02-01-23 Unnamed

Since I was a little girl, I have always known that I was here to teach or do something. I never dream about being a psychic or channel or much less an empath. I knew I was here to help people in some way. I now see it differently, when I have to process and heal my own life from the things that I have encountered.  The guides have asked me to speak about my life and I have tried to a degree, to write about from a point that I won’t be attacked, expose the players by name and their actions by their hands or words. I don’t know if I can be sued for slander when most of the things were not openly seen by other people.

I have thought about ghostwriting and changing my name completely, as these people who now leave the planet. I am faced with releasing the trauma caused by them and the effects that it has had on my life. I am to the point that I don’t know what I am here to do, and my own resume looks like my life, pieces of information that I have not quite put together to be a whole. I have avoided creating a more public stance because literally, my entire life has been about being attacked, abused, or neglected to feel safe and protected to just be me.

I am tired of protecting myself from these people and anyone else who disrespect children, or people whether male or female, all for some false power over another. What I see are bullies, raised by bullies, narcissistic people who are so wounded that they have no idea how to find their own light and love for themselves that they have to step on people like bugs for them to feel powerful. The sickness is everywhere and I for one realized that I may never feel safe or protected in a world that seems to be breeding it, so why to try to fight these sickos.

From fear or a tyrannical system, my own family to my last job and where I was given work, to do more of and faster, that was placed on me because someone paid me, not to think but do. To the woman who befriend me then when I realized that she manipulating people to cut ties with her, decided that she going to make me her personal target every day and openly expressed that she did this to other people in her past, but would consider herself a spiritual person in the sense that she justify her action, as I was trying to process the death of my mother and trauma that had been created from it in my life.

To then report these conditions and explain to HR. that they could investigate, and she would find another way to create problems for me and the burden of proof would lie on she said, or I said. I explained that here is what could happen was for me to get a lawyer and file a lawsuit against them, or to me leaving the company, I chose the latter. Because I could see where this was headed. I could have stayed but why. Fight it out with her or them or a court, these people will never own their stuff, it simply is not part of consciousness.

There is a two-fold to this and that is to stand up for yourself because we are not here to play victims or martyr to anyone or a falling system that thinks that the planet is overpopulated to control the food, water, financial market, or housing market.  People in general feel powerless because you have been taught from the beginning that we are at the mercy of the people around us from our birth families to the world at large. And I am not talking about starting a revolution, as to what I see being put out in the world. As the guides have stated it is not necessary to be aggressive to make a point.

But my understanding is that through our pre-birth and soul contracts we have agreed to clear ancestry trauma, something else that I don’t agree with. Even with family crossed over, who did a so-so job when they were here. To we are here to be the change in the world. That does not mean looking the other way, but to stand in peace and intent that we can be the change that is so needed in the world. I arguably think this is the worst experiment to try to get 8 billion people to stand in solidary, that equality and the planet are more important than the top elite, who are trying to create a dystopia society where we don’t give a Frick about one or another.

We can’t even have one on one conversations with one another, for what fear of what, expressing ourselves and being attacked and this cancel culture is not silencing them, it is silencing ourselves because we are not thinking about resolving problems and stopping the madness that All children and people now and in future deserve to be happy and live in peace, vs a world that seems like a time bomb waiting to go off. To think about what if just half the population is displaced, are these things not happening now! No one wants to live in that type of society, but we fail to realize that whatever elite group or shadow people are running things, there is more of us than them.

The guides and master teachers teach that we are more powerful than we know. That our heart and mind in this hologram take focus thought. That one minute of intent to see peace and equality and solidarity can change our world, but that must become the focus, not saying or thinking I am powerless and live in fear of the unknown. That we heard the call to come to this planet and change it from within. Within ourselves not by destroying the planet or people to make that happen. That comes from challenging who am I afraid of – if we are children of God, source, and all that is, then we must learn to create from love, not fear.

Peace, equality, and solidarity – just thinking about these words or chanting these words alone have the ability to shift the planet, I am being told.

Until the underlining Fear is addressed – we will always feel like victims, instead seeing ourselves as a powerful creators of change.

The guides are saying to look at all the people that you have ever known, in school, the store, the jobs, the people you speak with on the phone, to doctors, to your vacations, etc. Everywhere you go there is another you.  You tend to think that it is just you or your family, but since your birth, you have been involved with people your entire lives, there is no – I am not connected to anyone. If everything is the source, God, consciousness it is impossible to not be connected to everyone and everything. Your Church/religions tell you that only they can speak to God. That is malarkey. It is a way of keeping you powerless to own divinity.