10/21/26 The word apocalypse

 The word apocalypse comes from the Ancient Greek word apokálypsis, which literally means "an uncovering," "disclosure," or "lifting of the veil."-

We now use the word as it is programmed to mean the end of the world, one too many Hollywood movies; two, history is enunciated with events that have no basis in the present. As for events, a mudslide could be an event; flooding can be an event; a hurricane, tornado, or the poles shifting could all be an event.  Bridges collapsing, car accidents, train derailments, weather extremes, etc. 

These can all be perceived as events of an apocalyptic nature. Whether they're earth-shifting or man-made. The media will feed you these narrations to your heart's content. Your job is to question the story being presented. Unless you're under the age of five and you've seen things happen in the world. They have never stopped happening before now or in the past. Earth is a school for souls; you are the soul here presently on the planet. Have you ever questioned why you/I chose to come here, this family, this time, and what lessons did my soul want to learn to evolve, as in ascension, experience? This is not your first rodeo to planet Earth. 

The only way through it to question your fear, question the news, question, question it all, and questions your truth, because we have been taught to fear, control, manipulate .. Our known history is always been about the conquest over others, When the others are us too. It about power over, it like pick a poison, not literally but your own mind to make rational decision and choices. Critical thinking, like if I bully someone their are afraid me, when the bully is just bully. Whether first introduce in the home by someone who bully them or some fear that they hold. As everyone experience not is not the same across the world. 

I going to end here as there is too much, information coming through for my mind to keep up with all. 

10/10/26 Intuitive from 9/06 to 10/10/26

 9/06/26

Rules of engagement - like the military

During sleep - Hagwood?

Subjugated: example: People will not be subjugated - meaning brought under control, conquered, or forced into obedience

09/07/26

Kayne? 

The name Madeline?

Sound the word: Primordial sound? (not sure why I wrote this like this)

9/10/26

Capitulated- to give up or surrender

Mid-Atlantic? 

I am going to mention this only because long before I actually knew that I was walking, talking intuitive, eterra, and I did this, as in was never said to me "hey your intuitive". I was physically told that medication or any abuse of drugs, alcohol, over-the-counter, etc.. would affect your abilities. Now I'm not sure if this still applies, as I have questioned the use of GPL1 and likes of other named brands, as in the use of it when it is not in a medical necessity way; I see the use in the spirituality community via videos, just like celebrities, to question whether it/they are ( a clear psychic, intuitive, channel/channeling information). I have not received clarification on this, to also include the overuse of plant medicine, which I have at some point spoken about in an older post, because it was stated by the guides and because it was given to me, to conclude the subject matter as, maybe let's learn by example or experience and the effects on consciousness, as you are a consciousness being. This is because there is so much disinformation and very unclear and unclean language that we just say and do whatever without much cause for reflection coming out of the mouths of people. I will give a different example of this:  which is someone is following teaching and yet does the complete opposite of it, as claim I read bible but treat people like shit. I am not pointing fingers; it is an example. Yes, it can be very difficult to navigate the world and people, and we have moments. As always, discern, discern, discern. 

This on 9/11/26

I heard Your Father, who thou art in heaven- Lord prayer: I don't know if for 9/11 victims or families, in a worship/mass. As I don't fact-check. 

9/13/26

Hearing: "leave like a thief in the night.", This is a bible reference- with the return of Jesus, yet since Jesus is a part of you, because everything is consciousness, god, source, etc.. There is no separation; never was. I am not sure of use/ context as to why I am hearing it.

9/15/26

During sleep: Small white vase with white flowers along with the letters ABI- msg maybe

I got the word Impermeable- ? not sure what the intended use of this is for.

Santa Cruz, CA

9/16/26

Revolt? 

Hearing: stand down; this is a military 

Shift in consciousness 

I said Yippee ki yay- why! no idea, as things come out of my mouth from nowhere! I did look this up, and it is used in a movie with Bruce Willis in Die Hard. I'm not sure if this is a message or reference to something, as movies are not my forte to remember them. 

9/17/26

Lyran's 2x's

Ufology - UAP, UFO and USO - ? 

9/18/26

Beef Tallow? I am not sure about this, whether I am questioning this or there is a problem with it. I do question things when I see a push on things supposedly good for you, when so much of food is over-processed or chemically treated, via soil, air, or water.. GMOs, hybridization, with our food that was grown 100 yrs ago.  That is its own rabbit hole. 

*I have gotten stage four cancer, multiple times, Pulmonary Artery (heart valve), Pulmonary embolism (blood clot), funeral, Chest port (seeing a chest port several times) to Heimlich - I don't know if it is personal to me or a strange message for someone. 

9/19/26

Iraq? 

I kept getting this one where I kept getting images of mice? Like seeing a mouse every day for a week, or better.  

The name Pierce? 

9/20/26

I keep hearing in videos the use of the word Agent/Agency, which I thought was some lingo for A!, but it was happening to often to dismiss it, as random usage. (Both are legally used in different ways) from to a person vs corp, yet this use of these words was different in a significant way. As I was not watching videos for A!. 

I got this: take for what it is..

Old adage - why does god allow bad things to happen? Yet everyone is god aspect, so who is really doing the doing (mindpuck) vs. a soul contract, free will via soul contract, in daily life. 

This is what I heard: Something about assigning meaning to something, an event, and something else? When there is no meaning presently in the physical, trying to assign meaning to human behaviors is like asking God why? Questioning free will, or a soul contract, or the contradiction of it, when both are true. It's a conflict of two views: one that you can see and experience and one that you can't - this comes from a linear perspective. 

Now, I have been questioning this in the back of my mind for many years, asking this question since I read two books; along with that, we create our reality by soul contract, choosing by free will to experience things as a spirit/soul in a human body, as the entire soul is not completely embodied, as the body can not hold the entirely of it. So only part of our consciousness is within, which does not mean you are not already whole and complete, but chose to be here or by agreement. I) questioned when it does stop: the polarity, duality, the extremes. I, in myself, have had quite the fill of people in general, and these extremes of repeated obstacles and bullies that wish harm on me (hence gun nonsense) in previous post. This can't all be karma/agreement. How is one to know karma/soul/blueprint contract, when here in the physical it is being in fear/harm or whatever we assign it. I still have not integrated what was said; it makes sense, and the other side is it's a mindfuck, and Wtf to- why would we choose this, only to loop back to seeing from a linear view. 

I also wrote this too: We try to escape it (take as you like) because we know in our hearts that it is not the right way, right answer, and could be better: no suffering, no illness, no poverty, no wars, no he/she, white, black, green, yellow. To the belief vs. known, again, again, again for what? Why and game of it. This was with questioning if this is a form matrix, simulation, a sims games, vs a Assassin creed. (Never played but watched my son play it. ) To look up "what the premise of AC is to why I given Assassin creed as example. Take it for what it is... (because I just think it's f/up.) 

9/21/26

Sleep- The name Brad Lovelaw? I felt it was a lawyer... not sure of relevance or spelling as I was sleeping. There is a Bradley R. Love with Antitrust? Are they connected? 

Saw the name: Tammy

Homogenic/ 

Antitrust

9/22/26

The names Tegan and Octavia

9/23/26

I woke up saying, Hail Mary for Grace? (welcome my strange world)

I heard the word harmony, or Har'mony, like music... another strange, like singing harmony? 

 9/25/26

Obelisk 2'xs - no idea where? 

