6-17-2021 -The Sensing One vs. Sensitive One

 

6-17-2021 -The Sensing One vs. Sensitive One

 This morning I was thinking about how it was said that I was the responsible one or the reliable one, yet I was also the defiant one. How all these labels are placed on us a small children before we even know the true meaning of them. It could be said it’s because of the dysfunction family, but really, we all are/were living through some type of dysfunction whether we acknowledge or not.

And depending on dysfunctional which we are acutely aware of it, we did what was necessary to change the situation or adapt to whatever was happening. It is sad and funny at most that we just could not be who we were. As parent myself I see the miss steps and the moments that I should have been listening or been a different person or a myriad of situation that I was not focused or present for. That the outer situations had my focus instead of observing the effects of the emotionally wellbeing of the people around me or even my own well-being.  

Now as empath or sensing one, as a child or even now as adult, I can’t always explain what I am picking up on. Sometimes I must explore it, even when my intuition is telling me something is off, but I don’t understand it. These are not necessarily clear indicator that something is off. We have all met people or been somewhere or been told something the was off. I use the reference with my clients that remember when you were school or college and someone was trying to teach you something and no matter what they said you knew it was wrong. You don’t know why or how, but the information was wrong. I have seen this repeatedly in my own life in my own hence the name of blog.

There is small or very loud voice within you that is trying to get your attention. It is unfortunate that our natural ability to discern is forced to shut down because of a lack parenting as child or because of outer conditions around us now, or in the past, lead us to difficult choices and paths. The guides often say you need one to understand the other. You can’t know joy with sadness or pain without happiness. Fear without love. Faith without despair. One has to wonder what all this means. Calm without upset. You get the point!

As I am sitting thinking about all the terms that were used to describe me as child not one mention is of the loving, happy, funny, creative child. Most of my memories are of willful, defiant or reliability or responsible, irresponsible, sensitive. Overly emotional because I was not who they wanted me to be. Maybe because they learned from their own choices that the world was not who they thought, taught, or told; it would be. In my own life I see and understand most of the misguided information.  

As we live in society of information overload or technology overload, doing more or at speeds that far beyond what is nature to the human body. You have to wonder where the breaking point is! We spend the last 15-18 months depending where you live in world and what some consider a reset in humans and humanity has returned to speeds and maybe worst then before. The things that people should have put importance on may have been lost to many. That entire planet was shut down to due virus and things are collapsing around us and will continue because they were not working to begin with. 

Even my own reality is in question because my sensitivity or sensing, has a hard time hearing people speak of people not having basic human rights. I would like to say in next 10 years, I can reflect back and say this was turning point. But as I sit presently contemplating what my life’s next step is without rely in what I see in news and media overload or how people think that basic human necessities should ever be in question and this thought that they should not be helped because they should do as you do, is just beyond crazy.

The guides often remind me that we came here to break it down and rebuild it. Not by color, gender or religion, class, money or fakebook or the Instagram following, if your not willing to use your sensing self  or your God self and question your thoughts and beliefs, challenge the behaviors of peace over war, healing over killing another, food for all and water and housing, abundance for all. That you think that if every need was met that people would become lazy is a falsehood because everyone came for a reason. Then you will continue to see what you see.   With that we would bid you good day.  

6-8-2121 Working through Trauma

 The following is a channeled message in the fact that I hear the words like it is being dictated to me. 

When you don’t clear trauma, it clings like a bad sock. You become lost in repeating patterns with family abuse, neglect, bad or poor relationships. They keep coming until you face them and understand why they are there in the first place. Let say your childhood was trauma in some form- you had a controlling parent or mother who had no voice or it was reversed, there was always a power struggle going on- one or other felt unheard or less then. No matter what they did it was never equal or equality in the relationship – one was always in an imbalance of power.

They gave up their power to keep face or prove their love by standing back to the other, because in previous generations that is what was expected of them. They learned it, experienced it in previous family generations' dynamics and history even though great strides have been made to balance the male/ female energies, there continues to be this underlining power struggle for equality. That regardless of the gender there are two sides to the same person.

The female the source of creation has become overly dependent and male as the aggressor, to only be the one to succeed and successful for their stance to be the tough guy, to need to be strong and not show weakness in the face of fear- As a woman has been termed overly emotional, indecisive, and unable to somehow not see the bigger picture, because life has been built on power and attainment of goods, wealth or status within eyes view, yet where does this come from, but a deep dissatisfaction with one-self. “I must achieve at all cost”, so no one can know the real self, this is like window dressing for the battered ego.

