05/2726 Global dismemberment

 In shamanic practice, there is a vision or the soul calls forth the dissolution of the false world that has been created. One where the paradigm changes from what was to something that only seems like magic, or paranormal, or what can seem like a psychosis when everything that you formally knew dissolves and changes, morphs into what is real and not real. 

*Note, you can Google: Shamanic or spiritual dismemberment. 

What is being seen and felt around the world is a shift from one world to another; this is not an instance but a gradual step into something new. All the darkness that more or less has been hidden below the surface is coming up to be looked at with new eyes to make choices as to whether we as humanity want to continue to deceive ourselves that we are powerless creators to change our reality. 

You're taught that you are second to the Gods, that too of the powers to be, when it is simply not true. It is time that you know who you really are, and as the old world collapses to restructure itself, you will have to make choices along the way as to what works and what does not.  

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So, I wrote this today, but it seemed disjointed in its connection to information. And it is disjointed only because I don't completely understand it, and what I see most people want is prediction, or to do this work, without cleaning up their shadow selves, or manifesting dream life, again, without doing any real work. This is as I sit here typing this, questioning spirituality within my own life and whether it has benefited me to continue down this path.

 This is, of course, after asking myself why certain things have played out in my life and why, on most days, I feel I live two very different lives. And like most people, I like having control or continuity. Not that I feel I have had any control or stability in the sense of manifesting, having to make decisions and choices, on the fly or without a great ripple effect that reaches farther and deeper than I ever thought possible.  

When I tell those who ask that I have done this my whole life and have blocked it to a degree because people are cruel, they are like, "It's so cool," and say, "I wish I could do that." I say, " Well, you can with practice. Yet, I also hold my tongue, because as more and more people awaken, "it is so cool", via media such as video, or what have you. The truth is, most people are afraid of the truth, and what they are not even honest with themselves about, they pretend to be. This is not all people, but a great number of people.  

I was shown a few years back a sphere and all these lines, we will call them timelines, that would converge into a single thread or line. I knew what I saw in the image. I once asked what I thought about creating a world that is what most believe is ideal. I think, for I am not them, on what a world not even conceived of, I stated maybe a 1000 years, that is a long time. I think we are the beginnings of some profound stuff, or truths. 

This is also when we can't put down our own judgments, based on limited knowledge or understanding. For example, I went to the store yesterday, and a woman who did not know me made a judgment about me without even saying a word, yet I felt it. Standing there, I knew it was not my stuff, and her projection was based on something that I mirrored to her, something about her. Of course, her judgment was unfounded and limited by her filter of perception of me. This shows that we are quick to past judgement without validation of information, about anything. 

As for the title and why the guides gave me the title before the context, I am assuming is because I am always asking why, because my own life was real physical dismembered not as image, or a request at the time, that it happened, for I knew nothing at time other than being extremely sensitivity to peoples energy and a door that open without any true guidance and the people who I did know were out of my reach, and family that came with own reckoning of destruction. I would like to say that I have recovered and integrated all that I learned. The truth is, it is a daily practice, and some days there are no answers. 

I recently told someone that I surrendered both worlds, and they told me I gave up. I said No, I surrender it, it is not giving up; it is surrendering to the unknown, to stop trying to control it, because there is no real control over how fast or slow things happen. This is after twenty-plus years of dismantling my life. Some people experience it as illness, accident, death, divorce, or loss of a job, one of a thousand ways that it could happen. Mine was down to a suitcase and a few boxes when it was said and done.  And try as I might, neither side of my life is whole and complete. It seems to be an ongoing process of letting go, or acceptance of what is, or allowing things to unfold as they come. 

So, the conclusion of a very long explanation, that I don't know what is coming, unless it is given to me, for I am here to experience those same events, as everyone else. What I can tell you is that spirituality is about being connected to your true self, not about the predictions, probabilities, or where we came from, or where we are going. For we are the creators of our reality from a soul level and not a mind level. 

5/25/26 Shadows -who are you really!

 Someone recently said, " If I would/ were to write about something else. Honestly, I don't know other than to talk about the shadow of ourselves. Everyone talks about spirituality as a way to I think moreless access realms that most people do not know exist. What all of these people don't speak about is how to truly come into balance within yourself. You need to do the work by looking at the programs and conditions that are within you and have been inherited from what is considered normal; there is no normal, per se. 

