So, I am sitting questioning the path that I have taken so far. Whether it was the right choice. By all accounts, it looks like a road map of destruction. In the 20 years that I drove into the subject matter, to understand what was happening to me and why my life on every level, was taken from me. To then encounter horrific things along the way, has me perplexed as to why and what the point is, what is my part in the whole of this picture.
I have spend the better part of the last 12 years trying to rebuild from it. Believing that there was reason and plan, even if I could not see it for myself. I have been shaken to the core with my own experiences and the countless people, I met along the way. They say that what does not kill you makes you stronger. Then I should a walking saint because both good and bad that I encounter have taught me that we can be our own worst enemies.
To me than arguing with my guides or universe that how do you expect people to remember that they are the love that they came from when for some they have never experienced it or felt it from the beginning? That they are creators or now co-creator (people changing wording) in their own lives. When none of it is taught from the beginning. To the guides saying study theosophy and I am what I have been doing. When my life feels like a Jenga game. Wondering how many times do I rebuild or build myself up. When Trauma from the past is haunting me to this day.
When I was sent into the darkness, blind to the fact that people had experienced far worst than I could have ever thought or even considered. This raises the question of why would God allow this and because of Free will (guides speak ) each is a choice point. What does that really mean? that means you have agreed to come into this reality to experience life, and choice points and every thought or choice has a cause and effect on the outcome. As a child, you were at the will of your parents, family, society, and schooling. Once you left home or had the opportunity to discover for yourself that there were choices other than what you were exposed to. Right or wrong it makes no difference. What do you mean it makes no difference? To experience light, and love you must understand the darkness and what it feels like to be either or, there is no difference, one is the same as the other a just polarity. When you look at the night sky is it dark, yet on the other side the planet is light. The sun is rising as night is falling in your part of the world. Everyone in every moment is making the choices to make the right decision. You have what is called the butterfly effect. Since all is one and simply has always been. It is humans that decide what is right or wrong, based on the knowledge you know. Your view is narrow by conjecture. (Conjecture - is an opinion or conclusion formed on the basis of incomplete information.) We will narrow down your overall questioning. Your questions are multiple facets. All have agreed to experience the road per se called life. From childhood to teens to adulthood. When basic knowledge that all is love is not understood at this level, one must seek out to understand why it is so. You have agreed to experience your birth family, in agreement with them to learn lessons. This is not done on the night of conception, this is prior to your birth and where there are many soul contracts (as people, places, things) that again have been agreed upon "much like string theory". (Google) You each agreed that as a soul you would experience certain factors in your soul contract. You/We choose these based on soul growth or evolution of humanity, planet, planetary. This is not an "I" event. If you were to look at the complexity of your life, as in all of it, from birth to now point, and all the people who have crossed your path the story widens, does it not. It is not all the pain or experiences, as in what you learned along the way. (ME) So what you are saying is that even the bad people who came from God, have a choice point. (Yes) Your planet is shifting from Greed, from single to many. All civilizations have encountered this "winner take all" mentality. This is currently under destruction (years), as more, and more people question the longevity, realizing that it cannot withstand itself. You have a saying on your planet follow the money. You were not created to be in lack, but many are. This is a rich and resourceful planet, that is abundant. You have in the world currently abundance defined as material wealth, but lack the understanding that health is abundance, access to food and water is abundance, to provide for your family is abundance, and home is abundance, the ability to travel is abundance. WE leave you this good day.
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