8-31-24 Asked to share my recent experiences

So over the last four months, I have experienced the following. I was asked to share it, I am not sure why, but apparently, someone needs to hear it or not. These experiences go back to before I went to grammar school and my ability to feel things and know things that I should not have known at that age and even before age three. 

As with life, I had forgotten a lot of memories, as time passed. I started recalling a lot of them since 2003, which I know of no major event and it may be based solely on my birth chart. I have not had my birth chart read. I asked if I needed to and I feel it is not necessary. Maybe at a future point. 

The blue children - I was writing something down, not uncommon for me, because I journal every day, I glanced up and at my window were two blue children and looked and then looked away. I am ok, they were deep aqua blue, one a little bigger and one slightly smaller. They did not say anything telepathic, more like hello, we just came to visit. 

As strange as it was this was only 30 seconds maybe only of our time. I acknowledged them and they disappeared. I can't remember what the time of day it was, but it was daylight. 

So out of my curiosity, I went and got a tape measure. Measure the floor where they had been standing outside the window against the inside. They were under 4 foot tall. I think they had hair and big eyes, like big eyes drawings by that artist. They were not greys and they did not give off an energy as in fear. They were loving and playful just like young children are. I thought to myself our children are behind, compared to these children, they seemed much more advanced. Thinking now, maybe they had blue suits on too, there was no distinction of clothing. Then they were gone, as quickly as they were there. 

This happened during sleep I was shown a box and the light that came out of a box light emanated light that we do not have here on the planet. It was whiter and brighter than looking at the sun midday. 

Also during sleep, I had a being come up to me and look me right in the eyes, at first the eyes were white pupils, and then they turned sky blue and I woke up. This being was male, much old, and seemed very wise. I again woke. I think I woke up so don't forget the experience. 

Again, sleeping I saw another being, and around this being that I felt was female was a magenta light surrounding the entire body. 

So you know when you wake up in the morning and still not completely awake and you do your morning routine, I just happened to look down at my feet and watch 2-3 inches of light coming off my feet. I am aware of what it is because I sometimes see it on other people in person on their heads or hands, around people in videos. 

 I know and can feel when my hands are emanating light or energy from them, which comes from my own energy body. I used to shock people when put my hands on people when passing them in the bar many years ago and or squeeze by people in tight spaces. At that time, I did not realize it was me per se, and only thought it was static electricity. I have since learned that I affect electronics and forget watches. They die within a month or two. 

While sleeping, I had another experience of another being female gliding toward me. Again I woke up. 

This one happened a lot longer ago than four months but I am being asked to write about it. I was waking up one morning, and the gentleness female voice said rest now, as in don't move too quickly. 

I also have this recurring thing, I wake up to go to the bathroom and my entire head is ringing, like I have a bell helmet on my head. It does not hurt, it is just an odd vibration coming from a sleeping state, a quick awakening state, and back again. If I had words for it I call it a vibrational attunement. 

I have colored orbs that show up. I took a nap and watched a gold and pink blanket that was put over me. 

No, I don't do drugs and as for over-the-counter medicine, I take half to whole tablet of Acetaminophen only. 

With these things that happened to me or through me depending on how you look at it. My senses are magnified, all of them, hearing, taste, smell, chemicals ugh, sight. Not that they were before, but even clearer now. Colors, people's energy or peoples emotions, and their negative attributes. Food tastes gross at some places, and I have said you eat that, I avoid saying it out loud, anymore.

Just this week I was at the store and a Spirit spoke to me as I was walking to the counter I thought it was the woman at the register, and I asked her if just had spoken to me and she said no, and then became confused and I like never mind. I knew it was a spirit trying to talk to me or maybe her regardless, I am in my head saying you can't just walk up to me and speak like that, some people are not ready for it.

The point of this is, that having clear boundaries in life is also about having clear boundaries with the spirit world. This reminds me of an event I went to back in 2007 when I was directed to attend I was standing in line for water at intermission and turned to apologize for bumping into someone when I realized that the entire back room was filled with a line of people waiting to be heard. 