9/26/26

I was talking to someone about Israel? and they were questioning the affiliation with the US and why ppl are silenced with regards to speaking out against or standing to it. I got Mossad. I posted about Israel in 2022, 2023, and 4/26 of this year. And connected to WW2. 

Halo, the game? Not sure what this is? As I have been told that these games are kind of in collusion with the military, without specifics. 

9/28/26

During sleep: I was in a lecture and saw hundreds of thousands of names. No idea what this is about. 

Hoboken, New Jersey? 

9/29/26

Heard: Atrocities - I said, which one!

Finland

9/30/26

A Glove? No idea!

I heard you make your own sunshine, happiness, and joy! I had some choice thoughts - yet we live in a world where happy people tend to not be liked; not all, but it exists, and people suck the wind or life out of you because misery wants company. Now, as intuitive as I can tell, the fake people, and some of it is hard, as some have faked their whole life and built a complete persona around it.  

I heard/hearing: Whatever will be, will be - "(que)Kay sera sera" this is a song, yet I think it is used in a different light. 

Again, Mice

10/01/26

Codex- book, manuscript, scrolls 

I heard who yah- I can be saying it wrong; like it's: hooyah - Navy SEAL, oorah-marine, hooah - army -I did google hopefully it right. 

10/02/26

Genetic markers

Human genome - changing

I previously posted -feeding your emotions, as in A! and algorithms - questioning: are you feeding your triggers, unhealed parts of self? This is where awareness is awareness, of know your shadows, and why it upset me about peoples videos, and it is never about keeping people in pain or suffering, lack, beliefs, etc.. this where you need to challenge it. Easier said than done, I know. It is the only way to do shadow work and raise the vibration. 

Ok, I really don't know who this for: Angioplasty, Sten? 

I was thinking about imbalance - as this is a question as old as time itself, and why we can't seem to remember history, historical events, or what history we have been fed to make real change, and we keep traveling down the wrong roads, whether it is a narrative or mass amnesia crap. Just my thoughts. 

I think I missed writing some dates; oh well. 

10/05/26

Gilgamesh (not sure how this connects) - !!

Epicurious? Again, no idea, or is this Epicurus? And I have not looked into it, or it's another rabbit hole. Which I am kind of over at this point, and crazy neighbors seem to flip out when trying to focus on doing something that requires focus. 

10/06/26

Hearing Befuddled - ? jokingly, is that not the whole world! 

High fives to the people who make homemade corn tortillas, as I try to, and it was an epic fail. But I have this crazy notion: people should eat or make something that you never tried before, regardless of age. I may not jump out of a plane, but tortillas, I think I can learn to make. Since tortillas, or flatbread, are as old as time, too. 

I heard A! will be so good by voice, or before you know it, we will not know the difference between who you're talking to. 

So I have strange dreams, and sometimes I don't know if it's premonition or astro traveling at the moment, or other lives at the same time, as now. 

So here goes: a woman, mid-twenties to late twenties, in a split-level or old Victorian house, living upstairs, hears banging at the door; she goes to look, goes down the stairs and sees a man; I see another set of stairs; there is a tax office in the lower level, not a basement. I see a needle/syringe thing before she can go to the lower level to the tax area/office with the older man; I feel like there is a second man. It is hard to see... and I wake up. I am pulled back before I can tell it is nefarious. I was not going to post this, but at midday I got shown this dream again while I was awake. So I think it means something. 

Heard mobile device? 

Heard: Foreboding? Not sure of use or reference, as it could be anything. I know that other people keep saying something big is coming, yet something is also coming... and step back from it from a soul view we agreed to be here, and all the chaos and fear tactics. Most people have already gone through things their whole life, like from WWII thru 9/11, financial collapse, bailout, housing collapse, C-virus, or viruses, H1N1(swine flu), so whatever happens, fear of it is not going to help. It is like Chicken Little running around saying the sky is falling and nothing happens, or it does. You were a crackpot if you believe in aliens or UFO, but they seems to real as there is government documents and whistleblower, missing scientist. When things are labeled as a conspiracy, or an act of disinformation, or sleight of hand, or deliberate distractions, to keep focused elsewhere. 

10/04/26 Ramen, ladybugs and Gun

 So I am still here. I stepped back because of a lot of things happening around me. That are out of my control, and I'm questioning what the hell is happening. I have been angry, upset, and questioning things that felt cult-like, beyond the fake and fraud that is just in the community of spirituality. With my own obstacles with people, whereas I feel like I need a gun to protect myself from the crazy or psycho people, to the hearing and telling to get ramen and an email of let's go chase ladybug to show the magic of things, of serendipity, or the flow or physics of manifesting, which has been an issue, and I am like, I've had enough of the BS of people saying it is lack, or enough or worth issues that can be seen in the light of the ancestors' issue too. To what am I really doing? Trying to decide where or what I want to do next, or move this blog, which I am technically challenged to do, without being just another person talking without any real understanding of conveying information.  And trying to control my energy of thoughts, knowing that there is a cause and effect to it, and like fuck it. 

I have gotten information from the last time I posted, which is every day whether I want it or not. My strange dreams that are not making any sense. Wondering where all this is leading? The great million-dollar question that everyone wants to know. When everything is always moving, it is never stagnant, and people in this community are putting things out there that I have never gotten, to creating fear and doing more harm, when we are all working from the information that we are given (some without questioning) or tapping into. Some of which is questionable. If I am truly honest, I say run and do your own research as I have, and always discern and question the source of what is being put out of someone's mouth, even mine. And don't think for one moment that I or anyone has more knowledge than you have as a sovereign being, because not all work is a coming from people working with a completed lack of having a moral compass. Especially with tarot, this is not discrediting all of them, but there is a lot of snake oil and a lack of true commitment and seriousness to it. I am a little over the top with it, because I lived an extreme life; to be silenced or dismissed is a challenge to just stay fuck on this planet. Even my own guides said to me You worry too much, I have always had seriousness to me that people misread as blase' or nonreactive, because I have seen shit by humans every day that is like what !!! from many walks of life, that I was completely naive too. And sometimes I can not get past the stupidity of it or the shock of it. There is an air that everything is airy-fairy, and I walk both worlds, and some have no clue of the world around them. As I was thinking this morning about the people who have lived extreme lives,  some, not all, have insight and lessons that some these teachers, healers, and tarot have no knowledge about. I don't claim to know it all, and some I don't want to fucken know.  

I just felt I need to write or explain, not that I need to explain anyone my situation or thoughts, because most can't handle the truth and like anyone else I don't like to be poked when I am expected to react or have an answer in minute, because we lack teaching critical thinking or learning by expression or experience, as I am only human, too. Sorry I am in tangent now, but you get the point. 

Here is thought that more people should consider emotional IQ! When you looking at videos or information, is it feeding an ego part of you ( the hurt, the wounds, the triggers or understanding, closure) " and No you can't get rid it, you need the Ego but you do need discernment. Because just like A! being algorithm, are you feeding the wounds or healing them) or enlightening them, as in new knowledge to understanding. 

Sorry for errors, I was not going to write this much. 

9/07/26 Intuitive information

This has been delayed because I was not feeling up to it, as I have been processing the fact that I lost 80% of my hair from that allergic reaction to a supplement a few months ago, and looking for employment, as I support this blog solely, and why I chose a life of trauma and why I keep encountering the same obstacles. Along with a power surge that blew out my sound card in my little-over-a-year-old computer, and yes, it was on a surge protector. 

08/21/26

Hearing: Telegraph -not sure of the reference, as there is an online Telegraph News? 

8/22/26

Schism- split between people

Heard - Warlord? 