Guides/me: Social conditioning and engineering are ever so present now, and many of the things that the world is facing in the news are the same conditioning to create separation, division from people, or within yourself. I see and hear people taking several paths; there is no one path for anyone. Everyone is as sacred as the breath that you breathe. You take the path by doing research into various subjects that, with enough research, could lead to the same conclusion that most spirituality teachers have access to, which people are looking for. 

*Note: Even religion and Science can not agree on the origins, or are not willing to openly state their thoughts for fear of ridicule or their position, because that is how narrative is censored from indoctrination of fear. Just look at the history of Violence on our planet. 

I also see people using it for escapism or as another form of separation. Presenting it as a hierarchical system that suggests someone or anyone has more knowledge or wisdom, or research that they know more than most. They can, to a degree, by also perceiving that they are above others, which is the complete opposite of most teaching.  That is no different than the church telling you, you have sinned, and only they have the power to speak on behalf of God, the consciousness or methodology they are using. Without telling you, you are an aspect of it all, from the source of creation to Aliens. 

My position is that you already are what you seek, because you have journeyed through this life and many others that make up your soul expression. You have always been enough and loved, and are love. There is nothing else that exists. And always connected to yourself, higher power, source, universe, God, and all other manifestations of messengers, as I call them. This is my interpretation. 

Yes, you may need to be trained and practice to access the other realms to connect again with yourself. You are the guru, master, and even your own shrink. Yes, there may be times when you need to work in a group or individually through events. We/you are taught to look outside of yourself, not to trust yourself, conform to conditioning, and not all souls will awaken and will move on, because they have not chosen it, for this lifetime. 

This does not mean that they are not part of the all, the one collective, universe, source. When they leave this form of being a human, they will again have access to the reasons, choices, and conditions that they chose to learn in this go around on earth. For you are not them, and as they are not you. All come to play on earth, for it is for the growth of the soul to learn, play, express, create, and love, experiencing being a human in a body. 

There also seems to be a belief that it is different groups, alien or otherwise, throughout history. If you remember or know that you played the games on both sides, out on this planet and others, for eons.  All civilizations here and elsewhere have gone through evolving and destroying themselves and rebuilding, or being blocked from progressing to do it again and again. 

 Earth is no different. You agreed to forget, to come raise the vibration of energy by remembering who you are, because many people have memories of the many wars, the destruction, and traumas that have been experienced by or as an embodied soul, much of that is playing out for you to again remember. Enlightenment is realizing that you're more than this body, not to leave that body, to be embodied with enlightenment, enlightenment in the body, as the source, the creator, the soul expression or being that you truly are, not just this body on a planet, hurdling through space. 

Just the word alone should state something to you: Enlightenment - to en/in lighten within, "ment" means the action or process, of a specific state or condition.  You hear of angels or Et being, that are luminous beings, are you not: a luminescence being. You have learned to fear what you do not understand; that is who you really are. Not this body, not your mind, or thoughts and beliefs, or the conditions that you find yourself in. 

5/21/26 Intuitive information

5/10/26 Civil unrest

5/13/26 Human potential

Heard - That we are swimming in the unknown. So, previously, I stated we are in a collapse; it should be relabeled as the reconstruction of the systems that do not serve the people. We have made agreements on soul levels that we would dismantle the old, outdated programs that are currently spiraling out of control. As the narrative continues to project, otherwise. This is not some apocalyptic or post-apocalyptic event that has been pushed by genre. As humanity awakens, so does the planet within the solar system; nothing is ever stagnant. Yet the media will push otherwise. Believe it or not, there are people in waiting to step in and up, as the towers fall, where lies and deceit have been planted. 

5/14/26 Technological? 

5/15/26 Shown during sleep and heard his name, Stanley Tucci? No idea why

5-16-26 William? My first thought is Prince William? 

So, because I also share the weird, too, I was given a headline, yet it was written in what I call Elf script; I have no idea what it said. It could have been some ancient text, too.

Mexico? 

On 5/09/26, I had a strange dream. This could be a message or information: Man & woman on a date, but slept over, left the truck, a child's school, a truck driving without its lights on, other people and cars, before daylight. 

Heard Venus for the astrology people. I don't know what it means in my own chart, because Mom could never remember what time I was born, odd but true, and it's not something that I have studied. 

I also get people's names first only. I made it clear that this is first and last with spirits, because without more information, it could be anyone: Savannah, Jesse, Marykate 2x's. These were all on different days. It's like spirits on the other side who don't realize they can speak English, and I'm left to figure out what they just said. 