I did not see them, I felt them. This still happens when I bump into spirits, out in the world. I am like okay because I have no idea who you belong to. Even when they stand behind me and say things, I tell them first of my situation and then I am like I am not going out looking for your people. Really!  

Recently, I heard a channel say, that spirits are residual energy like an echo in time or a holograph of energy. I feel them and bump into so no that is not my experience. They are as physical as you or I, except I feel spirits, and sometimes I will physically see them. I consider residual energy or ectoplasm of energy of what would be a ghost at places of significance of events, historically or otherwise. 

People can have other names for it, but this is what I use. With word changes, perception of other people's thoughts or opinions of spiritual labels of matters can now be quite confusing to explain things, because we are defining things that other people do not sense. Sometimes things are not physical but observed in the 3rd eye as an image being shown to you by spirits or guides, by other beings.  

I get things all the time and I am like, I don't know what this is or what this means and I don't share it unless told to, or I actually understand what is being explained. I have books and books of things I have journaled about that I don't completely understand. Previously, I posted that I said psychic or intuition is not 100% because I have had things that show in 3 days or 5-7 years later. To point I say to the guides unless it is important, don't tell me, because I will keep in front file part of my brain and not put it in save it for later, one. 

I will give an example I was shown a piece of metal a long time ago, I thought it was a handle for a grill or an old cast iron stove, nope it was not but a blade of the bottom of an ice skate, which I found out later on When I passed on the information, they questioned it looked at me strangely, I was not told what this image was this was psychically. I was physically getting the information by tuning in like a radio dial and not information by the guides. I wasn't questioning the information and would just say it, as saw it.

See, we or you, I have been collecting information about our environment, since you were little, even before you were born. Even people who have impairments pick up information and cues about their surroundings. That is how they navigate the world. We use language, yet it is limited by words, spirit, and other realities that do not necessarily communicate with words, but images, symbols, numbers, energy/vibrations, along with downloads of information.  My take is that with downloads of information, I think there are also uploads because we are the tools of technology to share the information, too. You cannot input without output. Guides, advanced being, ET (defined by us) can not guide us without knowing information, too. 

This is why meditation is always, stated. Our minds are too busy on things that have no real value on anything. I am being told that is enough for today. I hope this helps whoever is questioning something. And I am being told that manifesting something in life and connecting to guides, angelic, or higher self, and advanced beings, angels are two very different things. This does not happen overnight and is a school of thought, training, discernment, and study of yourself and knowing, the difference between ghost and guide, angelic, Master teacher or ET beings, and other energies, because not all are equal in energy/vibration.  

Looking back I can see many times that I was directed to begin searching. My beliefs and programming blocked my understanding, because in my childhood I was told not to speak about it and never thought that there was information different than what I knew, and was already doing, other people's input was difficult to understand because they happened upon it, whereas I was walking antenna and barometer of experiences early on. 

I want to note angelic beings are both male and female and often have conversations with a male guide because that is how I feel his energy or vibration, sometimes nightly. Just like we are both male and female in other lives. I learned or trained myself to remember things that happen when I sleep or dream.  

8-28-24 originally 03-15-24 Unmasking our masks

I was unsure whether to post this but screw it.

Originally this was written several months ago, but I was told not to post it, yet. I am posting out of feeling there need for it, now. As well as, a general frustration, because I keep having dreams about my son and I don't know what they mean because of my history with both sons, it pulls at my heartstrings and is very short nerve. I am like what are these dreams about? I may have shift gears to deal with family thing.  

 Many of you know that I write messages channel by the guides. What you don't realize is that I am learning these same lessons, that they speak about. I don't pretend to know all things because why as a soul would be the point in learning. I think this is something that is greatly missing in many of the teachings, that are given by others.

Who perhaps are working through things too, without disclosing the fact and they are perceived as having this wonderful life with no cares or worries in a world that seems to be in constant chaos. If you're following everything in the world. I for one don't, because I understand that first it is out of my control to fix, that is God's job. And that we all have a responsibility to question and challenge our beliefs and thoughts too, to our actions in the world. 