False flag

8/23/26

Up-tick in Mononucleosis (Mono), again on 8/28/26 because I questioned it, the first time.

Enamored - Natalie Harp - I am not sure if I got this before her strange obsession with the POTUS, as it is public now. 

Heard: 6 years post-COVID? 

8/24/26

I heard: Ok, Governor- with its UK female English accent. 

Greenhouse effect- I believe I have gotten this in the past. 

I heard: Coachella (I have to assume next year, April 2027) since it has already happened this year, or it is a point of reference in time. Since time really does not exist except as a human construct. 

I also find myself arguing in my sleep with someone nightly. 

8/25/26

Video games? Not sure of the reference, other than if you're a parent, you soon learn to regret this: the Xboxes, etc., as you watch your children/or adults lose their shit on game systems. This is where there is some influence to create maybe an illusion by the Military-Industrial Complex. You can Google it. To a perpetual narrative that there is always a war to fight, control, or aliens, not yet public, etc. 

8/26/26

Heard: Seek the Kingdom of God? Apply it as it fits. I am the messenger, and my understanding is that all is of God, regardless of what it looks like. 

So I got an inflection point again; I also got it 4-16-26. I asked for clarification because I got Schism above, both of which seem like a pivotal point without stating what the real meaning is. 

Carnival? I have not received clarity on the use of the reference to Carnival. 

Adaptogenic? 

Anything put in Fear- I heard this as the person who states this in channeling, which is Paul Selig; it seemed like I was sitting in the room with him. (in fully awake state)

8/27/26

The year 2029- 

So I kept hearing and saying: Hello Dolly over and over again. I can't remember if it was before or after Dolly Parton's passing, or if it was an acknowledgement that Dolly was in what you would call home, heaven, and/or not that weird stuff people post is inaccurate about being sacrificed. I even thought it was a song or a play at first, as there is both. * I got some type of tribute, homage, to her and life. 

I am adding this: I got Steady Fresh or StayFresh? ??? Sometimes it is not for me to figure out. 

8/28/29 example: I go to write the date and time, and jump to what I like to say that date. I have gone to appointments on the wrong day, or was it the right day, because it's supposed to be that way. This was before people became walking $ signs. Which reminds me of the song I Am Late, I am late for a very important date, when people are going nowhere. 

8/28/26 real date

Hip don't lie? Not sure if the song, as I heard it as a song clip, or a message. 

I also got the song from The Partridge Family: Come on, get happy- or the guides messing with me, or a true message of nostalgia 

I was watching a video, and I heard that the video in question is not real (can't remember what the video was about). Which I took a stance on, because I was like, can I watch the video without trying to live in what I call a mindpuck, Because, in the true sense of things, we are living a reality that we inhabit in a human form, and part of our consciousness is in it the body- experiencing life and, by soul contract, or soul blueprint, have incarnated into. There is a thought that if I can connect to higher consciousness, I will not experience negative or polarizing experiences when you live on the earth plane for that very purpose, along with the thought that if I vibrated always at love and light, there is also a notion that nothing is going to affect me. There is not one Master teacher who has walked the path of enlightenment, ascension, or otherwise without obstacles. 

I was meditating, and a woman spirit jumped in front of me, as I saw a lot of spirits jump right in front of me in my field of vision. This woman was wearing red and white diamond-patterned clothes like a harlequin. I first thought it was the Joker in a suit of cards or a clown, yet there was no hat. But this very loud outfit, almost proud of it. Message? My guess. I sensed that someone owned this outfit (God bless) and was like Here I am. Not caring one bit about what others thought of it. 

As I have spirit talk to me, not stating who they are, what they want, or that they don't realize they can speak English, I say You can speak English. " I wait, and nothing. As I than can't help them. 

Now I don't call out to spirits, and I don't contact them either. As I don't necessarily believe people who state they are channeling a famous person, one: is that if I am dead I going to the closest person to my family, not a random person. Second: as a person with these abilities, as we all have them, if I state I spoke to a famous person, and I cannot verify without doubt and with certainty that the information can be validated, there is no point. Also, it is not good ethics or practice, since you're dealing with people's emotions and memories. 

 Why I state this: I have been in dreams with people not so famous or had conversations with famous people with no recollection of what took place. I have been to a famous Chinese place around that Avenue of the Stars, watching two people order and eat in the restaurant and questioning, why am I here. I have been to a few other places where I questioned whether can they could see/sense me. This was with guides, not with me asking to be taken to places. 

Also, I don't believe it is a good idea to psychically remote view someone's or anyone's life; that's like having someone come to your home, go through your personal things without you knowing, and invade your psychic space. Now, this can happen if there is agreement between people or on a soul level, still by agreement. Our Government even uses these abilities to locate people or places, and train them/people. You don't like the use of cameras, Flock cameras, so why would you project yourself into someone's psychic space to access information? Do you not realize that privacy is currency at the moment? Even if it is clickbait by a creator or A!, someone is making money. So maybe you should be questioning what purpose does this serves and whether it is for the highest good. 

As I am questioning whether /mine/you/your freedom is on the line. Why do we have all those satellites, EMF, and are now build/ing data centers? To, as an example, We had a partial grid go down this week, and I am an hour or so in all four directions from a city, so as we sat in the dark, with no power, no AC and access to power that run all systems, as people fail to realize that water and plumbing/sewer work are on those system's, will centers continue to function as hundreds of homes have no power? As I watch my cell phone drain being on the charger at the time! And people who need medical equipment and have no backup systems in their homes or apartments for long periods of time. What can people actually do? And not be the overzealous prepper that came in with other lifetimes of trauma, past lifetimes, or planets with civilizations collapsed. Ergo, as the Atlantis example.  This with inflation, housing, and gas surges again: when or what needs to happen at this point.  This I may have to come back to, as I think that these are complex questions and do not have a simple answer.

8/30/26

Song: Turn and Look Away, by Chicago. message 

A wave of heart openings? 

Song: Blinded by the Light - Manfred Mann's Earth Band 

I say random things like: Alarmed and loaded vs locked and loaded

or Ironclad resolve? 

8/31/26 

Hollyweird, AKA Hollywood, CA. 

Arsenic Poison 2x's

9/01/26

Ready Preparedness _heard

9/04/26

Zion? Not sure if car Scion or Zion of other meaning; I did look it up, and I see that there is flooding in the Grand Canyon. Not sure why the guides were making me aware of it, or why the national park would stay open considering the flash flooding it was having. 

Fauci, Fauci, Fauci - As if someone saying are really that dumb? 

Song: Here I Go Again by Whitesnake  

09/05/26

Water will persist- as in flooding and movement.

I also think that there may be something unearthed by Grand Canyon flooding. 

I got Hagwood. 

9/06/26

Rules of engagement - Military? 

Solidarity- 

The saying: not selling a "wolf dressed in sheep's clothing"... metaphor, and bible context.

*I want to note for clarification that some people assume that people who are psychic, intuitive, or medium and channel have all the answers; we don't. Multiple timelines are moving in and out, or occurring at the same time, so for anyone to definitively say xyz is going to happen is only a probability.  The guides don't speak in terms of time, for all is happening at the same time from their point of view. When you focus on the would-have, could, and shoulds is a limitation to the present moment, as the future has not happened and the past is as likely as a minute ago. They ask that you take the information in, sit with it, digest it, explore it, discern it. That is all. 

