07/07/26 Intuitive Messages -

 7/07/26 

Breast milk women - females would have problems producing breast milk, or infertility. I previously posted a few years back, and I'm struggling to find it. This is not the first time this has happened, yet we are in a retrograde that messes with technology, communication, and contracts. But another person who does astrology for a layman, like myself, who knows nothing about astrology, speaks about his own prediction of three plus years ago with males, and the chemicals that are creating problems, too. It is connected to Jab. This date, 10/07/21, is when I posted. There is a reference to jab, not infertility.

2028- I keep wanting to write 2028 - it is a 3-year number, which is 2 years from now.

So I previously wrote Dodo bird, the strangeness of things, I was watching a random movie, and they said something about the Dodo bird. Now, the likelihood of the word Dodo bird showing up in a movie that had nothing to do whatsoever with a Dodo bird is highly unlikely, as it is one of the signs used by the guides to inform me that they are around. I have even questioned this because I said to them how do I know that it's a message, instead of confirmation? This only comes with practice, which I still ask for.

I said, they're just "flapping their yapper!" I have never in my life said this wording. So this is why it's a message to someone.

Messenger? I keep writing.. !!!

7/08/26 I got this! Take it for what it is - Via China- because corporations sent manufacturing overseas, they destroyed themselves.

7/09/26

Black dome- I was shown a black dome, I called it goop! Why I call it that is another question. But here it is. I also showed this long orange tube thing during sleep. I have no idea what it was, and I even said I can't be concerned with what that is. It seems like a worm thing, not on this planet.

This is something that I got, and not sure why, but here goes. I showed via my own arm whether it was blood work or an addict. Not clear as to why. This was on 7/02/26. I did not post to see if it showed up.

Big Tech, Epstein Network of his Financial Network, Thiel - I asked if we should be concerned I got yes. We tend to think it's just the elites, but a small number of people are coming up in power, too.

Prodigal Son, I heard the Prodigal Son - I am not sure of the reference, whether it is biblical or modern usage.

You put a Spell on "me", hearing as if someone is saying to someone, not the song. As there are several versions of the song, with word rearrangements. (This is an attraction, as I am picking someone, which is misread.)

7/10/26 I heard Hum, hum, hum, duh? - (meaning: it that obviously) This could also be huma, huma, huma - as someone's personal slang - message

Elon Musk- ?

The number 30, Whistleblowers - I was told I did not need to write it down, but here it is anyway.

7/11/26

Holograph, heard. -"I sense Sony." Why? Because I remember years ago seeing something they created, like Star Trek's holographic holodeck that could project a person, which we see in various movies. I did a quick search and saw this instead, "Sony’s Spatial Reality Display." I'm not a techy, but it reads your eye movement and what is its doing with the information, since most people have facial expressions, as well as eye expressions. And for years, they have been trying to impose facial software on us, tag us like animals. I had not so recently filed paperwork for unemployment to cover my derriere, and before filing, knowing that I would not qualify. I had to file for a digital ID and facial recognition. Since our data is used to trade for more or less money at this point. 

 Not that people fail to see money is only real if you go to the bank with its green linen paper and thread, I feel I keep seeing things from the movie "Minority Report". This could go into the matrix, stimulation theory, and that we are all one big thought of creation, as we are creation, simultaneously living in organic stimulation. I am reading a book that poses this, and it has been said by my guides that humans are not to integrate themselves with technology, as we are the technology. I only briefly questioned it at the time, as I assumed I just channeled it. At the time, knowing that technology implants were being done to help with mobility, hearing, seizures..etc.. This paragraph is speculative on my part. But then again, things like Neuralink are really reversed engineer of ET technology. 

Sidenote: AI describes via Google: "A holograph is a document—such as a will, deed, or letter—that is entirely written in the handwriting of its author." I checked via Webster and etymology, and it is apparently right; a holograph is considered a document signed with a signature. I feel like this has changed somewhere over the years, because I have never referred to a document as a holograph.  "ie: Sir, can you sign this holograph," !!!

Air- space?

Statis- something in statis? I am sure of the reference because there are different usages for the word.

Meteors

7/12/26

Song I say a little prayer for you.

7/13/26

Again, Taro (tarot), any title that begins with taking revenge is not spiritually aligned, even if it is used as clickbait, or wishing harm, or creating harm. As words are powerful. Your thoughts, even unexpressed, can create harm. (This is not over-diligent to watch every thought, as some people take things to extremes) You bang your toe, it fricken hurts. Sometimes, you say ouch before you actually feel it. Then say or think, "Did that really hurt that much?" Yet, never question it, as to why you say ouch anyway?

Added, I am sure if the example below clearly explains what I am trying to say: Ok, I not sure how to explain this: Taro, if you are wanting or seeking information on the ex, or relationship, revenge, judgement, they did you dirty, these titles are all out of alignment, and there are far more titles used to hook you. These are mirrors or projections of self or another, depending on the information that you're looking for from others.

Not sure about this, if is good example, this is what came first before the above. For example, you walk in somewhere, and people are already talking; it may have nothing to do with you, and the room gets quiet, or you pass by, and people are chattering between themselves. And as a sensitive, unknowingly (this is not to say that all are not sensitive, some more than others), consciously or unconsciously, because you never thought about what it is to you, you are picking up the energy. You're not crazy, as someone may have told you. You are energetically picking up energy information or even telepathically sensing. You may or may not hear the words, but you feel the energy. There does not even need to be chatter; you feel the room, you feel the space, you feel joy or anger, or a fight. You may unknowingly choose where you sit based on the emotions of the room or place. Call it empathic, sensitive, safety for some, or vulnerable. You have been told it is not true, to the point of dismissing it.

Next time, pay attention to what you feel in your body, listening to it. If you can't process what your sense it for reasons like you're in a meeting, interview, school, etc, write it down, or take a note of it, to yourself. You have the ability to think, feel, and review it later. The more you sense things, you're tuning in to your own intuition. If you walk into somewhere and it feels like chaos or overwhelming energy, and you can't remove yourself. Silently asked to be shielded and protected from the energy. What is really happening is telling yourself to pull your energy so as to not be a walking antenna. Things like a funeral, wedding, or celebration are not going to feel the same way. You've been taught to show up or perform based on expectations and not listen to what you're feeling in the body, sensing, hearing, smells, and visual - four basic clair/clear senses, which there are more than just four. Telepathic, clear knowing, psychometry, out of body, via astral projection, remote viewing, precognition, Clear tasting, telekinesis, etc. Most people use their intuition unknowingly, and without thought, and their is whole x, y, z generations eterra, asleep at the wheel or their own helm.

7/14/26

Russia

Interstellar

Bilderberg influence?

7/15/26

Song: What about Love? Haddaway - message maybe, 3x times 7/15, 7/16, 7/17

hearing - Sonic? Not sure of usage. Sonic Boom?

7/16/26

Guides

No religion of the world will give you what you seek- No book, no divine order, no divine system. You are what you seek.

So within, so without..you are the inner and outer.

This line of questioning came about as I questioned people seeking a guideline of sorts to follow, such as a book, etc.

7/17/26

Thick as Thieves- heard

Hearing Rollin, rollin, - Tina Turner Fan ?

07/01/26 The journey - (I feel like I am on repeat)

(also on another Post) - Everything is a spiritual journey, you just don't know it or remember it as such. 

