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Tuesday, March 10, 2020

Pages 11-18 - My Spiritual Journey


25.    I am going skip ahead and someone that I was friends with said, something profound to me which was to “write things down Donna”, she has since passed away and to this day I write things down. It was a simple statement that would help keep me grounded on this planet. Mind you I never thought that writing would help me put my life back together when it did fall apart. Or that I could have a record of events that have help me in court or just remember the many encounters that I had. I did not always write things down but have since learned too.  

26.    When my first son was born, I got his name before I even knew that he was a boy. I knew right of the bat what his first and middle name would be and later it played out that I changed is his last name. Later when he was able to talk, as a toddler, he spoke and say things far above what a child would normally say at that age. I don’t know if it’s because I never spoke to him like a baby, as if he didn’t matter.  I always thought that he was an old soul in a little body. We are all old souls. Another thing that would happen is in the middle of the night his toys that make noises they would seemly and randomly start playing and I would have get up and shut them off. At some point, I stop buying toys that made sounds. When it happen I never gave it a thought until years later. I think back then and now it was family members or my guides trying to get my attention.

27.     Another time when my son was two he verbatim said to me how my father passed with all the details around the situation. Later that day, I took him to see my Mom and he retold the same story and did not miss a word. The thing is my father had passed 6 years before he was even born and now eight years given his age and my father’s passing, I still was not putting two and two together. I still was not really researching what was really happening. I was still under the voice you don’t speaks of these matters.

28.    This is a side note about where we lived. Two months after moving into the apartment both my son and I experienced sinus and constant ear infections or upper respiratory infections. To the point that I had a list of medication, I had to take two times a day. I was told that ghost can make you sick, I am not in agreement with this, I think the apartment itself had high levels of mold in the walls or ceiling. Or maybe it was both. I did move after suffering for 2 years and within two months of moving was off all the medication except for one as needed. I wrote this because I have encountered other people who have got sick in the apartment they moved into, not realizing it was the apartment and or some medical condition now affect them.

29.     The home that I moved into I had seen in a dream before I purchased it, not realizing it, I had seen it backward from the back door to the front of the house. Another thing that was strange is the I had gone to see a psychic maybe a year before and I only went because I was curious; along with the fact that it benefited the local volunteers at a hospital and nearby firehouse. The woman never said to me that “you are gifted”, but she did tell me that I would problem with the house. Every problem was exactly as she said, and she told me that I had a connection to the twin towers. I had been to twin tower when I was younger and had friends that their father worked in the Towers.
 I also tried to make a settlement on my home on 9/11, which fell through and left me looking for a new mortgage company that very same day. I have since sold the house because of other reason but realized after talking to some neighbor’s that the very house the I lived in had a history of being sold every few years and relationship ending in them.
This was the same type of house that I had grown up living next too.  I did some research and found that the homes use to be for soldiers during the war.  Whether this has anything to do anything is a good question and one that I am not able to answer. The house was over 100 years old and I am sure it saw a lot considering life was completely different over the last 100 years.


30.      Two years into the house I had my second son and while carrying him, I think I slept more than I was awake. I would see a halo around my stomach when I was half awake. After my son was born things started happening, I would have dreams of accidents, see the word like “Esp.” written on billboards.  There seem to be spirits there that were not there before. I would be feeding my son in the middle of the night and see things glowing, everything had energy or light around it. Plants and furniture as if it had a light around. I would find match sticks and dimes in odd places. I had a bird fly into the glass window twice and both times I found out that someone had passed and knew exactly who it was out nowhere, when it happen. 
 I walked outside one day and had white feathers in my driveway in front of my car or a rose bush bloomed in the middle of winter. I had gotten a newer car and the car would stop working, then I would have to send to the dealership multiple times. I finally had to get rid of it because I would drive it and out of nowhere, it would stop working. I would have people call me out nowhere who I had not seen or spoken to in years. I started a game of playing to see if I knew who would be calling before I answered the phone or guessing mail whether it was trash or something important. This was before the internet is as big as it is today.

31.     I would have dreams of building collapsing from earthquakes, a truck overturned on its side and three days later it would happen. I had a dream about a tractor-trailer and my brother informed that he had a fear of them. I later learned that a guy Tim I knew was killed by a tractor-trailer. I dream about being in someone car and them getting a terrible accident. The next day my neighbor had been in an accident that totaled his car, and, in my dream, I saw him in the car with me. I found that some people that I know saw up to be a figure of the person that presents another person.  A would see a person standing by my bed, which I believe was someone that I knew from my family.  Since I can’t go around calling on every person that I see in my dreams I just took for what they represented. I could no longer deny that something was happening to me. It seems that the birth of my son had open something that I turned away from. I started remembering other memories of dreams and things that had happened from an early age.

32.     I went on a search for books and information as to why and how can I understanding what is happening to me. I don’t read cards, I have tried. I don’t see what other people see in them and never received any information or a story like other reader do. And it never about me per say, it was always other people. At the same time, my relationship and life were falling apart. Apparently, the universe had other plans. Not only was my life falling apart, but it seemed that society was falling apart. We just had 9/11 two years early, we then a burst in the real estate market and then collapse of the market, bailouts of the banking system and Car dealerships, Katrina storm, Storm Sandy, changing weather patterns, people in general have failed to see the interrelationship to these events. Along with so many other events since that time.

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