We have grown up in separate families, separate places all around the world, and even separating from ourselves by not trusting in intuition, gut feeling, or remembering who you are. Now you can spend years researching whether there is proof that we are all one, experiencing life as a soul, in many bodies. What the great masters speak of as self-actualized, by beginning to remove the masks that we are conditioned into. 

I for one started this journey because things were happening to me and for no other reason because I was tired of encountering the same relationships that I was involved in. Not that navigating other people's BS has stopped, but more or less has become a reflective point whose stuff is this. This is not pointing fingers but a deeper question of the person they are or who I am and what is going on below the surface of them or myself. 

I will admit it can be quite daunting understatement of a task. Timing and appropriateness can be a bigger challenge with work, family, and general obligations. To find time to quiet the mind to process information, our own feelings, and emotions. Which I believe are two separate things but can be so closely interconnected that they are one, that sometimes words just don't work, to what we are experiencing. Most people generally want the same thing for themselves and the world, peace, love, and freedom to live their lives. 

Whereas, other people's dreams are much bigger and grander, and perhaps others have more of a dichotomy in an opposing view. The great pursuit of what !!!? This is a question that most of us should consider more often. We all want a better life or world, but at what cost?  I often ask the guides where am I going with this and where is it leading me, with many doubts about why I am putting so much energy into this or anything. Which crosses a point from wisdom to material need.  If wisdom is more valuable than the material, at what point do I walk away, from seeking either? 

With all that being said, you are watching the masks come off and who is friend or foe? This is not meaning, good or bad, it is who is for the betterment of humanity.  This is global, call it evolution, Ascension, or complete Chaos. I am being told to use the wheel the guides: example) just like there are spokes on the wheel you can progress with great difficulty or choose a different path. Peace or chaos. You can create lines in the sand of community and unity for all or continue to divide and separate. Playing the same games of the past, which have played out in every scenario, Rich, poor, middle class, color, culture, or religion. You have known tribal communities that work together and the one(person) that does not, becomes the outcast. Since there is an interdependence for humans to work together and not against each other. Maybe, consider challenging yourself to think are other people so different from me that I can't find common ground!  

added: I write to keep it real and not for a lofty idea, that is perceived by an algorithm, tags, or even clickbait. That doesn't not serve. I have no problem challenging my guides or even other channels when the general public for the most part has no idea that they are connected to source or the embodiment of Love. The whole point of self-realization is to come to the understanding that you are source embodied and challenge the beliefs and remember who you are, and change the future by not playing in the fear of the past and the belief of what has been. This does not happen overnight, that is a delusion. I have been at this for a long time and really since birth, I have been like this with its own challenges, of just not knowing and repeatedly confronted then and now, on what is considered normal. 

There is Not one path. To this realization other than to question yourself what is true. What people say is their path they took, is it right for everyone, is questionable. Like both crayons and chocolates, we all are different coming from the same source box, metaphorically speaking. We have been programmed by the environment that we were raised in. One is not better than another. It is your journey to seek or not. 

When I realized or was directed that this information existed to explain what was happening to me, my whole life, I said to myself people need to know, as to not feel crazy, the oddball in a fishbowl, that told that something is mentally wrong with you. This is of course is when you're repeatedly told you're wrong, then something would happen to prove otherwise. This is both by people, normally the people closest to you or the MH industry would have you believe, that there is no spiritual component to it.  

When people say it is not science-based, science has proved it by studying it and the reason it is not taught is people would lose their creditability or funding, yet our government has used psychic, remote viewing, and group studies. How about we stop throwing the gauntlet like the Middle Ages, because most kings, queens, and heirs, elites are either dead or will leave this world and we can create a different world. 

I had people say things that were wrong in their perception of psychic information and were insistent that it was true for me, no psychic information is not 100%, that is a fact. Along with another thing gets to me is: fact-check this!!! (sorry, my annoyance) The work that people do in this community is beyond human phrases, concepts, and perceptions, it is like being in the presence of someone you like and someone you don't, simple as that. And all are not who claim to be - lesson in discernment. 

