25. I am going skip ahead and someone that I
was friends with said, something profound to me which was to “write things down
Donna”, she has since passed away and to this day I write things down. It was a
simple statement that would help keep me grounded on this planet. Mind you I
never thought that writing would help me put my life back together when it did
fall apart. Or that I could have a record of events that have help me in court
or just remember the many encounters that I had. I did not always write things down
but have since learned too.
26. When my first son was born, I got his name
before I even knew that he was a boy. I knew right of the bat what his first
and middle name would be and later it played out that I changed is his last
name. Later when he was able to talk, as a toddler, he spoke and say things far
above what a child would normally say at that age. I don’t know if it’s because I
never spoke to him like a baby, as if he didn’t matter. I
always thought that he was an old soul in a little body. We are all old souls.
Another thing that would happen is in the middle of the night his toys that
make noises they would seemly and randomly start playing and I would have get
up and shut them off. At some point, I stop buying toys that made sounds. When it happen I never gave it a thought until years later. I think back then and now it was family members or my guides trying to get my attention.
27. Another time when my son was two he
verbatim said to me how my father passed with all the details around the
situation. Later that day, I took him to see my Mom and he retold the same
story and did not miss a word. The thing is my father had passed 6 years before
he was even born and now eight years given his age and my father’s passing, I
still was not putting two and two together. I still was not really researching
what was really happening. I was still under the voice you don’t speaks of
these matters.
28. This is a side note about where we lived.
Two months after moving into the apartment both my son and I experienced sinus
and constant ear infections or upper respiratory infections. To the point that
I had a list of medication, I had to take two times a day. I was told that
ghost can make you sick, I am not in agreement with this, I think the apartment
itself had high levels of mold in the walls or ceiling. Or maybe it was both. I
did move after suffering for 2 years and within two months of moving was off
all the medication except for one as needed. I wrote this because I have encountered
other people who have got sick in the apartment they moved into, not realizing
it was the apartment and or some medical condition now affect them.
29. The home that I moved into I had seen in a
dream before I purchased it, not realizing it, I had seen it backward from the
back door to the front of the house. Another thing that was strange is the I
had gone to see a psychic maybe a year before and I only went because I was
curious; along with the fact that it benefited the local volunteers at a hospital
and nearby firehouse. The woman never said to me that “you are gifted”, but she
did tell me that I would problem with the house. Every problem was exactly as she
said, and she told me that I had a connection to the twin towers. I had been to
twin tower when I was younger and had friends that their father worked in the
Towers.
I also tried to make a settlement on my home
on 9/11, which fell through and left me looking for a new mortgage company that
very same day. I have since sold the house because of other reason but realized after
talking to some neighbor’s that the very house the I lived in had a history of
being sold every few years and relationship ending in them.
This was the same type
of house that I had grown up living next too.
I did some research and found that the homes use to be for soldiers
during the war. Whether this has
anything to do anything is a good question and one that I am not able to
answer. The house was over 100 years old and I am sure it saw a lot considering
life was completely different over the last 100 years.
30. Two years into the house I had my second
son and while carrying him, I think I slept more than I was awake. I would see a
halo around my stomach when I was half awake. After my son was born things
started happening, I would have dreams of accidents, see the word like “Esp.”
written on billboards. There seem to be
spirits there that were not there before. I would be feeding my son in the
middle of the night and see things glowing, everything had energy or light
around it. Plants and furniture as if it had a light around. I would find match
sticks and dimes in odd places. I had a bird fly into the glass window twice
and both times I found out that someone had passed and knew exactly who it was
out nowhere, when it happen.
I walked outside one day and had white
feathers in my driveway in front of my car or a rose bush bloomed in the middle
of winter. I had gotten a newer car and the car would stop working, then I
would have to send to the dealership multiple times. I finally had to get rid
of it because I would drive it and out of nowhere, it would stop working. I
would have people call me out nowhere who I had not seen or spoken to in years.
I started a game of playing to see if I knew who would be calling before I
answered the phone or guessing mail whether it was trash or something
important. This was before the internet is as big as it is today.
31. I would have dreams of building collapsing
from earthquakes, a truck overturned on its side and three days later it would
happen. I had a dream about a tractor-trailer and my brother informed that he
had a fear of them. I later learned that a guy Tim I knew was killed by a
tractor-trailer. I dream about being in someone car and them getting a terrible
accident. The next day my neighbor had been in an accident that totaled his
car, and, in my dream, I saw him in the car with me. I found that some people
that I know saw up to be a figure of the person that presents another
person. A would see a person standing by
my bed, which I believe was someone that I knew from my family. Since I can’t go around calling on every
person that I see in my dreams I just took for what they represented. I could
no longer deny that something was happening to me. It seems that the birth of
my son had open something that I turned away from. I started remembering other
memories of dreams and things that had happened from an early age.
32. I went on a search for books and
information as to why and how can I understanding what is happening to me. I
don’t read cards, I have tried. I don’t see what other people see in them and
never received any information or a story like other reader do. And it never
about me per say, it was always other people. At the same time, my relationship
and life were falling apart. Apparently, the universe had other plans. Not only
was my life falling apart, but it seemed that society was falling apart. We
just had 9/11 two years early, we then a burst in the real estate market and
then collapse of the market, bailouts of the banking system and Car
dealerships, Katrina storm, Storm Sandy, changing weather patterns, people in
general have failed to see the interrelationship to these events. Along with so
many other events since that time.