Since many people say to me and question the whys and hows? The following is a rough breakdown. I have walked through my life up until 33 or 34, until someone said to read Sylvia Browne's books, which then went into codependency, adult children of alcoholics, neglect, verbal abuse, and narcissism.  I had never put two and two together, and this was far beyond the information that was around, at the time, and now, much less spoken about publicity.  

I had no idea that there were even books available to read on the various subjects, or why no one bothered to say anything to me, or direct me. As it was still very outside the norm. I should clarify that the guides tried to guide me at times, but I did not understand, remember, or know what I was looking for. As with anyone, we're trying to figure out life, fit in, when we don't, because we came in born into a broken system to begin with. I have always known I'm different, and stopped talking about things when I could verify it, or it upset people, told I was wrong, or a gamut of things that are used to control a person. 

2004, 1st realizing that information available, trying to control it, to protect myself from it, because it was as if I was an open door for all of it. Trying to record what I was seeing and experiencing, as I was not actively writing it down. An Ex that showed his true self with the birth of our son, to a Jekyll and Hyde syndrome, or Narcissus. Raising two small children, and actively searching for answers, so as not to think I was crazy or delusional. It is one thing to experience here and now, but to be in constant influx every day, night, every moment, and not know what to do with it, or turn it off, or have help with it.    

2007 -2nd Directed to a medium's event, where my Mediumship was blown open, again. 

In 2011, I experienced a rather husky man's voice, which opened the door to Channeling. Which helped create this Blog, because I realized that it's bigger than myself. 

At the end of 2011, I was again assaulted by some of my family after an event that happened with another sibling. Called an EX to assist, who then made a bad situation even worse. Toward that end, in 2012, of living under the toxicity of control, threats, and eventually, again assaulting me, to flee for my life and with my children, who created a hostile environment for them and me. To spend the next few years moving from shelter to shelter, to transitional housing, to then housing. 

2012-2013 Courts and Judges - spending the next 20 months trying to pull my life back together, fighting to get my son back, and that the judge club had another idea of what a contempt order is vs. child custody is, when you leave the county where you live, not the state. Creating an almost impossible court order, with a lack of personal transportation and pick up/arrangement agreement, considering the previous assaults and threats of taking my son away from me, as it looked that they trying to sever my relationship, and pleading with the supreme court to flipped back to the lower court the mishandling of violating laws in place. Putting both my other son and me in a strange space, and tearing apart our family of the last eight years, and continuing on for the next ten years, to this day. 

2016 Three years later, forced to put my other son out, again, by the system in place, or be homeless because my other son turned a legal adult, and he had not decided what he wanted to do in life, and because of the courts, ex wanted more money when I wasn't even working full time because of custody agreement to keep my parental rights and basically treatment as criminal instead shared parenting that was joke, and on-going courts issues with not one ex but two. Because I did learn that lesson the first time. 

Empathic, Boundaries, balance, rest, and integration... purging - these are all ongoing processes. 

2016-2022 Cried every day for the first eight years, not only for one child, but two, and my own life as to what the fuck happened to my life. So if my writing is jaded at times, I have every right to, rightfully so, have that emotion, considering I have been fighting for my life, for maybe the entirety of it. When looking back at all of it. From the earlier memories to the forgotten memories. All, trying to return to a life prior to with all the spiritual stuff happening, or creating a new life that had things in it that I couldn't even think of on my own. I read more books than I can mention, videos, lectures, shamans, hypnosis, Reiki, Psych classes, psychology books, and human darkness within myself and others. Ghost, spirits, Ets, and walking angels, in the form of humans to unseen ones. I have an entire file cabinet in my head, and that's not even close to explaining things. This does account for trying to put me in jail, counselors trying to drug me, a few times, take my driver's license away, countless hours wasted in courts, and the public transit system. Having the sheriff officer walk me into the parking lot for fear of life, or the countless car accidents, or people trying to run me over in their car, or off the road. (And I still sometimes wake up in tears.) 

I could even tell how many times this very page has been written, several times over, to question the meaning of it, all. The still, but real broken relationships, that still are not healed from the fallout of the over two decades looking for answers in myself, books, teachers, etc. To have people ask me what I think I am supposed to be doing with it. I say I have no idea, because my heart can't take much more, and it certainly has not been easy or fun, and working a 3d job has been a sea of toxicity of egos with numerous nameless people. To how do I start over again, when neither world is producing a life for me? One, I can unashamedly say I had had enough of both, and out of ideas. This raises real questions about manifestation without real action taken. As it is as individual as everyone's path. 

Post on another page, because it is that important. Also, something that is mistakenly presented is that one day we all wake somewhere else, or everything with change over night, which is incorrect, as it is a progression of events. Whereas I have gotten years of points in time, up to 2050, from 2026 through 2032, to 2040, and it seems there is a gap from 2040, (2042 just got) -2050. That is a 25-year expansion plus, give or take. Anyone truly doing this work has been doing it for 30 years or better years. 

As I hear from my guides to let it go, and I am like, I have years still of unprocessed crap, and I'm supposed to just let it go, and where is the hole big enough to bury it for good! You would think that all that I've been through, fear would be the last of my concerns. As telling this unbelievable adventure, putting mildly.  I have my good days and my not-so-good days. All while trying to keep a roof over my head, pay my bills, and keep food in my stomach, clear the past, and walk into whatever comes next. I have even been accused of being negative. What they don't realize is what I am not saying, and things I have seen done by people without spirituality.  Something that I struggle with every day is when someone does something with concern for my life or the lives of other human beings. 

If you need more information, you can look under the post for My story- psychic life, domestic violence, etc.. Most of my life is in this blog. It's an unbelievable story, and I'm trying to document it all as much as I can within some limits and privacy. If you feel it is a lot to read, it is, because it is a lot. I don't do it for acknowledgment or fame. I do it because I know what it takes to walk the talk and then some. That which is contained here is not just a story, it is my life and how I have always had contact with beings and even channeled in 2nd-grade reading groups, which is recent memory come back, but was dismissed as having reading disabilities, which could be both, since I walk in the physical and non-physical world.  

My story - psychic life starts in June and Oct 2019, 

goes into June 2020

then Jan 2021

07/10/26 I should not watch Videos ( My yammering, by own frustration)

I watched a video on "Minimalism".  Title: I Created a Home That Feels Safe Again!!!! - 

When did clutter become unsafe? This is not about the extreme, as in hoarding?  I think the bigger question here is, where are you out of control? Not having control, a clutter-free controlled environment, OCD obsession to clean, clutter, is to control the environment, stated I /we want to calm the nervous system by removing clutter, when the nervous system just wants you to stop, breathe, and listen to the body. Most people grew up with some type of control or chaos, etc., the entire world looks like it is out of control, and in chaos, but is it? Outside of the Media.

If you watch the news, any media, or even talk to people, it can be driven by fear-based thinking. The need to control the environment, to feel safe... These are childhood wounds manifesting in the present, as a mirror to be healed. The whole world is living in uncertainty, and you can not control all of it. You control the response to it. The need to have control is feeling you have no control, and stating you have no control over things outside of you, is realizing it within yourself, and where this comes from. (This conversation is addressing clutter only, but can very well address other issues)

As for Safe and not feeling safe, life is not guaranteed. As the title states above, "Home that feels not Safe", without the "not". As the question should be, why am I not safe at home? There can be numerous answers to why! Fear is the root cause. The whole system is built on fear, and realizing that it is fear, when it arises. We can state it is a mental health issue, but is it? It is a sign that we are out of alignment with ourselves and our heart; there can be real mental issues stemming from unprocessed thoughts, beliefs, and events that are buried in the subconscious. Until we acknowledge and process what we think or thought, they follow us like a yoke.