The body is entirely more than we have been taught, hence when you know your partner or child, boss, or friend feels off or different. We label it as blah blah, instead of paying attention to it and inquiring with our mind as to what is it, or into ourselves. What I feel, or why, am I have this emotion, covert emotions, oh, nothing is wrong, upsetting, aggressive, being happy all the time, processing something.. denying what you feel, is denying you exist, etc.

Along, with having Clear boundaries yada, yada because we in live and do things in backwards, world. No, it is not ok that you stand over me or get in my face, to use intimidation tactics, which are used to control people, firstly I am not at war with you, or in the military, or service force that trains people, as to fear for my life with you, or punishment. That is what is leaving the planet, slowly but it will leave, not soon enough.  Maybe you lived in a dysfunctional family or environment of sensory overload. And you shut down or turned off because of toxic energy or environment, who is to say but you know, because you were there and by looking at your own life, history, family, and ancestry called generational patterning. You can or will see that you have been conditioned out of your divine nature into a fear-based reality. 

08-30-24 A Pixel related Reality?

 I woke up to hearing these words this morning, a pixel reality! I was ok I know what this is and remember the old box TV to now, and how the clarity has changed.  As I am, searching for information questioning is this a reference to something along the lines of is it Science or physics? Maybe something CGI. I have often used this same analogy to two people looking out the window and asking what they see, as an experiment to see if two people see the same thing. 

I also know that police investigators have problems when asking multiple witnesses what happened and as time goes by memory fades, and that maybe it is like that game that you may or not have playing something about memory down the lane. Maybe, it was a telephone game, whatever the case. With the already-known Mandela effect of living in multiple realities at the same time, perhaps, or are we? 

It is Like sitting in a classroom and all the people are in one room, yet everyone is learning math, and at the same time, living their own life. Like one entity, but still an individual. I am attaching a link which I think is important. When it comes to seeing or viewing something, can we trust what we are seeing or observing? 

Since I walk around in the world of strange, by most people's accounts from Ghost to Aliens and Angelic Beings, it is normal for me. But people without an open mind or perception can be quite disalarming to mind, in a world where we still medicate and call people crazy for ESP abilities, or I often refer to God's GPS to navigate the world. Have a read it will be interesting if we tell the difference! Maybe it is a test of intuition, are we inclined to know, feel, or see if it is fake or real? Let the games begin, conspiracy ..humor  

https://www.theverge.com/2024/8/22/24225972/ai-photo-era-what-is-reality-google-pixel-9

I have my issues with AI for one I write like I hear it by what the guides say and or speak, not by grammar and phonetics, and live in a world where there are many languages with AI, it is a little challenging. 

another link: https://cavrn.org/pixel-theory/  (note if pop-up comes up about Chrome don't update) I am not sure, if valid. 

8-27-24 *8-4-24 What if your soul called a experience into life for you to learn.

If you are reading this get a piece of paper and draw a circle and now put a small dot anywhere in the circle. The dot is you. It is the part of you now in this life. The circle is the Soul, higher self, soul group, etc.. connected to the source. You think you are this dot in this life, in reality, you are the universe and all that is. The dot is your current life experience. The circle is all of your experiences in all forms of consciousness. Now in life, you are taught that a,b,c or x,y,z to get goals that you set for yourself. We will call social conditioning, cultural, religious, or only science and or not believing in anything.  There are other factors but we will consider only a few, as an example, to highlight a point of view. 

See you think or have been told that this person you are right now, with no past or future, other than this life, or perhaps you are from the future and came back. Humor me. Humor has the same vibe as love, so laugh more. The shit is about to get real.  This is not your first rodeo on planet Earth. Because you/we have lost connection to the earth, ancestry, community, and knowledge and hidden knowledge to keep you asleep to not remember who you are. Some people say you chose to forget it during reincarnation, but not all, but that is not the point of this. Nor is it open for discussion here. 

Not all souls will reawaken in this lifetime. That is their soul's choice, by soul agreement. Hence when groups of people leave in groups they are soul agreements, to clear karma, be catalysts, or assist beyond that veil. No soul is ever lost, consciousness and energy, it is the same things and can never be destroyed only transformed. 