Life has taught them it is not ok to feel- to just do, whereas their counterpart is also taught to hide themselves from the world. That they are overly emotional, or no one will understand because emotions flow from them like a river.

Both genders have become out of sync with themselves and nature. Overly demanding of either sex to be like the other. Yet no one is like another. You're born into these family to understand the family dynamics, but your leave with all their baggage to go out in the world to achieve what exactly. To be at the top of field or career, to purchase items to no end. Yet the very part of you, your soul is sitting by waiting to be acknowledged that there is more to me than all of this. The quiet, gentle part that wishes no more than to be too.

We repress these needs and desires to fit into a world out of balance, then seen it as weakness, as opposed to a super-power. In previous cultures and times, this was seen as the wise one, one who could reflect on all of life, to see the beauty within each moment, not a headstrong warrior, who would run into battle without a well thought out plan. Waring for no reason, which has long since passed its prime. 

War is an act of control and power to control another. Just like the weather comes to take back what is rightfully hers, so too is it time to rebalance the energies that have been out of balance for too long. Good day.

6-14-2021 This Message that received a long time ago -I just found it.

This message I received while at work. I forgot about it because  I copied it as a PDF file.  When messages come through they really quick and they talk faster then I can write or type. 

5-31-21 Weeding your garden of your thoughts

 5-31-21 Weeding your garden of your thoughts

Is a metaphor for weeding things that no longer serve you. They are your thoughts and memories of the past – of all the things that have come and gone. That we hang onto that we think we should have done better or experiences that showed us that we are not who we say we are or what we should be in order to be happy or more successful, by what we thought or others people’s views or standards of what that (life) should look like. 

We are not really taught to check in with ourselves. We go through the day doing what is expected of ourselves, never really stopping along the way for long enough to say this is not what I want for myself. Never questioning what it is that fills us up? What fills me with joy, happiness, or peace, so I can live from a place within that no matter what it will not knock me to the ground. 

Starting over seems to be something that I have been doing more times than I can count at this point. All the obstacles and opportunities that have come and gone. Fear of getting it wrong or making a mistake because we’re taught to get it right the first time or a least learn it by the second time. Life will give you exactly what you need even if it takes several tries and years to get it, to some degree. 

It a game that you play with yourselves to show us exactly what needs to be look at, even when we aren’t even present for it in the moment! If you remove all the- doings, the have to, chatter, all outside distracts of people, the media, this things, or any other things, what do you have? Just this moment. What does that moment feel like or sound like? Is your mind quiet and idol or is simply being! A yogi would say there nothing to say or do, “because you already are and that is all that is needed, because you already exist, everything else is there as a distraction to distract you from what is”. 

The “Is” is you, and everything that exist, you are, or the great I am that I am. Nothing is outside of you. Just a reflection of you in the world -life is how to see it, the whole of everything that exists.  

 

6-8-2021 Psychic information

 I get information all the time and I just know don't know what to do with it anymore because it is either vague or means nothing to me in the moment. So for now on I just going to write them here. I don't enjoy putting out doom or gloom, which is one of many reason why I stay from the media and news. Which just portrays the world has basically gone to hell and were living in it. Now if there is any truth to we create are reality then what we are seeing is a manifestation of our own thought fears and the fallen part of outdated beliefs, thoughts, patterns and behaviors. So below are things that received.

Vision of a either a solar flare or photon light headed towards us. 

Vision of a woman and her rigging were she either undid or cut her own rigging.

Grand berks hotel 

Something wrong the tesla 600 - some type of malfunction with the computer, wiring - creating a short causing a fire within. 

Question- are your dreams bigger then your fears?

heard- when you allow other to disrespect you, you in turn are disrespecting yourself by not standing up for yourself. 

Song- take the long way home - Supertramp 

the date of 6/8/16 ? 

the word - forestry - not sure if this about the current shortage of wood for construction or in fact something to due actual forestry. 

Spirits mother - Name Javier or English version of name Xavier  - I had a spirit come to me looking for her son I believe and just kept saying Javier over and over again, until I asked my guides to step in because I personally don't know of a Javier. This was in the last two weeks. 5-17-21

Dream about a Sarah Daurus threw money away. 