I also got 16 candles like the movie, now is it the movie or a birthday reference? So Happy birthday to someone. 

05/07/26 Intuitive and messages

 I had a dream about two Earths; they looked similar, yet they were different. I cannot tell you or remember why they were different, other than that they felt completely different. Sorry, a lot of the use of the word different. 

Heard -Nicaragua? 

Heard Yeshua, Buddha, and " All my relations", indigenous 

Woke up to hear 1951? I looked it up, and this year the US tested Nuclear testing. It is my understanding that this is when the earth made itself known that we could destroy the planet. Which, by the way, a decree was made that an invention has and will happen, to shut down missiles, silos, and facilities, by disarming them. * There are other facts for that year, I think, it is that is more relevant, pointing to the nuclear testing. 

Hearing: Dissolve all disillusion? 

Heard " 16 Candles"  - Movie/message

I saw this napping/meditation, George Michael Chef?  I know that George Michael passed away in 2016, and the famous Freedom song was released 16 years ago.   So, I am not sure why this is important. I did look it up, and there is a reference to a chef. Who has a bit of some issues in the news. Side note: #16 is connected to this. In 2016, Freedom was released 16 years ago, 16 candles above. I am also hearing across the pond. 

Hearing the song- What the world needs now is Love, sweet love. 

Saw the word Hollywood-? 

I heard the Majestic 12? 

Hearing the Lord's Prayer: Hallow be thy name? ( I may have posted this) 

05/04/26 Random information

 I am not sure what this message is. I woke up to:  "I think Isabell/Isabella knows."? No idea what it means. I saw it as it is written. As one line. 

I just got Popcorn. I wrote a piece where the guides say get out your Popcorn like watching a movie, and watch the performance. I linked here: if it does not work, put in the search bar, as the guides would not make a reference unless it was important. 

06-26-25 Intuitive Information (a little long) fix

So to add to the weird, I was outside and felt and saw someone walk towards me, turned, and no one was there. As this happened, I looked towards the ground, as I was standing on a small creek bridge, and something moved below me that was as large as a very small car. I said to myself, jokingly," Is that a dinosaur/or a very large turtle, or even a craft. Because that was the size and shape of it. I decided to try to explain it. The object was invisible, but visible or cloaked; you might say it was similar to the shape of a turtle and had to be 5-6ft long, and had a shimmer. No, I was not smoking funny stuff, and you don't need that to have these experiences. 

Here is another experience we will call a matrix glitch. I was again outside. I watched this guy cross the street. He was maybe 50 yards. Far enough that I could see him and he could see me if he looked, but not close enough to see anything odd happening.   I looked away for a moment, and it happened again, like the first time, exactly crossing the street like there were two of them. So why is this important? We tend to dismiss these events as tricks of the mind or of our eyes. Saying to ourselves, "I did not see that."  For one, you can't explain it, and two, you think who would believe me. Guides say that it doesn't matter who believes you; do you believe you saw something? You saw it for a reason, and what that reason is depends on you, and trusting yourself and your own intuition. These things are subtle, like seeing 1111, 222, or hearing your name when no one is around, or having a dream about Uncle Joe, Grandmom. 

These are your intuition, the guides talking to you. They want you to stop dismissing them. Think about it this way: all the things that were or are created or not created, because we were told to dismiss that thought, vision, or even ourselves. It is a living awareness, call it a God connection, intuition, or intuitive consciousness. Are you not a conscious/ness being, as the guides would say! 

{Indonesia?  

I had added a fake UAP sightings and removed it. As well as a posed so-called invasion, or what have you. And I think I posted before, not sure at the moment. I based it on the idea that people can't wrap their heads around being part of God, yet add "Alien" to it, and their reality can't accept it. If everything is God, source, creator, anyway, what is the differential, nothing. Just a lack of self-inquiry. We are disclosure. 

I keep hearing the Lord's Prayer- I am not sure of the reference or use of it, maybe an intercession, to intervene for humanity. " I just heard this. "Know that I am God before no other". 

Town crier- an announcement?  I have a different take on a town crier, and it consists of a person who is in everyone's business, without looking at their own stuff. It's like that one person at a new job who tells you everyone and everything stuff, without you even wanting it. 

I got Awareness "is" Awareness. 