I will give an example: You, as a spirit/soul in a human body, have an entire soul history out side of the life that you current know; you were born with a birth chart, with alignment to planets, birth family, and into an ancestry, with soul contracts to what you would learn, experience in this lifetime, and express as a personality; you have conceive ideas based what you have learned so far or not, as you only know what know. If you knew the probability of every event to come and go, the likelihood is that the experience would not be experienced without soul growth or understanding. You came to grow your soul and in wisdom, not to be petulant (someone who is childishly sulky, bad-tempered, or easily annoyed, especially over small and unimportant things. [1, 2, 3]). All growth is growth, none the wiser. 

Sorry if there is any errors, as it is doing weird stuff while typing it. As I write it old-school and type it up, more information comes in.  

8/22/26 Intuitive and Me

I am going to stop writing:  heard, hear, saw, see, smell, sleep, (taste) unless it is directly from the guides. These are all basic current clairvoyance that are known or discussed. Not widely discussed in telepathy: bilocal, OBE/astral travel, Blending (not sure of the technical term). In shamanism, there is a soul journey where two people or more can enter other space-time, maybe, and be the observer of the past life or, as you see in your mind what they are also encountering; not sure if there is a term for this either, as well as dream walking.  These things that I have experienced, and never trained for, along with what I believe is remote viewing. Some of this overlaps in verbiage: OBE/Astro, dream walking, maybe bilocal too, soul journey, and remote viewing. 

 8/14/26

Web Weaver song? or Hawkwind Band- message maybe 

* I previously wrote about a rat-tail haircut; I also got a sweatshirt with cut-off sleeves. I was not sure if the two were connected. - I believe if someone is reading this, it is connected to them. Am I completely sure? No, because people make claims about their relatives, but it can be about more than just one person with this description. It would be a black sweatshirt. 

8/16/26

Romania 

Something Paramount? Important

8/17/26

Lake Titicaca 

A Substrate - ie: layer of the planet: dirt, rock, sediment (this word has multiple meanings) 

United Kingdom (saw it as UK)

8/18/26

True crimes - not sure of use, as in a true crime, crimes against humanity, a show, or otherwise.

Unpenned - not written down; stories, poem, not confined? 

ET- not the movie

Recently I had what I believe was an experience of being on the deck of a UFO, AFO, spaceship where I witnessed the blackness and stars through a large window. Not a NASA  spaceship- nothing in comparison.  If you watched S4 - not even close to it. 

Does it scare me? No humans scare me. 

I also had a dream that I was leaving and walking away from multiple different beings/ET's; not one looked like the other. 

8/19/26 

Judge Meyer? 

Smelled wood smoke; I know that there are fires all over the planet, both natural and manmade. These disasters will continue until we stop destroying the planet and learn to work together. Includes Water, earthquakes, volcanoes, mudslides, natural, man-made- anything that could be conceived as an act of God, yet not God. As the planet has always gone through changes and will continue to do so. 

8/20/26

Effigy- ie; a mock dummy, model, or sculpture that looks like a person (protest maybe) 

8/21/26

Before waking: "medicine" changing ( not indicated how) 

Yesterday saw the word Peter Salt- not sure if it's a person or my guides/ me being dyslexic at times, and it is Petre Salt, which is a compound in food, pyrotechnics, fertilizer, and explosives. I have a theory on dyslexia, and it is my theory is not supported by anything valid. That our natural ability is to be a telepath, mind-to-mind, heart-to-heart, and we spent more time off-planet than on, or it is soul choice, and it can be childhood trauma/accident to the brain, etc.  But like anything in life, we deem it as bad, wrong, not the right way by ourselves or told we're different, or something wrong with you. Show me a person perfect, and I will show you a lie. 

8/22/26

So I was scrolling and looking at Images of YT creators, not their titles, but the images seem comical or strangely distorted. This is not looking/listening at the actual content, but at the visual graphs of what is presented. This is not all videos, but enough to question its use. I am not even sure I am explaining this correctly, like a bad book cover photo, movie cover, or what. To question: is there a filter, overlay, A!, or editing that is making it look unnatural? I am just observing it and questioning whether it is being used to confuse the eyes, and you can't tell the real from the fake. I wrote about this before. Where humanity will need to challenge what they are witnessing, hearing, and viewing with tech and A! I want to use the word simulation, but a complex concept that I don't completely understand, to even write about it. 

This is, of course, is based solely on the fact that many are always on their devices. A! and algorithms have been used longer than we think, as they are presented. Along this line of thought, I question even more today than before the many presenters of spiritual teaching, because everyone seems to have their own way of explaining the hows and what is going to happen, most of which I have never gotten, as in events.  This is me and not the guides, as I am always the skeptic, and  I  am always questioning the material and what people say, and what the guides say, always. I, for one, have not walked the loving, blissful path but rather into ugly things. To question whether it is the soul blueprint, belief, or trauma. To what the hell am I really doing at this point? Where is it going, because I have no intention at this point for this work. 

As in, I just got me Schism- split or division between people. It is one of the reasons that I define here.

Why I was given it is questionable because I don't think people are unified collectively, and not sure humanity is even capable of it, to be honest. I even argue this in my sleep at this point, to whomever, or whatever. To question my own walk through life: why I choose what I have? In reality, people make decisions on what they do or don't know, and I am not an expert in any of it and will never claim that I do, for I am always looking for answers to life, in my personal life, and whether I will be doing this work next week or next month. 

I created this Blog because the information was bigger than me, and that I knew that if only one person understood what I was writing, that they would not feel crazy, overwhelmed, or just wtf in a world that has no idea who they are. As I given a image a droplet, my image is bigger;  that of a droplet (the size of a nickel) has more love in it, as in you are love, and is more valuable than all the gold in the world. That, as a childhood trauma taught me, what I thought, or think, or even said was not important enough to express who I was. This is my trauma, as a person of few words unless it has a point to convey. I may be oversharing at this point. But why not! I can't pretend that I have the answers, only more questions, as a student of life. 

As in, my over-independence and needy, are recent additions to my growing shadows work that show blind spots, from childhood of not feeling safe to the love-fear dynamic via attachment to parents who, by the way, grew up with the same love-pull-fear of the past. This is why living in a world that is safe versus one of fear, when so much more can be achieved. No, the name of the game is fear, from parents to you to your children, etc.. Keep you in fear to control your mind, from devices to your perception of people. Rightfully, so some people are nuts. When people mirror the darkness of the past through the eons of time, playing the part and showing where we are misguided. Maybe the battle is not with the outside world, but within us. Conditioned by the external world to believe that we are not as powerful beings, but mere ferals without the thought to reflect or project higher wisdom, for we don't seek it by questioning our own beliefs. 

Side note: I previously wrote about A! and, liking it to the dot-com bubble, I want to clarify that I don't see it going away- one that assists and the other to manipulate- by itself, which can and will integrate itself in 3-5 years; roughly could be sooner.  Like anything on this planet, we either use it or abuse it. Since we live on the planet of polarity, the question is often: at what point does it end? One that grows or one of control. 

Heard Bifurcation - splitting or dividing a single body, line, or process into two branches. 

I am again questioning the guide's use of the word. I may have to come back to this at another point. Because it indicated separation, yet it does not explain what exactly it is, as we don't live on a unified planet. We are already separated by so many things to even mention. 

Oh, this too: Bulk buying, burning books, and A! I like books and don't like knowing that they we're destroying them to feed a machine, much like the many times the Library of Alexandria has been destroyed. This is why our real history and soul feel a disconnection; not that you can never be disconnected, even in death. Well, for the people who think that they cash in, Karma, karma, karma. Universal laws - cause and effect. No deed or action goes unnoticed. This is another example of Power from the past, present, to future that dictates what is controlled by the few and not the masses. History repeating itself. 

