04-06-23 Strange, weird, and creepy (some are repeated in earlier writing)

So, I have said many times that I going to do post this, and I don’t care anymore, I am tired of holding onto it. When I don’t need to. I have done this since about age 4 when I backtrack through my life and started to connect the dots. So here is a list of experiences for most of the life that I had. Good, bad, indifferent. These are just the ones that come to the  top of my mind. 

Baby left in church parking grass that kept seeing, yet I was too small to cross the road.

Something or a person chased me when camping and it was creepy.

I almost drowned as a child because I got disoriented underwater and experienced a light or maybe it was the sun and managed to get to the surface.

I fell like two floors out of a tree and experienced that I could have ended up in a wheelchair in this strange falling seconds before I fall to the ground.

When I high school, before I go to work, I experienced while laying down and seeing the room with my eyes closed – like I was floating around the room or walking through walls.

I say things and they would happen, within days.

I would plan to go do things with friends from work and be detoured and get lost even when I knew where I was going, to never arrive.

I had roses bloom on the bush in the middle of winter, several times over the years.

I once came out of my home that I previously own to find feathers, on my car or the ground. Like a bird got hit, and not a bird to be found.

I have opened the refrigerator to have a feather come flying out when I open it.

I have taken a night class and spoken with a guy for what seems like an hour, to go and get home 3 plus hours later.

Someone took me to the theater, and I remember seeing the beginning and the end, but can’t tell you anything between that time. When asked what I thought about the Broadway play,  I had to make something up because I had no memory of it.

I have been down the river with my children, and something walked right through me, I was told by someone that most don’t survive something like that. Today, I found no information available with anyone having a similar experience. Whatever it was did not want me there.

I have seen people stand on the side of the road and ask my mom about it and she did not see anyone.

I have seen a car in the creek, but again no one saw it, other than me.

I have canceled numerous outings at the last minute with guys that I dated because I had a vibe about it.

I would know walking down the street that certain had black clouds or illness within them. Even now I avoid walking past different places for this reason.

I have left the store with a friend to what I  describe as disk-like lights in the sky, that was red and my friend blew it off.

I have walked into a store, or by a person or people and gone into a choking fit and taken to my knees.

I have had a blackout in a store, almost one time at work, and caught myself.

I have gone on interviews and felt grossed out by the person’s presence.

I have had something bite me like a cat and I have no cat. Highly allergic to them. 

I have an experience of working somewhere late at night, saw a ghost of a boy in knickers not from this century.

I saw a famous painting and two days later – someone was telling me that grandchild has asthma, and the painting was about a mother and a dying boy with tuberculosis, and knew instantly that asthma was connected to previous life with regard to tuberculosis.

I got an email for a podcast and witnessed a large white snake around a person's neck, and then send an email back – they remove me from the email list because I question what the hell that was.

Recently, as of the last week or two, I removed from another claimed healer site, because I question a post that they wrote and literally wrote things about a person they encounter and claims she is a healer and should an awareness, yet publicly crucifying this person.

I have had spirits show up standing at my desk at one job. Showing a Tiger tattoo down the arm.

I have walked into work and did not see the normal people and walk to the back of the building and experienced people who by no terms were human, more like a walking horse head or beaver, and animal features, I thought I was seeing animal totems. At one time I was working with a therapist (open to spiritual) and she said I walked into another dimension.

I was training for one job and while I was talking to the guy, he morphed into a large spider-like creature and I sense that he sucked energy from the people around him, I quit the next day.

I have spiritual people morphed – which is form transpose when they work with angels.

I have seen my parking lot covered with white flowers in the middle of the winter, as of this year. And no trees with any leaves on them. 

I experienced a house disappear. Windows that were not previously there, show up at another place I live in.

I have witnessed while waiting for a bus buildings appear that were not there before, or again after.

I have seen an Angel in yellow – standing to my right. Then a year before or after someone said something to me twice about a yellow angel and two different places. 

I have multiple times seen tall white beings in my room while going thru a horrific time in life.

