4-17-23 From the Soul

If I was to write a book that touched your soul, I would tell you how much you are loved. Regardless of what has happened. That no matter what has occurred, what you did, that you are special in your own right. The people around may not have see or appreciated the beauty of the being that you are. And the love is all there is. I have never separated from I have always been there every step of the way.

For I am you. I live with you and live within your soul, that I have forgiven you and listened to the sorrows that crossed your path. I believe in you when no one else did. I have carried you when you didn’t have the strength to do for yourself. I loved you since the day you were born and I love you when you pass on from here to the next step in your journey, for I will never leave you. 

The world may see what it wants, yet I know the truth about who you truly are. You may wander and fall sometimes and that is part of life, but I will be here to witness the growth and steps you took to keep going forward. Some will fight, some may argue, some will not be nice, and some will be downright cruel, but I will never leave you. For I am you. 

It may get dark and there will be light that shows the way there, through the cracks that you had no idea that they existed. I will send people to awaken and remind you that all is not lost and the light glows even more brightly. For I am you. Love is all you have, and love is what you will always be. There is nothing between us because I only made love for you to see. 

So, when your soul grows weary from the steps that you took, know that I am still there, in the mind, in the heart, in the body because we walk as one and nothing less. For I am you. The stones may be thrown, or forces try and take the beauty and your heart or your soul, I will still be there and walk with you every day, even when the mountain seems too high. I will climb that mountain with you, even when it is a molehill that you could have stepped over. I will still be there. 

Walking and holding your hand and your heart when there seem like there is nothing to keep you going, or the wind has become too much to bear. I will still love you and I will still be there. Encouraging you to keep going and when all seems lost, I will still love you and still be there. Dreams may come and go. Family, friends, and lovers all but disappear I will still be there, for love is always there.

 I will watch you as you sleep and dream, I am still there, in the depth of despair I love you the same and I will still be there, for love is who you are, and love is what I am. So, live boldly, and dream big because I am with you, and love you just the same. For I am you and you are loved, none the same. Wide-eyed and bright there is nothing to fear because love is the only tear that releases the love that is near. So go on and be the love that is all so dear, because the heavens know that love is not fear, but who you are in disguise, playing a part, for love is all there is. 

04-14-23 Channeled – Divine Female

Are Men falling behind on the evolution scale? With the rise of female coming online to take back their power back to be the way shower over the dominance of the male.  Never in any history has there been women standing up for their rights, as equals, and for equality. Every time there is a forward movement for women, it is short-lived. With the masses living in the past of what was and what it is now, to what could be. The exchange of ideas that women represent, and present has unlimited power to raise the bar, so to speak.

The movement is empowerment to stand like the mighty oak tree and put to rest for once and for all this debasement of the male holds all the power and wisdom, when that is not rightly so. When much destruction of planet resources and the inequality of life that is currently being presented on the planet, people will raise their voices for it is necessary to bring back in balance these two energies and aspects of the divine-human.

They have been out of balance far too long and the ability of the divine female to step forward and speak on behalf of all, and the imbalance that continues to face the injustice that has plagued the previous generation to submit to the male, as being the only wisdom keepers of justice, equality, and harmony. (Life is but a dream) It will seem radical at first and many barriers with still need to come down. But she will rise and take with her the power and her rightful place.

There will be no turning back, the fem-male will not be silenced anymore for the injustices that have been bred throughout the generations. The divine female is equal in all aspects and will be heard, whether you like it or not. They will not submit to the fallacy that once hinders their mothers, grandmothers, and future daughters to come. You will see this rise of power to the distort the female will not stand any longer. They hold the wisdom, and it will be known.

The Transgression, distortions, injustices, treatment of, aggression, and inequality, they will rise, for all to see. CL

Women working from the masculine energy will be called into question. Power over another is not balanced energy. Power over either sex will be tried and tested, for the time has come for the unification of these aspects.

Watch and observe

4-13-23 I couldn't decide what I wanted to write

 Today, I can’t decide what I am going write about whether it is Color and then let’s talk manifesting, why and why it does not happen. Then I thought let’s talk about home and what that is or feels like, to the saying that “if you want it done, you have to do it yourself”, and what that is and why it happens. Maybe it is pre-Eclipse or mercury retrograde seems to be happening in my world, at the moment.

