8-13-21 Recovered Trauma from Two and half years old
Imagination being two half years and being screamed at
to stand still for a picture that was important for some reason and that event
for would be the beginning of a life that was a catalyst for the rest of your
life, until you finally sat down to look at the things that have happened and
found that it did have a root cause.
Now one of questions that I am often asked by people
who know me, why they did not know that I could bring psychic, medium or
channeled messages through. Well for one thing I told not to speak about it and
the other reason that I had no idea that it had a named until was in my
thirties. I just walked around apparently being me and because it was second
nature to me, other than seeing things I just did not say anything about. I
would speak about things and it created some ending to many friendships.
I thought everyone could do it and it was some
unwritten rules that you did not discuss it. I didn’t think it was issue until
I realized that much later, when I would say thing and people reacted to me. I
think I thought it was like politics and religion and just did not say
anything. Also, I raised that if had nothing nice to say, don’t say anything,
or Children are seen and not heard, that one makes me cringe.
As child I knew that I was in the wrong family or
wrong planet. I knew that I here for a reason and what the reason was or is
on-going process. Now trying to condense 51 years of experiences in a book or a
single writing is overwhelming to say the least. It as if I am reliving, those
events all over again and to hit on key points to trigger your memory of why
things that have happened or never needed to happen. Yet in the same respect
had you not walked through it you would not be the person you are today or have
the understanding of what another has gone through. There is in the spiritual community
saying that “you are not your story, yet your story has defined who you are to
this point”.
In both psychology and the spirituality there is a
common thread that what you experienced between the ages of birth to seven are
the crux of your entire being in this life, which is only partially right.
Being that I never felt that my birth family was my real family, it made my
life difficult in the fact that I did not understand the rules to the game I
would say.
How could anyone one, we are born from a perfect
state of being to choose these family were any remembrance of truth or love is
quickly forgotten or programmed out of us. Then you consider the fact our
families have their history of generations before and all those dysfunction and
programming before we were thoughts to own parents. Now each us or me
experienced things that were not from where we came on the other side. I don’t
have full memory of where I came from before birth, yet I have seen things that
just don’t exist in this world at present or do, and only a few thousands of us
have access too.
My two-half year old wants to say that moment I
experienced anger directed at me for not following directions was pivotal in my
development.
I have no memories before that moment and have even
attempted to view them under hypnosis, which is how, I know about this single
event. I went under Hypnosis in 2017, where I realized that I kept having
pattern of events show up in my life that would then connected back to this
moment at two-half. It shows how these events connected back I would end
relationships and jobs with this same time frame.
I was subconsciously protecting myself from being
screamed at or having someone angry at me for my behavior, which of course any
parent will tell that no child sits still at that age or is easily distracted
by things, that is what children do. Now we live in culture that if child
cannot sit there, there is something wrong with them. Yet, the only testing
presently done is for a person to observe the child. There is no real testing,
family culture, dysfunctions or questioning what type of food that the child is
drinking or eating. I think most people should be in horror of the food industry
and that is whole other conversation.
I know this
because one of own children I told had an issued that required meds. I fought
it, until talked into it after I put my son in time-out, and he could not stay
still. Never considering that he ate something or had extra energy that he
needed to burn off. Then my son was over medicated to point that I didn’t know
who he was at school activity and had no idea because the meds would only last
through the school day. Even when they changed the meds, he started losing
weight and his appetite. So, any structure that I had for dinner or meals when
right out the window. Looking back, I would never put that kind of drugs in a
child that age. The meds that use our scheduled 2 controlled substance of
stimulants right up there with opium. (usdoj.gov controlled substance) and they
pass it out like it candy. You must wonder ar they doping these kids on purpose. Children
normally are still connected to other side but until numerous things, events,
parenting, trauma, schooling. Schooling not about thinking for oneself and
programming to service as clog in machine.
I also attempted to learn hypnosis back in 2010, I
stopped after my instructor said that I could not possibility know what I
saying to another student without them being under hypnosis. I never went back after that. Few years he
did held another event, but it was money scam, and he did not teach you
anything of value or worth of your time and money. I did investigate other
people’s work, but the cost of these programs is out most people’s reach per
se, unless you want to learn it and the money with appear.
If you gotten to this point, I would look for
pattern in life, start with a time of line of when or what memories you have.
There is so much trauma in the first seven years of life that most people don’t
realized. I should note that went I was
under hypnosis that my energy body have a hole in the larger than my head.
This energy body is a protected field around my body
to protect you from leaking your life force energy and keep other peoples stuff
out of your own field. Which can be healed with the help angels and asking heal
& seal the field. You can see it looking for it in meditation or see someone who works energy fields.
Programmed to not speak my truth
Programmed to be screamed & yelled at.- leading being to disrespected and disrespect yourself
Programmed to not listen to myself
Programmed to not believe in my truth, be who I am.
Programmed that something is wrong me for not
listening, cannot following instruction or directions.
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