual cannot change the world or people,(collectively we can)  I can only address the things in my own life and my own actions and reactions is what counts. If I am out of balance or I am feeling emotional, is it coming from a past experienced, then it is mine to address and take responsible for. I am not responsible for people behavior of what they have done, or the things they have done to me. This of course created a conflict of we create are reality, so why would I choose to experience these things in my life.

In my research there is the law of cause and effect or even karma to help explain other people actions, yet we never look at ourselves as being responsible party for these actions in our own lives and impact that it has on ourselves or others. As example: If I am in the car yelling at someone for their driving, I am not really yelling at them per say I am yelling at myself, because I feel unsafe by their driving skills and their lack of knowledge that a vehicle that has ability to kill someone. This is a double edge sword that I am yelling to the universe or source that I have vibration that saying I am ok with experiencing this type of energy.

We all aware of drivers rushing, aggressive, texting, or caffeine or far more substances. It is what is called in the spiritual community as human doing vs. Human being. So, if I natural state is for love, peace and happiness where did all go wrong? One could say that from begin were not taught to focus from the beginning, one question that I have questioned that guides numerous times as why it not taught and why continues to be that sources of inner conflict and stress to keep up with a changing world, and changing it for all to be better.

Which lead me to compare our family history for the previous two generations prior and the impact on my own children going forward. To the very diversity of cultural, religious and sociology and economics of these patterns of beliefs. This led me to read books about master teachers like the buddha, Jesus and others, to understand why these teachers were and are still trying to teach the same information and we not getting the information and using it change our lives. I tried to understand why monks spend their entire lives trying to reach enlightenment, which is knowledge and understanding. Weighting all these ideologies against one another it still comes back to what we think and feel.

I have previously written that it has connection to the stars is word I used, which maybe inaccurate explanation. Now most know of angelic, star people or being, other civilizations and dimensions or reality, which can get confusing in the least.  The different native tribes speak of star people, and of course all the governments around the world have or not disclosing this fact that starships or crafts exist, and what exactly was found on these ships in the way of being or technology. You have wonder is there a connection and how far back does it go.

And has it been used against us to slave us to people who run the world. Now we do not have full access to the knowledge that has been hidden from truth history. And I may have derailed from own writing here to make a point that we have the ability to change ourselves in the now and into the future, as to why it is that were being kept in the dark, unless you start questioning our beliefs, behaviors and patterns of thinking and feelings, what we see happening is only a reflection of own discord with who we are.

Why there such negativity around exploring the occult or mystery school, and fact that in my research there are books that there was teaching at one time is very distance past that this was normal and part of the education that was taught. And I am sorry to anyone who I may have lost at this point, because I am trying to explain a lot of information from much broader aspect of understanding to words that any individual can understand.

The guides often say that if you want peace, love, joy and happiness you must become it, because that who you are. Fear is part of illusion. Fear is created from ego who will never be satisfied because it wants to run the show. You can’t get rid of the ego, but you can learn to know when it is running the show. And the only way to do that is to address the cause of what we are feeling, because since we a child we have been told it is not ok to feel what we are feeling. That somehow feeling is bad and when we did not understand what we were feeling because we did not have parents who self-identify about their own feelings of inadequacy of knowledge to look within themselves. We raised under the same influences or challenges that we in.

Again, this comes back to look within, God-source within.  We are One, we all that will ever be because we were created by source, God, creator, universe, all that is. I am being asked to reference a book. The book is called “The law of One”. This is available on YouTube for free. If you want a better understanding.

Fear: False evidence appearing real. 

01-27-23 Intuition information

 The following information goes back to 12/26/22 forward

Nairobi, Kenya

Candel

I heard – they are starship not spaceships

I have heard more than several times the Name Danielson like Mr. Miyagi. When I looked up Mr. Miyagi has passed. So, I took this as a reference to something or someone – someone would jokingly call someone this.

Amy Winehouse – reincarnated? 