I have had these two issues and lived in uncertainty for the better part of two decades, and things that I could not have thought of on my own have happened in my life. I have just questioned it again this morning with the guides. With my hair falling out due to a reaction to a supplement that caused a severe allergic reaction, which I spoke about in another blog post.

When people ask this or that, and not knowing my story as to the whys or how, to where I will be in next month, will I run out of money again, this is also a common theme, too. And it said to me, If I am so knowledgeable, why am I not out there? Where is out there? It's a good question! I could say people don't pay me to think, they pay me to do, this of course, is outside spiritual awareness. I only know to question what I believe because I was taught by the guides to question my thinking. I did not get it at first, even as I channeled information.

I have had even being "seen", which I believe is not the true fear, and or maybe the many attacks or assaults, throughout my life, or past lives, to bring harm to me, which again, why would I or anyone do that to anyone, but again, look at our world and history. I really think it's about holding space for the energy of other people's stuff, and the fact that, whether I am a healer, empath, intuitive, channel, writer, human, or what have you, people don't want to look at their own stuff, or be responsible for their own actions.

In spirituality, if these statement would come up, and address as you are the creator of your reality without explaining it, versus you are soul and your soul came here to learn, and play in a reality that has been agreed upon on, at a soul level to create a different reality within the context of it individually and collectively, not that anything is separated from the whole of reality, awareness, consciousness.

If they look at it from the point of view that I am a creator being and created it to grow my soul. Forget about getting into whether it's a soul contract, karmic, or misalignment of thought. That will just as well drive you crazy, rather than accepting that all will be balanced out. When everything that we have learned up to this point is in question. You can not change your reality unless you challenge what you think!

This is when I think about what I would even say in a video or in person, that I don't already say here, or the questions that people would ask, that I may not know the answer to yet. To then question whether I trust the guides enough to give me the answers that I need, or for another person when it arises. When by all accounts have I been asking questions my entire life? I think that I have known my whole life that it would be chaos, just not this wild, crazy ass ride. Someone should have said, " Buckle up, baby, it's going to rough one," Joking aside. This is not about taking power by saying you have no control; it is about choosing what power it has over you. When we are led to believe control is power, when it is not.

7/06/26 Annoyed a lot ....

 I'm a little annoyed. Everyone who has a soul has innate abilities; it's up to you to redevelop them. If you are going to invest time and energy, do your research into spirituality, please! Look into whose, who have been doing it for years, not a newly awakened person. Unless that is the lesson. If anything, this information has always been available, going back beyond Atlantis, Mu, and many others, not yet known. I write this as I see new videos popping up and questioning whether empaths are psychic, and not question within themselves, as a person who has done self-inquiry. This goes for many modities. This is not a train you jump on lightly, or if it is a newfound hobby. Like many things, it is open to distortion, and if you have not even questioned the things that you have been taught, that nothing except humans exists as an apex, you find yourself ungrounded, and opening doors that you can't imagine. Not one single person's journey is exactly alike, and one should learn to meditate first and learn to question everything that they thought/think is/was real. 

It is out there, everyone is lucky, go happy, and ascending or enlightened, leaving the planet...yada yada...that is living a very real fantasy or disillusion, when that is far from the truth, some that I have seen should be in therapy for real concerns, even with tarot cards. Most days, I don't want to do it, and I was born this way. I have studied the shit out of it, so as not to send someone to the mental health unit or worse, commit suicide. Also, we have multiple generations that don't read, whether by choice or not able to, and want quick fixes via YouTube, IG, X, Fb, TikTok... if those are things, I would suggest not putting your focus on spirituality because it does not work the way you think, or as some present, it does.  

Ask to reference: New human - Channeled, you have to put in the search bar. 

6/24/26 Intuitive information

 This is a continuation of my last post, which was 6/26/26. -

 Everything is a spiritual journey; you just don't know it or remember it as such. 

6/24/26 Get Back by the Beatles? 

I also got Psyllium.  

6/26/26 Ubiquity- means that state of being everywhere at once. Me: Consciousness is ubiquitous because everything is consciousness. 

I had strange dreams, and all over the place. What I heard, "what about Debbie", I believe it is a spirit intruding in my sleep.  I don't know Debbie personally, maybe a message.

Anesthetized - 

Putnik? This came up twice- it is a gun silencer- I like what the puck. 

I was meditating and saw an image of three trucks, driving on a bend in the road, with a tree at the bend. I saw the first truck flip onto the grill of the truck, and I asked if there was anything else. I got $132K? 

6/29/26 During sleep, I showed the name or word, KANNDRA. Not sure if I am spelling it right. As I was sleeping, I didn't write it down right away. 

heard/saw Something about a Dating Appl. ?? 

Spectrograph- Splits light or electromagnetic radiation into it components wavelengths. I suggest googling to define. 

I heard that name, Alex. I again don't know anyone with that name. 

Song: Imagine Dragons -  Believer. 

I heard that if she has all this information, why is she here? "Boy, that good question". I think that was spirit talking over me when they don't realize I can hear them. This is not the first time that spirits have a conversation around me, and I am like I can hear you. I have also heard "they are fishing for information". I think this second response. Side note* you would think if a person passes and they were a busybody alive, that behavior stops as they cross over. They don't. 

6/30/26 Pink's song- Beautiful Trauma - message.  Actually, I got 6/24/26 too. 

7/01/26 Hearing, don't pay the ferryman? This is a song. I don't know if the song is for the song or a message. 

7/02/26 Name Tiffany? 

7/04/26 Image Of: An object in the air flying over a tree into a backyard, hitting a deck or second-story veranda, collapsing it, and falling into the backyard with an inground pool? I am not sure what the object is!

?? I have written in the past about fake pictures that are not real, which also applies to videos, too, now.  Those that don't have an AI symbol located on them. I think I also wrote that it would entail events presented by the news as real, when they are not. Which require discernment and the ability to distinguish fact from fiction. I don't have a way to index these things. The question is also this: is it Data theft, as a data breach, with content, making money off someone else's hard work, copyright, proprietary, livelihood, and misrepresentation of identity, to more complex, as stealing your life from you?  To even darker things.. ? 

Also, something that is mistakenly presented is that one day we all wake somewhere else, or everything with change over night, which is incorrect, as it is a progression of events. Whereas I have gotten years of points in time, up to 2050, from 2026 through 2032, to 2040, and it seems there is a gap from 2040, (2042 just got) -2050. That is a 25-year expansion plus, give or take. So, as guides state, just settle in and flow with it. Fear only creates more of what you don't want. 

06/30/26 Response to Tarot cards readings, and Lightning...

 I am not against tarot readers, first off. There is a question of given your power away, if relying on it solely without self-reflection.  If you are already a sovereign being, with innate abilities, and you have chosen a soul blueprint to experience reality, by free will of the blueprint for your souls growth, to experience life within the chosen family, ancestry, and karmic patterning, of belief, behaviors, indoctrination, and habits, than you are part of creation in the form of God, source, consciousness, all that is, even with a galactic heritage.