I have had white beings show themselves when the pain coming up in me was so terrible that I want to leave this planet and ask God to take me.

I have experienced something floating above when I sleep to turn my head and ask to God protect me.

I have had knocking on the walls and – told years later when my son handed a note and in the note, it was for danger, and I never told him about it. Because at the time he was small and was sleeping next to me.

I experienced something over the apartment where I live that flew over and hit the ground and never heard a fire truck or anything. (During the day)

I have experienced a massive ship over my apartment, also during late morning.

I have seen crystal cities in my sleep.

I have said decrees in my sleep and watched things just lift off people.

I have been awake and at this very desk and watched the wall morph into crystal walls.

I have had people talk to me at a restaurant and turn to say something back and the waitress looks at me strangely.

I walked down the street to find a book that I know was left there for me to find.

I have gone to the park and twice bibles were left for me.

I have seen half ghosts in an apartment building, that was once a famous person's mansion, to find that it housed some type of nursing home for people in the past.

I have tried to take my children to Bowman’s Tower to told as I turn on the road to enter that I needed to turn around because one child had a connection to the land, and I have told that I could not take my other son to Valley Forge Park for the same reason. My understanding it would trigger events that were not supposed to happen yet or trigger a memory of some sort.

I woke up to speak another language that I don’t speak at present.

I have a vision of events that would happen fully wake and not meditating – happen two days later, like I am watching a movie, as a warning to me.

I have a memory of not being from this planet, my whole life.

I have seen a white room with a dental chair – that I think is on a Ufo.

I have had ghosts walk through the door and then through the apartment like I was not even there.

I have black orbs come through the wall - along with green, blue, and white orbs.

Twice,  I had been sleeping to wake up to the brightest white light.

Edit: Two times I had birds fly into the window and I knew that the person had passed.

I have experienced hundreds of birds in the trees - at one time. (twice this happened)

One day change son school schedule and I went to school at the time like 50 Ravens sitting outside the school, as we walked in. 

The strangest part is that people saw things as a child, ghosts in closets, hallways, or down in the basement, and still deny this happened to them.

Back in the 90s, I was at hypnosis training and an older man came up to me and ask to read my hand and told me to stay away from the paranormal stuff (ghosts part). I have a woman from India who also ask to read my hand. 

 I have been blessed four different times, once visiting a friend at the hospital. Twice at Spirit, Mind, and Body events that thousand attended, before the virus and one was from Holland Netherlands, an Amish or Mennonite pastor, to years later by a Latino pastor. I am not bragging, but these people just walked up and ask me if they could bless me while I was in these places. 

04-05-23 Intuitive information

Mark Horowitz found dead

Why people don't forgive because then have to look at themselves, as part of problem and not the solution. This does not mean that you forget what has happened, it is you learned to understand that are working from a hurt part of themselves that they themselves have not healed. Also if they allow forgiveness, they have nothing to hold over you, because you are no longer problem, they are.  

04-04-23 Truths of the Children

 

Back in 2013 when I had custody of my son taken from me on a contempt court order, my life collided again. I went to see a counselor. This counselor (doctor) asked me if there were addictions in my family and when I told her that there was alcohol abuse, she wrote me an Rx for Alcohol medication, even when I told her that I had 2 drinks in the last 10 years at that point, and now 2 in last 19 years. This is how Frick-up the system is.

 I went for help to process the trauma of what happened, and they gave me medication that had nothing to do with why I came there. It was easier to medicate me than try to help me through the trauma of the experience.   Yet, I have seen Mothers and fathers call their children little f-er and mothers leaving their children under the age of 5, home alone to care for themselves, to go spend the time at a methadone clinic and so dope up these children learn to fend for themselves. Or the fact that I have seen children burned or punished because they were hungry and not fed, locked out of apartments, or houses as punishment. I have seen children cry all night while left alone while their parent/s disappeared. I have seen children locked in closets for being Gay and not like their siblings. I have seen and watched display sex actions at ages they should not. 

