12-19-23 Let's talk about choice

  I went to the dentist yesterday because it's been some time since I have seen one. And it does help that live on a county line, which means unless I pay cash I can't go to a local doctor, dentist, or anything else that is within 15 mins of my insurance plan. I understand that each county is allotted finances based on that area. So, I have difficulty when it comes to making arrangements for service and treatment because of strange invisible boundaries. I want to see, feel, question who the dentist is, and meet with them. 

I arrive for the appointment and early because I like being early because I can observe. So 45 minutes plus and I am called back for appt. to which I find out that it will not be with one of the people that I met with yesterday. Now my prior experience is you go to an appt., the doctor, dentist, or eye doctor, etc. You have health care with the same people each time. Now considering that I history of trauma or expectation, or sensitive to other people and their personalities, since I am both an empath and intuitive. I don't want just anyone touching me or in my energy field. Boundaries have been a work in progress since my childhood not knowing what is my energy and other people's energy. 

So, I explained to the girl that I rather have it done by the person that I spoke with, and that I am sure the other female is qualified but that is not what I expected. She was understanding and stated that she would see what she could do about it. She comes back and said that I would need to reschedule for another day. I am okay with it, considering that it was not just a check-up but a few months of follow-up appts. I went to the front desk and explained that there was an apparent misunderstanding and that I am not used to going to a dentist (that is like a McDonalds) a slip of the tongue, yet rightly so. If I paying for a service I expect that I have the service I am paying for. No, I not pulling Karen, because that is not who I am. But when you are burned or lied to, or you have trust issues that people will do what they say that they going to do, it is about trust and having integrity.

And my trust has been through the ringer, more times over. Which is an intuitive lesson, standing up for self and knowing that I/you have a choice. We all have choices every day, and many of us make hundreds of choices every day in all aspects of our life. 

The girl at the front desk informed me of an open appointment, which was two appointments past when this work was being done today. I explained that I was informed that the reason for today's appointment needed to be done, is so other work could take place. She said that it was not necessary by someone else, who was not the dentist or doctor, "when she stated that the dentist' was busy and that I could wait or be called back at home. I went for the call me back at home. 

Not before I was told that they going to lunch soon. Another lesson is to listen to what others are saying. We are so busy going from this to that, and most of it is less than important. Another important lesson is the things that we value and they are what we care about that we get or give, friends, family, or love that we are or have without conditions. Things that can't be replaced. 

So now I waiting for the call back information before I make another choice to continue with the service that I am paying to get, and not receive less than the quality of service, in what has or is becoming a trend of fast food service for the people who don't value much of anything, or my time and energy because we seem to be living in a disposable world of things and people or as clog on machine, to no end. 

Whereas, we like dumbing you down, telling you the Google trends, and what others want you to think or do, without your conscious input of being a divine being having a human experience. You didn't come to be a Clog on a conveyor belt. Amazon cornered that market. They all fall and all come back as something else. When you dismiss people you lost the point of being a human. Something else that I find rather annoying is this Chosen word usage, whether it comes from the Chosen series or not, when you deny anything less than God, universe, or source, you are denying it as such, when everything is so...it has been made so. 

There is a difference between being the walk and talk or the doormat. As a creator being if one can't see the difference of knowing who you are, then you create from past experiences. Maybe my lesson in the situation is trust, or allowing, or making a different choice. I guess see how it plays out. 

*So here are some movies that I have been thinking about, to get people to think or just remember who you are:

Not in English- worth a watch anyway (as a spiritual being you know all languages) you may only speak one or six, your soul known all - Astral City A Spiritual Journey

Cloud Atlas 

What Dreams May Come- Robin Williams

Sliding Doors

Field of Dreams- 

Inceptions 

Peaceful Warrior- True story, read the book it is better, or watch the movie. 

Tenth Insight- book and/or movie 

There are many, many more. 

12-12-23 Intuitive Hits

Intuitive 

heard- James Allen- Football

dreamtime - James (Bills)    ?

dreamtime- Holden Hall 

saw Kelly Clarkson name is something else. 

Melissa Etheridge ? 

12-10-23 Intuitive hits

 I am being told to post this:

Propylene 

name Alessandro?

hearing the song - say a little pray for me - original Aretha Franklin and then by Dionne Warwick (maybe to the previous post about Woman light in the world passing) ?  

