03-21-23 My Truth (me thinking and Channeled)

 

03-18-23 My Truth (me thinking and Channeled)

Most days I just want to move to the woods and be left alone from all this spiritual stuff, and I feel this urge to continue this work. It has brought heartache and grief beyond anything that I could have thought to experience in my life. Adding to it a difficult childhood and now knowing that is part of the catalyst for growth for myself to do this work. I still fight it tooth and nail, not because I do not believe in it. But the trauma and other people’s trauma that I experienced along the way and trying to release it. As well as do research into different things that have happened or try to get clarity on the enfoldment why I went through what did and the people that I encountered along the way. One could say that it has not been an easy ride.

When other people speak about it from a different viewpoint of my experience. I am like why,o continue! If this is so hard, why am I trying to swim upstream when clearly even people in this field, say their way is the only right way. I write because one it comes through me and two it helps me process what I am feeling or experiencing when I do not have anyone to talk to other than the guides and yes, they hear me and respond. But frankly, sometimes I just want a physical person to be able to bounce ideas or thoughts off of. So, I meditate, to clear my mind and quiet my mind, so I can hear those thoughts, yet when a concept or information comes through that I do not understand and left to figure it out. It seems like a cosmic joke, and like riddle me this, Batman.

And I am like Guides can we just solve one problem or situation, at a time? Then to hear it over, Donna. I like you are kidding me. Because from my view what has really changed, I am better informed, and yes, I have more knowledge, and wisdom than years before. Then you have to change what is within to see without because I am like can we get on it. When all these pieces of me float around wondering what to work on first. Why do I keep walking through situation after situation? Having to keep boundaries intact, or deal with this person, is quite exhausting. Asking questions, like do I say something or not, do I involve myself, or just keep quiet and they will figure out or not.

(Both guided & me) A long time ago, someone said to you, you cannot save people. I am like what is the point of it, understandingly I get that people have their own free will to make a decision for themselves, but when I can see or am told that they truly walking in the direction and path, of a road before them will take them to their knees when they repeatedly offered guidance. I think about all the times, that I was offered assistance or guidance and did not understand what was being offered or what was being said and the road that it took me down.

When I constantly check in with myself to make sure that I am clear and integrity with this work, and cannot always be 100 percent of the time, because I am human and constantly reflecting on the conversation or could I have said more. To then have released it. Knowing that I am the vessel, not the living their life. But sometimes that universe has other plans, and with this work, we are not always privy to what is happening with others or ourselves. Which is sometimes, very difficult because I don’t want people to suffer or be in pain or find themselves facing difficulties.

Or times when I hear, do not intervene because there is a lesson that the soul/ person is meant to learn. I have no idea, what or why, but apparently it is part of their own soul growth. Or I see the potential for something to happen, and someone is not making a choice in their life, that they are here to learn, because of fear of making that choice, it creates an event, that could have been avoided. It is very disheartening, to try to balance the information with taking action.

Or you know that someone is a catalyst for change and what is referred to as Lighthouse and they going to leave a family behind because that is a soul contract. That in older civilizations and cultures, Death is honored and not the end all, because they taught from the beginning that it is a transition, from one to the next. What if you could see that you are somewhere -like the beach and for the most part people, people watch, whether you’re at the beach or boardwalk, or anywhere because I know not everyone has even seen or been to the beach, but you feel a connection or repulsion to something or someone, something peaked your awareness, interest, your intuition, your inner knowing.

If you could imagine that you could see a little pop-up or sense what it is that they are experiencing or thinking. Now I for one believe through the course of childhood that everyone can do this, but for whatever reason, through your childhood you had, with your parents, you were unable to understand what coming to you, whether it is a feeling, emotion, or images, that we truly come in aware, but slowly it diminishes through various things.

 Mostly because of uneducated parents and society. When you do research, you find that this was actually taught and is still taught today but only in a more tribal setting, or an aware parent/ing. That our own government and others have done research into it for just as long. This is known by the church, and in many books that you are not told about, and even in our history.

I want you to imagine standing in on a corner in New York, or a busy airport, anywhere that is a high volume of people, what that experience feels like: Are you excited, are your overwhelmed, are you in fear, do you feel lost? This is what is considered sensory overload, light, sound, taste, touch, smell, thought/intuition (the six senses)- it could be subtle or hit you like a brick in the face, metaphorically, of course.

As children now and from the past, going to back WWII have been experiencing this and much longer. We call them sensitive ones, ADHD, Autism (I say more borderline), even ODD, the quiet ones, and shy ones. It like putting them a shoe that does not fit. I am not Doctor, so do not quote me. When you do research, this is a natural part of human evolution, why are we not taught this or dumbed down to think that we are much less than who we are? We are taught to be high achievers, and overperformers, chasing money, career, power, and status, and it is all wrong.