Image of Westie Dog

I have said this several times. Why is another question, “A rip in the Matrix”

Smelling, Burning rubber, ammonia, plastic burning

I don’t know if the following are all connected

Small black purse – slingback style half moon

I heard a male voice that sounded Scottish say something about a Whale and Bag

I had an image of a missing or stolen Arabian horse, replaced with another horse. Kept seeing blue and brown as the color of horsehair. Blue tint.

Artic chill?

Pakistan

I am hearing Bob Seger- song Break down, your busted – shakedown. I believe that has to what is happening in the world. This control and manipulation and price gouging and Greed that is happening. Like eggs, gas, oil and so many other things.

Now I worked in the food industry, and I can’t say whether from 2020 and the residual effects of, but my job was to submit invoices for payment and this retailer which is large on the east coast was months behind, in the millions paying for products that long existed.

So, when taking this in and the effects of the pandemic – and many of these retailers that are not owned in the states, and not paying suppliers for goods and now gouging prices and using it to manipulate the market. As for Milk, eggs, corn, etc., this is regulated by the Our government the Dept. of Agriculture. Some could argue that it is from employment shortages or lack thereof. But how is it that Bread jumped in 2-week time to .80 more, or eggs have become like the housing market?

With the history of the market crash in 2006-2008 and 2010, before that, it was 911 in 2001. Yada, yada bird flu, cattle. One needs to question the Money system when we printed our own money, but the Federal Reserve is not Federal – this is just my view. So, who protecting who!

Propaganda?

Asia

I heard Esther the sea monster. No idea

I heard the injustice to humanity!

Early I came across where I wrote Olivia Newton-John and Ann Heche back on 8/15/22, now we are all well aware of their deaths. I am surprised by the fact that people do not realize that we will see many well-known people pass. I am not unminding their passing but why people react still surprises me. Why death is seen as this terrible thing when they have been set free from this life-stream.

Something with Dolphins?

Sometimes I wish I had a tape recorder because in my sleep I talk to people, or I am going to school or visiting places that I have no idea if there even on the planet at times.

Not sure  I have gotten two Harry Potter characters- Lord Dumbledore and Hagrid – I have no idea why. I did look them up and they both have passed over.

I have gotten We build this city of Rock and Roll- By Jefferson starship, which was Jefferson Airplane. no idea what the reference is.

I got Danny LaRusso – again connected to Danielson, or Old Karate Kid not the new one.

Lexicon – really listening to the words used.

Dairy, diary, dowry???

Something sketchy?

Again, saying a glitch in the matrix

Message: As the debris gets shaken, just like the dust-off things that have been stored away for another day, things will arise that you will have to adjust, process, and transmute. These are things that you have hidden from yourself. The lies, the untold truth about who you are. There is much to come forth into the outer since all are to be revealed. As long as you are the witness to it, nothing can harm you.

Amnesty?

Something about a vector. I had to look it up and it is a quality or phenomenon that has two independent points and properties: magnitude and direction example: velocity, momentum, force, electromagnetic field, and weight. 

Shift coming? As to what it is not sure.

Something deadly?

Again, the French connection- this is a movie. I watched but I never really remember them. I don’t know if my own trauma is related or if I just deep file in my brain. 

Ok, this is just me thinking. I was watching a movie and I started thinking is this a real-life Minority Report (like the movie) but using an AI algorithm for face identification with the ability to predict whether you will commit a crime, and create a car accident using High-tech AI to protect the elite.

Here is another of those thinking moments: I see a push for EV Electric vehicles which is about 40 years past due because has been around that long with reverse engineering. Anywho. With this now coming online and the thought has anyone really thought about the implications to the power grid and with rolling blackouts or cable outages, whether the power lines can handle it? Because we all see the effects of the planet shifting and changing, with weather conditions all over the media.