 Life acts as a mirror of what you believe or think, as you are creation, in itself, creating reality individually and collectively, as consciousness is creating reality.  You're taught to look for answers outside of yourself, instead of looking within by questioning what you were taught, what you believe, and what you were told about who you are. 

For example, if you were never taught colors, the sky could be green, and the trees blue. But ask a painter, or artist, and the sky is never just blue, or the trees never just green. These are labels of understanding taught in primary school that are never expanded upon. Now, if you had art teachers, they are taught to teach by the school curriculum, which, depending on the teacher, never explains why they taught it or what they taught. You told what to do it and follow directions. When anyone questioned the reason as to why? You found out pretty quick who had authority and power. Be it your parents, school, or whoever defined life to validate it. As we are taught to seek validation outside of ourselves, too. Again, from Family Dynamics, and this is not blaming parents because that's how it's been designed. Generation after generation. 

Another basic example: Book reports - You are asked to write a book report of what the book is about. Not what is learned from the book, a theme, lessons, or concepts, explore characters, plots, etc., just to read and rewrite that book in a summary. 

* You are the book in form, yet are expected to take in information that is given without questioning it, for yourself. This is not completely your fault; you are taught from a very young age not to question reality, school, parents, societal norms, as in " this is how we do it". This same conditioning is happening on media platforms, or the need to fit in, conditioned separation, via ask GPchat for answer, what people say on IG, TikTok, and even ask AI, even further, religion, and country, state, blue, red, and liberal...etc. 

Essentially, given your power away, by not questioning whether this works for the whole of humanity. YouTube is driven by an algorithm informing your recommendations based on search or clicking on titles. Again, informing you based on what you are thinking. Have you ever clicked on a title, and it has nothing or little to do with the title's uses? You, as a conscious/ness being, inform reality, and reality mirrors you. Unless you challenge what you think and believe, life is always mirroring to you or to another, because there is no separation between either one. 

All to separate from your own self-awareness to seeking external validation, versus uniting different aspects of the whole. These are technological tools, but not always used that way ??? The conditioning started a long, long time before your birth. You inherited it within the structure of reality. Again, all labels of things, people, places, etc.. Without question, who, what, when, why, and how... Basic questions, taught in grammar school. Just imagine that every generation has had its own conditions, and that requires a larger explanation, but I am not going down that rabbit hole, as to why.  Growth is inwards, not outwards. 

We have been conditioned to believe that everything is someone else's fault, without taking responsibility for our own knowing. It is easy to be the victim of circumstance, and there are things that are circumstantial, but if you're a source of creation, do you not have a voice, do you not care about the well-being of yourself or others, is love not who you are? 

06/26/26 Intuitive

Heard  06/01/26 the Buctan? I looked for a reference and couldn't find anything. Maybe Yucatan? I may have misunderstood. I don't think so, but I guess see when it showed.

06/02/26 hearing Fly Away Lenny Kravitz - message 2x's I may have posted in the last intuitive post. Message

Heard the name, Alessandro  

6/03/26

Heard Movement? Not sure of the reference. I have written about Movement in the past, which is searchable in the search bar. 

The guides said to me about the Empath that I developed as a survival mechanism to cope in a world that did not accept me. This came about because I saw several posts that Empaths are not natural. I am like, what! Because I am empathetic for as long as I can walk and talk. I questioned whether it is truly intuitive for hypersensitivities to turn inwards to cope. I am still not clear on it. 

Here is the post regarding the types of empaths: Ok, it is too long to post. You can look it up in the search bar. 

6/05/26 

Song Freedom by George Michael, several times - I may have posted this. 

06/07/26 

Not sure I woke up to this or why I wrote it, Bumblebee? looking at it under glass??/  

Heard:  Into the Lion's Den? Google states is a popular idiom referring to a dangerous, hostile, or highly challenging situation where a person is left vulnerable or alone against multiple adversaries. There is a Bible reference depending on your faith.

06/08/26 Something with 3I atlas ? 

6/09/26 Heard: Not our job to take on human suffering, yet we do!  This relates to the Empath, as an intuitive, healer, and lightworker (several modalities), energy, Reiki, and others. 

6/09/26 Doubting Thomas - not sure if it bible reference or a joke reference. 

So I had two encounters with beings, one I don't remember what it looked like, and the other one, a female, handed me the Celtic golden spirals. Which I have to look into more. 

You want to break the Matrix, break the Box that you've been put into. 

6/10/26

heard Coolio - Fantasy Voyage? Message? (this is when songs pop in your head) I don't know if connected to the song, the date the singer died, 10/28/22 

heard- Interstellar Travel

heard 6/11 and again on 6/13, Something about Capitulate- To surrender by agreement to stop resisting an opponent, give in, or previously opposed too. Not sure why the guides gave me this word. 

I was given Valhalla, which is a reference to Norse Mythology, and Odin. Which I don't know anything about. There is a Valhalla, NY, strangely enough.  There is Rockefeller State Park, yet cost to park, within minutes of. Also, there are Gates to Heaven with the burial of Babe Ruth, but I keep hearing Gates of Hell. Omg. Not sure why I given it, since you have be Rockefeller to live near there. Just messenger. 

 6/11/26 I kept saying randomly - They're like the Mad Hatter? message!

I also woke up to hear Base/space? I was not shown anything, just the words. 

heard Rage Against the Machine! refers to opposing, defying, or protesting against established systems, i.e., governments, big business, or control groups. OR a Band? Not sure of context/ use. I can see both ways as a message/ statement. 

heard Self-evident- need no proof. 

I saw in a meditation- Twin girls or very close in age. Playing at a coffee table with Legos, Mom's eating a candy bar, they are arguing over the Legos- one said to the other about eating Mom's Candy bar.  I believe this is a message, it is too specific. 

I said, " Why, no idea! Sheep to the slaughter. This is an expression/idiom and a Bible phrase? Not sure of the reference. Since it has several possible context uses. 

Queen fan? Mama, I killed a man. I looked up the song's meaning it's about killing an old self, parts that are not real about yourself. 

6/13/26 Again, Boca Raton? I am hearing money, money in my head. 

I heard that song in my head- From the Big movie, Shimmy, shimmy koko pop, message? I hearing put the date, the original song by the Imperials, was 1959. 

6/14/26 saw the word Supernova? 

heard - Neurodivergent- not sure why they gave me this word, because it is used to describe groups of people. 

6/16/26 I heard- Lifting the darkness to the light. Secrets, lies, hiding from the public view, truths. 

6/17/26 song- Lady Marmalade? I heard a Pink's version of it? Not sure of the reference. 

heard Gale force winds 

heard- Papa got a Gun? I am not sure if message or a song. I could not find a song with that title or reference. 2x's 

6/18/26 Undulate - wave pattern, up and down motion, flowing, swaying...

heard - Dallas 

6/20/26 So I was questioning something, no idea what at the moment. But I heard it is a mental construct, created in the mind. I believe I was questioning the use of other people using the matrix, holograph, or simulation to explain without explaining its use of it, in a video. When people assume that people understand. I am not going to try to explain it, it's quite heady and head-f/puck. This gets into how you are the creator of your reality, manifestor/manifesting always. Ok, I don't want to be like the video. I will attempt a simple example: you're going to work, you forget something, you go back in to get it, you get upset, you're late to drop off the kids, late to work, you spill your coffee at work because you rushed into work. You don't want to hear it from your boss, creating a chain reaction of events, to have a bad day because you're already thinking or stated it bad day. When the fact is what happened before all these events. There are several reasons, one, the kids could not find their shoes, two, the universe steps in, you avoid an accident, or you're not present in the moment, your over-organized list of things was destroyed by trying to over-control events. There are thousands of reasons why this happens; it's up to you to figure it out or not. The real question is, what did I learn from it? Because it's not about the events. This is more complex, but a general example. (this maybe redacted and revised at a later date)

hearing the song- Shake down, break down your bust it. I see this as an event exposed. 

