04/19/26 This comes with a trigger warning, when you are not enough.

Hearing post it. 04/21/26 

The following is documentation that I have kept doing daily for the last 14 months, plus a whole other crazy. I had to look at the part of my life that I endured as a child in my adult life, trying to understand why things have happened in the way that they have, including behaviours and beliefs that I have received from what is considered generational trauma.

 This is by looking at one's own family history, and historical history, parents, grandparents, and great-grandparents, if available. If adopted or if there is a separation from one parent or the other, the same would apply.  These are, for all intents and purposes, trauma to you, or you carry, that needs to be cleared or looked at, because on some level, they are still at play. And it just takes one person to say wait a minute. 

This is not something taught unless you question your reality.  I am not a psychologist or doctor; at one point, I wanted to be a psychologist. I'm just one person whose life got turned upside down when my life crashed around me, and a spiritual door opened that I had not known about. Yet, had been experiencing it since I was a child and had no reference point. And wandered down a long road that created more confusion than help at times. Even now, when spirituality seems to be a multi-million dollar business. When your spiritual first, not the other way around. I have known this since I was a child, and for as long as I can remember, and forgot it through conditioning. 

So let me tell you why I am writing this piece. I encountered a child and ignored the child, knowing fully well that by engaging I was putting myself in a situation where I have no way to help him, and possibly endangering myself. I have reported to the complex that I live in, I have called the police, and I have my documentation of what I experienced by living next to them or witnessing it in person.  I have been repeatedly told "they will talk to them" to the person in question, told by the police that not a noise issue, when expressing concerns about child safety and conditions. Told by the police that what happens in one's home or apartment does not warrant a complaint for them to come out.  Listed at the end. 

I have witnessed this more times than I would like to say, since the spiritual door opened. I have had to look at it with different eyes, because therapy is limited in many ways. This includes my own handling of situations or thoughts, when I have flown off the handle from stress, or just being empathetic and picking up on other people's energy, creating situations that create fear, control, punishment, or to manipulate other people because they have not looked at their own abusive tendencies. What is also not acknowledged is that the same beliefs and behaviors are passed down through the family lines, programming for grand- parents to parents to children. The only way to break the program is to break the beliefs and behaviors. 

There is a thought that we create reality, good, bad, and indifferent, to learn soul lessons, all playing their part to act as a mirror of creation. I can't argue for it or against it; for my own mind can't completely wrap my mind around it. There is a misnomer that spiritually awake people don't encounter these toxic people. Once you have been cracked open to realize something is seriously wrong, because as you awaken or have an experience that opens just a little bit, you realize that consciousness has become a commodity to keep you in Fear and against other people.  

The guides said, " Fear is a learned response to an event." I asked how this is helpful, considering that it is multifaceted.  In that it, it could be a present life, generational, Past life, even galactic, to a soul contract to act as a catalyst, or a soul lesson to yourself or for another person's soul evolution, or people. This is where many of my conflicts or confusion arise from. 

 As the child above, who may be in a soul contract with this situation with the mother, myself trying to report it in the hope that it registers that there is a problem and why I continue to find these people around me, knowing my own trauma as a child, and the long-term effect it has had on me as a person. This is where the misnomer comes from about spiritual people and the projection by them or someone thinking that they are completely healed,  that we stop encountering polarity; we are still human and walk our own journey with all of what is happening. When we only see it for what they are, and hopefully have a hefty toolbox to disengage from them, not always. 

Because once the crack opens, you may become aware, that does not mean that the rest of the world is or people are too enlightened, too. 

This is months of this, starts as early as 8 AM and goes until 10 PM or even later, and the child in question was 4, now 5 years old. What did you endure, or what did your parents endure, because this is learned behavior, beliefs, and Fear. If the prior generation did not clear it, now it is on you to acknowledge it, clear and heal it, to break the programming. It is the only way to stop it. This is self-hate, self-harm, not lovable, not or never good enough, that comes from others. I am touching on only a few. 

