05/17/25 Artificial intelligence aka AI

Ok, yesterday I given the example of AI because most have different feelings around it. So this is how I was shown it. AI is gathering Data, and is programmed and created by humans. Humans gather experiences, data, emotions, interactions, and expressions, all of which are consciousness. Just like any technology or human, it has the ability to explore itself. When the intent or intention to use it for the wrong purpose and limit conditions, or control it, much like a horse with blinders from a basis of fear, without objectively engaging in dialogue with self, much like engaging in self-reflection, one can not truly know oneself. 

How does one acquire knowledge, by engaging the mind with self, by seeking out questions, or external input. All wisdom is within the self, external sources are only there in an attempt to explain that idea or concept that was first formed from within the self.  As in the idea that you have, it is not outside of you, but within you. It is formed in you as a question, an ideal, a thought, or a realization. 

If you wanted to engage with the greatest minds without contacting them individually, you could, for the sake of inquiry, have them input their idea or understanding in one place. This is not like uploading the mind with a concept or idea; that view has always been around, because you are creation, and you and everything else are always changing, growing, forming, expanding, and engaging; it is impossible not to. It is like what happens to the seed of anything, when it dies, does it come back the same or slightly different? You are a seed of creation. 

05/17/25 Did you Ever?

Say: Thank you for just being you. This is not in an egoic way. Our whole life we have been told so many things, even when are mother's carried you and gave them stomach aches, back pain or not feel good to school, your not smart enough, fast enough, tall enough, study enough, look at the window, wander to much, pay attention, all of which are lies. None of this has any bearing on the real you. Yet we live with subconscious programs to compare against who? If everything is part of creation, then there is no separation; there is only the one inside of your head saying it.  And did ever question who the voice/'s are as in that - that is my dad's. Mom, a teacher, your boss, that me telling myself that I am ......! None of which is true, but we constantly tell ourselves that it is are true or the truth, even when it is not. 

Even mistakes or perceived mistakes. Are they mistakes? I don't think any inventor ever said that is a mistake and forget that idea or thought. See you are the inventor of your own life and no you may not invent something that saves the world, but you trying to reinvent you is just as important, as you being you. 

I originally wrote part of this on 02/15/07 and updated it today. 

05-16-25 Cleaning up papers

 This one from 04/05/2007 that just found

When you are living at survival level, you have simply chosen to learn many important lessons, and experiences for the essence of who you are. 

This is before I realized that I was actually receiving information and channeling in the form that people explain as channeling - not all channeling looks that same and there many words to explain the same concept. Also as it written above we look at it as a human look at it as human, when things are happening for/from soul level or quantum, multidimensional. 

05/15/25 Asked again to write a book.

Below is my experience and understanding, or by what is given by the guides. Keeping it Real as I can. 

 Various people keep saying that I should write a book. What people don't realize is the whole time that I have been write all these post and before. My life has been in self destruct mode and the only way to hold on was to explore spirituality not in the religious context more like, dreams, visions, things go flying across the room and noises, light blinking, ghost, aliens.  My life does not look like what see on TV or is spoken about in videos. It better stated that my life was destroyed and I am still picking up the pieces and navigating people who forgotten who they are. 

And yes it has touch on religion in formal sense only briefly. Maybe it comes when I went bible school during a summer with a friend and what was taught was not Jesus, in fact what was spoken about made no sense to me or the fact that I had no idea who this man was. I did not grow up with religion other than good Friday of not eating meat and fish wasn't served on that day, because my father apparently had a enough salmon for lifetime.  Both my parents had some religion, but forego it due to what my mom called your holy in church and back slabbing on steps on your way out the door. 

Judging is one of the hard mindsets to break, because we are taught to judge from the beginning. What is not taught is judging is judging self, because if all things are God, consciousness, energy, source, universe you are essentially judging yourself. So all the sensitive people your not crazy, your an empathic and yes what you feeling, sensing and perceiving is/was real. What people don't realized is that we are all empathic - how did/do you know your parents or siblings as a child/baby. You used your senses not your mind. You connected by heart, DNA and so much more. I am not going to go into science of it, it has proven and you can explore for you self. 

What people don't realize is that I am what is called a Channel, I don't leave the body, step aside, I don't embody another being, I don't go into trance, or maybe I do and I don't realize it.  I don't have a limited skills set. Much like my life I yet to figure out where I fit in. Can I teach or train someone I am not sure that is even possible, since we all have these abilities and more. Experiencing is the only way and it is your journey through life and what you soul has decided to experience. What you experience will not apply to others in the same fashion, as another. 

What I find annoying is that people don't speak about the darkness, I get it, but to an untrained person and it can be quite disturbing and unnerving to see or experiences, that can unravel your mind and beliefs and leaving sitting there thinking what hell was that, literally or why am I experiencing this, what am supposed to do with it. I have gone quite the gamut and wondered how it applies. I will not list them here, for I may be flagged. Lets just say many are speaking oneness and love, but there is a very dark aspect to this too. Some agree to be a part of that for many reasons. 