Honestly, I do not know anyone who can build anything without the assistance of another. And if You could envision it, it takes action to do so, which of course involves other people. This brings me to the imagination- Einstein said that Imagination is more important than knowledge. Knowledge is limited. Knowledge is only what is known, perceived, and observed, using the imagination is unlimited, meaning that everything exists seen and unseen. This is where most people who do this work get the information, the unseen. (Which is all around you)

We believe or know or think heaven is an angelic place where a family member goes, or hope they do, I do not know if there is hell or not, maybe it was created in various religious texts to keep people in fear and control. Maybe it Is a spiritual war against humanity, to keep us enslaved to the fact that we are more powerful than we realized. What is power? Or powerful? Throughout history, in myths and stories about God and deities, allegories (stories), and even the bible is based on a recount of what happened back when Jesus walked the earth. So, what is actually the truth? Zeus or teaching of Jesus and that we are all Christ-like beings, and working our way back to God, who somehow fell from grace or choose to raise the vibration of the planet to heaven-like paradise!

That there are only two basic emotions, love, and fear and everything is derived from them, love, joy, happiness, bliss, excitement, compassion, or anger, hate, scared, rage, violence, lack, etc. As well as anxiety and excitement can be the same thing, the same emotion, depending on the situation. All these emotions come from the experiences that we had. Even hurt, sadness, and sorrow is based on some type of fear, because of a choice – or expectation that was made. The Ex that hurt us, words, threats of fear, punishment. These are based on experiences that we had (in the past), but what we are failing to understand is that without these experiences, they are lessons and healing at the same time. You cannot know what you want unless you experience these things. The Law of polarity. (Look up universal Laws)

My understanding is that we are moving away from this type of learning, and lessons. That collectively, aware, or not aware, we are done with the extremes of far left or far right, that unity and community are more powerful together than separate. I hear the but’s, the narrative playing out is Fear based. If you were the observer to the witnessing of - the news per se, is it fear or is love, or you love or are you in fear, do you project fear or love, do have understanding and compassion, or living in fear of something based on a past experience?

Let us go to a bigger view, people, governments, or companies that pillage communities, and villages, for wealth, sacrificing the people, planet, for resources to the detriment of life, of humans, and humanity, as a whole. For their needs over and their desire for more. When a program is running “be more, do more, as an example a subtle example your old war poster, we/ I want you, this bring us victory, join the fight, your country needs you, It is your patriotic duty, Your enemy is out there, it the neighbor, it that person, those people, that community, that race, that color, that sex that religion…. point made. Oh, if not in a good book, that can’t be right.  All while not making self-inquiry am I that person, you may not think so, but someone else thinks you are!

Awareness is self-inquiry, what is truth within. Questioning what truth is? Have you questioned what you have been told, is your truth? Let us make it simpler- you played as a child you are taught to play nice, be friendly, share, don’t fight, and be kind to others (for the most part) then go through school, experiencing mean teachers, nice teacher’s, mean people, nice people, acceptance, rejection,  both acceptable behavior, unacceptable behavior, taught things, show things, observed things; at which point where was there thinking and processing, you went from one subject to the next, without processing the knowledge. Some are faster, some slower, and neither is right or wrong, but you felt that you needed to be more, that somehow it was wrong. Was this an opinion of others or yourself? To then move on to middle school, out of your comforts, of what you knew to more, experiencing moving from room to room, again taking in information, without processing it, to yet another room with more information. This goes on day after day, to High school, college, into life and here we are.

As well as your parent’s intentions, they had an expectation for you or not, their dreams for you. You either lived their dreams or your own. Why some dreams were not even allowed, because they were foolish ideas, or you are told there is no money in them, or that reflects badly on the family values or follow the family lineage. Color in the line, follow the rules, stay in line, and do you hear the verbiage. You can only be that if I follow what I have done. Hello, each child will become an adult. Parents think that because they have offspring that they have ownership or property of the being. You are a teacher and a student, at the same time.

True Love is not conditional. It is not property over another, it is not about wealth, status, or anything that is taught, that you think it is. So, what is Love? Everything. God, source, all that is, created everything to experience itself. *Prediction- that pop in future schools will be 10-15 students in a semi-circle, and the teacher leaves, not the student.

Like/or similar to Neo in the matrix – the information is all around you, and within you. You have to discard what you know and expand your mind at what are the possibilities. To question what is truth, what is reality, what is possible, what is the quantum field, whether are we in a living dream or simulation, and whether am I connected to everything and everyone. This cannot be done for you; you must do the questioning. We leave you with this today.