~Color now this one is pretty obvious, this grey battleship color that is all over the place, from designing a home to painting your house or cars. What does the grey feel like for me it is Depressing – They paint battleships that color, prisons are that color, and mental health people feel, see grey. Their emotions are grey, flat, dull, you get the point. There is no variance. Life is just sad. 

I have never seen a grey farmhouse in my life, other than our present reality. The last thing that I would want to do is come home to a grey dull house with no life or color. Just me and my observations. So here is a thought where in nature is grey, owls, birds with some grey, and trees can have a grey tint. But nothing is completely grey in color. Even the concrete is not grey, except cinder box – but then they build prisons with that too.

 I understand that it is the modern twist – or it is to sell paint that no one wants. I have a piece of furniture in my home that is grey, but it is lined with colorful books. I surround myself with color in my home and my choice of clothes each day and use it when I am feeling off, to eating colorful food. When it comes to surrounding myself with color and working with Charka’s energy centers in the body and wanting to uplift myself grey would not be my choice. 

~So, you want to be a millionaire and manifest the Hollywood lifestyle, that car or dream home or fly around the world. That is what the secret book and movie explained. The problem with this is misalignment. What is misalignment – well if you have fears around money, relationships, wealth, and core beliefs that are opposing have these things. You might manifest a cup of coffee. This lottery winner ends up back in the place they were or even less.  

Rome was not built in a day. If you don’t question your beliefs about things that you want in your life, why would they happen? Oh, that is the luck of the Irish – sorry bad humor or not. Since none of us really understood the game Monopoly and well depending on childhood and what was said to you about money, instead being an energy of exchange for one thing or another. You go work in exchange for that energy you get paid. 

Employers make money on your energy to produce something, well they pay you what the value is they think your time is worth to them. So, if told as a child that nothing is free in life and you work hard for it, then there is a core belief nothing is free, and it is hard work. Air is free, just saying.  Now the law of attraction teaches differently that it is focusing the mind to draw that experience to you. Matrix, I believed explained the same concept. The movie Field of Dreams – explains this same thought process. If want anything you understand why you want it or how to get that, learn that, and become that. 

If you don’t understand money and how to balance it and work with it, how to handle large amounts of money. To also what happens if you lose money from a bad choice or decision? Do you fall to pieces or pick yourself up and do it again? There is not a business out there that has not experienced both loss and gain. A life lesson you cannot have one without the other. You cannot know a bad relationship from a loving one, everything is balanced. 

~So here is my bumper sticker for today– I would make millions on people’s driving skills: No bees, No trees – no humans. It is better than my car is not a bull-eye for crappy driving skills. Hence, one of the reasons the car camera was invented, among others things. 

~Home what is home? I like to think it is where dreams are made and it is a loving, supportive environment. This is not the case for most, and I think movies often portray it as something that it is or was not. Currently where I live is where I live. It is not home, and I have tried to make home for the time being. My childhood home was dysfunctional, and it was not until my life crashed in every way possible that I had to look at what I was taught and experienced that was affecting my life. 

I have said that I knew that I was not from this planet, and along with that I always felt I was born into the wrong family. I still think it to this day, about how very different I am from my siblings, and have come to understand that it is not an outside thing for calling a house a home. It is what is on the inside that I consider home. If I can find home or peace within myself even when the crap is hitting the fan then home is the heart and not something that can really be made up to be a home, you are already home all the time. 

We live in a world that places everything outside of us. Even the logo that “happiness comes in a box”, on what I call the duck trucks when they back up. Humor is the only way to get through life. Don’t get me wrong I have pretty rough days and if I said things are airy fairy well that is spiritual bypassing. That not really doing the work of understanding where behavior, thought, or belief is coming from. 

~“If you want it done, you have to do it yourself”, Where is this thought, and the belief comes from, and why it is not necessarily the truth! I caught myself saying today. Why, I was frustrated at the fact some people were not doing what they should have been doing and resolving a situation. Being a Sag., I am get it done and move on. I don’t need to drag things out unless it is a conflict. Something I don’t enjoy or like dealing with someone is never going to get it, even explained in six degrees in any direction.  