I am hearing dodo? not sure if the bird, slang, or idiom.. I first thought that it was the bird, which is a good question, why I think a bird, and since it has not existed since the 17th century, maybe it is connected to the Island of Mauritius in the Indian Ocean. I guess wait and see. 

6/15/26 My Ramblings of when People say I wish I could do what you do:

And my first thought is, why? Because, as glamorous as videos and Hollywood would make it seem, along with other people, who make it out to be. It is far from the whole truth. I sit with things that I know about, meaning the dark stuff of child abuse, child rape or violation, or violence by the parent, husband, sibling, or boyfriend. Or other gnarly stuff done without someone's consent. Much less a cheating spouse or even seeing an illness or death that has already been written. It's not all, Mom, or Dad, whoever has passed over, and certainly not about lottery numbers, because there would be no need for me to work.  (This is only a small description of my encounters) 

I don't know if it shows when someone is reading tarot cards in front of you. I had people read for me or use tarot cards to say things to me, to question whether it happened because they said something to me or because I didn't listen to my own knowing, and created karma by disempowering myself, or leave in tears because of how it was presented without any tact. As for a video per se, most of the readings are for a general audience. I question the ethics on some, and there are 8.2 billion people on the planet, the last time I checked. The likelihood that someone speaking verbatim and directly to you, through a tarot card reading via YU video, is that you are more likely to be struck by lightning. Jokingly, I don't wish that on anyone. Side note: There may be a question of created reality, like deja vu, beforehand, because it is always manifested in the present moment. (this maybe redacted and revised at a later date)

 I see some people speaking about telepathy, which is all well and good, but are they teaching the difference between various beings that are out there because it is not all light, as they would have you think. Or what about hearing random information, like they're an alcoholic, there's not a good person, they use people, or what about illness, they're lying to you and themselves. Even things like don't buy that car or sign that contract. 

I think about these things as I watch or listen to someone speak in a video or the various manifesting videos telling you if you believe hard enough, it will happen for you, or what about your soul's blueprint, maybe you're not supposed to be a famous person, or you want wealth and chasing it, leading you in the wrong direction, chase something that's not really important, in the scope of things. 

Or the newest one, you're here to change the world, well, that's a very large shoe to fit into and solve world problems. Our governments can't even work together.  Maybe just try to treat people and yourself with love and kindness, and no, you're not here to love everyone. Even with the knowledge that all is from the one source, or loving yourself first, and maybe not in a narcissistic way, maybe try being yourself for a while, if you even know what that is. Maybe learning to set clear boundaries and not trying to fix the world, because trying to fix the world or people is saying that they are not a sovereign being living out their own soul blueprint and their choice for this life. As guides have said your not here to save people from suffering. 

I am saying not this because I don't want people to not do it, but because there are burdens that come with this work, and as fairy, magical, and lighthearted as people make it out to be, it comes with huge responsibility. Because if I could go back, I would do an about-face and say, "Thanks, but no thanks." That apparently is not my soul's calling in this life. And I spend the better part of my life trying to understand my innate gifts, clear the crap that is on-going that I've gone through before and after. To sit here and say, "How do you teach people to do this work for themselves?" When I have been trying to figure it out for over two decades, myself. That is before I knew that books even existed, which, unlike other people had knowledge of or even been taught about. You don't learn this work in a day, week, or even a year. I would not even suggest it in five years, because it is on-going. 

To question what hell am I doing because by all accounts my life has not improved, more like destroyed it, and then some, to become smaller when I realized that the world is a pretty messed-up place. To what, then, you have changed, but the world has not, and looks pretty rough with all the distractions that do not account for providing for a life that is gone, in a world that is working backwards against itself. 

I should also mention that when the door blew open after my son's birth, I was overwhelmed by it, not prepared in any way for what was happening to me.  Even to this day, I feel unprepared and numb by it all at times. I am now calling it spiritual noise, wondering whether it's worth it to continue, trying to do this work. I sit here with no real idea where it is going, and I can't decide whether I am overwhelmed with it because of dealing with one thing after another. 

All I wanted was to work from home, and where I live now, I would never call it home. I wanted to be there for my children, and that was taken from me by the courts, the system. Friends and family, as well as partners, are all part of the destruction of my life, and there are just too many fake people to have to weed through them to bother, or I find that people have no idea how to connect on a deep soul level. I get it, people don't know emotional intimacy, because your parents had no clue, and who knows how far back it goes, or life gets busy. We don't practice sharing emotions or over-sharing because we learned to stuff so far down, or for drama, for lack of attention, or martyr ourselves, that we are afraid of feeling the emotions of them and ourselves.

 We have no idea how to be present with people, and much less with ourselves. The old adage " get it done, and move on". I think well, if you're not present for people and not present with your partner or kids, are you present in your own life? Then again, this is the pitfall of the empath, because we feel too much, or is it a natural inclination as humans? Due to no clear boundaries, due to poor parenting, or due to society, social platforms, and media's conditions. Something that I have been questioning recently. 

This may be because I feel the intent of use of the wording and its projection by people speaking out about it, using the Empath and Avoidance (not sure if using the narcissist as the avoider, now) by Carl Jung as a gateway for explaining generations of a dysfunctional society, but what do I know! I gave up being a counselor when teachers argued that mind-body separation still exists, and it dates back to the 17th century with Descartes, who argued that there is a connection, which I think has been taken out of context, that there is a spiritual soul aspect to you and life. Maybe it is religious dogma to keep you separated from yourself, versus as in " know thyself".  And what does that really mean! Since you have been told who you are or projected who you are since coming into the world. And maybe that's where we should start, the beginning of all the things that you're not. 

I am hearing to post this, but feel at the same time it is incomplete. I added to it, took things out and away, and biased with my opinions on things, and not always positive on things, as they are presented by others. But that has not been my experience, and I think it should be presented as such. This is not taught in a video, TV segment, or really spoken about. 

6/10/26 Disclosure

 I read a lot. The Thiaoouba prophecy book is something that crossed my path. I don't get commission, sponsorship, or funds of any kind. With that said, this book is on YouTube, missing chapters, but available and readable online, via Amazon, or in hard copy. 

Now, since we are disclosure, and books like this are never going to be provided via the government or media, by the science community, or the likes of anyone in power, why tell you, because they can control you and your mind. It sounded better in my head as a creepy, eerie voice. Joking aside, if anything, it is an interesting read. You believe what you want or educate yourself or not. I am a messenger and not trying to sway you either way. That is not my job. 

6/13/26 

I went to see the movie Disclosure. A few years back, I had gotten that there would be a movie explaining where we come from. I'm not sure if this movie fits the bill in that sense. I tried looking in my writing, but being that there so much material, it pulled everything that was listed with a movie or message. Back to the movie, it has only been an hour since I left the theater, and twice I almost cried, and have mixed emotions as to why, feeling vindicated, acknowledged, high strangeness, home, and realizing that this movie is like a soft opening, whether you believe in it or not, as in other beings existing. 

