11-06-22 Let's really talk -me talking to guides

 

Let's really talk about really being psychic, medium, or being a Channel in life. For one thing, my life has been a series of events both good and bad. I have walked through things that I never thought I could or expected to show up in my life. Even with everything that I do, I still have to heal and fight my own demons. These demons are not real in the aspect that they are real demons, they are unsolved pain, hurt, suffering, forgiveness, and anger from what I have experienced thrust so far.

People, family, friends, and society that continue to treat people or persons less for being different. I have always known I am different and not ego way but from a heart-centered connection. Were taught all these fallacies that create ripples into ourselves that stem from no-thing, but ego and fear. I am constantly in conflict with myself. I want a normal life, and normal does not exist. And as for spirituality, everything is spiritual in nature because everything is God.

The Guides have said you are gifted, at prediction and prophecy and I like that great, but what about this and that, they tell me that I worry too much. Which triggers me into well I have been to this for this amount of time, and I am still nowhere near achieving the things that I want or need, yet I really do have them in my life, I prefer that they be different. And they are things some people take for grant.

I then say, anyone who does this work comes up against opposition, because we live in a world that is so polarized. If we look at any Master teaching from Jesus to Gandhi, Buddha and all the others have been attacked, persecuted, or even killed for their ideology. So why in the world would I want to subject myself to the energy of people who would wish ill intention against me? I have by all definitions experienced this up until this point in my life.

It started when I child and continues up until this day. If not from another person, it is my own thoughts creeping in saying that you should be doing more, or no one is listening, or you must do this way. When the fact is I don’t want to do it all. I don’t want to go on YouTube, or any platform to get the word out about what I can do, or I sense with my intuition. Is it 100% accurate I have no idea except when I speak to individuals and tell them about their life, which I think comes for the akashic records at this point!

Then you throw in multiple timelines and realities, past life memories, and that there is not one of you and your fractal of God and of yourself. It all starts to sound like bat shit crazy or I have one too many cocktails. Hell, which does not exist, the Human is made in the form of a cross, with exceptions, but a living breathing being with this vessel.

It is ok to be called crazy because I have thought it myself and people tried to medicate me for things that had nothing to do with being psychic or intuition, seeing a ghost or other being, or one of many other things that I spend that greater part of 18 years trying to research or reading a book, after book that would validate what I experienced. I encounter groups of people that say we don’t talk about it, or you created it, kick off a person's website, firsthand experience with my own eyes that I sought books, videos, and lectures to be ok with these experiences. I have gone to events with most of the top people in their field and continue to research for what, to prove what and speak to people, to deal with people who have no clue about what exactly.

If I am so crazy for my beliefs, call me crazy but have you watched the news or what the media and government are doing? I for one think that my odd somewhat obsession with looking for answers to what seems like solvable solutions if we just got out of fear mode and consider for just one moment that my neighbor, that child, or any person is looking for the same things that I am looking for and that is peace and to live their life to their best ability.

Whether, black, green, or purple, male, or female are we not looking for the same thing.! I have not traveled that world, but I hope to yet with the virus thing, that is out of the question, at the moment. I have been up and down the coast and I have seen that pretty much people live that same everywhere. Maybe not as Africa, India, or China, etc. But one truth is that people want to be loved and work at something they love doing that fulfills them and brings them the opportunity to live in joy and happiness with the people they care about.

You want to live in fear of everything that is one way to explore life and the experiences of such. I for one think that there is a better way without war, guns, violence, and whether I am going die if I walk out my door or speak to a person, regardless of the situation. Preferably, I would rather not see any of it, but it exists because there is an entire planet that wishes to what control, dominate, consume, and have power over what? If there is perhaps a single chance that we have gotten wrong and wrong for a very, very long time and we’re warring with no one other than ourselves, is not time that we change what we taught, learned, and explore other options.