Where does this come from, first it is control, you are taking control, because if we trace it to childhood. That wonderful childhood with helpful parents did not exist. Somewhere on the planet they do and that is the true reality, we learned that if anything was going to change – you have to do it yourself because people were not around to help. 

This creates over-dependence on that I can’t trust people to do what they say or should, could, or would be doing.  Well, it is out of my control. And sometimes it is about allowing things to unfold because there could be something at work that we don’t see or understand. Surrender to the moment. Sometimes we need to step back and look at it differently. We live in a fast world completing for constant attraction to or distraction for our attention, because it is power in the moment. 

Now if we were all robots, we could blame it on bad machinery. But we're not robots, we're humans, and when the robots take over and want human rights that is when we should be concerned. Also, learning that whatever created “ I have to do for myself” by control it, is from a space of needing help, be it situational, emotional, and or feelings. I can’t tell what was because I didn’t live your life. When learning about why we do things, then change happens because you realize and catch yourself. When we should be asking for help, stepping back, or having trust and faith in another person or even our Godself. 

And if don’t know you are the god self-created by God and the rest of them were his messenger to let you know so and the holy trinity is the mother, father, the child – but that is another story. 

Here is a question how will you know what the difference is between AI writing or painting versus a human writing and painting? I ask this question because I stop for food today and was kindly walked over to the kiosk to place my food order and I turn to the person and said no thank you, I will go elsewhere. It is coming whether we want it or not. That will brings its own problems! 

04-13-23 Quotes or affirmations

 Life is about change 

Everyday is different even, when you can't see it.

Beliefs can always be challenged 

To Luminate you have to be the light in the dark. 

Channeled: I have no idea when I channeled this for it was in the box affirmations. *The universe is complex and beyond what the human mind can conceive and in the search for answers, you will only come up with new questions. Why not enjoy yourself and the enfolding of what is around you and in you. 

( I think I was questioning why I was experiencing one of many things that seem like it had no relevance to a spiritual path)

Often comes after you need it- experience/ wisdom

4-11-23 Inner Inking

 Before the virus hit most people in this field and others; well for lack of words stock up on things, some are still saying to Prep and prepare. Why we did it because we knew it was coming and could feel and sense it. I for one stopped - firstly because I don't have room for a year's worth of food or supplies. Secondly, I know that most people can't do it, because of their financial situation, housing, etc. The other side of this picture is that your claiming Lack and telling the universe that I need to stockpile food or supplies because there is not enough. If thoughts are intentions- then what are you intending to happen, individually or globally? 

This is even pushed on you by the media as shortages. This did happen because people were not working to full capacity. For the most part people here in the US have access to food (there are exceptions). I am not saying to not keep food on hand or supplies. But when you pose these ideas of lack against the big corporation, is it being pushed as an agenda of lack into their pockets? Knowing that Earth is experiencing changes both natural and engineered to create situations affecting the weather and water, earthquakes, and land. (see butterfly effect) simply put can the wings of a butterfly cause a typhoon.! But when the general public comes to the thought that there is a lack of something or the 100th monkey effect - it either creates a behavior or new behavior and how it becomes a general consensus. 

Back to prepper - nothing against them - let us look at the idea of this thought and behavior. Let's just say as a simple explanation - you were raised with not enough of something. This is applicable to food, money, care, love, support, etc-  from your parents who by the way were raised by your grandparents who experienced wars, illness, bomb threats, and social and economic challenges. Let's go deeper let us say in a past life or many, that you live in a life that had these same situations or a fall of a civilization. Is possible that these memories are underlining a thought that is affecting your actions. 

Your job is to question it. Since we thinking, feeling, sensing intuitively being versus running around saying the sky is falling and it never going to exist again. Now, it is not rocket science in the fact over 25 years and longer that products have become smaller, cars higher, housing higher, bills higher, and well everything higher to the point where we are now. 

Now financial analysis person would see the highs and lows over the last 123 years. The real question is sustainability by our use of the resource we have at hand. Let's say I create a product that fills a need, but I don't create a natural way of disposing of that product when its use is over with. I have now created an environmental problem or social problem, or economic problem. To who creating all this - is them, is us, is corps', government, some secret group or elite or military.  When we came here to be the change per guides. 