8/15/26 What if A!

 What if A! video takes over YouTube, or any platform? How to tell (YT only). If you click on it and it does not have an AI icon already, and you're not sure if it is real, click on the creator's name and see when the account open date is and the number of videos. Any creator/s will tell you that 57 videos in 30- 60 days, or even fewer videos, is improbable based on the upload time for the creation of it without a team of people. I am not writing to create fear but awareness. That many of A! videos, whether there are true creators behind them or not,  are not doing any real work other than pulling data, whether it is true or not. And because humans don't have a level of awareness or discernment, and it is not necessary being objective or analytical, by truly questioning the material presented.  And the genre does matter. What is more disturbing is that A! videos are generating money on views, whether by people, bots, or Google itself. Who is to say, really, what is what? Kinda like a bank paying itself for itself. We are already seeing fake videos of big creators falling into this as they are superimposed onto the images, putting their means and credentials at risk, by a fake persona of other people's work. 

 This is my thought, not based on any psychic information but on observation of what I see happening.  

In the past, I have written something along these same lines about fake images, via media, news, etc. Whether humanity would have to learn to tell the difference between fake images, much like fake news. I am going to forecast something: what big tech does realize at some point, they will also not be needed. Like the dot-com bubble before it, it will pop! 

8/15/26, 8/05/26 Intuitive information

 8/03/26

Hearing: We're Not Going to Take It- by Twisted Sister - this is a message. 

Because I questioned it against people being fed up, and was told it is a message. 

Heard:  Donald Trump? 

Saw the words Polish, German? 

8/04/26

Heard: Trombone? Several times.

Heard:.... Something like cross the Mississippi? There is a song by Eddie Rabbit??

Heard: Entropy - I've gotten this before; not sure if the reference is for thermodynamics

Hearing: Sonar- not sure if it is naval or air ( I sensed it as a Submarine)

Image/Dream: Two people- one realizes that someone has thrown coins in the grass and is picking them up. Maybe it's a child who thought they hit the jackpot. Message, maybe as in a memory. 

8/05/26

The names: Darnell and Desmond; not sure if it's the same spirit speaking or two individual people. I tell the spirits that without validation of something, they are just names, which is not always helpful, because people want to know that loved ones are ok. In fact, they are better than ok. 

8/15/26 It has been a rough two weeks with the Lion gate and eclipse energy. 

Heard: Finding your true north- metaphor as in looking within yourself and questioning what you believe, regardless of outside conditions. Not what others have said or claim, as in being normalized, and question everything. 

8/07/26 

Aperture- I believe this is a metaphor. I suggest looking it up, as it is outside of the reference of a camera; for this is like walking around with blinders on and not seeing the bigger scope of things. This is not being solely focused on the doom and gloom of things, as they are not as they appear. 

8/08/26

Heard: Something unprecedented? 

Heard: Rat Tail- I don't think this is a physical rat tail, more like a haircut that something would have had. As in, remember when had that rat tail. Message

08/09/26

Heard: Borano or Borama? Boramo is in Somalia/Ethiopia

Heard: Apogee- highest point in orbit, and earth where an object like the moon or satellite is from the planet. 

I have previously spoken about the movement of people (not by the act of war) invading and straining other countries; I have gotten follow the money. Meaning that these organized events. 

8/10/26

Storm Sitter

The Unspoken One- What we refer to as God? Not Jesus, not Buddha, not Krishna..the One above, no other. Why I got this is a whole other question. 

I heard it about to AMP up? 

8/11/26

Sleep cells

Something Military

Göbekli, Turkey

Heard: Float like a butterfly and sting like a bee? Famous quote, a message, 

8/12/26

Sang- not a name, ?? 

Heard: Let Freedom Ring- this is a faith song- maybe a message. I kept hearing it over and over- Let Freedom Ring. I was like, what the pickle against what is happening out in the world, when trying to stay grounded in neutral and as an observer.  

Artemis? 

8/14/26

Lake effect

Central Bank, aka the Federal Reserve. 

8/05/26 Intuitive information - Faith over Fear

 7/29/26

Heard Sistine Basilica = this is the third time.

7/30/26, 8/01/26

Heard- Higher Love - Steve Winwood - 

I saw it as a word:  Telluride? Not sure if it's the City or vehicle? 

Hearing- Star Wars - here we come!

Hearing: Something between Gemini? Stars, or the Zodiac Sign - 

Heard: Disambiguate - meaning to remove confusion, unclear words, phrases, or ideas, to make it easy to understand. 

Heard: the theme song for Star Trek - It's a Strange New World, the original.  

8/02/26

Heard: Ionosphere- upper part of the Earth's atmosphere, an electrically charged region. (Earth Grid? )

Heard: European? 

Dreamtime- right before waking, I was shown a car, not a truck or SUV, that was candy apple red, looking like Medium size car with the words Raidrs, Raids on the sides of it. I thought it was an EMS emergency vehicle. I also thought it was connected to the Raiders football team, but their colors are black and silver.

Heard: Tales of Two Cities - Charles Dickens, "Paris and London", French Revolution. ??? 

Heard -Nikola Tesla? His work? 

Heard: Poas - 2x's Volcano

Book the cross my path: Treasure Islands: Tax Havens and the Men who Stole the World

Hearing release what you have. 

7/28/26 Intuitive Information

 7/24/26 

Earth changes 

As a side note: For people who don't know that insurance does not cover Natural events, there may be a clause for purchasing additional insurance, per the insurance policy. Due to the frequency of events around the world. I suggest knowing where important stuff is, or securing it. This is the USA. 

Pharmaceutical

7/25/26

The Name Angelique? 

Heard:  Raise the Bar? 

Heard 7/25/, 7/26/26 Dissidence  -a public disagreement against 

7/26/26

Tronbow, or trimbow  - My first thought was that this was a jumbo tron? I really have no idea what this is. 

Heard: What's good for the goose is good for the gander. (equality, no double standards) 

Hearing: Let's Zhuzh, zhuzh it up. Message (female) specific I felt like I was the presence of Zsa Zsa Gabor..Similar personality. means: Zhuzh (also spelled zhoosh or jeuje) means to make something more stylish, lively, or attractive through a small adjustment, improvement, or addition. 

7/27, 7/28/26

Heard: Squander 

Heard NSA - National Security Agency 

Seismic Activity again. (This was the day before the Japan earthquake )

Vatican

Two songs, Chicka Wow, wow and Chicka Boom, boom?  Two very different songs! 

Heard the House of Windsor.. 

Heard the Trump Administration 

Song: The Rivington, Papa Oom Mow, mow ... is original 
Artist, yet the Beach Boys also covered it. Message  

7/29/26

Hearing: All will be exposed 

Heard "The Band" a song: Up on Cripple Creek- Message maybe 

Image of Deer (buck) hit a fence, stuck in fence? 

07/24/26 Spiritual misunderstanding (channeled)

 All the teachers who have walked this planet have never spoken of living in a higher dimension; all the wisdom that has come to this planet is about you being here now. Not off-planet, traveling the aethers, or even space. It's about remembering who you are in this physical reincarnation. That you are the Gods, not just people, thinking that only they (master teachers) or religion can give you answers, or that you can not access them yourself. Or that there is one direct path. 