Most of this happens behind closed doors, not seen by friends, other family members, disempowering, dominance of standing over you, pinning you in corners, bullying, gaslighting, the narcissist, male or female, the psychopath, creating trauma bonding, well into future relationships. Turn people into predators, and the masks that they wear. Someone recently said to me, why are you the only one reporting this. I wasn't the only person, but I told the person in question because they are afraid for their safety, and I am too, but doing nothing is condoning that it ok to do to anyone. If all the shit that I've been through has taught me anything, it is this: For what you do to another, you do to yourself.  

As someone who grew up living like this, on eggshells, not being able to breathe or fear of breathing, making too much noise, or taking on the abuse so my siblings would not have to when I was a child myself. And the other parent knew, allowed it, and even ignored it, to what I would say abandoning us and condemning it. Possibly her own family issues that were not looked at, I can only speculate at this point.  

(Told to write this) This is where I'm going to tell that someone did know or has the awareness that something is off or very wrong, as to what has happened to you, even if you feel alone and you think no one cares. For reasons outside of time and space, it is known about. 

The List:  (I was given:  The armchair parenting by guides, did not know prior) I am sure that we have all done this at some point as a parent, or to a partner, due to our daily lives. This is behavior that becomes a habit and devalues people as less important than the activity that you're doing.  

04/12/26 6:41 PM  - Screaming at the kid, all afternoon, the TV! 

Now the kids decide it is his turn to kick the walls or the stairs 

7:38 PM and still yelling and screaming, banging.

4/13/26 I am cleaning the bathroom: she is flipping out on the kid, stomping on the floor, going after him, this is around 9 -9:15 AM.  

4/14/26 Morning ritual of flipping out on the kid. 9 PM Banging on the floor, again and again, then the TV and hear speakers or popping from them, smelling cigarette smoke downstairs.   

4/15/26 ?There was banging off and on, or the TV/speakers popping at 9:10 PM, 

04/16/26 - 9:20 PM banging/stomping, Also again stale cigarette smoke upstairs this time by the bathroom. 

4/17/26 9:24 AM, and it begins - yelling, TV or stereo before 9 AM. I should not be able to hear. Kid is banging, followed by her yelling. Something just slammed the bedroom door, wall, banging shit on the floor. Calling the kid an ass-hole, screaming from downstairs to the upstairs. 9:40 AM I went outside because it was escalating, and she left afterwards. 

4/18/26 Kid banging or stomping on the stairs and the floor. 

2:09 PM They have not been in the apartment for 10 Mins. and jumping on the floor. 

4/19/26 11:27 AM Bouncing a ball against the living room walls? 

12:48 PM Screaming at the Kid. 

1:34 PM Screaming by her, and then the kid, and threats that she is going to beat his hiney ( I don't need to hear that shit)

Now the TV is overly loud and the "F word" is used at the kid. 

2:11 PM, screaming again at the child, the kid ran, and she told you, "Better run," screaming, banging in the kitchen, and still yelling. 

2:40 PM still yelling.... 3:26 PM still yelling

4:13 PM still at it, yelling at the child. 

4:17 PM I had to leave to get away from it. 

4:49 PM the TV OR STEREO ...omg, as well as banging stuff.

5:30 Two names now- (that is when you knew your trouble)  

If you made it to this point, I thank you for reading it and your time. And know that you have always been enough. 

Also, if you put Israel in the search bar, it shows other stuff that was given to me. 

04/16/26 Untitled - Witnessing

Important years 

The Above I titled - as untitled because I needed a title, then I heard witnessing. 

2026 thru. 2030-2032 yrs ( I have written these dates, before you research in the search bar above)

2040 yr

2050 yr 

Montebello? California  

Secret Service? 

I was in the kitchen cooking something, and someone said something to me (not physical and I'm okay,  Jacko.) Not sure what the reference to Jacko is, or why I said it. What was really said to me, no idea. Maybe a message to someone. 

Humanity is at an Inflection point- meaning A moment when significant change occurs or may occur. 

Internet defines it as : It is also a point on curve, Science or Business-   (concavity changes from up to down or vice-versa). It is found by setting the second derivative, 

, to zero or identifying where it is undefined, then confirming the sign changes. In calculus, it identifies where the slope changes from increasing to decreasing; in physics, it often marks a transition in acceleration, and in business, it indicates a turning point for significant, long-term change. You can Google for a more literal definition/image (I just deliver the message) 

ie: 

So I wrote 4/04/16, I looked for reference on my blog 04/04/16 without pulling out the books of hard copies. I didn't post anything that day. When I put it in my own search bar it goes back to 2007, 2008, 2009 not sure if it is a message for someone.  I did pick this out of it. 