So here you are going about life doing whatever it is that you have chosen to do as a creator being in spirit with a soul and bam, you have an accident, someone dies, you get a divorce, you lose your job, or one of the thousands of other ways your soul will get your attention. We think why is this happening to me and all the different things that come with it? I am being punished, big fat NO. Your soul is here to expanse and learn. Thousands of Buddhas running around does not move the world. Humor again. After the shock of the event, you can feel victimized by it or seize it and expand your mind and heart, building again, or choosing to stay in the mindset that I am helpless to what happened, and never questioning what am I learning, about this situation, about myself or challenging your own belief, or maybe the soul wants you to go in a different direction. 

The news and media will tell you that it's "hell in a handbasket", from wars to wars against others or yourself because somewhere it has been decreed, that religion and sex, skin color is not of God or source. That you have to pay for sins that have nothing to do with you, but an ancestry line that you can't even remember. So you must pay the sins for eons of existence to enter heaven, nonsense. And that both men and women shall be cursed and prosecuted for the blood of something, that you may or may not even been on the planet for. 

Your soul or live stream, which is a stream of consciousness having a human experience, is of source, that created all of life and your soul, and is the form of everything and universes. You are taught that humans are the only thinking beings when that is true. Indigenous people have been trying to teach this for thousands of years, to your self-destruction. All because you continue to play the game that we separated. As in it is them and not me, without questioning who we are without our stories. 

Who was I before this life? Most would like to think they were some grand historical person and maybe you were of importance somewhere in time, but that is not relevant. When all is relevant, meaning there is no hierarchy in the spiritual sense. The ego would have you believe that one is superior to another when there are no real differences. The soul grows from experiences and self-evaluates by accessing what is being learned and some lessons are not completely clear until you return to which you came. Call it heaven, call it the aethers, universe or god, source, or many names that have been expressed to form an idea or view.  

If you were to move from kindergarten to and through college, each level of education is both wisdom and knowledge or a form of study that you gain insight into. Most will apologize for mistakes whether the error is made or not, you learn by observing pretty much anything. Fear is the only thing standing between having an idea, thought, or different point of view, which is formed when you are very young because of someone's disapproval because approval or love is conditional. To see and feel you need to be accustomed to your faculties. You can't know chill on the arm or back unless you have experienced a chill. (Or is a chill a chill or intuitive knowing?)

The same as for music, there are as many genres, but they are all cords or notes played in a specific pattern. Your ears know what sounds off.  Take a tree for instance, you see a tree, you are taught it is a tree, and the tree in itself is a physical aspect of that tree, much like a personality, Yet the consciousness of that tree knows that it is part of the planet, of others trees and similar to a different kind to other trees. The tree just is. Animals alike know that they are part of the ecology and all serve in their own way. 

Hence, the parable teach a man to fish. Which does not mean ignoring people who need it the most. People have become the wheat, separating the chaff from the wheat, saying that because this part is of no value to them, it is of no importance. You have forgotten that you are the wheat of the planet, your very existence is interdependent on the planet and people. Chaffing even part of you or people is not accurate of who you are. 

All forms and opinions have been based on your experiences, you did not necessarily come in with them. They are formed and developed over years, and decades, by the choices made by others and yourself with your soul or ego, depending on who is leading the show. We hear the buts, but what about this or that, do you know the whole story or a piece of it? You observe a fraction of what was presented to you, what if your opinion was observed by another, would they have the same opinion of you, without considering other points of view? 

One view does not make up the whole of it entirely. You're taught to view, memorize, and retain, without objectively viewing from another viewpoint. Just as the title suggests your soul calls it forth. This is not to say that you and your soul are separate, you are an aspect of your soul in human form.  Which is part of everything and everyone. Just like you have world leaders defining a future that does not exist, yet. Based solely on the data at the moment. It is just a collection of information about the past or what they think may happen.  When theoretically it is an improbability of possibilities, just as it depends on your point of view. 

8/24/24 Find Humor in the absurdity

 This picture is 30ft from firehouse. Maybe 100 ft. from a creek and water treatment plant. A driveway's length from Borough Maintenance building. Everyone riding their bike or walking the path looked at the firehouse and this !!! As I watched them, it could had just as well, said Add water.  