Spiritual teachers did not just sit around waiting on information to come to them. They went out into the world to teach, yet the builders, designers, artists, various institutions of medical, health, and safety, and the farmers are just as spiritual as the next person. For all function as a unit, not as separate or in separation, and no one is less needed than the other. The trash still needs to be taken care of, the builders still need to build bridges, buildings, roads, and rails, food needs to be grown to eat, as well as water to clean yourselves and your clothes, and nourish the body.  The sick and poor need to be provided for because your systems has enough. Stop believing what you have been told and listen to your own heart and learn if that is what is needed. Change what is not working; airplanes did not fly the first time, nor the car run the first time. Stop believing things are impossible when nothing is impossible, for it already exists.  

7/24/26 Manifesting, grifter, Get rich scheme and being a Sovereign being

 Firstly, you're a Sovereign being having a human experience on Earth, as consciousness and awareness in form of everything "exists". If you want to manifest anything, it begins with questioning your belief about the thing that you're trying to manifest, and there are a whole lot of grifters who will tell you get-rich schemes to become what?  Rich, wealthy, an extravagant lifestyle above what you can envision. By the way, people who have great wealth are consumed by the need for it, to have it, keeping, to the point of power, control, manipulation, wars, greed, and back-hand deals, and even psychosis.  And everyone seems to have cracked the code. It's more than wishful thinking; it can be that way, but I have only seen it when an innocent child (or was it intuition as precognitive) has done it or when no blocks remain in the way of the object. If you're not willing to figure out your beliefs regarding what you want, let's say, money. Money is not the only material wealth. 

You have to question all your beliefs about money: what you learned from your parents, what you were taught or not taught, what did your grandparents faced, what your great-grandparents faced in the same bloodline, money-wise, culture belief - from the first to the ninth generations of immigration, since you are the extension of generations and Lineages. Where are you spending your own money? Because no one seems to know how to make coffee these days without crossing the parking lot with themselves or a vehicle to nearly take people out for it. (that whole addiction question or consume question): Do you know how to save money, spend wisely, invest wisely? Do you understand that money is energy! Are you doing it to or for keeping with the status quo ( a program) of, or trying to prove something about yourself to others that you have not resolved within yourself? If you're doing it for the outer part of the world, it will always fail or lead to madness. Even the bible has 2,000 entries about money and the pursuit of it. This is not about religion per se, because Churches are their own business entity, classified as loops disguised. Churches and Kings through history, all over the world. Pick your dynasty!

You can visualize, imagine, create vision boards, dream about, as in day dreaming, what it would be like, feeling or pretending....without taking action. Doing this by not questioning yourself about what you really think about, or what is needed, as actionable action. Where does the need come from, because all ads are geared toward you, the consumer, and your data? Cha-Ching! Is Money or anything for/to improve yourself or humanity, because 85% percent, or better of the world would like to live a very different life than the one that they have, yet do not question their own truths about themselves. Do you think people who live in poverty, homelessness, illness, disabilities, or ravaged areas by war or catastrophes, the elderly, violence, and a whole lot of other things don't want to manifest a better life? Why do we have people moving from country to country to put stress on other places for many reasons, migrating, yet what you think is always with you, because you are the manifester of it. Moving may change the conditions but does not change the thought behind it. 

As I am thinking about it, do you even want to surround yourself with those types of people because they would be you, just in a different body, with the same or similar mindsets. You could go buy the dress or suit and wave in front of the mirror, and there you are. Sorry! As guides, I saw an image of it. At the same time I handed a notice that rent is proposed to go up, I think for what nothing has changed, and in fact the same problems that exist here are not dealt with properly. But isn't that what we are taught: what you think does not matter; just shut up and follow the others' mentality. 

This, of course, is not telling me what to do, as it may seem like it is.  This is me directing your thinking and feel for yourself. You have to become that which you seek. If you want love, be love, by loving yourself. Money: understand money; want a Better a better world, become better people, seek to change it. Prices skyrocket- stop buying stuff, find a different way. 

"As you are your own truth" 

7/18/26 Intuitive information

 7/18/26 

Heard - Here Comes the Sun by the Beatles - Message

Heard- Entrop 3x's Things to go from organized and concentrated to messy and scattered over time. Heard 7/17, 7/18/, 7/19

7/19/26

heard? Vernacular- A natural everyday language or dialect spoken by ordinary people in a region or community. I am not clear as to what they  (guides) are referring too. Since nowhere on the planet do we all have the same speech or dialect. Not even within the same state. 

Heard Barren land - Wasteland, desert

I heard .... Basilica? I am not sure why they dropped the first part of what "Basilica". It was said twice to me like a whisper. Did someone talk too loudly in a Basilica? 

7/20/26

Heard Big Wheels keep on turning- Message,  I believe, it is the Creedence Clearwater version. 

Heard- Betty Ford Clinic? 

Heard- Motorway - This apparently overseas, as in the US, these are highways here, and it is like playing Frogger (the frogger part is me, or is it?)

Sidenote: Have you ever seen an image in something, as in a rock, trees, I want to say clouds, but I've seen people change them with their mind. Maybe see an image of an animal, word, or face. And thought, why am I seeing this? Or am I seeing this? Or as an example, look it up as a plausible explanation! Really, you have to self-interpret what it means to you. You can look it up- as I see a bear, black, standing, etc.. There is a whole language of symbolism, totems, and numbers that the guides will use to get your attention.  They mean something or nothing, but when you want proof of the existence of something, and even for proof of the strangeness of things. I said as a Joke,  a long time ago, send me roses. Well, three days later, I was changing sheets and got an entire bedsheet of roses.  I was like, wait, what? I did not ask for a boutique or single rose; I said roses, and got the roses. Regardless of whether I had a bedsheet, it was a lesson in perception, contact, and maybe manifesting, too. Before that was really a thing! People want all these big things, yet take no workable action. There are also trillionaires, billionaires,  and millionaires on the planet. Is that what you want? I don't want to see their next life or several; you don't have just one, and it's over.  That is Dogma. 

People want contact or manifestation, which are similar yet different. Two of the biggest blockages are your beliefs and fear. I always say to ask for protection, not because you need protection, but because people are careless with their thoughts and actions.  

People will ask why? Anything? Yet, are you or another holding yourself responsible for the highest action or outcome? See it not out there; it is within you. To deprogram yourself from what you've been told. Look at the World Cup; people traveled expecting what they were told, yet that was not their experience. Not that some of the things they were told do exist, not just the way it was told to them by the media. Social programming, conditional programming. 

Another thing that someone has asked me about ET experiences (not during sleep), but when I am wide awake, is why I don't take pictures. First off, depending on your experiences in life, you are either in ahh or what the pickle. And for the exception of one, ok two incidents, they are minutes, seconds as if time stops, yet it does not. And when you realize to use the camera, it's normally over. I also wear glasses to see up close, so focusing and trying to take a picture of a spaceship and a helicopter at a distance is a little challenging. As well, people are still nope not seeing it, not real, not happening, you're crazy, etc. 

7/20/26-continued

Heard - Toradol? or Toroidal Field? One is physics, and the other is Medication?  I suggest looking it up, as I am aware of toroidal field with regard to the Earth and energy body. Not that either is separate from the human body. 

Heard - Istanbul? 

Rock the Casbah? 3x's heard -Not sure if it meant for the song, movie, or metaphoric..! I think it's the song, as I heard it again today, 7/23/26. 

Hearing a A "blip on the radar" refers to a brief, unexpected event or a minor issue. Originating from military radar screens—where a tiny, fleeting dot signals a detected object—the phrase has evolved into everyday slang to describe something small and temporary that doesn't significantly impact the bigger picture. [1, 2, 3] You can look it up for expanded contextual use. 

