6/10/26 I Accidentally poison myself

 So, I accidentally poison myself, not on purpose, but like most people, I use melatonin to help stay asleep between spirits waking me up, the things that I have gone through, and the nonsense of neighbors who can't get a sleep schedule. So what happened is I purchased a different brand of melatonin without thought, thinking that it was the same as what I'm using. Well, let's just say it was not. I had a severe allergic reaction to something in it. I started with a rash that consumed 80% of my body, and multiple tubes of hydrocortisone and allergy medicine to become a human scratch pad for the last two months. It took over a month to realize what the culprit was. This was only by eliminating soaps, deodorant, laundry soap, food, snacks, bread flour, vitamins, etc. Yikes !! Why am I posting? I see in the aisle with the vitamins in, for children and adults alike. 

I'm lucky that it didn't go into anaphylaxis shock. I have allergies and sensitivity to smells and chemicals, which are pretty much sprayed on everything coming from overseas. I initially thought it was from throw carpets that I purchased because it started on my hands and arms, and traveled my entire body, causing me to rethink that it was something I ingested. It could have been one or both. I know that once I stopped the melatonin, my body, my skin, stopped freaking out, and started healing. I'm not going to give the brand should something come about from it, but I had no idea that it could cause or have a reaction like that after years of taking it off and on. Yet, this brand I have never used before, either. 

I am calling poison; any reaction like I had is poison to the body. Was it brand, and cut with something? I will not know. After all, I didn't go to the doctor because I didn't want to be pumped with steroids and other drugs, tests, and scopes. I do not recommend this, and one should seek medical attention. As it has left scars, and hopefully with time, they will light up.  I stopped taking melatonin altogether to not have another scare, in the meantime.  I can't tell you what to do, but with anything, do your research, and even if the doctor suggests or gives an Rx for it. For this is not the first reaction that I had to medicine, a first with a product that sold a supplement product. Also, it was the lowest dose was used. 

Oh, and yes, I am intuitive, but I am human too, so I look at it this way: with my experience of this I would be able to write about it. Life is a journey, not a destination. 

6/09/26 NO tarot cards - intuitive information

 06/09/26

Firstly,  I got seismic activity in my sleep, and it has recurred for the last two days.  Earthquakes, volcanic, etc. 

Morphogenetic field? 

The law of reflection. I thought this was one of the universal laws. Apparently, it is physics explained as follows: The law of reflection states that when a ray of light hits a surface, the reflected ray bounces off at the angle equal to the incident ray. Both angles are measured relative to the "normal"—an imaginary line perpendicular to the surface at the point of impact.

Heard Bucaton- not sure of spelling. Could be Boca Raton. I have gotten it in the past, too. 

6/1/26 Reclamation: the act of restoring something to useful function or original state, or the process of claiming back something that has been lost, abandoned, or discarded. 

6/02/26 I keep hearing the song Fly Away by Lenny Kravitz - not sure if a message. I certainly like to fly away most days. 

06/03/26 So I asked the guides about spiritual noise, because I think spirituality can be just as much of a distraction as the media. As in this one said this, and that video is this, and that book is different from that one. And I do this work, and find it disconcerting at times. 

This falls in line with the next question for guides, which I have asked before about memberships, tribes, join this communities. I am all for Unity, the reality of that, it takes some serious shadow-work, serious alignment, and discipline in this world. As the guides did not answer my question directly, because they know that I knew the answer to my own question, having direct experience of everything being connected. That does not mean that I am infallible in what I witness. 

I do belong to a few groups, and have moved in or out of many over the years, to question why I am doing this when I have a direct connection. I think sometimes it is about validation and not seeing proof in real life, to support what comes through, and even intuitive, because I no longer look for proof. There is again no one path, or experience, and the word experimental is an accurate word description. 

6/04/26 I'm going to assume this a message, why because: A female said to me, is or saying My sister and I have babies on the same day at 8AM and 9AM, along with my mother, never had High blood pressure until that day. ??? I am just the messenger. 

Alessandro ? message maybe 

Hearing a bender? No idea who, but don't think your loved ones can't see what's happening. 

6/05/26 Hearing Freedom by George Michael - message heard several times on repeat. 

Let's talk dreams. I have a lot of them, some make no sense, others seem like different lives and on other planets or different lives on this planet, as I am a witness or observer to them, or possibly process information from this life. So why is it important? I write these down because the soul is talking to me, whether the information is important or not. Some people will say I don't dream, well, that is nonsense; something is blocking it. Whether it is you or medicine, illegal drugs/ now legal, or alcohol, can cause distortion of dreams or even accessing them.   Excess alcohol will close off the heart chakra, creating problems and health issues down that road, as well as illicit substances, creating imbalances in the body. 

