One of
the first memories, that I have of knowing something was of a baby being left
in a church parking lot. I remember being too small to cross the street by
myself and the image of where and when has not left me to this day. When I was
old enough to look for myself, I went looking for the very place that I thought
that I had seen the baby left. In fact, I have checked several times over the
years. Questioning whether it really happened or not. I have done searches on
the internet and tried to access newspapers from over 40 years to verify the
images that I saw so many years ago.
We tend
to forget things that we saw or what happens to us as a child because our world
within our family does not reflect these images or when we could speak out
about them they are dismissed as our imagination. The very people who are
supposed to guide us have no idea how to handle the situation. So, we learn to
close down parts of ourselves to keep other people happy or not hurting them.
At some
point, the lines burr and what we think is our reality is a fine line as to
what is the truth. Now, these images, as well as many more would fill a file
cabinet within my mind. Not knowing where to turn I just file them away to sit
in a box of sorts to one day remember them. I have since learned that they are
the five senses and the sixth sense; sight, hearing, smell, taste, touch and
extrasensory perception.
Many people
are walking around with these abilities and have no idea what to do with them.
I know that I didn’t. I thought I was going crazy and had I continue to speak
of them they would have said, that I was out of my mind. Even in this time
period, it is denied that it exists because people fear what they can’t
understand. It has taking me years to own it and parts of myself that were lost
in the void of what is accepted as normal. I have learned that not everyone has
memories of the invisible world around us.
And
maybe I am the fortunate one because I really never lost the abilities. I may
not have understood it and figure it was a taboo to talk about because surely
that is what I learned. I had to educate myself and attempt to verify the
information as it presented its self. More times then I like I have thought
this is insane and why am I the only one seeing, hearing or sensing these
things. Have I lost my mind?
It was
not until people started verifying the images or the thoughts that I would
perceive by indicating so. One thing that I have learned is that you cannot go
around telling just anyone because of their reaction, that it’s not part of
their belief system. And it causes you more harm than good. People want the
truth but only if sits within their beliefs. I for one know from experience. I
have lost friends, family, and jobs because I could see truth where others did
not want too.
Why do I
write about it, because I keep hearing “tell the story”? And have asked, where
do I begin. So somewhere or someone can relate. When this happens to you, you
will definitely think that you have gone off the deep. I have seen some very
gifted people fall victim to what is wrong with me and why don’t people believe
me or even listen to be labeled as having a mental health issue when it part of
your soul journey.
Unfortunately,
our mental health is not set up to deal with the spiritual evolution of humans.
They would much rather medicate us to be able to deal with what is, “not the
unknown” or what is true. It was not set up that way, even with great works of
people who question the possibilities of evolution of the soul. I am not sure
where I am going with this or why.
What I
do know is that we as humans have a responsibility to ourselves to question the
truth and not be so close off that we buy into all the nonsense that has been
spoon fed for years. I do know that I experience things every day and have
tried to hide from it, not that you can hide from yourself. When it gets too
much to only keep pushing forward that someone will listen, even if it’s only
me for now.
Voice
Within©10-12-18
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