01-31-23 Behind the scenes

 

01-31-23 Behind the scenes

As most know who my blog that I have these ability that I research to no end as to why others don’t and why is that I had all these experiences, since I was child. Now yesterday I woke up to get upset and sadness just pour over me and I could not shake for the most of day. When I questioned the sadness, was it because my life is not like most people. I don’t own a home; I don’t have partner and friendships come and go. My experiences are so far from normal that most people would think they are so farfetched that they are outlandish.

After trying to shift my energy out of this self-loathing and sadness that I felt that I was feeling, I became angry at the fact, that with all good intent I was in this energy that was not very comfortable and questioned was this really mine or collective energy that I was feeling. As complicated as my life is to determine whether this was me or the outside world. One looked at social media and fear that projected both by us and what the media would have you believe is truth, that all of life as gone to hell in hand-basket.

Now all my research indicated that we are the creators of our reality. I am simplifying this understanding to a degree, and I don’t know if I can adequately explain it with the complexity, but the simple reason for this other then we taught and learn fear from beginning. If we are born of love and that it is our natural state of being and peace, why is there such conflict within us, to see it and be otherwise. As child I knew this and experienced the opposite and my natural state of it was forced to adapt. One for survival and other to feel safe.

By all accounts the outside world looks and feels scary. I for one have turned away from listening or watching the media. As for people and relationships have disappeared, one because I don’t see the world or people the way most do. I understand that we all came from source regardless of what it appears to look like. I still have my moments when I have to catch myself to not judge what I am observing or even experiencing because the ego mind wants to label and understand why it is that way.

What I learn is that “I” as individual cannot change the world or people,(collectively we can)  I can only address the things in my own life and my own actions and reactions is what counts. If I am out of balance or I am feeling emotional, is it coming from a past experienced, then it is mine to address and take responsible for. I am not responsible for people behavior of what they have done, or the things they have done to me. This of course created a conflict of we create are reality, so why would I choose to experience these things in my life.

In my research there is the law of cause and effect or even karma to help explain other people actions, yet we never look at ourselves as being responsible party for these actions in our own lives and impact that it has on ourselves or others. As example: If I am in the car yelling at someone for their driving, I am not really yelling at them per say I am yelling at myself, because I feel unsafe by their driving skills and their lack of knowledge that a vehicle that has ability to kill someone. This is a double edge sword that I am yelling to the universe or source that I have vibration that saying I am ok with experiencing this type of energy.

We all aware of drivers rushing, aggressive, texting, or caffeine or far more substances. It is what is called in the spiritual community as human doing vs. Human being. So, if I natural state is for love, peace and happiness where did all go wrong? One could say that from begin were not taught to focus from the beginning, one question that I have questioned that guides numerous times as why it not taught and why continues to be that sources of inner conflict and stress to keep up with a changing world, and changing it for all to be better.

Which lead me to compare our family history for the previous two generations prior and the impact on my own children going forward. To the very diversity of cultural, religious and sociology and economics of these patterns of beliefs. This led me to read books about master teachers like the buddha, Jesus and others, to understand why these teachers were and are still trying to teach the same information and we not getting the information and using it change our lives. I tried to understand why monks spend their entire lives trying to reach enlightenment, which is knowledge and understanding. Weighting all these ideologies against one another it still comes back to what we think and feel.

I have previously written that it has connection to the stars is word I used, which maybe inaccurate explanation. Now most know of angelic, star people or being, other civilizations and dimensions or reality, which can get confusing in the least.  The different native tribes speak of star people, and of course all the governments around the world have or not disclosing this fact that starships or crafts exist, and what exactly was found on these ships in the way of being or technology. You have wonder is there a connection and how far back does it go.

And has it been used against us to slave us to people who run the world. Now we do not have full access to the knowledge that has been hidden from truth history. And I may have derailed from own writing here to make a point that we have the ability to change ourselves in the now and into the future, as to why it is that were being kept in the dark, unless you start questioning our beliefs, behaviors and patterns of thinking and feelings, what we see happening is only a reflection of own discord with who we are.

Why there such negativity around exploring the occult or mystery school, and fact that in my research there are books that there was teaching at one time is very distance past that this was normal and part of the education that was taught. And I am sorry to anyone who I may have lost at this point, because I am trying to explain a lot of information from much broader aspect of understanding to words that any individual can understand.

The guides often say that if you want peace, love, joy and happiness you must become it, because that who you are. Fear is part of illusion. Fear is created from ego who will never be satisfied because it wants to run the show. You can’t get rid of the ego, but you can learn to know when it is running the show. And the only way to do that is to address the cause of what we are feeling, because since we a child we have been told it is not ok to feel what we are feeling. That somehow feeling is bad and when we did not understand what we were feeling because we did not have parents who self-identify about their own feelings of inadequacy of knowledge to look within themselves. We raised under the same influences or challenges that we in.

Again, this comes back to look within, God-source within.  We are One, we all that will ever be because we were created by source, God, creator, universe, all that is. I am being asked to reference a book. The book is called “The law of One”. This is available on YouTube for free. If you want a better understanding.

Fear: False evidence appearing real.