Then with power surges to the system and is it green-sourced energy, which does seem to exist on a level that would be needed, or are they not telling us they need to build Nuclear power plants to support because of the effects on the grid lines and the effect on the body, because we have own nature bioelectrical system. To then question smart home or technology that discharges electrical charges and radio waves, electrical pollution because all of this currently uses fossil fuel, which of course being that these tanker ships going back and forth across the ocean are not using thousands of gallons of oil. Then with Smart technology the privacy and data breaches of uploading any or all data that is digital. Let's repeat the past Three-mile Island, Chernobyl, or Fukushima in Japan – to live within driving distance of a nuclear plant and has a 30-mile explosion distance.

To are over-reliant use of technology in excesses and think for ourselves. Welcome to the Wall-E movie.

A coast village?

Apple Jacks?

I got fire and Ice – not sure it references to the song by Pat Benatar

Mordecai, Meluhkai, ?

Malukah – singer ??

 

Nefarious?

I got get out of jail card. I know is connected to the monopoly game. A game we should have all paid better attention to, Lol. But I did look it up and apparently, there is or was a real-life Get out of Jail card in NY. To members of officers for friends and Family. Or on a wider scope, how certain Corp monopolized and have to get out jail cards. You decide.

 

I feel strange writing this But anytime I write a ? mark as thought, not per say actual question, it had a space between. Also, I notice other things odd and I am fully aware that I think faster than I write for the most part. Along with grammar but in reality. we don't say question mark, a hyphen,  or Dot or coma in conversation, but these programs change things. Just thought. Maybe Mandela effect.

01-13-23 Spiritual Talk

 

I have been writing for many years now. I feel like I should state beyond a doubt that people should be cautious when studying any spiritual or training. Why? Because I have seen people offering training and people and even myself say ok this is another thing under my tool belt. If you have the desire to study or do training don’t think that you are necessarily going to walk out the door and open a business doing anything from Reiki, tarot cards, and breathing exercises to channeling to various modalities that people offer. Keep your day job, because most people study for years before taking it to a professional level.

And there are a lot of people who have not cleared their own wounds of childhood or trauma with their own shadow work. I think that if you do want to study you need to learn to protect yourself with regard to learning about white light, angelic, or shielding in some form. I say this from my own experience of or you may encounter something that you will have no understanding of or trauma that you, yourself did not know existed. (This a way of life, not I get on the bus, I get off the bus).

I also want to talk about using drugs, I have met people who lost their ability to connect to their guidance by the use of drugs and alcohol, because they were using it as a vice, to not do their own shadow work. I have seen videos on people use of different plant medicine to have experiences. Unless you are sitting with someone who knows these plants and it is traditionally a Shaman, medicine man, or woman who it is passed to from generations of ancestral lineage, or part of calling because did it in another lifetime.  These medicines can create harm in the wrong hands.

Discernment, discernment, discernment – never not use your own guidance, or intuition – if it doesn’t feel right, sit with it, or disregard it, file it away.  There are too many people doing this work now and because it is not taught from the beginning (birth) there are egos floating around and money floating before people's eyes, making claims and taking your money for their benefit. And as an example, I have seen people charge up to 1000.00 for reading and 10, 000.00 for coaching or training. And now I see it by Zoom will those same types of fees. I for one like hands-on experience, asking questions if don’t understand, or just meeting people on the same path.

Another thing is that anyone claiming they have cleared karma, trauma, all beliefs, and behavior are lying because, for example, you could be running belief that not even from this lifetime. Since you never die and have most likely lived on other planets, other lifetimes, and other beings or even a rock. No one is completely clear, and one is always working on something, that is the point of walking a spiritual life.  if they really doing the work, whether they tell the truth or not. I do it every day.

Another word cause is I believe counseling, but I also know that system denies the existence of spiritual, paranormal, or what is considered out there. Our own government has studied it and has hands in things like technology, or being that are hidden from the public eye. So do your homework. Remember that it should “should be” helpful that they help you, with trauma, the pattern of thought, belief or abuse, or neglect. Etc. Heal thyself is what is quoted in the bible. You are the one living your life. If anyone or someone would have told just a few things that I have mentioned above it would save tears, pain, and a lot of heartaches.