As to why the mixed emotions, I think it has to do with not feeling crazy, even though I know I am not. Having only realized yesterday that I am an experiencer, whether by soul blueprint or choice. To question how many generations forward and back does this goes within my family and fear ridicule. Also, whether it also applies to the military background with the ancestry. In the movie, animals are used as contact (sorry, spoiled), now I had a stag deer appear in front of me, like right out of Harry Potter in my living room, and I was like wtf. This was after an encounter with two child beings, whom I also encountered. As I am watching the movie, I am like ok was it presented as Stag or another being?  Or even when a groundhog came within three feet of me recently. Someone said groundhogs are mostly blind; I don't care. Animals know whether humans are near or when a storm is going to hit; that's why you don't see them, for their use of innate abilities. Something humans are losing touch with. For me, it is asking more questions. (And some are just animals)

I have previously written about the Stag and two children, which is searchable in the search bar. I have on numerous accounts tried to get answers by going to several hypnosis facilitators to encounter whether it is their ego, or leaving feeling ungrounded and not in my body, to having someone get upset for me to pick a single event, which is more plentiful and abundant, had they questioned me more beforehand, and not lead with an such an open question, as I was walking through traumatic events one after another. As I continue to search for a credible person to take me through a lot of whys in my life, to apply some of what I know to help me and others, outside of this blog. 

All this came about by listening to my intuition, because I like I already know why do I need to see it, the movie. Well, I am glad I did. Even knowing there will be people who don't believe until it is in their face, or not.  

I previously had mixed feelings about tarot cards, in that you are giving your power away to someone else, versus listening to yourself. 

I also want to note: two other writings, one about Mirrors and the other Masks, life is always mirroring to you or something about you. 

6/10/26 I Accidentally poison myself

 So, I accidentally poison myself, not on purpose, but like most people, I use melatonin to help stay asleep between spirits waking me up, the things that I have gone through, and the nonsense of neighbors who can't get a sleep schedule. So what happened is I purchased a different brand of melatonin without thought, thinking that it was the same as what I'm using. Well, let's just say it was not. I had a severe allergic reaction to something in it. I started with a rash that consumed 80% of my body, and multiple tubes of hydrocortisone and allergy medicine to become a human scratch pad for the last two months. It took over a month to realize what the culprit was. This was only by eliminating soaps, deodorant, laundry soap, food, snacks, bread flour, vitamins, etc. Yikes !! Why am I posting? I see in the aisle with the vitamins in, for children and adults alike. 

I'm lucky that it didn't go into anaphylaxis shock. I have allergies and sensitivity to smells and chemicals, which are pretty much sprayed on everything coming from overseas. I initially thought it was from throw carpets that I purchased because it started on my hands and arms, and traveled my entire body, causing me to rethink that it was something I ingested. It could have been one or both. I know that once I stopped the melatonin, my body, my skin, stopped freaking out, and started healing. I'm not going to give the brand should something come about from it, but I had no idea that it could cause or have a reaction like that after years of taking it off and on. Yet, this brand I have never used before, either. 

I am calling poison; any reaction like I had is poison to the body. Was it brand, and cut with something? I will not know. After all, I didn't go to the doctor because I didn't want to be pumped with steroids and other drugs, tests, and scopes. I do not recommend this, and one should seek medical attention. As it has left scars, and hopefully with time, they will light up.  I stopped taking melatonin altogether to not have another scare, in the meantime.  I can't tell you what to do, but with anything, do your research, and even if the doctor suggests or gives an Rx for it. For this is not the first reaction that I had to medicine, a first with a product that sold a supplement product. Also, it was the lowest dose was used. 

Oh, and yes, I am intuitive, but I am human too, so I look at it this way: with my experience of this I would be able to write about it. Life is a journey, not a destination. 

6/09/26 NO tarot cards - intuitive information

 06/09/26

Firstly,  I got seismic activity in my sleep, and it has recurred for the last two days.  Earthquakes, volcanic, etc. 

Morphogenetic field? 

The law of reflection. I thought this was one of the universal laws. Apparently, it is physics explained as follows: The law of reflection states that when a ray of light hits a surface, the reflected ray bounces off at the angle equal to the incident ray. Both angles are measured relative to the "normal"—an imaginary line perpendicular to the surface at the point of impact.

Heard Bucaton- not sure of spelling. Could be Boca Raton. I have gotten it in the past, too. 

6/1/26 Reclamation: the act of restoring something to useful function or original state, or the process of claiming back something that has been lost, abandoned, or discarded. 

6/02/26 I keep hearing the song Fly Away by Lenny Kravitz - not sure if a message. I certainly like to fly away most days. 

06/03/26 So I asked the guides about spiritual noise, because I think spirituality can be just as much of a distraction as the media. As in this one said this, and that video is this, and that book is different from that one. And I do this work, and find it disconcerting at times. 

This falls in line with the next question for guides, which I have asked before about memberships, tribes, join this communities. I am all for Unity, the reality of that, it takes some serious shadow-work, serious alignment, and discipline in this world. As the guides did not answer my question directly, because they know that I knew the answer to my own question, having direct experience of everything being connected. That does not mean that I am infallible in what I witness. 

I do belong to a few groups, and have moved in or out of many over the years, to question why I am doing this when I have a direct connection. I think sometimes it is about validation and not seeing proof in real life, to support what comes through, and even intuitive, because I no longer look for proof. There is again no one path, or experience, and the word experimental is an accurate word description. 

6/04/26 I'm going to assume this a message, why because: A female said to me, is or saying My sister and I have babies on the same day at 8AM and 9AM, along with my mother, never had High blood pressure until that day. ??? I am just the messenger. 

Alessandro ? message maybe 

Hearing a bender? No idea who, but don't think your loved ones can't see what's happening. 

6/05/26 Hearing Freedom by George Michael - message heard several times on repeat. 

Let's talk dreams. I have a lot of them, some make no sense, others seem like different lives and on other planets or different lives on this planet, as I am a witness or observer to them, or possibly process information from this life. So why is it important? I write these down because the soul is talking to me, whether the information is important or not. Some people will say I don't dream, well, that is nonsense; something is blocking it. Whether it is you or medicine, illegal drugs/ now legal, or alcohol, can cause distortion of dreams or even accessing them.   Excess alcohol will close off the heart chakra, creating problems and health issues down that road, as well as illicit substances, creating imbalances in the body. 

Ie: I had a dream with a message in it because I knew the two people in it in my real life. 

Ie: I had a dream: 40, 20, 80 Tonnages, Calling a terminal, Men smoking, then there is a knock at the door, someone is standing there, the light blinked or flashed, and I woke up from it. Now this makes no sense to me. I have worked in different industries, and no one in the US refers to truck shipments as tonnage. And a very clear use of the word Tonnage. I don't normally post them because I don't know what to make of them. 

Ie: House by the river. This was not a house per se, looked to abandon building, with trash and debris on the floor, stuff everywhere. I thought it was me, but again I am a witness at the time in these dreams in the Astral body or OBE,  some things that I experience since I teenager, any who, something figure how to pay for the rent, one female said she was going to look for bottles to put things in, another female asked what all the trash on the floors. I said What about the kitchen, bathroom, bedrooms - then I came back into my body and woke up. * When I questioned things in the dreams, it will kind of tell you whether it was a dream or an astral body; you come back to my body right away. 