8/01/09 Arch Angel Michael and the day prior my mom said something to me about Arch Angel Gabriel. The following was something that I verbally heard:  You have long awaited the movement which is coming to you, but you must start cleansing you, your heart of any ills feelings towards others. This needs to be done. You must open your heart and yourself to the gifts you will receive. You must be in thanks for your journey and power. You must cleanse your thoughts that you are receiving divine assistance. You must realize that you have it within yourself to be the person that you were sent here to be. You must choose your path. We support you wholeheartedly. You must trust that you are being guided to your highest potential. You must love and let go. This is your path. Be true to yourself, and everything else will follow. God has blessed you now and in the future. You must listen to the divine coming thru you. We are here to support you in your efforts. Be god’s light and love, and everything else will follow. Blessing to you and your path and journey. Put your sadness away, turn it over to God to spread his light upon you. (Note: I had no idea or memory of writing the above at the time of writing it.)

I have heard what sounds like a lot of angels singing when I wake up many times over the years, and I have been told that angels surround the earth, as well as they are a part of you. And that regardless of the fear narrative that the earth will not to be allow to be destroyed. 

There is another message about Mental health: It is a little long, but worth a read. 

04-16-24 Angels and Mental Health told to post. (tried to remove the orange but it is a copy and paste. 

The angels have expressed a deep concern for the well-being and mental health of the people on the planet. I said what are trying to get me to do. I said you know people get paid to do this and I do not. This happened to sleep time and it was a few weeks ago and has stayed with me. Regardless, of what you see in the world by tarot readers, psychics, channels, healers, etc.. I don't believe it is expressed enough that shadow work is always being done. 

As divine beings created by a source of love, in love energy, vibration, or frequency. You have to go deep and understand the conditioned program that created the opposite of what is happening in you or the world. Why we don't have a more loving world of unity! This only happens if are challenging the beliefs that you have been taught or believe about yourself and others. This is not to pass the blame onto anyone. 

This is historically how it has been for millenniums. * Guides* if you were to step in from our advantage point the picture is rather different. There has been a progression to expand thoughts in extremes. By far, pushing a positive and negative polarity. This is not viewed as a punishment or extremes that it has been defied as. Yet, many have created divides causing more harm than unity. 

Each soul creates from thought, based on what it perceives as thinking it is the best form of action. We applaud you for being the brave souls to come to earth in the first place. Earth is quite the school of learning and many stand waiting for their own turn to positively influence the planet. When you challenge your beliefs of what you believe this can not be done by someone else. It is the responsibility of the individual and globally. 

When nations work in tangent to bring peace, love, harmony, and unity together, verses separate and divide, the world changes faster.  As one individual does this affects the whole of the planet, for all are one. We can not do it for you because we are you. We guide and send love, energy, and frequency to the planet, we are many and our assisting to raise the planet from the darkness to the light. This is not done by us alone, there are many universes and beings, galactic and otherwise assisting the planet as we speak now. 

Many are looking within and understanding the connection to all. Everything is a co-creation working together. Food does not grow without soil, water, sun, and humans taking care of it. You are told that one does not affect the whole when that is not the truth. All are creator beings, a spark of creation manifested in form. Collectively working in a unified field of consciousness of thought, creating your world and yes there are many not aware of this and what you refer to as evil doing, yet light can not know darkness or Love cannot itself with hate. These polarities are each to teach you and remember who you are not victims of.

This is not about that person, that group, the religion, the culture, skin, language, or sex, this is about self and the fact all bodies of form, have the ability to look within one's self. If you want a teacher ask for guidance on the right action. For so long, the glaze has been outwards looking to others to tell you who you are and not within. It is time to question who am I really! Challenge the beliefs that were conditioned by parents, school, society, and generational of patterns because what you will find is this has been going on for a very long time. Fear separates, love is. This is all for today, Thank you. 