01-09-23 Spiritual Truths

 You’re a fractal of God, source, the universe, all that is, nameless, the infinity, any deity of your choosing. You came here to create, be a creator, and remember that you are a creator being, that encompasses all that is, and will ever be.  Every idea, song, story, building, and art comes in as an idea or expression of. You are an expression of the one infinite possibilities of energy, vibration, a being, a single cell existing as a form.

Now it is my understanding that until this lesson is re-learned, as in the question, as to whether there is a truth that “I am that I am” all that exists and that every person is in fact the same, as me, you, us, we without all the labels, beliefs, programming, religious dogma, cultural belief. That fundamentally no matter where you go on this planet everyone's basic needs are the same and their needs are to be met. 

You came here to experience Life in every aspect, the good, and bad, love, sadness, depression, bliss, relationships, lies, judgment, powerful, powerless, voiceless, unloved, not enough, feeling safe, unsafe, hate, anger, and hatred. Color, culture, separation from self, family, friends, disconnected from self. You can not have one without the other. Why, because you can not experience one without the other. Same coin two sides.

On the ladder of emotions, there are only really two Love and Fear. Everything is a by-product of one or the other. When you think about any one of these emotions that developed during the first seven years and then repeated throughout your life to different degrees. Now we could use psychology to explain some if not all, calling it a mental health issue. The problem will that reason is why are there so many issues with what our modern medicine calls it Brain issues. Which then becomes a separation of the body and spirit.  That the brain is the only thing running the show. And you are only reacting to only what the mind thinks!

Now I for one have questioned this over and over to understand why this is not taught, and on a bigger scale think that it is a terrible experiment in a grand view. But my research keeps reflecting that it is not the whole truth. It seems that there have always been people on earth and masters being (Jesus, buddha, etc), or star races that have tried to assist our evolution and not destroyed ourselves like other civilizations that have come and gone, so many times before.

What I write here is not anything new, or said, if anything thousands are and have put out similar information. So, the question becomes why is it not well known or taught from the beginning. And the only answer that it comes back to is control, money, and greed. Because once you removed all the fear of anything, what do you have? You have the power to create and not be controlled to think that there are limits and that change is unlimited by all definitions, as well as possibilities. And there are unlimited resources.

Just one look at the elite and one can see what that type of that power is capable of. The problem with that type of power is the deception that it can be maintained. Yes, it can be passed to the next generation, and they can think that control the world or media, and population and tell you that it is for good of the people. 

We have entire governments that have sworn oaths to be elected for the people. But what really changes? The last few years have shown what it is capable of, to shut down the entire planet and having you fear whatever has come up or showed the many faults to the systems worldwide. I have repeatedly gotten from my guides that decimation and destruction will not be allowed. That there is much invested and in that type of destruction will not be permitted. When looking at global events regarding the planet, that planet has always shifted and changed with each civilization that has come and gone. Much of it is still being discovered from the past and what is still to come.

When I write it is normally guided or just from frustration that I am just pissed off, and angry by either the money being used for people looking for answers, when everything that you need to know is either within you or you be guided to. I get it people need to make a living and take care of themselves and their families, but if I use my own life as an example this has been in the works for years since a little girl playing on the floor. And that many moons ago and the realization that my entire life was a lie and that all the people who crossed my path and the ones that can stay away at this point.

And that no one can claim they know all the answers, because if that were true, there would be no need to be on the planet at this time. Even at this present time, I have taken to “I know nothing” because when I think I understand something I am giving something else to heal, process, and simulate an understanding of. I just realized that I think what makes me angry, is if I give you a tool and don’t teach you properly to use that tool, that is like giving a monkey a paintbrush and telling him to paint the fence. Just a metaphor.

But you get the point. And in reality that is what has happened we are connected to the infinite and from womb to present We/I created love or chaos to learn what???

And since I am out of work again. And trying to figure out how I can move and not do soul-sucking work or do something that is more in alignment with who I am while living human experience or experiment or calling it a spiritual journey.

A metaphor " when the student is ready the teacher will appear" well there is No one teacher, everyone is a teacher to teach you. Everyone is you.