I have seen children drugged down the street because they are having a meltdown with special needs. I witness a mother only feeding her child cereal because the child needs special care with regard to autism and then left in the bedroom with no connection to others or her and then peeds himself and she then screams at him and thinks it is an attack on her, instead of coming to the term that her son needs more direct care. I have seen children sit by their doped parent while they wait to see if the parent wakes up.  Or the mother who stays with an abuser and locks her kids in the closet while the father beats the mother after coming home from the bar. I have seen and witnessed children abuse their own siblings, and act out what they have experienced. I have seen children left in dirty clothes and not washed for days. I have seen children as of age 9-10 have no idea how to use a fork to eat with. I have seen children paraded naked in front of strangers. I can’t count the number of times that I have called the police after going to the store and seeing infants and 2 years old left in the heat of a hot car when the parent went into the store. +

What is the point of this: I am speaking for children because I lost custody to my ex for not telling him I was leaving (per courts with PFA) after he assaulted me in front of my children, this was not the first time over the years that I left him and came to him for help after a situation with my family. And have since learned that it is generation from parent to child and on and on, until someone stops the cycle, or they take their own life through drugs, suicide, or prostitution they get lost to the streets or far worst.  I have suspected children of physical and sexual assault without any proof of the fact. When I experience these things, it was not because I was working somewhere, or with children. It is openly done, right in public. When I started to witness some of these things that I observed I had to question some of the things that have happened in my life that led to some of the men I dated. What is the impact going forward, and how do we even being to address these traumas and some are so buried that their mind is blocking them until a time comes that they might even begin to process it. 

This is not God doing. This human doing it is against innocent human children. This is not new this is years of even adults living with secrets long forgotten about and so suppressed that they have no idea why they are ill, drinking, drugs, or dating the wrong men, and how they get into these relationships they do. All because we fail to see them as people who will one day become adults, in over distracting world. Belittling either parents, or people for control or power over another to cells phones, peer pressure, fitting in, or human souls that you gave life too.  Then of course we condemn them, the children because we are failing them. And honestly, the system is so broken that they could handle the influx should they seek help.

* God has given us free-will to make choices -you chose the Devil or Angel, If you were God embodied how would treat people is the lesson. 

04-04-23 What do you want in life..

 04-04-23 What do you want in life.. 

The guides always ask me what is it that I want. I have even been told that I am going to be famous, and I am like I just want a home and a partner who respects me and help to do this work; along with money to support both. As for being famous seems overrated, living up to other people’s expectations is counterintuitive. And currently, I don’t if it is me or someone, I am picking up on, but my writing seems a like dyslectic. Here is my theory on being dyslectic – let’s say that prior to this birth you live in another country or maybe not even on this planet, just roll with it for a minute. The life lesson would be there is something different about you, not that society tells you to fit into a box of normalism that quite frankly, does not exist. The only things that are normal eat, breathe, and sleeping and some people don’t do that. I have other working theories that I have yet to prove, but that is for another time. * I realized I didn't really explain this well. If last reincarnation you lived in different culture or off planet and the soul remembers, it you would have difficultly with the language because just other places on the planet, you would not speak the same as people in any area. * 

So, currently, I have no job by society's terms because in my last job a woman who was a narcissist who made a point pissing me off every day, then my mom passed away brought a shit storm of problems and me talking 60 plus people each day and intuitively picking up on them and their energy was becoming a problem, and I am not a machine, so I could not keep up the pace every day. So, finding a job that takes into consideration my over 30 years of experience, to make the money to meet my needs is a problem, at the moment.   

And the reality is that we forget, since 911 the world has been in the swinging pendulum of destroy, rebuild, and scaring the stuff out of us, and continue to roll with as if nothing has happened. When I see people walking around with a mask on, your choice, but it is very present in these people’s minds. It is not different than the doomsday planner and prepper. Really, this is God's domain. I stopped doing predictions because people become attached to the negative aspect of them and instead knowing that we have the ability not to create them. But with weather technology to manipulate and create natural disasters, that like say the various airports had no idea the planes would fly into the twin towers. Conspiracy or not, that is not for me to tell you what to believe. 