Before writing this a 5-6-year-old young girl was walking to the Bus and as she walked each step that she took she said the words trouble, trouble, trouble, and so on. This is conditioning,  as to what happened to her to repeat those words, and is the same as any of us. These words are thoughts, imprint on the mind that I/we are trouble. In effect Creating I am a problem, I am trouble, I can not do things right, or I am the wrong person, I am not liked for who I am. 

Along with other thoughts, forming in a young mind. Compounding year after year. When the picture of events could have been changed by other words to inform the event or situation. 

Edit: don't misunderstanding my words when refer to Mental Health and angels conversation, you have to understand not all people are open minded, even when it in front of them. I have seen some wacky/horrific things that normal people do and think it normal, in everyday life. I would remove the word normal because it subjective, only based what on what we think we know or is known.  

04/09/26 Guides said:

4/05/26 

 (This was me thinking about the conversation)

I was questioning something about religion - This was regarding myself having a conversation with a person, and their belief, and the concept that everything is God, source, consciousness, and then I heard:  

Not taking God from you, putting God back in you. 

3/26/26 Contemplating my thoughts

 I have been wanting to write this for a while. I see things on the internet and question whether they are really helping. All this having to do things, this guru, that healer, tarot, channel, you get the point. When no one is really stating the obvious, that is, you already are. If you remove all that garbage that you've been told, religious or cultural, beliefs, you are still a soul.

 You are a soul having experience, as a human on planet earth, with polarities that are extreme.  You know they're extreme because you know it, see it, and feel it. And if you have not questioned even for a moment, what the hell is going on? This is not a question that I can answer lightly or with a short answer. As in my own internal dialog is in conflict, as to why, if the goal is unity, humanity, kindness, love, and community. Why the extremes! As in my own life, these words come forth, and yet, I continue to experience barriers of so-called programming or people that escape me for any rational reasoning. 

One would say, well, it is this and that, and frankly, it is projected from all angles, as such, that responsibility lies outside of self. So, for the sake of argument, as we like to do as humans, by putting it outside of ourselves, bearing in mind that we think we are not part of the creation process. As in no one told you that you are soul created by god or even part of god itself, much like splitting an atom into two, three, or quadrillions, infinity, and then wanting tangible proof and never considering who created me, this tree, this earth, that bird, or any animal for that fact. 

As we have been taught, it is evolution, or it is an ascension; when defined, both mean a shift in consciousness. So the question is, who or what is consciousness? So is God consciousness? Is Consciousness  God, making us both God and Consciousness,  are they just words and/or even definitions of things we have forgotten?  Why is it important for us to remember? That we are part of creation, consciousness, or maybe we are just beginning by questioning or thinking about that first. 

I question the images that I see, even the predication or events, even spirits that I experience. If we already are, and the goal is to remember this and make better choices from that higher perspective, why do we still need to follow anyone, except for ourselves? Within our own heart and own dialogue. I understand how hard it can be to listen to yourself, because we've been so deep into the program, when in reality, it's all programming. Much like your phone or computer, it is programmed to do what you ask/search it to do a task, and how much of our own power are we still giving away to teachers, per se, when our entire lives we have been following others.  To are Parent/s, school, family, friends, the boss, relationships, and government, celebrity or entrepreneur, all of which are based on outdated information and concepts that no one needs, because they are not teaching or showing us anything about our true self.

I might be rambling at this point with my own frustration and the fake reality that I live in, and my own encounters with people. To question why are all these teachers or people, so happy, because my experience, for lack of words, has been hell. So what, if nothing actually changes as predicted and the extremes are not extremes but a world ready to shatter because that is what is needed at this point. 

Several times over the past six months, I've received the word collapse. I told the guides that I would not publish it because the word itself creates Fear. Not that fear is part of illusion, of things, but if you step back and realize all the things that you already experienced, much of it is on repeat. I don't make this statement lightly. This is where I question these teachers, readers, channels, etc. As to whether they are feeding the fear. Let me be clear: yes, I'm psychic, and a few other things, and there are very good readers out there, and a lot that should not be so public. 

Honestly, I question whether my own gifts, which are innate to all, as to whether they are a burden to myself or adding to the noise of the world. Whether all the studying has made me jaded and complacent, generally annoyed at an expanded view to the inter-circle of one. And the people I would look to, I now roll my eyes at because they seem superficial. When one is striving to enlighten people, when you already are. You are never not connected to God, source, or consciousness. You're part of the soul, here on planet now, have never left source. 