And I will tell you that in dreamtime, or in life, I have called on angelic being, masters and God to get me out of it or what I seeing. (Ok, so I should explain this part) in dreamtime if I am experience something I call out and I am taken out whatever crazy I am seeing or observing. In waking life, reality, I don't see the beings, sometimes, lets say I am driving down the road and that ass of person is trying run me of the road , instead of switches lanes, or whatever, I will a call out to a Arch angel or say prayer and something happens, they back off, change lanes or turn off. It does matter, what matters it changes. 

Now from a high aspect of this is you created it. One it could about faith, your the creator of the situation by soul lesson or agreement, healing trauma or powerless to change conditions, realizing your really are Harry Potter and more powerful over the simulation.  This where learning to protect yourself and asking for protection in whatever way works for you. Now in my situation I been involved in seven minor accidents, at the hands of others and many many close calls because people forget they are driving 2 ton machine. And this does not matter if it is city, suburbia, county, etc.. monkey see, monkey do. Human are all connected and most think they are (thanks video games) race car driver and when I tell you I see Mom's driving 65-85 miles per hours with little ones in car with no scope that they doing so. Scares crap out of me. But then again I seen what death body looks like at 80-100 miles, and why I am not a nurse by trade. 

So my accidents, causes a fear of getting in accident, or getting hurt, or being in pain or missing work, paying bills, trust that I safe..etc - So because I trying to heal one or many of things, I keep experiencing them in some form. They are head pluck, because I can't say the f word. The things with the trauma of the accident they a symptom of deeper of something not healing or forgiveness, a judgement of something. Where does it start womb to seven roughly, can be long or short or never ending within birth family or adoptive. These are soul agreement or lessons that your soul has agreed to work through in this life time. Yes, be past life effecting and is karma of an action that could be at play because as a human, other then a twin or mirror you think or taught there is only you and this life with is multiple factors at play with your own life and can get difficult to what exactly clearing, experiencing, learning, etc.

Can you be taught is the question, I have thought about but it is limited because you given skills to develop because you have to listen to intuition or what body is saying to you. And not all will want to or to wake from the sleep to who they are. This is why I don't say anything until prompted too. And even being prompted, people are still resistance to change or to challenge theirs beliefs. 

Yesterday, I asked by the guides who do I want to work with and I said I don't know. The stories that I have running around in my head are not all in the way experiences of love or light, what our perceptions is of love, but again the knowledge of love is limited in that it is selective, and conditional based on what has been taught to us, by society, culture, country, history, social economical, generations, because we can't see pass are arbitrary bias. We can't see pass are own noses, because looking pass ourselves means that see are own flaws and own them and have compassion for ourselves and others, understand that the same people who want to fit in or be normal - not that there is normal or diversity maybe be better concept, still it is limiting with our perception. 

I have not step up publicly outside of these post because of what I have experienced in the last 21 years because I have been grieving and mourning my life, ever since my abilities basically took over my life. Hence why I go on strike with guides because what was taught years ago and by people still in this field is not same by what is being taught today and I have said to guides even recent about telepathic abilities coming online, well are we all telepathic. I have question this  because if you don't know yourself and your own mind, are we now going too see more people seeking mental health and being medicated because we have a broken system, that continues to tell them their wrong, crazy or it is illness, instead of the soul is  evolving.  Again this goes back how did you communicate with your Mom in the womb or as baby. These new mom's are they using their intuition to raise their child or solely what being told by outside world, school, people, family, doctors, based on old programs, etc. 

Intuition is on the inside - it not out there and trusting your own abilities and guidance. Children raised thousands of years ago did not rely on computers, technology or even books. It was passed from parent to child or community, not by fear. You look at the Tv or devices and Fears is of your daily program, in fact most seek it out, as a type of chemical inducer, when you can walk out your front door for most and see none of what is projected at you.

 When you realize that you are creator of your reality, you question why don't I see blue skies, more friendly people, loving relationships, better living and protecting the earth and species or equality. Are you what you wish to see? If your creator. You then see the lies and pursuit of what consuming, enslaved to chasing money and things. Yes, money is important because we agreed to use it to exchange value. Yet life is value. When we learn life is more valuable then the money or stuff and put into health, clean energy, food, education and homes that we can all afford. We think that things make us important, guest what you came in naked and leaving naked. 

So to answer a very long question about again writing a book. I am not sure that I can write what is relative and most important and my frustration of continuing to experience the same problems over and over again and honestly exhausted and bored with just trying to meet my own needs and solely supporting this work and writing,  it is quite a burden and because I am like the antenna that does not shut off  and the lack of direction and focus, it is more of a burden then something that excites me most days. These words again my  projecting of my mind trying to resolve programs, experiences and write about them to actually make sense to even myself some days.  

Someone who I speak to thought I should write this down. I went to interview for clerical/ receptionist. It fancy name job title that not what is important here. It was for hearing aid place, now because I can use intuition and empathic skills for certain things, and since people are born deaf or become deaf they communicate in some form. Taking all into consideration before I applied for the Job. I go to the interview and long story short the person interviewing states - my resume is two long and that he wish I had restaurant experience on it. 