Just like climate change, now if you ask a truther, who is not afraid of professional disgrace, which is what truthers are whether directly involved or witness to, who speak out. (ie Snowden guy about data collecting, tracking people) Because they realized people are being lied to. I for one don’t try to tell falsehood and question material, even if I have to sit on it for years. Because I have gotten intuitive information and seven years later, I have met the person who had or was involved in that experience. And sometimes information it was on a different timeline that was avoided. Meaning we avoided it. For example, you have seen someone in a long time and there they are. And the conversation in your head would be I live somewhere else, I've been busy with my own life, or whatever comes to mind. The point is they exist at one point in life, friend, foe, etc. And here they are again. As for me, I would be asking why is this person showing up and what was my life like before. Is there a lesson or is this a random event? 

So, I will use myself as an example I walked away from everyone that I knew, for lack of words it was abusive, committed assault, and dangerous to myself and my children. When my mom died, I had to come back involved to a degree with these people, who did these things to me and revisit the trauma that I experienced by them. Over the years, I have done a lot of work on forgiveness, and empowering myself. I still don’t know if they are karmic relationships or catalysts for me to do this work. My point is Things are not always what they seem. 

I just got (perception) is 9/10 of law-? now google states it as Possession is 9/10 of law in the absence of clear and compelling testimony or documentation to ...etc… Why this just came through – no idea. Since most of what I speak about is in the aethers meaning what exactly... I can’t fact-check it – I can only present it. Just like guides saying I will be famous, and I am ok, ok… I have never thought about or considered it until they said it. And I am still ok, ok, whatever.  I just write what they give me and or tell me.

 As I try to explain or teach, express all the information that I have in my head over years to connect the dots because I know the work that took to get here. Even within the community of spirituality and it is always about discernment and weeding what is true for yourself and finding the answers to people’s thoughts or questions. When society and media want to cattle prod into this is the truth. But if you watch for scripting, you find they all use the same wording. And soon we will see it in AI because we need to learn to tell the differences. Humans will always be smarter than AI or technology because we have a direct connection to aethers, God, source, guides, or straight-up knowing. 

For example- those lines of what look like jet streams in the air – we'll-called cloud seeding – when don’t live near the airport- they spread in a line – in which the weather normally changes in a few days or the next, depending on how much they spray. Allergy did check the cloud seeding! why do you have problems with allergies? Along with why are you programmed to buy only bottled water when water is not safe to drink in your own house? When you can buy filter systems, even cheap ones. Control water. Or how your own body is water and like a dried-out sponge your muscles are in pain because you don’t drink enough water, to remove the toxins from your body from germs to the food you ingest. People wonder why have chronic pain or inflammation. I am a doctor don’t quote me. When most doctors don’t consider what your eating or drinking, as a source of problems, or less than 40 hours of training in nutrition (I did get this from a doctor with a Ph.D.). So what do you want in life!

04-04-23 FEAR

04-04-23 FEAR

 I was going to write affirmations today, but I decided to write the ridiculousness of how people fail to see the social engineering that you and I experienced of FEAR. From your childhood to wherever you are now, for you to be in experience of Fear. From your parent to the reality that you inhabit. If you control the world, control the minds of the people to not question, control the water, food, housing, and financial market - to create illness and death, separation, and war. These are core attributes designed to keep you in a state of Fear. Critical thinking has been lost to stupidly and complete ignorance. 

Nothing can hurt unless you allow it, I know it sounds like an oxymoron - (contradiction) to what has been experienced, so far. But where do these beliefs start in your childhood? Religion, cultural beliefs, and dysfunctional families passed from one generation to the next without ever questioning whether are these true for me. If the media tells you the sky is falling, here is the bridge to jump off of. Were raised to believe we are powerless and victims to the situations that we encounter, yet all these are for waking up and questioning, what the frick? is going on.