So the question remains, if you already are, what is needed and next? 

03/26/26 Reading so, so soul !

 So I have seen this title a few times in my feed. A good psychic, medium, or intuitive, and channel would never read a soul without permission from the person. Just out of integrity! With that said, there are far too many people doing this Soul reading conjecture supposedly, and not understanding that everything is energy, and of God, to invade/invading someone's soul energy, or will free, to read them for clicks is not held in the highest regard. This is like invading someone's home and rummaging through their things, for lack of boundaries, spiritual, physical, and mentally. Along with imposing your will on another. It is still a form of power over, and if you have noticed, that is what is occurring in the world, the taking of power and free will for control, greed, to manipulate people by imposing on them as souls embodied. This is why true reading/reader know that souls have chosen their experiences, not because they are the chosen ones, when all have chosen to be here now. Calling on the fact that there is only the chosen is a fallacy, and true understanding of what is really happening and what is occurring when there is no hierarchical system, yet you continue to divide yourselves for what: Approval, love, validation, and clicks. You want to know who you are, but never question who am I really? Good day.

03-14-26 So it been awhile

 I have been seeing the the Ep files or videos (not watching them), floating around the internet. The one thing that I don't see about these conversations is that it is not just about the elite and what they have done. It is an insight and choice point for all of humanity because if you have sold your sovereignty for power, money, or position to control or manipulate others, you are being asked to look at it,  the giving and taking of power away from others. 

Before you came here you were all God, source, the All, the nothing, the Atman, the Allah, whatever words you would like to use to describe that vastness of your being. There is no fall from grace, as one has been taught. You are all infinite creators living in a matrix of your own design to experience life by your expression, by your choices, and free will. (channeled)

ET's are not demons. I heard by several people that ET are demons, that is incorrect. What you defined as demon are not Et. That is a scripture and Hollywood fantasy. We will not say that there is not good Et or spirits, that do not have the highest regards for humans. What is important here to acknowledge that only fear allows this to perpetuate fear of knowing self. 

People want answers, but are they looking inside themselves, or questioning the narrative, questioning their own thoughts, actions, and beliefs, or blindly following what is told to them, or by another with self-inquiry. 

The following I have been sitting on:

01/10/26 Public bus lost control; I watched like a movie clip. (may have happened)

01/15/26  The following has been haunting me, more like I should just post it. I saw a girl whose body was severely decayed, that is between the ages of 15-25, there was a mental drum., I was shown two men one in his sixties, and the was other 40's. Both knew each other. There was a third man who found this female. The body lies between two counties, in a wooded area. I don't know if she put in the metal drum or transported via it. The drum is yards or meters from where she was. She looked to have blond hair. Then the image closed. I also wrote something about a few years. 

Guides: Window dressing: what you wear is not who you are, as in your clothing, your body, and your general appearance is not you. 

I see these videos of Hollywood Ozempic users, and I hear Death Becomes Her. Like the movie of the same title. It happened often enough, questioning the reference. 

2/10/26 Mass exit- 

The ring- a woman in the store works there, something about the owner holds onto the ring for her, and leaves for the day. She is now leaving for the day. Another person knows about the ring and will not get it for her. The woman is upset and calls the person he/she man, something about the person being a billionaire, and the image ends. * This person is stealing the Ring from this woman, no idea, and claiming no knowledge of it, where abouts. I saw it locked up in the cashier drawer, something close to it. 

Guides Humans are made failable, so we can learn from our mistakes. 

2/28/26

I see a man who has attached himself to the underside of a bus. Not sure why, what it means. 

The above is just a little piece of what I received, and I choose what is more important over others, like things already happened, because I do it on my own dime and time. Now that I had a job, lost a job, had a car, had it totaled. I may get back to it. 

As an example:  Venezuela- President, Brittany Spears- breakdown, Guatemala. 

03/05/2026 I hearing share the movie.

 I watched this man on Next Level Soul and felt and watched how he struggled to express the compassion and empathy that he was trying to explain who or what was/is Jacob the baker. When we are all the Jacobs, Jacks, and Jills of the world across time. So here is the link below: 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j6IQ2XeH9n4