And my first thought is, why? Because, as glamorous as videos and Hollywood would make it seem, along with other people, who make it out to be. It is far from the whole truth. I sit with things that I know about, meaning the dark stuff of child abuse, child rape or violation, or violence by the parent, husband, sibling, or boyfriend. Or other gnarly stuff done without someone's consent. Much less a cheating spouse or even seeing an illness or death that has already been written. It's not all, Mom, or Dad, whoever has passed over, and certainly not about lottery numbers, because there would be no need for me to work. (This is only a small description of my encounters)
I don't know if it shows when someone is reading tarot cards in front of you. I had people read for me or use tarot cards to say things to me, to question whether it happened because they said something to me or because I didn't listen to my own knowing, and created karma by disempowering myself, or leave in tears because of how it was presented without any tact. As for a video per se, most of the readings are for a general audience. I question the ethics on some, and there are 8.2 billion people on the planet, the last time I checked. The likelihood that someone speaking verbatim and directly to you, through a tarot card reading via YU video, is that you are more likely to be struck by lightning. Jokingly, I don't wish that on anyone. Side note: There may be a question of created reality, like deja vu, beforehand, because always manifested in the present moment.
I see some people speaking about telepathy, which is all well and good, but are they teaching the difference between various beings that are out there because it is not all light, as they would have you think. Or what about hearing random information, like they're an alcoholic, there's not a good person, they use people, or what about illness, they're lying to you and themselves. Even things like don't buy that car or sign that contract.
I think about these things as I watch or listen to someone speak in a video or the various manifesting videos telling you if you believe hard enough, it will happen for you, or what about your soul's blueprint, maybe you're not supposed to be a famous person, or you want wealth and chasing it, leading you in the wrong direction, chase something that's not really important, in the scope of things.
Or the newest one, you're here to change the world, well, that's a very large shoe to fit into and solve world problems. Our governments can't even work together. Maybe just try to treat people and yourself with love and kindness, and no, you're not here to love everyone. Even with the knowledge that all is from the one source, or loving yourself first, and maybe not in a narcissistic way, maybe try being yourself for a while, if you even know what that is. Maybe learning to set clear boundaries and not trying to fix the world, because trying to fix the world or people is saying that they are not a sovereign being living out their own soul blueprint and their choice for this life. As guides have said your not here to save people from suffering.
I am saying not this because I don't want people to not do it, but because there are burdens that come with this work, and as fairy, magical, and lighthearted as people make it out to be, it comes with huge responsibility. Because if I could go back, I would do an about-face and say, "Thanks, but no thanks." That apparently is not my soul's calling in this life. And I spend the better part of my life trying to understand my innate gifts, clear the crap that is on-going that I've gone through before and after. To sit here and say, "How do you teach people to do this work for themselves?" When I have been trying to figure it out for over two decades, myself. That is before I knew that books even existed, which, unlike other people had knowledge of or even been taught about. You don't learn this work in a day, week, or even a year. I would not even suggest it in five years, because it is on-going.
To question what hell am I doing because by all accounts my life has not improved, more like destroyed it, and then some, to become smaller when I realized that the world is a pretty messed-up place. To what, then, you have changed, but the world has not, and looks pretty rough with all the distractions that do not account for providing for a life that is gone, in a world that is working backwards against itself.
I should also mention that when the door blew open after my son's birth, I was overwhelmed by it, not prepared in any way for what was happening to me. Even to this day, I feel unprepared and numb by it all at times. I am now calling it spiritual noise, wondering whether it's worth it to continue, trying to do this work. I sit here with no real idea where it is going, and I can't decide whether I am overwhelmed with it because of dealing with one thing after another.
All I wanted was to work from home, and where I live now, I would never call it home. I wanted to be there for my children, and that was taken from me by the courts, the system. Friends and family, as well as partners, are all part of the destruction of my life, and there are just too many fake people to have to weed through them to bother, or I find that people have no idea how to connect on a deep soul level. I get it, people don't know emotional intimacy, because your parents had no clue, and who knows how far back it goes, or life gets busy. We don't practice sharing emotions or over-sharing because we learned to stuff so far down, or for drama, for lack of attention, or martyr ourselves, that we are afraid of feeling the emotions of them and ourselves.
We have no idea how to be present with people, and much less with ourselves. The old adage " get it done, and move on". I think well, if you're not present for people and not present with your partner or kids, are you present in your own life? Then again, this is the pitfall of the empath, because we feel too much, or is it a natural inclination as humans? Due to no clear boundaries, due to poor parenting, or due to society, social platforms, and media's conditions. Something that I have been questioning recently.
This may be because I feel the intent of use of the wording and its projection by people speaking out about it, using the Empath and Avoidance (not sure if using the narcissist as the avoider, now) by Carl Jung as a gateway for explaining generations of a dysfunctional society, but what do I know! I gave up being a counselor when teachers argued that mind-body separation still exists, and it dates back to the 17th century with Descartes, who argued that there is a connection, which I think has been taken out of context, that there is a spiritual soul aspect to you and life. Maybe it is religious dogma to keep you separated from yourself, versus as in " know thyself". And what does that really mean! Since you have been told who you are or projected who you are since coming into the world. And maybe that's where we should start, the beginning of all the things that you're not.
I am hearing to post this, but feel at the same time it is incomplete. I added to it, took things out and away, and biased with my opinions on things, and not always positive on things, as they are presented by others. But that has not been my experience, and I think it should be presented as such. This is not taught in a video, TV segment, or really spoken about.
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