Buenos Aires, Argentina? 

3I Atlas? 

Messages or Guides use music (?)

Hearing Michael Jackson, Beat it.

Hearing, Kung Fu fighting

Hearing Walter Cronkite ( now I know that he has passed), so was someone an avid watcher!

George Michael -Freedom (different day) 

6/09/26 I got Doubting Thomas, is this implying the Bible or someone being the skeptic? Honestly, I weigh in on being the skeptic because with so much disinformation or right out lies, one needs to be discerning, with AI music, video, and commercials. With life in general. 

This brings me to my title. I am often asked if I read cards. NO, never needed them. I heard my guides since 4-5 years old. I tried to read cards for a few years and finally decided it was not in the cards, so to speak. They do not speak or talk to me like other readers would say, and they are only a medium, like a painting or music. You see the colors, or picture, or hear the music tone to paint the picture or create music. 

 

 

5-31-26 Intuitive information

 A Grandfather in Spirit: So I was going to sleep, and all I hear is a Grandad saying the Pledge of allegiance in my ear.  Since most people have had a relative who served. The only thing that I have to go on is that date. 5/22/26, so maybe there is a connection by the date of 5/22! * and this man 60-80? White, round face. 

So here is another, and your relatives can be quite comical. On 5/21/26, right before I woke up in the morning, I heard, " We Snore Together when we sleep", by an older woman, no name. But I was like, what, in a funny kind of way! 

5-22-26 I have gotten "God among Men" several times, so I asked what the reference is, and it was explained that humans, both male and female, consider themselves to be less than God, when the truth is, where did you come, being that the reference alludes to you that are gods among men in form. 

5-23-26 I'm not sure if a message or connection to something else, or the song  "Come as you are" by Nirvana, or a part of a Bible reference. 

Heard: 5-23-26  the Blood of the Earth, I asked if it is about the oil or the water? Or another reference or message,  I also questioned whether it is referring to the blood of war that has been spilled on the planet. I have not received an answer. Note, there are several songs you can Google with the same title. I don't know if it a song, I am a messenger. 

I heard 5-23-26 The Whales under Belly," yes, it is written right, written as I received it. Here is the explanation, final separation for one's known world and self. Threshold of a new phrase, deep surrender, and dark night of the soul that precedes a profound personal transformation or rebirth. 

5-25-26 The song: It's Magic by Pilot. Message? I question the use of the word Magic, because it is used in the spiritual community a lot. When the fact is that all gifts are innate to us, yet they seem like Magic when they happen. I got the word Angel when I was writing this. Another message? 

5-26-26 I heard several times about the witch's wound or the word Persecutions, which you can look up. I questioned the use because by all accounts, collectively we all carry it, whether you believe in reincarnation or not, on this planet or another one. It is the fear of being seen, heard, speaking up against injustices, or punishment, since we tend to live in a fear-based reality, whether you follow the news in any form. That the power lies in the hands of a few, when the opposite is true. Along with this thought, that it can go several directions, such as privacy, AI, Data Centers, autonomy, social, economics, modern-day slavery, etc.. lists can go on, on, and it's a whole rabbit hole dive, in itself.  

5-26-26 Something Unparalleled- unimaginable, profound coming, a good thing. 

5-28-26 Ford Motor Company? 

5-30-26 This next one is confusing me: Before waking up, I heard a woman's voice say: I am his Oswega? I could be pronouncing and spelling it wrong. I took it as a Grandmother, but that could be wrong too. There are several locations in the US with that Name, but not the spelling.  Oswego by Iroquois Native American/Six Nations- means the pouring place, mouth of the stream. Who is the " him "? Good question, what Oswega truly means, another good question. I also looked up different languages for the names, for Grandmother, nothing came close. 

5/31/26 Song Shakedown by Bob Seger - I have had this song in the past, and it normally comes with some type of truth going to be exposed. 

I also heard on 5/31/26, to put focused intention on heaven on earth. 

 

05/31/26 Children of Earth (channeled)

 Now is the time to stand tall on the adventures that await you. Do not fear, for the shadows are just that. Much will change, and with forward movement as it progresses. We await your return to balance to see the everlasting change that is among your planet. Stay in hope, stay in faith, stay in gratitude for All is ONE. 

Good day for now.  

05/2726 Global dismemberment

 In shamanic practice, there is a vision or the soul calls forth the dissolution of the false world that has been created. One where the paradigm changes from what was to something that only seems like magic, or paranormal, or what can seem like a psychosis when everything that you formally knew dissolves and changes, morphs into what is real and not real. 

*Note, you can Google: Shamanic or spiritual dismemberment. 

What is being seen and felt around the world is a shift from one world to another; this is not an instance but a gradual step into something new. All the darkness that more or less has been hidden below the surface is coming up to be looked at with new eyes to make choices as to whether we as humanity want to continue to deceive ourselves that we are powerless creators to change our reality. 

You're taught that you are second to the Gods, that too of the powers to be, when it is simply not true. It is time that you know who you really are, and as the old world collapses to restructure itself, you will have to make choices along the way as to what works and what does not.  

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So, I wrote this today, but it seemed disjointed in its connection to information. And it is disjointed only because I don't completely understand it, and what I see most people want is prediction, or to do this work, without cleaning up their shadow selves, or manifesting dream life, again, without doing any real work. This is as I sit here typing this, questioning spirituality within my own life and whether it has benefited me to continue down this path.

 This is, of course, after asking myself why certain things have played out in my life and why, on most days, I feel I live two very different lives. And like most people, I like having control or continuity. Not that I feel I have had any control or stability in the sense of manifesting, having to make decisions and choices, on the fly or without a great ripple effect that reaches farther and deeper than I ever thought possible.  

When I tell those who ask that I have done this my whole life and have blocked it to a degree because people are cruel, they are like, "It's so cool," and say, "I wish I could do that." I say, " Well, you can with practice. Yet, I also hold my tongue, because as more and more people awaken, "it is so cool", via media such as video, or what have you. The truth is, most people are afraid of the truth, and what they are not even honest with themselves about, they pretend to be. This is not all people, but a great number of people.  

I was shown a few years back a sphere and all these lines, we will call them timelines, that would converge into a single thread or line. I knew what I saw in the image. I once asked what I thought about creating a world that is what most believe is ideal. I think, for I am not them, on what a world not even conceived of, I stated maybe a 1000 years, that is a long time. (Note: 1000 years, is my thought, not based on information I received, the person who questioned me was not questioning me out of interest, but arrogance) I think we are the beginning of some profound stuff or truths. 

This is also when we can't put down our own judgments, based on limited knowledge or understanding. For example, I went to the store yesterday, and a woman who did not know me made a judgment about me without even saying a word, yet I felt it. Standing there, I knew it was not my stuff, and her projection was based on something that I mirrored to her, something about her. Of course, her judgment was unfounded and limited by her filter of perception of me. This shows that we are quick to past judgement without validation of information, about anything. 

As for the title and why the guides gave me the title before the context, I am assuming is because I am always asking why, because my own life was real physical dismembered not as image, or a request at the time, that it happened, for I knew nothing at time other than being extremely sensitivity to peoples energy and a door that open without any true guidance and the people who I did know were out of my reach, and family that came with own reckoning of destruction. I would like to say that I have recovered and integrated all that I learned. The truth is, it is a daily practice, and some days there are no answers. 