Mitch McConnell - not sure why I was given this since I don't follow politics, and most know that a matter of time before he passes. I also keep getting McConaughey with this. Take it for what it is. I am just the messenger. 

7/22/26 

Heard: What wah Watusi - it's a dance, via YouTube. Message

Heard: Bangladesh - this has come up before in the past. 

Hearing the word: Something does not add up. 

Hearing: Gods Among people- I am not clear on the Guides reference or usage. Since all are part of God anyway. 

Heard: Serve & indentured servant? 

I also woke up from a dream: This could be something or nothing. I was in a Car or SUV; a man asked me about a missing person named Cody. As I had been driving and stopped by this man, I said, I saw him in the bar playing Music; I saw him as the lead in a band, as I just left the bar before being stopped. 

7/23/26

Something about a debrief? 

I heard or was asked about how we "measure success", as if it was a question?  I asked whether this was a direct question or statement. As I don't think I was asking the question of the guides. This requires some follow-up. 

The right to revise. I previously wrote to follow people who have been teaching for a long time, as they have walked the path. I was informed, and I was reminded, that it is not completely true, necessarily, as I knew as a child, with all its calamities and injustices. That it will be new children being born with the instant knowing, to be the forerunners. As many have not even been born yet.  I do have apprehension even stating this because we all have a responsibility to evolve ourselves, with free will, of course, because we are a free-will planet. 

07/07/26 Intuitive Messages -

 7/07/26 

Breast milk women - females would have problems producing breast milk, or infertility. I previously posted a few years back, and I'm struggling to find it. This is not the first time this has happened, yet we are in a retrograde that messes with technology, communication, and contracts. But another person who does astrology for a layman, like myself, who knows nothing about astrology, speaks about his own prediction of three plus years ago with males, and the chemicals that are creating problems, too. It is connected to Jab. This date, 10/07/21, is when I posted. There is a reference to jab, not infertility.

2028- I keep wanting to write 2028 - it is a 3-year number, which is 2 years from now.

So I previously wrote Dodo bird, the strangeness of things, I was watching a random movie, and they said something about the Dodo bird. Now, the likelihood of the word Dodo bird showing up in a movie that had nothing to do whatsoever with a Dodo bird is highly unlikely, as it is one of the signs used by the guides to inform me that they are around. I have even questioned this because I said to them how do I know that it's a message, instead of confirmation? This only comes with practice, which I still ask for.

I said, they're just "flapping their yapper!" I have never in my life said this wording. So this is why it's a message to someone.

Messenger? I keep writing.. !!!

7/08/26 I got this! Take it for what it is - Via China- because corporations sent manufacturing overseas, they destroyed themselves.

7/09/26

Black dome- I was shown a black dome, I called it goop! Why I call it that is another question. But here it is. I also showed this long orange tube thing during sleep. I have no idea what it was, and I even said I can't be concerned with what that is. It seems like a worm thing, not on this planet.

This is something that I got, and not sure why, but here goes. I showed via my own arm whether it was blood work or an addict. Not clear as to why. This was on 7/02/26. I did not post to see if it showed up.

Big Tech, Epstein Network of his Financial Network, Thiel - I asked if we should be concerned I got yes. We tend to think it's just the elites, but a small number of people are coming up in power, too.

Prodigal Son, I heard the Prodigal Son - I am not sure of the reference, whether it is biblical or modern usage.

You put a Spell on "me", hearing as if someone is saying to someone, not the song. As there are several versions of the song, with word rearrangements. (This is an attraction, as I am picking someone, which is misread.)

7/10/26 I heard Hum, hum, hum, duh? - (meaning: it that obviously) This could also be huma, huma, huma - as someone's personal slang - message

Elon Musk- ?

The number 30, Whistleblowers - I was told I did not need to write it down, but here it is anyway.

7/11/26

Holograph, heard. -"I sense Sony." Why? Because I remember years ago seeing something they created, like Star Trek's holographic holodeck that could project a person, which we see in various movies. I did a quick search and saw this instead, "Sony’s Spatial Reality Display." I'm not a techy, but it reads your eye movement and what is its doing with the information, since most people have facial expressions, as well as eye expressions. And for years, they have been trying to impose facial software on us, tag us like animals. I had not so recently filed paperwork for unemployment to cover my derriere, and before filing, knowing that I would not qualify. I had to file for a digital ID and facial recognition. Since our data is used to trade for more or less money at this point. 

 Not that people fail to see money is only real if you go to the bank with its green linen paper and thread, I feel I keep seeing things from the movie "Minority Report". This could go into the matrix, stimulation theory, and that we are all one big thought of creation, as we are creation, simultaneously living in organic stimulation. I am reading a book that poses this, and it has been said by my guides that humans are not to integrate themselves with technology, as we are the technology. I only briefly questioned it at the time, as I assumed I just channeled it. At the time, knowing that technology implants were being done to help with mobility, hearing, seizures..etc.. This paragraph is speculative on my part. But then again, things like Neuralink are really reversed engineer of ET technology. 

Sidenote: AI describes via Google: "A holograph is a document—such as a will, deed, or letter—that is entirely written in the handwriting of its author." I checked via Webster and etymology, and it is apparently right; a holograph is considered a document signed with a signature. I feel like this has changed somewhere over the years, because I have never referred to a document as a holograph.  "ie: Sir, can you sign this holograph," !!!

Air- space?

Statis- something in statis? I am sure of the reference because there are different usages for the word.

Meteors

7/12/26

Song I say a little prayer for you.

7/13/26

Again, Taro (tarot), any title that begins with taking revenge is not spiritually aligned, even if it is used as clickbait, or wishing harm, or creating harm. As words are powerful. Your thoughts, even unexpressed, can create harm. (This is not over-diligent to watch every thought, as some people take things to extremes) You bang your toe, it fricken hurts. Sometimes, you say ouch before you actually feel it. Then say or think, "Did that really hurt that much?" Yet, never question it, as to why you say ouch anyway?

Added, I am sure if the example below clearly explains what I am trying to say: Ok, I not sure how to explain this: Taro, if you are wanting or seeking information on the ex, or relationship, revenge, judgement, they did you dirty, these titles are all out of alignment, and there are far more titles used to hook you. These are mirrors or projections of self or another, depending on the information that you're looking for from others.

Not sure about this, if is good example, this is what came first before the above. For example, you walk in somewhere, and people are already talking; it may have nothing to do with you, and the room gets quiet, or you pass by, and people are chattering between themselves. And as a sensitive, unknowingly (this is not to say that all are not sensitive, some more than others), consciously or unconsciously, because you never thought about what it is to you, you are picking up the energy. You're not crazy, as someone may have told you. You are energetically picking up energy information or even telepathically sensing. You may or may not hear the words, but you feel the energy. There does not even need to be chatter; you feel the room, you feel the space, you feel joy or anger, or a fight. You may unknowingly choose where you sit based on the emotions of the room or place. Call it empathic, sensitive, safety for some, or vulnerable. You have been told it is not true, to the point of dismissing it.