Why are the people our supposed governments doing about it? Accepting chasing an ex-president yet having one that we have by all accounts is an idiot and should be in a nursing home to live out the rest of human life. Threats from China who want to rule the planet (didn't we have a psycho like that before), and by all rights we added to it, by shipping everything overseas for cheap labor. And the mentality that people will work for whatever price. Let's just hang a carrot in front of them. Pavlov's Theory of Classical conditioning. - which was produced before the great depression and World War Two.

In the meantime, in my own life, walking through the mess that people have created for themselves, and their life is overwhelming, and I am like what are you thinking? No disrespect but when you go through enough stuff, one should question why is this happening to me, why am I experiencing this? I understand for a higher perspective people need to be shocked to the core, to challenge and confront it, to awaken to what is happening and what is my part being on the planet at this time. To oh, let me wake the blank up. To divine love from the heart to addiction, relationships, to neighbors and all the people frankly are being that your brothers and sisters to God created everything.

When you take away the dogma of what religion tells (4000 religions on the planet) - us - we came from the same place. Really, looking at things, fighting equality in health since Obama, Women's rights from the beginning, because God forbid, they stop having children the world and people cease to exist, and creation could not include a female and very male distortion of only a phallic can possibly run the world or our governments. As they rape and pillage the world and its inhabitants, to oh let’s rocket in space so trash another planet, because we will not address or fix what has happened to one were on. Praying to God to save us, when God is with us, and indoctrination that you are nothing short of slave labor to the few on the planet. All to keep the wheel of illusion spinning.

When we all need to just stop and challenge the fear - from food shortage to the government taking medical away from people who need it and meteors coming toward the planet- really, we can pull satellites in space to monitor other countries and produce communication around the world - but we pollute the food, water, air and kill off as many people as we can, because they are harvesting your Fear to control your mind. then use your mind against you to create illness, chaos, and craziness and manipulate you to think that you don't have a voice or a choice. By engineering, things and the people who speak about them are just right crazy or off the rocker, until it happens to you as your world, continues to collapse, and pray that the people who will step forward to rebuild it know what the hell they are doing.

This is all prompted by my frustration - because guides want me to work with women, move to higher ground, and I am how and where- because when using your intuition (inner knowing) it will naturally guide you. Your internal GPS God program system or call it what you want. You know what is going to happen, or an inner road map for you to see your own connection to everything.

This, of course, is prompted by a dumb ass letter that got from my apartment complex about a person's personal objection to having to use wash and dryers with households that have animals and now having to use allowed machines - this of course is based on one's personal belief and now instead resolving it for all the tenant's. Mind you, this person has using the washer and dryers since before the virus and it has not been a problem before now. When the illness you are experiencing is your body telling you that your out of balance. And not that we taught that you can heal yourself, with the exception that if from birth the soul has chosen to learn life sessions in that form.

All the while I have been calling in for years - asking for help with this work and cringing at it. When you realize the depth of social engineering and control that has been at play. When most who do this work think it or display it - with such polarity and distaste that times I am sickened by lack of compassion, because if they truly understood they would question their own "social media standing", by understanding Universal laws.

Here is a question ask your parents or grandparent how they were taught to hide under their desks in the case they dropped bombs on them. A Conditioned response. Do you not think that you don't carry a cell's memory in DNA, since you were born from their DNA? 

04-03-23 What if ...

04-03-23 What if…

What if from your birth to now you were taught that you were a Divine Being of God, would you have changed your life in the sense that you have created your life, the choices that you made, the things you did or didn't do? Would you have been kind, and showed compassion and understanding to all, verse only people you agreed with?

 I arguably ask the guides or tell the guides that this is the dumbest thing. We come to this planet to assist in raising the vibration of the planet to God, Christ-like consciousness, with our contracts/soul agreements to release karma or experience emotions and feeling, to create from love as the fundamental base for everything. To create our reality to unity consciousness, and then to release the traumas of those experiences to the realization that everything is a divine being, to everyone is connected regardless of what you see. That at the core is love, it is all there is, and it sounds cliché'. And yet this is the simple point of all this, to when is it going show up in the material world versus an ethereal (heavenly) concept?