12-04-23 Intuitive information

 I hearing that the energy going to be fast & furious coming in and other next few months.

I was shown image of airport tower, where there was 5-6 people at desk and window, someone kneeing like talking to someone trying to land a plane. Praying even

I was cleaning I felt like I was standing right next to a train going by. 

something with anti-Semitic -  gotten this twice

Rin Tin Tin 

Wake up calls are coming to the sleeping 

Quiver ? (arrow/bolt) no idea what they said this ? 

Florida, Mississippi, gulf of Mexico ? I was shown a map of these area's 

Witchcraft ? 

Extruder ? 

Christmas Angel 

12-03-23 Strangest thing

 Ok, you have heard me speak and write about hypnosis training. I want to tell you about something that happened while I was there. We were in groups doing simple suggestions for a regression I guess we will call it that. When someone is under (not asleep) you're never asleep or quack like a chicken. There is a reason why people do a chicken response, but I get to that in a minute. So this person was in a trance (like a cat nap-type state) you are truly not sleeping and not truly present. This happens when you relax. Shamans use this state, hypnosis is a trance state, and channeling via writing or physically is a similar state of being. Meditation is used to access this state. 

Ok, this person went to three different places within less than an hour's time. The first was a medieval time of village, the second was what I call a way station, where they saw a subway and the third was a big open warehouse or stadium with no physical hands. I was not doing the induction, but listening to what they were saying to help guide. When I realized that I could see everything that they were experiencing, as if in a movie. I could see the village, a rock with a sack bag that he brought to the village, the physical buildings, and how they were designed, and the brightness of the way station (the way station is a physical place where souls crossover). And the huge stadium. Because I never guided anyone under hypnosis and was not sure how to direct them properly the teacher stepped in to guide them to an event the soul needed to clear. (I was fully awake with my eyes open but seeing in the 3rd eye.) 

The strangest thing is that I was seeing what they were seeing. Now I have seen things in my sleep and naps and been places with guides and different beings, astral projected all the times as a teenager through walls and been in people's homes and even witness being in other people's dreams. I have other stranger encounters which I wrote in older writings here on the blog. I have never met or even spoken to anyone about it. Until this event, I had never met any one person who could do this and there only one person their who I know that could see what I seeing too. Much less find a Western book on it explaining in detail what this is. 

Honestly, until this event, I never questioned how I do this. I have read about yogis and people trained in Eastern teaching who can do this at will. I do have a very busy dreamtime where I am in various places and planets and can be odd from the human mind viewpoint. So why am I telling you, this because we all have this ability, if you are open to it. Strangely my magnifying glass just fell out of its holder and my calendar is hanging crooked, after fixing it 5 times in one day now is just there. What the symbolism of it is is a whole other question that I am not sure of at the moment the meaning of it.

 Ok back to chicken quacking. This happen with someone is open to suggestions, meaning they have no real filters, but most human have blocks to their perception. Most people have experiences and deny that it happened because well ego.. or fear, don't want to look dumb, foolish, or be ridicule. Now as children your sandbox, or tree or cardboard box was as real as you made it. The sword or dragon is as real to you as the paper, tape, or box that was used to make it. Without imagination, there is no creation, inventions, thoughts, or ideas. Our great thinkers would never have thought anything without imagination. 

 Hence why I *get annoyed when people dismiss other people, instead of saying I don't know or I am not sure. This happens to us as children, in school or by a parent, when we did something well for lack of words upset our parents. I give you an example my son at 2 years old I let him climb a small rock wall by himself with myself standing there, the next time I was at the playground he would not climb it. I asked why he wouldn't he said because his Dad told him he fall and get hurt. Well, I don't about you if you have not been hurt 100 hundred over by now, lucky you. You don't learn things by being bubble-wrapped, and honestly, you would not learn anything if life was simple. This goes against the Universe's law of opposites or contrast. (note- many of spiritual terminology are used by corps' or media, without a true understanding of these laws.) which is so you will not search within or for understanding. Or use your intellect, because until the clog (perception) breaks people stay on the conveyor belt happily chasing your tail.  

12-03-23 Why I have not written intuitive Messages

 I have not written any intuition messages in a while because I questioned whether it was the right path for me. Two months ago I went to training and it was met with opposition. I have attempted to learn hypnosis several times over the years and quite frankly feel like I either am under attack or shit is said to myself, that I feel is unprofessional. Oddly spirit will use anger to be the catalyst to push someone. I think it is dumb for someone who has seen trauma not only in my own life but also been a witness and observer of other people's trauma. It gets old, quickly. 