Next time, pay attention to what you feel in your body, listening to it. If you can't process what your sense it for reasons like you're in a meeting, interview, school, etc, write it down, or take a note of it, to yourself. You have the ability to think, feel, and review it later. The more you sense things, you're tuning in to your own intuition. If you walk into somewhere and it feels like chaos or overwhelming energy, and you can't remove yourself. Silently asked to be shielded and protected from the energy. What is really happening is telling yourself to pull your energy so as to not be a walking antenna. Things like a funeral, wedding, or celebration are not going to feel the same way. You've been taught to show up or perform based on expectations and not listen to what you're feeling in the body, sensing, hearing, smells, and visual - four basic clair/clear senses, which there are more than just four. Telepathic, clear knowing, psychometry, out of body, via astral projection, remote viewing, precognition, Clear tasting, telekinesis, etc. Most people use their intuition unknowingly, and without thought, and their is whole x, y, z generations eterra, asleep at the wheel or their own helm.

7/14/26

Russia

Interstellar

Bilderberg influence?

7/15/26

Song: What about Love? Haddaway - message maybe, 3x times 7/15, 7/16, 7/17

hearing - Sonic? Not sure of usage. Sonic Boom?

7/16/26

Guides: No religion of the world will give you what you seek- no book, no divine order, no divine system. You are what you seek.

So within, so without..you are the inner and outer.

This line of questioning came about as I questioned people seeking a guideline of sorts to follow, such as a book, etc.

7/17/26

Thick as Thieves- heard

Hearing Rollin, rollin, - Tina Turner Fan ?

07/01/26 The journey - (I feel like I am on repeat)

(also on another Post) - Everything is a spiritual journey, you just don't know it or remember it as such. 

Since many people say to me and question the whys and hows? The following is a rough breakdown. I have walked through my life up until 33 or 34, until someone said to read Sylvia Browne's books, which then went into codependency, adult children of alcoholics, neglect, verbal abuse, and narcissism.  I had never put two and two together, and this was far beyond the information that was around, at the time, and now, much less spoken about publicity.  

I had no idea that there were even books available to read on the various subjects, or why no one bothered to say anything to me, or direct me. As it was still very outside the norm. I should clarify that the guides tried to guide me at times, but I did not understand, remember, or know what I was looking for. As with anyone, we're trying to figure out life, fit in, when we don't, because we came in born into a broken system to begin with. I have always known I'm different, and stopped talking about things when I could verify it, or it upset people, told I was wrong, or a gamut of things that are used to control a person. 

2004, 1st realizing that information available, trying to control it, to protect myself from it, because it was as if I was an open door for all of it. Trying to record what I was seeing and experiencing, as I was not actively writing it down. An Ex that showed his true self with the birth of our son, to a Jekyll and Hyde syndrome, or Narcissus. Raising two small children, and actively searching for answers, so as not to think I was crazy or delusional. It is one thing to experience here and now, but to be in constant influx every day, night, every moment, and not know what to do with it, or turn it off, or have help with it.    

2007 -2nd Directed to a medium's event, where my Mediumship was blown open, again. 

In 2011, I experienced a rather husky man's voice, which opened the door to Channeling. Which helped create this Blog, because I realized that it's bigger than myself. 

At the end of 2011, I was again assaulted by some of my family after an event that happened with another sibling. Called an EX to assist, who then made a bad situation even worse. Toward that end, in 2012, of living under the toxicity of control, threats, and eventually, again assaulting me, to flee for my life and with my children, who created a hostile environment for them and me. To spend the next few years moving from shelter to shelter, to transitional housing, to then housing. 

2012-2013 Courts and Judges - spending the next 20 months trying to pull my life back together, fighting to get my son back, and that the judge club had another idea of what a contempt order is vs. child custody is, when you leave the county where you live, not the state. Creating an almost impossible court order, with a lack of personal transportation and pick up/arrangement agreement, considering the previous assaults and threats of taking my son away from me, as it looked that they trying to sever my relationship, and pleading with the supreme court to flipped back to the lower court the mishandling of violating laws in place. Putting both my other son and me in a strange space, and tearing apart our family of the last eight years, and continuing on for the next ten years, to this day. 

2016 Three years later, forced to put my other son out, again, by the system in place, or be homeless because my other son turned a legal adult, and he had not decided what he wanted to do in life, and because of the courts, ex wanted more money when I wasn't even working full time because of custody agreement to keep my parental rights and basically treatment as criminal instead shared parenting that was joke, and on-going courts issues with not one ex but two. Because I did learn that lesson the first time. 

Empathic, Boundaries, balance, rest, and integration... purging - these are all ongoing processes. 

2016-2022 Cried every day for the first eight years, not only for one child, but two, and my own life as to what the fuck happened to my life. So if my writing is jaded at times, I have every right to, rightfully so, have that emotion, considering I have been fighting for my life, for maybe the entirety of it. When looking back at all of it. From the earlier memories to the forgotten memories. All, trying to return to a life prior to with all the spiritual stuff happening, or creating a new life that had things in it that I couldn't even think of on my own. I read more books than I can mention, videos, lectures, shamans, hypnosis, Reiki, Psych classes, psychology books, and human darkness within myself and others. Ghost, spirits, Ets, and walking angels, in the form of humans to unseen ones. I have an entire file cabinet in my head, and that's not even close to explaining things. This does account for trying to put me in jail, counselors trying to drug me, a few times, take my driver's license away, countless hours wasted in courts, and the public transit system. Having the sheriff officer walk me into the parking lot for fear of life, or the countless car accidents, or people trying to run me over in their car, or off the road. (And I still sometimes wake up in tears.) 

I could even tell how many times this very page has been written, several times over, to question the meaning of it, all. The still, but real broken relationships, that still are not healed from the fallout of the over two decades looking for answers in myself, books, teachers, etc. To have people ask me what I think I am supposed to be doing with it. I say I have no idea, because my heart can't take much more, and it certainly has not been easy or fun, and working a 3d job has been a sea of toxicity of egos with numerous nameless people. To how do I start over again, when neither world is producing a life for me? One, I can unashamedly say I had had enough of both, and out of ideas. This raises real questions about manifestation without real action taken. As it is as individual as everyone's path. 

Post on another page, because it is that important. Also, something that is mistakenly presented is that one day we all wake somewhere else, or everything with change over night, which is incorrect, as it is a progression of events. Whereas I have gotten years of points in time, up to 2050, from 2026 through 2032, to 2040, and it seems there is a gap from 2040, (2042 just got) -2050. That is a 25-year expansion plus, give or take. Anyone truly doing this work has been doing it for 30 years or better years. 

As I hear from my guides to let it go, and I am like, I have years still of unprocessed crap, and I'm supposed to just let it go, and where is the hole big enough to bury it for good! You would think that all that I've been through, fear would be the last of my concerns. As telling this unbelievable adventure, putting mildly.  I have my good days and my not-so-good days. All while trying to keep a roof over my head, pay my bills, and keep food in my stomach, clear the past, and walk into whatever comes next. I have even been accused of being negative. What they don't realize is what I am not saying, and things I have seen done by people without spirituality.  Something that I struggle with every day is when someone does something with concern for my life or the lives of other human beings. 

If you need more information, you can look under the post for My story- psychic life, domestic violence, etc.. Most of my life is in this blog. It's an unbelievable story, and I'm trying to document it all as much as I can within some limits and privacy. If you feel it is a lot to read, it is, because it is a lot. I don't do it for acknowledgment or fame. I do it because I know what it takes to walk the talk and then some. That which is contained here is not just a story, it is my life and how I have always had contact with beings and even channeled in 2nd-grade reading groups, which is recent memory come back, but was dismissed as having reading disabilities, which could be both, since I walk in the physical and non-physical world.  

My story - psychic life starts in June and Oct 2019, 

goes into June 2020

then Jan 2021