Vison of a dirty door knob and another dirty object?

Song- Sing me a love song

Told- Doubt is useful - as form of questioning but not to live by.

Buenos Aires - Argentina?

Someone I know from a long time ago wrote a book about Iraq Bob C. I shown a image of the book on a book shelf. 

The term- Yellow fish ? 

the word- lush or luese - I think this is a term used in the essence of who we are on a soul level. Ie: when we leave this world to the next their/or are essence is and can be seen leaving the body. Their is same glow that a women carry know as pregnant glow. As a note that there maybe something insidious use of this vial energy that also know as chi, prana, qi. 

Interesting Read: https://areainthavenofear.files.wordpress.com/2015/07/the-skingularity-is-near.pdf     William H. 

Dream- I was shown a warehouse or store front the size of a Walmart - devoid of anything in it. 

I looked up the meaning of Buenos Aires - which means fair winds or the Madonna of Bonaire ? 

The word asphyxiation? 

Dream the name or word - Duce Lunchius ? 

Saw image of a small pot, similar to oil burner, bubbling away or dry?

heard - Papa Joe's not Papa John's?

I heard - A yogi would say there is nothing to say or do because you already are. 

The name Colenna ? 

Dream of flecks of paint on the floor white and black maybe tile 

heard- Thigh master ? really not sure about this 

Song - I will follow you until the end of time. 

Vison - a white house with blue shutters or blue trim, cape cod or something similar

heard- Barbara

the word yolo? 

the name Michael Flynn

the name Jack Willoughby

Heard- Asaro? 

I kept saying James Patterson ? now normally it shows up somewhere.  

5-13-21 This is it.

 

 5-13-21 This is it.

 

A week ago, I was driving through the town that I live in, whereas, I had a car behind me that was tailgating me. I stopped at the traffic at which point the car literally was on ass end of my car. Now since I had seven car accidents, yes, I said seven, none of which I was the cause of. People and their driving skills scare the living hell out me. Anyway, I called on Arch Angel Michael to protect me from any possibilities of Eighth accident. Which seconds later, No kidding aside, a Semi truck and trailer proceeded to turn the corner at this very traffic light. When I say that I was face to face with this semi-truck word can’t even describe that feeling, at that moment I just closed my eyes and said this it. When I say I don’t know how or why I not killed instantly, because in reality this truck was inches from my vehicle. When truck passed, I realized does any of this matter. I had peace in that moment, that no matter what life is throwing at you or you are dealing with, it can all gone in a second.

I would like to tell you that all my burdens disappeared, they have not. But for one single moment nothing mattered, I was at peace. That no matter what is happening whether you call on your angels and guides to help you or not, that peace is an inner quality that we all should working towards. And if shit is coming up for you then face it. Question whether this is a learned fear or something I experienced.

I am not afraid of dying because I had more years of experience of the dead talking to me then I can count at this point. People or personally, as the spirit world would call it don’t die. Just like a radio channel, tuning in to it is possible and a birthright. 

5-2-21 Channeled Message: released 5-5-2021 (5)

 

5-2-21 Channeled Message: released 5-5-2021 (5)

 

What if your building your reality of everything that is happening is a vibration match to you and your thoughts! You tend to think that what is happening is outside of you and your control, but the fact of the matter is you are at the center of it. When your vibration, as in, thoughts and actions of fear, judgement, love, hate anger, you are creating your reality. This is the Law of Resonance often refer to as Karma.

When one seeks to harm another, it is a direct reflection back to oneself – because you are a collective of one source, one mind that has a personally and free-will, to choose to act in accordance to the universe laws. You can be at peace and be peace maker or the destroyer of world. Nothing is ever separated. Not one plant, not one person, not the planet, not your thoughts. Not one single action on this planet or universe does not have a single impact on the whole of the universe.

Hate is hate; judging is judgement on yourself. Everything is a vibrational match to yourself and what you see happening on the planet. Everything needs to change – the inequality, the suffering, the hungry and the homeless, the world is a mirror of your thoughts. What is not working is going away and for the good of all mankind. You have called it into being – you are the master’s of the worlds and realities. You have come here from all over the universe to lift this planet to a higher frequency and vibration to free yourselves from false narrative- you are the Masters of the illusion. With that Good day- The Nine.