Now for a better lack of words: who is running our governments, corporations, banking, schools, and utility companies, - and what are doing about it? Have they really improved anything? What are they doing for the people and will they ever?  Money is the name of game and not people - even though it is people who generally work for these corporations to support their own life. What is a human life worth? Apparently not much because the bodies of people in our governments, and the corporation would want all of life to succeed, because the quality of life is improved for all. Not people jet off somewhere or in a bunker or rocket to another planet or influencer that degrade what is to be a woman or man in the world. For the sake of greed and power and why we seeing upheaval in different parts of the world. 

People have had enough and want change. One person can't move a mountain but an entire community or village can. I give you an example my son graduated from high school during the ceremony the principal noted all children going to colleges, armed services, and technical or training school while assigning percentages to children 20%, and 30% and this last group was dismissed as if they didn't exist. I looked around as I was listening to this speech and was taken back that no one even realized what was just said. With a full school stadium of people who watch and listened. And broadcast via social media. This is an influential area. This principal who has Ph.D. but she failed to see how in her own speech the impact on our minds and our children's. (are you questioning what is being said via media) 

Why we don't listen, see or change things is because we have to look at ourselves and the impact that we have on ourselves or the world around us. We are distracted by cell phones, the internet, media, commercials, shopping, having, doing, surviving, fear of the what if's, etc. Dog eats dog world. When most of us do not want that world. We want the world that we dreamed of or better. So what is the answer to this moral dilemma- well it is individual to you and everyone. Now you can say I don't think about it and turn a blind eye but at some point a choice with be made. Hell, we are bred to follow the line, sit quietly, don't speak up, when it is not your turn, don't challenge your parents, school, or what is true, or question what is it that I am feeling, observing, or experiencing 

If reality is the inner making of thoughts, maybe time to take a wider view. 

04-11-23 Intuitive information

 Last night I heard a say guide that - A man who wants for nothing is a man who has everything. Explained:  man is both female and male. Wants for nothing is the realization that everything comes and is from within yourself. Just like writing a story, the story comes from within you.

I kept hearing Blackbirds in the Dead of Night song- when I looked it up the song is about race riots, civil rights, and segregation of African American in 1968, which was when it was written. When I asked the guides about this and the use of - they don't see people as separate. They are using as a reference point that 55 years ago, we were fighting the same battle for equality. This leads me to the Civil unrest they gave me next, and the upheaval that is coming, or what is the beginning of. 

Rucker's or Rutgers Stadium? 

I was shown Justin Timberlake and Gwen Paltrow in a movie - ? Justin was in the water and Gwen was earth and air - like in mirror images one above the other. No idea what that means. 

I also heard - another bites the dust- another song about a fall to the ground or someone's death- Soldiers on the battlefield, gang violence, and the person walking down the street. the guides say that is being propagated. 

They also want me to bring up the weed and seed program, which used to clean up the area, which has its stakes for a developer to bring luxury living to drive the market down in the area to come along and purchase them at a below market rate to turn them into higher quality of living. By creating areas of destitute, drugs, violence, and fear of your safety to prime real estate. This is not done in a year - it is years in its planning. I am hearing that it is done in proximity to - commute, riverfront, local venues, etc... 

04-09-23 Joy in the simple things

 Happy Easter.

I was thinking this morning, about how we miss the simple things in life. Yesterday I saw these tulips and thought should I get them? This morning I said I am going to go get them, if there still there. They were. How we have all these opportunity to just be in the moment. Drinking coffee or tea outside on a beautiful sunny day or just listening to the birds, to how we spent our days as a child on Easter. Egg hunts, Easter hats and putting on best clothes to mark the day. Trying not to eat so much candy that got stomach aches, or parent said you will spoil your dinner.  Going to church or not, for this day we knew that it was spent with our family. 

Just the simplicity of the small things. As I text my children and brother wishing a Happy Easter and wondering what gives them joy in a moment? When the tulips that I brought seem like they were adding to the moment that I was feeling. It was not the running around, or cooking all day or having company, or not. Having to get somewhere, do something. Just the joy of the joy in the moment. 

Having a wonderful and joyful day today. Enjoy the simple things and simple moments.