I also know that the guides will sometimes speak through me and can be sharp and to the point and not realizing or explaining this to people can feel like being throat punched. For a lack of better words. I have sat questioning why this is done and why this is needed because it often feels like a shock to the system. I then think about how other people handle this and what is not seen. Not talking about the real depth that one is pushed too. Just to openly speak about spiritual matters. How the real work is not seen on videos or in books and it is portrayed as a mask. Of course, I realize that most people don't want to see the depth of the work that is taking place. Because they would to face their own stuff and look at what they said or done, what has happened to them throughout their life to make them the people they are. 

The guides ask me why I have resistance to this work, and wonder why they ask me, since they guide me and not the other way around. When it is a two-way street. Because my experiences are not one-sided, and all experiences are part of the journey. Just like a child learning from their parents or their environment. We learn with our senses, filtered by the mind and heart and when we are not aligned with one of these aspects of ourselves things go awry or amiss. As children, we played in the moment within the boundaries that we were given and learned very quickly what was okay or not. The freedom that we once had gets lost in the things that lack any substance. With technology that was created to bring us together and not separation is even greater than before, to point, wasn't it the point to bring us more together?

I question even the things that come through as messages or predictions, which of course are preventable, and why it is not taught as such, why one searches for answers or that not taught to go within. I question the guides why the things that I have encountered needed to happen the way they did and why am I even doing this if I constantly have to defend myself to question whether is it my ego or theirs, that was crossed. Why their such a mixed bag of information and whether it is ego because what worked for one will not be the same for another. I even question whether all the studying and learning that I have done was even necessary considering I was doing this type of work without realizing that I was. 

Had I not been taught to dismiss to listen to myself. Even when spirit or guides would show show me things I put them to the side then and even now because I don't know what to do with them. Even now spirits (decease) people speak to me in other languages that I don't know or who they belong to. I am like I have no idea who your relatives are, so you can tell me but it is not specific enough to pass a message and for God's sake don't wake me up in the middle of the night to do so. Sometimes the information comes so quickly that I can't filter it quickly enough and figure out what is important and not important in the moment. I try to remember that I like a radio picking up the radio waves that get transmitted. We all our, but just forgotten our innate ability to connect to home. "Hence Et phone home" takes on a different use. 

With that, the following came through today and of course, I don't want to post it, so here it is anyway:

Parasites

hearing candle in the wind - my thoughts are:  just like Princess Diana and Marilyn Monroe who this song is written for. (or channeling watch of Marilyn Monroe) There is a Woman who is a large light in the world that we may see pass on. Who that is is a good question - Celine Dion came to mind- don't quote this was not guided by the guides. I know she repeatedly had health-related issues. 

Stomach bug

Raw Anger - many think anger is not spiritual and has no place - when the opposite is true of Anger. It in fact creates change, normally we are still and content, but when enough has been pushed down, under or outright ignored, disrespected, etc.. it boils to the surface. Like much of the world that is in chaos. These are tipping points. Much like paying more money for something and getting less or effectively nothing changes. Humans have been floating on unknown waters before the virus and it is like floating in the dark of what is to come. If you think about the last time that you experienced anger, for whatever reason.. crappy boss, or job, or whatever it was to have someone bring what is sitting below the surface that needs to be addressed, it is a release of emotional energy that has been brewing. Since everything is energy vibrating on a level that most are not even conscious of. Again not taught and is raw power that is often confused as something bad when it is a catalyst for change within one's being or globally. I could in more details but it be long write and edit. 

Since I keep having these experiences around hypnosis I going to list some books as a reference point, should you want some answers to questions as to why you have experienced the life you have or a recurring theme. 

Robert Schwartz - Your soul's plan

Antonio Sangio - My Soul Purpose

Dolores Cannon - Work -Waves of volunteers 

Dr. Brian Weiss - Work

The Edgar Cayce - Work/ case files 

Carol Bowman - Work 

Note: If choose to experience or learn hypnosis - Find a reputable person. I can not give you someone at the moment because of my own biased opinion and encounters. 

Also I don't make any money off of the books or as a reference. They are knowledge !