I had a dream about Gas being 24.00.  Yes, you're reading that right. I have seen gas go up in five days go from 4.39, 4.49, to today, 4.69. When I had the dream, I thought it was just over the top and far-reaching. I went looking to see where the highest is, and in California came in at 6.00 on 4/24/26. 

Trucking: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p43uxTa2u6c - This may help understand why it is so high. As for the comments on the video, I did not check them, nor do I support them. I was looking at the 24.00 gas price, and since I was just let go from a company that had its own trucks, I was curious. 

04/26/26 Intuitive

 I heard over and over again, during my entire night's sleep on 04/25/26, the Name Robert Sharp, or Richard Sharpe,  year 1912. I have no idea who this person is. Why it was necessary for me to hear it and now post it? message maybe.  

Heard: Armenian 

Elon Musk

*thermodynamics 

The War within- a psychological perspective, I suggest looking up, outward wars are inner wars towards the self. Ie: You are told, hear, see something, and you know something within you that it is wrong, creating conflict. 

Hearing a Cadence, "sound off 123, " 2x

Something with the Mason-Dixon Line? 

Grossmeyer

Morphogenetic Field

 I was sleeping and saw the word "Clash," not the band. 

Heard Lockheed-Martin 2x's

Secret Service (may have post it, but here it is again)

I am not sure if this is a message to someone who reads this from my hometown. I had images of photo pictures of women, unable to tell if all the same person, a Woman Diver picture in pose,  The Town -theater, Levittown Rec Center that was nearby, connected to LPR pools (Most of the pools have been gone for years). 

04/19/26 This comes with a trigger warning, when you are not enough.

Hearing post it. 04/21/26 

The following is documentation that I have kept doing daily for the last 14 months, plus a whole other crazy. I had to look at the part of my life that I endured as a child in my adult life, trying to understand why things have happened in the way that they have, including behaviours and beliefs that I have received from what is considered generational trauma.

 This is by looking at one's own family history, and historical history, parents, grandparents, and great-grandparents, if available. If adopted or if there is a separation from one parent or the other, the same would apply.  These are, for all intents and purposes, trauma to you, or you carry, that needs to be cleared or looked at, because on some level, they are still at play. And it just takes one person to say wait a minute. 

This is not something taught unless you question your reality.  I am not a psychologist or doctor; at one point, I wanted to be a psychologist. I'm just one person whose life got turned upside down when my life crashed around me, and a spiritual door opened that I had not known about. Yet, had been experiencing it since I was a child and had no reference point. And wandered down a long road that created more confusion than help at times. Even now, when spirituality seems to be a multi-million dollar business. When your spiritual first, not the other way around. I have known this since I was a child, and for as long as I can remember, and forgot it through conditioning. 

So let me tell you why I am writing this piece. I encountered a child and ignored the child, knowing fully well that by engaging I was putting myself in a situation where I have no way to help him, and possibly endangering myself. I have reported to the complex that I live in, I have called the police, and I have my documentation of what I experienced by living next to them or witnessing it in person.  I have been repeatedly told "they will talk to them" to the person in question, told by the police that not a noise issue, when expressing concerns about child safety and conditions. Told by the police that what happens in one's home or apartment does not warrant a complaint for them to come out.  Listed at the end. 

I have witnessed this more times than I would like to say, since the spiritual door opened. I have had to look at it with different eyes, because therapy is limited in many ways. This includes my own handling of situations or thoughts, when I have flown off the handle from stress, or just being empathetic and picking up on other people's energy, creating situations that create fear, control, punishment, or to manipulate other people because they have not looked at their own abusive tendencies. What is also not acknowledged is that the same beliefs and behaviors are passed down through the family lines, programming for grand- parents to parents to children. The only way to break the program is to break the beliefs and behaviors. 

There is a thought that we create reality, good, bad, and indifferent, to learn soul lessons, all playing their part to act as a mirror of creation. I can't argue for it or against it; for my own mind can't completely wrap my mind around it. There is a misnomer that spiritually awake people don't encounter these toxic people. Once you have been cracked open to realize something is seriously wrong, because as you awaken or have an experience that opens just a little bit, you realize that consciousness has become a commodity to keep you in Fear and against other people.  

The guides said, " Fear is a learned response to an event." I asked how this is helpful, considering that it is multifaceted.  In that it, it could be a present life, generational, Past life, even galactic, to a soul contract to act as a catalyst, or a soul lesson to yourself or for another person's soul evolution, or people. This is where many of my conflicts or confusion arise from. 