 That every being is the key to own heaven, why is this simple concept completely unknown? To I don't unknown if this is even correct wording because we do know, on a soul level and why we are not mindful of it in all our interactions. with it complexity of boundaries, love of self, and standing in truth. From people acting from wounding and ego to greed and need for power and control over others.

 I wonder would we be living differently? or different Reality. Yet, this concept is further from what is being witnessed, or is it? That we have become the causality (cause and effect) of this unknown knowledge of being a Divine being. Without investigating whether it is true for our own.

Does God live within me? 

04-01-23 Precipice of Change (Inception Point)

 

The guides have given me the word precipice- now this word means to more or less a very steep cliff or mountain. They seem to speak in words more than visuals, not that I don’t see images, or stories play out, but rather what is, what I consider annoying words. That I have to do some figuring out what they are saying to me, to be able to explain it to another and I like really!

I also realized that sometimes my writing may be cryptic at times, which to me seems like a one-sided conversation when I am translating information into readable material. I have been researching this information for 20 years, trying to understand why, how and this information comes to me since I was four years old. 

What is my part in it and what I am to do with it when better, or more well-known individuals express or not expressing the information that comes to them via intuition. Why it seems taboo or crazy, or just not taught from childhood- to where people presently are in their life. Why it continues to steep in mystery. To how do I get the average Jo/e to even begin to just understand and bring them to the use of their own intuition. 

So, what is their use of Precipice of change, we all are walking off a cliff with no bottom, and the present and potential of the future is unknown. That we all blindly walking around waiting to see what will happen or continue to happen when we all have the ability to affect reality. That if we continue in the mindset of ego, greed, control, and fear that it will project us in continuation destroying ourselves and the planet, or that there is another reality of compassion, love, and connecting, that benefits humanity, equality, and altruism for all of life. That winner takes all serve no -one. 

Along with the perpetual need to consume is affected that planet at a harming rate, or of stance or chance, we can awaking to the fact life is not what was or could be, but more of mind-control to have us not even to know what our own heart is telling us. To the simple question is this generating fear and why, what to fundamental of basic living – housing, food, water, transportation, medical care, care of the body, including eyes, and dental this seems never to be a dress either. 

To how is it that we live in a time that is so technologically advanced that we still have people living on the streets? Where of course does it say in any religious doctrine does it say that people should starve, suffer, or be without, when the planet is abundant in resources but controlled by who exactly, I thought we left that behind with the foundering fathers. To this ego – let them work for it- where people fail to see if it is for all that includes them. To elitest – whomever they are – well I guess that they will just build robots for the shit they won’t do, because robots don't need money, or think about cleaning up their shit. 

In the tarot deck the fool card in the picture is walking off the cliff into the unknown, maybe this is what the guides are talking about that we are walking about in the precipice in the unknown. That as humans we have a choice to create a culture based on the betterment of humanity and the planet or continue to feed a construct that really is imploding on itself. And our we going to change with it or continue to sleep as our government, corporations, and mystery elite people control the minds of the world, for the elitist global control. How many dictators does it take to put a light bulb in- none because they are self-serving only to themselves!  As your eyes roll, let's just say it is better to be informed than to be blindsided. Starting questioning why is the food being taken out of children’s mouths, or elders, why are trying to stop medical care for life-saving care, or medication, and why is this happening. 

How is it that are children or grandchildren going to live in a home, if most can’t afford an apartment, let alone a home? And who is running the market on housing, if we go back to 2008 did, we not see a collapse of the housing market, which was preceded with the fall-out of banking industries, 911 followed by a few years later with a War. I can go on and on about every illness presented from now, back to the late 80s. I not writing this to create fear because fear is created by us and is not real, it is used to control people and the mind of people. 

Fundamentally, we were taught to write, read, and do the math, which are basic concepts – were we taught to think about changing what is perceived as reality if we are living in a living consciousness that is all around us. In the matrix we see Neo alter reality with thoughts, where are your thoughts?