Ie: I had a dream with a message in it because I knew the two people in it in my real life. 

Ie: I had a dream: 40, 20, 80 Tonnages, Calling a terminal, Men smoking, then there is a knock at the door, someone is standing there, the light blinked or flashed, and I woke up from it. Now this makes no sense to me. I have worked in different industries, and no one in the US refers to truck shipments as tonnage. And a very clear use of the word Tonnage. I don't normally post them because I don't know what to make of them. 

Ie: House by the river. This was not a house per se, looked to abandon building, with trash and debris on the floor, stuff everywhere. I thought it was me, but again I am a witness at the time in these dreams in the Astral body or OBE,  some things that I experience since I teenager, any who, something figure how to pay for the rent, one female said she was going to look for bottles to put things in, another female asked what all the trash on the floors. I said What about the kitchen, bathroom, bedrooms - then I came back into my body and woke up. * When I questioned things in the dreams, it will kind of tell you whether it was a dream or an astral body; you come back to my body right away. 

Buenos Aires, Argentina? 

3I Atlas? 

Messages or Guides use music (?)

Hearing Michael Jackson, Beat it.

Hearing, Kung Fu fighting

Hearing Walter Cronkite ( now I know that he has passed), so was someone an avid watcher!

George Michael -Freedom (different day) 

6/09/26 I got Doubting Thomas, is this implying the Bible or someone being the skeptic? Honestly, I weigh in on being the skeptic because with so much disinformation or right out lies, one needs to be discerning, with AI music, video, and commercials. With life in general. 

This brings me to my title. I am often asked if I read cards. NO, never needed them. I heard my guides since 4-5 years old. I tried to read cards for a few years and finally decided it was not in the cards, so to speak. They do not speak or talk to me like other readers would say, and they are only a medium, like a painting or music. You see the colors, or picture, or hear the music tone to paint the picture or create music. 

 

 

5-31-26 Intuitive information

 A Grandfather in Spirit: So I was going to sleep, and all I hear is a Grandad saying the Pledge of allegiance in my ear.  Since most people have had a relative who served. The only thing that I have to go on is that date. 5/22/26, so maybe there is a connection by the date of 5/22! * and this man 60-80? White, round face. 

So here is another, and your relatives can be quite comical. On 5/21/26, right before I woke up in the morning, I heard, " We Snore Together when we sleep", by an older woman, no name. But I was like, what, in a funny kind of way! 

5-22-26 I have gotten "God among Men" several times, so I asked what the reference is, and it was explained that humans, both male and female, consider themselves to be less than God, when the truth is, where did you come, being that the reference alludes to you that are gods among men in form. 

5-23-26 I'm not sure if a message or connection to something else, or the song  "Come as you are" by Nirvana, or a part of a Bible reference. 

Heard: 5-23-26  the Blood of the Earth, I asked if it is about the oil or the water? Or another reference or message,  I also questioned whether it is referring to the blood of war that has been spilled on the planet. I have not received an answer. Note, there are several songs you can Google with the same title. I don't know if it a song, I am a messenger. 

I heard 5-23-26 The Whales under Belly," yes, it is written right, written as I received it. Here is the explanation, final separation for one's known world and self. Threshold of a new phrase, deep surrender, and dark night of the soul that precedes a profound personal transformation or rebirth. 

5-25-26 The song: It's Magic by Pilot. Message? I question the use of the word Magic, because it is used in the spiritual community a lot. When the fact is that all gifts are innate to us, yet they seem like Magic when they happen. I got the word Angel when I was writing this. Another message? 

5-26-26 I heard several times about the witch's wound or the word Persecutions, which you can look up. I questioned the use because by all accounts, collectively we all carry it, whether you believe in reincarnation or not, on this planet or another one. It is the fear of being seen, heard, speaking up against injustices, or punishment, since we tend to live in a fear-based reality, whether you follow the news in any form. That the power lies in the hands of a few, when the opposite is true. Along with this thought, that it can go several directions, such as privacy, AI, Data Centers, autonomy, social, economics, modern-day slavery, etc.. lists can go on, on, and it's a whole rabbit hole dive, in itself.  

5-26-26 Something Unparalleled- unimaginable, profound coming, a good thing. 

5-28-26 Ford Motor Company? 

5-30-26 This next one is confusing me: Before waking up, I heard a woman's voice say: I am his Oswega? I could be pronouncing and spelling it wrong. I took it as a Grandmother, but that could be wrong too. There are several locations in the US with that Name, but not the spelling.  Oswego by Iroquois Native American/Six Nations- means the pouring place, mouth of the stream. Who is the " him "? Good question, what Oswega truly means, another good question. I also looked up different languages for the names, for Grandmother, nothing came close. 

5/31/26 Song Shakedown by Bob Seger - I have had this song in the past, and it normally comes with some type of truth going to be exposed. 