 As the child above, who may be in a soul contract with this situation with the mother, myself trying to report it in the hope that it registers that there is a problem and why I continue to find these people around me, knowing my own trauma as a child, and the long-term effect it has had on me as a person. This is where the misnomer comes from about spiritual people and the projection by them or someone thinking that they are completely healed,  that we stop encountering polarity; we are still human and walk our own journey with all of what is happening. When we only see it for what they are, and hopefully have a hefty toolbox to disengage from them, not always. 

Because once the crack opens, you may become aware, that does not mean that the rest of the world is or people are too enlightened, too. 

This is months of this, starts as early as 8 AM and goes until 10 PM or even later, and the child in question was 4, now 5 years old. What did you endure, or what did your parents endure, because this is learned behavior, beliefs, and Fear. If the prior generation did not clear it, now it is on you to acknowledge it, clear and heal it, to break the programming. It is the only way to stop it. This is self-hate, self-harm, not lovable, not or never good enough, that comes from others. I am touching on only a few. 

Most of this happens behind closed doors, not seen by friends, other family members, disempowering, dominance of standing over you, pinning you in corners, bullying, gaslighting, the narcissist, male or female, the psychopath, creating trauma bonding, well into future relationships. Turn people into predators, and the masks that they wear. Someone recently said to me, why are you the only one reporting this. I wasn't the only person, but I told the person in question because they are afraid for their safety, and I am too, but doing nothing is condoning that it ok to do to anyone. If all the shit that I've been through has taught me anything, it is this: For what you do to another, you do to yourself.  

As someone who grew up living like this, on eggshells, not being able to breathe or fear of breathing, making too much noise, or taking on the abuse so my siblings would not have to when I was a child myself. And the other parent knew, allowed it, and even ignored it, to what I would say abandoning us and condemning it. Possibly her own family issues that were not looked at, I can only speculate at this point.  

(Told to write this) This is where I'm going to tell that someone did know or has the awareness that something is off or very wrong, as to what has happened to you, even if you feel alone and you think no one cares. For reasons outside of time and space, it is known about. 

The List:  (I was given:  The armchair parenting by guides, did not know prior) I am sure that we have all done this at some point as a parent, or to a partner, due to our daily lives. This is behavior that becomes a habit and devalues people as less important than the activity that you're doing.  

04/12/26 6:41 PM  - Screaming at the kid, all afternoon, the TV! 

Now the kids decide it is his turn to kick the walls or the stairs 

7:38 PM and still yelling and screaming, banging.

4/13/26 I am cleaning the bathroom: she is flipping out on the kid, stomping on the floor, going after him, this is around 9 -9:15 AM.  

4/14/26 Morning ritual of flipping out on the kid. 9 PM Banging on the floor, again and again, then the TV and hear speakers or popping from them, smelling cigarette smoke downstairs.   

4/15/26 ?There was banging off and on, or the TV/speakers popping at 9:10 PM, 

04/16/26 - 9:20 PM banging/stomping, Also again stale cigarette smoke upstairs this time by the bathroom. 

4/17/26 9:24 AM, and it begins - yelling, TV or stereo before 9 AM. I should not be able to hear. Kid is banging, followed by her yelling. Something just slammed the bedroom door, wall, banging shit on the floor. Calling the kid an ass-hole, screaming from downstairs to the upstairs. 9:40 AM I went outside because it was escalating, and she left afterwards. 

4/18/26 Kid banging or stomping on the stairs and the floor. 

2:09 PM They have not been in the apartment for 10 Mins. and jumping on the floor. 

4/19/26 11:27 AM Bouncing a ball against the living room walls? 

12:48 PM Screaming at the Kid. 

1:34 PM Screaming by her, and then the kid, and threats that she is going to beat his hiney ( I don't need to hear that shit)

Now the TV is overly loud and the "F word" is used at the kid. 

2:11 PM, screaming again at the child, the kid ran, and she told you, "Better run," screaming, banging in the kitchen, and still yelling. 

2:40 PM still yelling.... 3:26 PM still yelling

4:13 PM still at it, yelling at the child. 

4:17 PM I had to leave to get away from it. 

4:49 PM the TV OR STEREO ...omg, as well as banging stuff.

5:30 Two names now- (that is when you knew your trouble)  

If you made it to this point, I thank you for reading it and your time. And know that you have always been enough. 

Also, if you put Israel in the search bar, it shows other stuff that was given to me.