I wrote this and it feels choppy. I put mark within it noting when seem to jump. Yet with AI correcting it the marks are removed and when I felt energy shift was removed, but wrote it back in.
So my morning started way too early and in tears. When I woke up hearing self-sabotage. I am like a guides, God, I am tired. Self-sabotage is expecting the worst. It is not our fault completely that we think this way. It program that we learned early on. This comes from the mother and the father, but generally are mother is a caregiver. This is not to say that Grandmom or another mother figure does not act in place of. This would apply to people raised by a Mother figure in place of the birth parent for whatever reason.
Then I hear the song Wishin and Hopin by Dusty Springfield, and I am like really. Which took me to feelings of betrayal. Saying, do I not have spirit guides that are supposed to assist me? As a child, I called out many times to the guides or God trying to understand why things were happening to me.. Since I didn't have the support of my birth family and I had contact with this voice or beings, even a Grandparent I learned much later who she was showed up when I left home and was ill. I was left will access to the phone when you just want someone to take care of you.
Then I hear the song that Pink sings "What about Us" which has 357 million views, is a prayer for help not individually but as a collective. That is 357 million people who feel things need to change and want change. Since we aren't raised by enlightened people or mystery schools with proper education of who we are. It becomes a search within. Previously I wrote about the dark side, seeing things you don't understand or unhelpful people this is of course part of the journey and if it was easy we would not be here. Why it is not taught and here now openly and why it went underground or hidden is because people have tried to destroy knowledge, people, and awareness. You can't destroy consciousness it is you, and everything.
When you have to shitty situation and use it as a catalyst, this of course is after the fact, in hindsight. But sometimes we experience trauma again because we have not cleared it the first time and enter into the emotions of the current event and the triggers of the previous event to compound it until we clear it. So how do we clear generations of self-sabotage when we have no idea when or who it started with because of the ancestor lineage?(energy shifts here) I try to pay attention when I am doing this because I am limiting myself by doing it. Playing small because I was taught to be small by others, that because I was small I didn't know or could know and not a divine being that I am. insert: (we wish our loved ones off to heaven, the other side, the afterlife, ..etc. Do we ever question where did I come from?)
What if someone is creating a situation, this could be individually and collectively, globally. We can't control everyone's reactions to us or their behaviors. So where does this leave us? Since we are divine beings, it is our job to clean up our own stuff individually and collectively. This does happen overnight or week, a month, and even longer, and saying someone is not spiritual is ego-based and you as a soul in spirit form, can never not be.
The more we clean up the more people test are patience and the lessons we learned to back us. When everyone is divine and has made choices they have to play their part in their own life. Just as we have in our own lives. This is not to say we have to put up with other people's stuff and this can't be a tricky walk because not all teachers will walk with morals and ethics and conduct. Which is about learning discernment for self and empowerment of not giving power away to another, you are a divine being.
As children, we learned that our support, love, lively hood depended on the people around us, family, friends, and society. As adults, we have the ability to alter that course and rewrite the programs within us. This is no easy feat. Sometimes we loop back thinking we cleared this and it presents itself again. I can't tell you what the lesson is because it is an individual-to-self and soul contract that you came here to do. People want to know their purpose in life and I found it find you. None of what I write about here or in my journal to work things out would have taken place unless I wrote it down, to look at my thoughts and what I was experiencing. You can't do it all in the head, you will argue with yourself, or other people's voices that have tried to stop you. While the ego most people want to get rid of - is your ally and not your enemy. It's just who has the louder voice.
When meditating you learn where and who talking. This is where intuition, this knowing and hearing guides or loved one comes from. Since most have put their trust in the external versus in self. As children, we did this naturally until someone stopped us. This is not so millions of people can be card readers, psychics, mediums, or channels, it is to bridge the information to help mankind. In Health, industry, finances, Government, cleaning up the earth and so, so much more. AI can be helpful or a disadvantage - used or abused. Since nothing exists without coming into being when humanity is ready for it.
People argue with the God concept because of old programs by the influence of the church, When you are told a story of the ocean or sea separating (we are not going to address that here) but you know the story is part of human consciousness. You can't put training wheels on a Mack truck it looks ridiculous when you have not been kind or loving to even yourselves. When you don't even understand yourselves. It is not in grand gestures, they simple acts, and people speak about manifesting with intent for millions, or this or that - can you handle your wish and wants, do you understand money or how to be responsible for those acts? You have plenty of people on the planet now that have the wealth and fame... what are they doing with it? This is not to fault them but their life lessons. Have you ever heard it is lonely at the top and lonely at the bottom, the difference is people at the bottom know and appreciate what they have and top are looking for external validation of who they are. Balance is key. Not too far left or right. Peace is a neural place. All can attain it -does it service the whole? We will leave it for today.
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