I also heard on 5/31/26, to put focused intention on heaven on earth. 

 

05/31/26 Children of Earth (channeled)

 Now is the time to stand tall on the adventures that await you. Do not fear, for the shadows are just that. Much will change, and with forward movement as it progresses. We await your return to balance to see the everlasting change that is among your planet. Stay in hope, stay in faith, stay in gratitude for All is ONE. 

Good day for now.  

05/2726 Global dismemberment

 In shamanic practice, there is a vision or the soul calls forth the dissolution of the false world that has been created. One where the paradigm changes from what was to something that only seems like magic, or paranormal, or what can seem like a psychosis when everything that you formally knew dissolves and changes, morphs into what is real and not real. 

*Note, you can Google: Shamanic or spiritual dismemberment. 

What is being seen and felt around the world is a shift from one world to another; this is not an instance but a gradual step into something new. All the darkness that more or less has been hidden below the surface is coming up to be looked at with new eyes to make choices as to whether we as humanity want to continue to deceive ourselves that we are powerless creators to change our reality. 

You're taught that you are second to the Gods, that too of the powers to be, when it is simply not true. It is time that you know who you really are, and as the old world collapses to restructure itself, you will have to make choices along the way as to what works and what does not.  

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So, I wrote this today, but it seemed disjointed in its connection to information. And it is disjointed only because I don't completely understand it, and what I see most people want is prediction, or to do this work, without cleaning up their shadow selves, or manifesting dream life, again, without doing any real work. This is as I sit here typing this, questioning spirituality within my own life and whether it has benefited me to continue down this path.

 This is, of course, after asking myself why certain things have played out in my life and why, on most days, I feel I live two very different lives. And like most people, I like having control or continuity. Not that I feel I have had any control or stability in the sense of manifesting, having to make decisions and choices, on the fly or without a great ripple effect that reaches farther and deeper than I ever thought possible.  

When I tell those who ask that I have done this my whole life and have blocked it to a degree because people are cruel, they are like, "It's so cool," and say, "I wish I could do that." I say, " Well, you can with practice. Yet, I also hold my tongue, because as more and more people awaken, "it is so cool", via media such as video, or what have you. The truth is, most people are afraid of the truth, and what they are not even honest with themselves about, they pretend to be. This is not all people, but a great number of people.  

I was shown a few years back a sphere and all these lines, we will call them timelines, that would converge into a single thread or line. I knew what I saw in the image. I once asked what I thought about creating a world that is what most believe is ideal. I think, for I am not them, on what a world not even conceived of, I stated maybe a 1000 years, that is a long time. (Note: 1000 years, is my thought, not based on information I received, the person who questioned me was not questioning me out of interest, but arrogance) I think we are the beginning of some profound stuff or truths. 

This is also when we can't put down our own judgments, based on limited knowledge or understanding. For example, I went to the store yesterday, and a woman who did not know me made a judgment about me without even saying a word, yet I felt it. Standing there, I knew it was not my stuff, and her projection was based on something that I mirrored to her, something about her. Of course, her judgment was unfounded and limited by her filter of perception of me. This shows that we are quick to past judgement without validation of information, about anything. 

As for the title and why the guides gave me the title before the context, I am assuming is because I am always asking why, because my own life was real physical dismembered not as image, or a request at the time, that it happened, for I knew nothing at time other than being extremely sensitivity to peoples energy and a door that open without any true guidance and the people who I did know were out of my reach, and family that came with own reckoning of destruction. I would like to say that I have recovered and integrated all that I learned. The truth is, it is a daily practice, and some days there are no answers. 

I recently told someone that I surrendered both worlds, and they told me I gave up. I said No, I surrender it, it is not giving up; it is surrendering to the unknown, to stop trying to control it, because there is no real control over how fast or slow things happen. This is after twenty-plus years of dismantling my life. Some people experience it as illness, accident, death, divorce, or loss of a job, one of a thousand ways that it could happen. Mine was down to a suitcase and a few boxes when it was said and done.  And try as I might, neither side of my life is whole and complete. It seems to be an ongoing process of letting go, or acceptance of what is, or allowing things to unfold as they come. 

So, the conclusion of a very long explanation, that I don't know what is coming, unless it is given to me, for I am here to experience those same events, as everyone else. What I can tell you is that spirituality is about being connected to your true self, not about the predictions, probabilities, or where we came from, or where we are going. For we are the creators of our reality from a soul level and not a mind level. 

5/25/26 Shadows -who are you really!

 Someone recently said, " If I would/ were to write about something else. Honestly, I don't know other than to talk about the shadow of ourselves. Everyone talks about spirituality as a way to I think moreless access realms that most people do not know exist. What all of these people don't speak about is how to truly come into balance within yourself. You need to do the work by looking at the programs and conditions that are within you and have been inherited from what is considered normal; there is no normal, per se. 