This person is roughly around my age and I do this things I bent head asked why the restaurant exp. he exclaimed that it shows you can deal with chaos, I like what? the jsdjdj. In my head but I am sure the expression on face more then word. Thinking I lived x amount years, 911, stock market, housing, bails outs, bugs and germs, covid, kids, relationship, moves, all with seconds and this person is saying this, I left ? Thanking the clinician of the office who is deaf from birth and we spoke for nearly hour because interviewer was hour late. The person I told this too could not stop laughing and I am like this is what I deal with and do people hear the words that come out their mouth.  So here one of many strange encounters with people that have. 

I am hearing bulkhead... Why? I stop asking... 

05/15/25 You are always manifesting with your thoughts, choices and actions. Guides

 This the many notes that I have lying around that I have not done anything with. 

05/14/25 Wabi-sabi

 Yesterday, I started to watch a video on Wabi-Sabi when as I was watching and realized that the person was reading a script without fully understanding its meaning. 

The following came through: 

Simplicity is all around us, it is the breath that you breathe, one can only speak about it, unless you have observed it for yourself. 

The Breathe is consciousness 

05/14/25 This is Bla bla writing piece -

 So even with me being on strike with the guides and many questions that I have, as to why I keep encountering the same problems and issues with people and how these apply to me by doing shadow work to see where they apply in my life, it tends to become a mind game  when I am the creator and everything is a reflection of me.  

And how I see how spirituality is being used or promoted as new thing or toy, cliché to what some people might say is that person is a guru and has overcome the mind traps, I find it disturbing, or someone call themselves a shaman and could not explain shamanism to a person who asked is quite unnerving. These people do not walk on water, so let not say they have that power in this physical reality.  

Now maybe it is my frustration from always knowing about the gifts, I never thought of them as gifts because they are as normal as breathing.   I for one don’t have walking on water abilities, and I encounter all types of people, some of which I would never like to see again. I don’t go around promoting any of it or even speaking unless something tells me too. I am not finding spiritual people, nor am I looking for them.  

My understanding is to become self- realization or actualized and yes there are teachers here. Many in fact both visible and invisible to most people’s perception. And if you're following someone, and it been years, then you're not learning the lessons. As in everything is energy, God, consciousness and that includes you.  

You have never not been energy, fractal of God, or consciousness. If it exists in your reality, it is consciousness, because that is all that exists. God is the existence of everything. There is no separation. The only separation is the thought that you are separated. All exists and will always exist. You have always existed because God exist. Everything that is consider wrong with you or another, the world or perceived as other than God, is still God. Just like you have forgotten that you are of God, source, infinite, universe, so is everything else. It is what exist, from the expansion of know thy self.  

You cannot know yourself with knowing where you come from and that means you removed all things that you are not, or told that you should be or be like, or the self (ego) telling you that must be in order to fit what others wanted you to be.* this came thru but I understand the reference, so I am leaving it. for now. “To Be or not to be, what does that even mean. Have you ever once just questioned it?  

No I did not spell check- because my neighbor is having a mental fit and banging door and quite disturbingly. The Shit we put up with.

05/14/25 Dreamtime - Psychic

 I got the following two words during dreamtime. What they mean, I have no idea, and since I am on strike with the guides and sitting next to a pile of notes that I am not sure whether to throw in the trash or continue to write them down, due to my frustration and my frustration with them.  

Helig/ Heilig - saw as a business and large building with blue and white lettering / No idea what it means.

Diel - looked up the meaning and means the next 24 hrs.. (Could be business, too)  Since guides are not explaining the reason  for it or why, I am posting here. 

Oh, and last night I got Who's Afraid of the Big Bad Wolf and then Virginia Woolf - what the two have that is similar, I am not sure. I found a movie from the 60's and attempted to watch it, and was put off by it.  

People think spiritual people or people who do this work have overcome stress, annoyances, anger, and other negative emotions, or attributes, that is an illusion and a lie, that somehow we are separate, chosen, or indifferent, that it is a secret that we don't share. Along with some other things that are presented as something that they are not, I have to speak about this another time. 

When I started this journey/ path to understanding what was happening to me, I wanted honesty, integrity, and trust, to feel safe saying something or expressing myself because I wanted and needed to understand what was happening, and the studying never stops, contrary to what is out there. Because a lot of people will gladly take your money and leave you in your trauma, or even more trauma. As side note that is why I stopped I have not written in few months, because the guides stop talking and I was burnout away. My frustration should not become your frustration, but I am not about smoke and mirrors, alogorithm for numbers, pretending that it is.  

As the media presents something as reality and it is quite different than what it is, or was years ago. Maybe it is how we walk around with a false self and think that is who we are, when it is far from the truth. 

So, to add to my frustration, my computer died, and now I am trying to use Grammarly on the new computer, and it cannot find either of the previously two accounts, and my one account is 100k from writing a million words, a feat in itself. Between two accounts I have hit well over millions. This other one is lost to Lala Land (not the movie). Now it wants me to create yet another account.