8-24-24 Brief interaction

So I have a brief interactions with a person, who does not want to be seen, yet wants to be seen, because my encounters are short and requires more information as to why this is. So, I have this question?

*Is it more important that people see you or more important that you see yourself? 

We have this belief that is programmed into us that unless we are doing something of importance that regardless of what it is, in life, we have no value. Which is simply not the case. Are identity is so wrapped in what others think about us, without question who am I? This need to prove, validate, or do something (asked to add this word: you are Vindicated) to be considered of importance when we are a being of creation. When we forget that we exist because we are what we seek.   

While writing this I also realized my personality has this internal dialogue not because I chose it for myself, but something that has been placed on me. Recently, I had this experience that I regressed in memory through pictures that I own to when I was a child only 12 days old, and how from that point on it became about what I was doing and not about the love that I was in that body as a newborn. 

I could be over-reading the situation, but one has to think how far back in one's life, that I became seen as less than, instead of being seen as love, joy, and happiness to perform to validate my existence. I don't think it is one day, I tend to think it is years in the making and how we lose sight of  from the busyness of life. I did not understand that memory completely at the moment, or why I was shown it and how it now fits into the context of this post. Not every memory that pops up is a direct connection to some great insight, or maybe it is, is our soul telling us who we really are. You decide!

08/16/24 Thought for the day!

Do you have a better relationship with your technology?  Then humans or nature, family, friends, or social media, when people feel deprived of connection to other people. And is this a system of programming to separate and divide humans further from their innate ability of the soul and spirit to feel connected with something greater than themselves? Not that could ever happen, because that is where you came from.

I write this after a strange encounter of going to the bank with people working and being directed to go online or use a mobile app. I, Myself thinking, hmm ..what is the point of speaking to you, if I am being directed to services that you can't do? Along with the Mac machine malfunctioned while using it and it rebooted itself three times and the person working looked at me strangely when I said, I actually needed to pull out physical cash, because the card was locked in the machine. As, if asking for physical paper money was not odd in itself, by the look on their face.  

I ask this question because it's going to be a future question that we all should ponder sooner than later, and what does that look like? I mean Fb was built for that very problem and we seem to not even question our-self or ourselves, as to why we are so disconnected from our own hearts and thoughts. 

Comic relief- the blue-black screen of death on the mac machine - tech person famous last words - did try turning off. !! Hello McFly Gotta find a sense humor in the weirdness. 

edit: How things came true in the movie Back to Future? And how well do you actually pay attention to the newer technology that are in movie that has not been made public yet??? hmmm

8-03-24 "Afraid to be seen"- post from another source

This is a post in reply to the above title and is my view. This is not a complete opinion because I am always looking for a different perspective of what I am witnessing or observing, from a soul level. 

3 mins and I am going to stop it here. This is not out of disrespect, but the fact being "seen" is trauma-related at the core, from birth to now. This includes ancestors and I find even the most helpful psychic, intuitive, channels and healers are creating trauma in the very people that are looking for help. Along with this distortion of that, we need to be seen, that we have no value because we don't want to be on every social platform out there, that is not the point of being a spirit in human form. 

We came from love and we will return to love. Being seen is a need for validation that you exist, you exist because see yourself in the mirror. I am that I am. 

Until people challenge the core beliefs and behaviors of what is right for themselves and undo the program that you are less than the source itself embodied as love, playing a part in a grander story for the soul to learn. This requires constant listening to your own dialog and that may not be yours if intuitive, empathic, or other things that exist. 

I find that there are a lot of people telling others it is this or that, for the person questioning when the question should be turned around and asked of yourself? Like is this learn, taught, social, family, I said to myself, cultural and what is my soul learning! This concept is 

complex that involves investigating who am I on a soul level and what is soul, spirit.. etc... 

This is not as simple as one video, it's years of self-reflection and inquiry. If you were trained and taught from birth to now, on gifts and abilities with love, kindness, compassion, respect, and your mind, we live in a very different world. To be a master you have to think like a master teacher. If everything is the source and has just been labeled as this or that, you're missing the point, and is a judgment that it is not source.