Guides/me: Social conditioning and engineering are ever so present now, and many of the things that the world is facing in the news are the same conditioning to create separation, division from people, or within yourself. I see and hear people taking several paths; there is no one path for anyone. Everyone is as sacred as the breath that you breathe. You take the path by doing research into various subjects that, with enough research, could lead to the same conclusion that most spirituality teachers have access to, which people are looking for. 

*Note: Even religion and Science can not agree on the origins, or are not willing to openly state their thoughts for fear of ridicule or their position, because that is how narrative is censored from indoctrination of fear. Just look at the history of Violence on our planet. 

I also see people using it for escapism or as another form of separation. Presenting it as a hierarchical system that suggests someone or anyone has more knowledge or wisdom, or research that they know more than most. They can, to a degree, by also perceiving that they are above others, which is the complete opposite of most teaching.  That is no different than the church telling you, you have sinned, and only they have the power to speak on behalf of God, the consciousness or methodology they are using. Without telling you, you are an aspect of it all, from the source of creation to Aliens. 

My position is that you already are what you seek, because you have journeyed through this life and many others that make up your soul expression. You have always been enough and loved, and are love. There is nothing else that exists. And always connected to yourself, higher power, source, universe, God, and all other manifestations of messengers, as I call them. This is my interpretation. 

Yes, you may need to be trained and practice to access the other realms to connect again with yourself. You are the guru, master, and even your own shrink. Yes, there may be times when you need to work in a group or individually through events. We/you are taught to look outside of yourself, not to trust yourself, conform to conditioning, and not all souls will awaken and will move on, because they have not chosen it, for this lifetime. 

This does not mean that they are not part of the all, the one collective, universe, source. When they leave this form of being a human, they will again have access to the reasons, choices, and conditions that they chose to learn in this go around on earth. For you are not them, and as they are not you. All come to play on earth, for it is for the growth of the soul to learn, play, express, create, and love, experiencing being a human in a body. 

There also seems to be a belief that it is different groups, alien or otherwise, throughout history. If you remember or know that you played the games on both sides, out on this planet and others, for eons.  All civilizations here and elsewhere have gone through evolving and destroying themselves and rebuilding, or being blocked from progressing to do it again and again. 

 Earth is no different. You agreed to forget, to come raise the vibration of energy by remembering who you are, because many people have memories of the many wars, the destruction, and traumas that have been experienced by or as an embodied soul, much of that is playing out for you to again remember. Enlightenment is realizing that you're more than this body, not to leave that body, to be embodied with enlightenment, enlightenment in the body, as the source, the creator, the soul expression or being that you truly are, not just this body on a planet, hurdling through space. 

Just the word alone should state something to you: Enlightenment - to en/in lighten within, "ment" means the action or process, of a specific state or condition.  You hear of angels or Et being, that are luminous beings, are you not: a luminescence being. You have learned to fear what you do not understand; that is who you really are. Not this body, not your mind, or thoughts and beliefs, or the conditions that you find yourself in. 

5/21/26 Intuitive information

5/10/26 Civil unrest

5/13/26 Human potential

Heard - That we are swimming in the unknown. So, previously, I stated we are in a collapse; it should be relabeled as the reconstruction of the systems that do not serve the people. We have made agreements on soul levels that we would dismantle the old, outdated programs that are currently spiraling out of control. As the narrative continues to project, otherwise. This is not some apocalyptic or post-apocalyptic event that has been pushed by genre. As humanity awakens, so does the planet within the solar system; nothing is ever stagnant. Yet the media will push otherwise. Believe it or not, there are people in waiting to step in and up, as the towers fall, where lies and deceit have been planted. 

5/14/26 Technological? 

5/15/26 Shown during sleep and heard his name, Stanley Tucci? No idea why

5-16-26 William? My first thought is Prince William? 

So, because I also share the weird, too, I was given a headline, yet it was written in what I call Elf script; I have no idea what it said. It could have been some ancient text, too.

Mexico? 

On 5/09/26, I had a strange dream. This could be a message or information: Man & woman on a date, but slept over, left the truck, a child's school, a truck driving without its lights on, other people and cars, before daylight. 

Heard Venus for the astrology people. I don't know what it means in my own chart, because Mom could never remember what time I was born, odd but true, and it's not something that I have studied. 

I also get people's names first only. I made it clear that this is first and last with spirits, because without more information, it could be anyone: Savannah, Jesse, Marykate 2x's. These were all on different days. It's like spirits on the other side who don't realize they can speak English, and I'm left to figure out what they just said. 

I also got 16 candles like the movie, now is it the movie or a birthday reference? So Happy birthday to someone.