I recently told someone that I surrendered both worlds, and they told me I gave up. I said No, I surrender it, it is not giving up; it is surrendering to the unknown, to stop trying to control it, because there is no real control over how fast or slow things happen. This is after twenty-plus years of dismantling my life. Some people experience it as illness, accident, death, divorce, or loss of a job, one of a thousand ways that it could happen. Mine was down to a suitcase and a few boxes when it was said and done.  And try as I might, neither side of my life is whole and complete. It seems to be an ongoing process of letting go, or acceptance of what is, or allowing things to unfold as they come. 

So, the conclusion of a very long explanation, that I don't know what is coming, unless it is given to me, for I am here to experience those same events, as everyone else. What I can tell you is that spirituality is about being connected to your true self, not about the predictions, probabilities, or where we came from, or where we are going. For we are the creators of our reality from a soul level and not a mind level. 

5/25/26 Shadows -who are you really!

 Someone recently said, " If I would/ were to write about something else. Honestly, I don't know other than to talk about the shadow of ourselves. Everyone talks about spirituality as a way to I think moreless access realms that most people do not know exist. What all of these people don't speak about is how to truly come into balance within yourself. You need to do the work by looking at the programs and conditions that are within you and have been inherited from what is considered normal; there is no normal, per se. 

Guides/me: Social conditioning and engineering are ever so present now, and many of the things that the world is facing in the news are the same conditioning to create separation, division from people, or within yourself. I see and hear people taking several paths; there is no one path for anyone. Everyone is as sacred as the breath that you breathe. You take the path by doing research into various subjects that, with enough research, could lead to the same conclusion that most spirituality teachers have access to, which people are looking for. 

*Note: Even religion and Science can not agree on the origins, or are not willing to openly state their thoughts for fear of ridicule or their position, because that is how narrative is censored from indoctrination of fear. Just look at the history of Violence on our planet. 

I also see people using it for escapism or as another form of separation. Presenting it as a hierarchical system that suggests someone or anyone has more knowledge or wisdom, or research that they know more than most. They can, to a degree, by also perceiving that they are above others, which is the complete opposite of most teaching.  That is no different than the church telling you, you have sinned, and only they have the power to speak on behalf of God, the consciousness or methodology they are using. Without telling you, you are an aspect of it all, from the source of creation to Aliens. 

My position is that you already are what you seek, because you have journeyed through this life and many others that make up your soul expression. You have always been enough and loved, and are love. There is nothing else that exists. And always connected to yourself, higher power, source, universe, God, and all other manifestations of messengers, as I call them. This is my interpretation. 

Yes, you may need to be trained and practice to access the other realms to connect again with yourself. You are the guru, master, and even your own shrink. Yes, there may be times when you need to work in a group or individually through events. We/you are taught to look outside of yourself, not to trust yourself, conform to conditioning, and not all souls will awaken and will move on, because they have not chosen it, for this lifetime. 

This does not mean that they are not part of the all, the one collective, universe, source. When they leave this form of being a human, they will again have access to the reasons, choices, and conditions that they chose to learn in this go around on earth. For you are not them, and as they are not you. All come to play on earth, for it is for the growth of the soul to learn, play, express, create, and love, experiencing being a human in a body. 

There also seems to be a belief that it is different groups, alien or otherwise, throughout history. If you remember or know that you played the games on both sides, out on this planet and others, for eons.  All civilizations here and elsewhere have gone through evolving and destroying themselves and rebuilding, or being blocked from progressing to do it again and again. 

 Earth is no different. You agreed to forget, to come raise the vibration of energy by remembering who you are, because many people have memories of the many wars, the destruction, and traumas that have been experienced by or as an embodied soul, much of that is playing out for you to again remember. Enlightenment is realizing that you're more than this body, not to leave that body, to be embodied with enlightenment, enlightenment in the body, as the source, the creator, the soul expression or being that you truly are, not just this body on a planet, hurdling through space. 

Just the word alone should state something to you: Enlightenment - to en/in lighten within, "ment" means the action or process, of a specific state or condition.  You hear of angels or Et being, that are luminous beings, are you not: a luminescence being. You have learned to fear what you do not understand; that is who you really are. Not this body, not your mind, or thoughts and beliefs, or the conditions that you find yourself in. 

5/21/26 Intuitive information

5/10/26 Civil unrest

5/13/26 Human potential

Heard - That we are swimming in the unknown. So, previously, I stated we are in a collapse; it should be relabeled as the reconstruction of the systems that do not serve the people. We have made agreements on soul levels that we would dismantle the old, outdated programs that are currently spiraling out of control. As the narrative continues to project, otherwise. This is not some apocalyptic or post-apocalyptic event that has been pushed by genre. As humanity awakens, so does the planet within the solar system; nothing is ever stagnant. Yet the media will push otherwise. Believe it or not, there are people in waiting to step in and up, as the towers fall, where lies and deceit have been planted. 

5/14/26 Technological? 

5/15/26 Shown during sleep and heard his name, Stanley Tucci? No idea why

5-16-26 William? My first thought is Prince William? 

So, because I also share the weird, too, I was given a headline, yet it was written in what I call Elf script; I have no idea what it said. It could have been some ancient text, too.

Mexico? 

On 5/09/26, I had a strange dream. This could be a message or information: Man & woman on a date, but slept over, left the truck, a child's school, a truck driving without its lights on, other people and cars, before daylight. 

Heard Venus for the astrology people. I don't know what it means in my own chart, because Mom could never remember what time I was born, odd but true, and it's not something that I have studied. 

I also get people's names first only. I made it clear that this is first and last with spirits, because without more information, it could be anyone: Savannah, Jesse, Marykate 2x's. These were all on different days. It's like spirits on the other side who don't realize they can speak English, and I'm left to figure out what they just said. 

I also got 16 candles like the movie, now is it the movie or a birthday reference? So Happy birthday to someone. 

05/07/26 Intuitive and messages

 I had a dream about two Earths; they looked similar, yet they were different. I cannot tell you or remember why they were different, other than that they felt completely different. Sorry, a lot of the use of the word different. 

Heard -Nicaragua? 

Heard Yeshua, Buddha, and " All my relations", indigenous 

Woke up to hear 1951? I looked it up, and this year the US tested Nuclear testing. It is my understanding that this is when the earth made itself known that we could destroy the planet. Which, by the way, a decree was made that an invention has and will happen, to shut down missiles, silos, and facilities, by disarming them. * There are other facts for that year, I think, it is that is more relevant, pointing to the nuclear testing. 

Hearing: Dissolve all disillusion? 

Heard " 16 Candles"  - Movie/message

I saw this napping/meditation, George Michael Chef?  I know that George Michael passed away in 2016, and the famous Freedom song was released 16 years ago.   So, I am not sure why this is important. I did look it up, and there is a reference to a chef. Who has a bit of some issues in the news. Side note: #16 is connected to this. In 2016, Freedom was released 16 years ago, 16 candles above. I am also hearing across the pond. 

Hearing the song- What the world needs now is Love, sweet love. 

Saw the word Hollywood-? 

I heard the Majestic 12? 

Hearing the Lord's Prayer: Hallow be thy name? ( I may have posted this)