10/06/25 Edit: I sensing that someone read this is scared. I would question why you would be scared. I for one, have spend years integrating all of this and more, have learned that more I know, the less I really know. I have always felt like I was in the wrong family, and known that this was was not my birth home, or planet. And when 5-10 years old and can not understand why you feel this way and no one to ask about it, your left to ask only yourself. When you see a show or see something on TV and you connect to it in way that you can't explain and you have this knowing, to it in someway. You question and wonder. I have wandered down some rabbit holes. But at the end of day, does it matter. You have to know your own truth, not what I say or anyone else, for the matter.
Anyone on this journey for more than 10 yrs, more like 20-30 yrs will have had these experience and be more knowledgeable. As for people less than that, discern and do due diligence. Do your own research and investigating, there are fake people in the real world and the spiritual. I got Barbara Lamb and forgot to write it down, is known for her research, as well books about the Hybrids.
I have always heard the guides since I was a child, and never thought it was strange. It was more strange to me that other people did not. Oh, the Guides said to me First contact, and I was like, What? So the following is a list of things of over 55 years of things that I carried with me, and they happen more or less during the daytime, meditation, or sleeping. Why do I keep writing about them, as a record for my sanity, and that I know that there is not a single book out there, except for maybe Edgar Cayce, who was known as the sleeping prophet, that documents daily these things. There may be other people, I don't know any other person, and of course, the system in place will tell you it is an illness, or with the world trolls, who have nothing better to do with their lives. I also tend to forget what I did write or not.
Saw a huge round ship with red lights and was with someone, they blew it off as if it was not there. (2012)
I walked into work at 6 AM in the morning, saw what you only described as people with animals heads, like something out of the show Grim and not scary, and questioned can they could see me if I can see them. This lasted for 20-25 mins. I was told by someone that it sounded like I walked into another dimension. ??? (2018-2019)
Went to a hypnosis/ regression, if you would call that, because I am not sure if me or the person, but I could not relax and settle into complete relaxation. I saw a head of gray being, as if he were looking into the session, all the while not in hypnosis. While I was there for several hours, when the recording is less than 40 minutes long, I am like, I was there for several hours . To this day, does not make sense to me. (2023)
I was home writing a paper for a college class that I was attending, and I heard, during the day, a loud crash, as if something had hit the ground. I did hear fire trucks or alarms or anything that would say it was a car accident. I felt and heard a long cigar-shaped ship pass over my complex, too. All of which is during the daytime. (2016-2017)
I went to the nearby school and I saw a silver round object and a helicopter to the right of it. It was not a weather balloon, as they would like us to think. This object was too large for that.
I went to a job for training, as I was speaking to the person, they morphed into a head like a stick figure and a long sucking tube. As if taking energy and the person was only a host for it. (2022) This is not the first time someone morphed or overlaid of it; it was an Angelic being prior.
I had a repeating dream of a white room with screens or monitors and what would be a dental-type chair. I think it is a ship. Off-on for years. I have attempted hypnosis several times at this point, with no real success to confirm or deny, being that life either in trauma or spiritual stuff comes through.
I did not see this, but my sister, as a child, would repeatedly wake up during the night and say they were taking my blankets from me, and this happened multiple times. I would wake up and tell her to go back to sleep. I don't see anything. Whether it was happening to me or not. I have studied hypnosis and attended events trying to see if, in fact, I was involved in it agreement of soul with beings. I have yet to confirm that I had experiences that I have yet to recall.
I had a dream about a boy who looked like my son, but was not my son in real life.
The two blue children - I was writing or reading, and I looked up at the window, they were a boy and a girl children, they seemed smarter than the children on earth. I questioned what I was seeing, and it was long enough to question, as to whether I am really seeing this, and in a blink, they're gone. I even got up and looked for a measuring tape to see the height of where they were, because I was sitting not 4ft from them, and they were on the outside of the window during the day, looking into the window. I did come across a book with what I would say are the images of these beings. Then it got me thinking about the old Disney movie Witch Mountain.
I have woken up to hear rest now.
I have heard soften, soften repeatedly. Which is to soften my heart.
I have had a pink blanket placed on me while napping.
Seen multiple orbs of various colors multiple times inside my apartment. I have seen Beings walking through the room like shadows, or actually see them as physical beings.
I have a conversation with a being or person that I can only explain as a giant in stature during sleep. (2025)
I was having a really rough go at why I had the life I had, and matters with my children and demanding that whatever soul contract that I made that I be released from it, and during a nap or meditation, I encountered myself in a room, a cave with three very human-looking beings speaking to me. Like a picture frame and what seems like a cave, talking to me and telling me something.
I have been shown both a female and a male being that were around me.
I have seen a crystal city. It lights up like a prism shining as the sun goes through it.
I have been on space spaceship that had different levels and creatures, and was told to keep the unfriendly creatures down there, and had to tell a creature that was not human that it had to stop touching me because of it curiosity, and we humans like are personal space and boundaries. (2025)
I have been in an underground space/base that I don't know if they/he saw me or I was remote viewing it, and that had an elevator, an atypical man in black, and smoking a cigarette, and different block off areas.
I think I have been on another planet that had some type of mass destruction, and people or beings were living in the rumble of rocks or building debris. I was not the only person that I saw, as there were five, maybe in total, carrying guns, an ATV, and walking. And beings, that looked really white and pale or gray. And not human in the sense that they looked human, more humanoid. Like they have been living in the darkness or limited light for a long period of time. They could have been human like us, once. As they look human.
I have various beings around me and can not see them, but sense them. Sense and see them before waking up. (ie, you know when someone looks at you, you feel them, or your eyes are closed and you know that child, pet, or if your 3rd eye is open, you see them.
I was at a local tourist area and saw two males who I knew were not completely human by their presence. I have even gone to a local store, and there is a male there that I know is both human and another species. And have questioned, does he know or I know, that as I am looking at him, finding it odd to look at him without seeing a different self or being!
I have been on an elevator within the last 7+ years and know that I was on there with two Angelic beings in human form.
I have met people who feel slimy or buggy to make my skin crawl.
I have gone into choking spells when I am around someone with an attachment ( I think), yet I can not clearly see it or nor do I know what to do with it to remove it.
I have been kicked off someone's website because I sent an email asking about a podcast that they are doing with a woman and saw a large white snake around her neck, and of course, I don't tend to look at people's pictures anymore because I may see something others don't see, and I'm not sure what my face is expressing.
I once was looking and talking to an older gentleman, and as I was talking with him, about idle chat, I literally felt myself enter into his eye, sounds crazy, when I jerked back, which I am not sure if he was aware of it, because to me it felt a pull of sorts and snapped out of it and the conversation.
I have gone to the theater and could not tell anything about it because I have no idea what happened during the show. I only remember sitting down and the ending, and my then partner asked me what I thought, and I could not really tell him anything because I felt I was not even in my body and could not even have a conversation about the show. Years later, I watched a video about the play to try and remember anything about it, and to this day, it is still blank.
I have had my son say to me, Mom, you have watched this before and I have no memory of it.
I used to watch Supernatural and had to stop because I couldn't prove it, shit was coming through the program.
I have had twice a being floating above me while sleeping, and turn on my side and call on Jesus or God himself, and it disappeared.
I had a being walk through me and was told that most people do not survive it. I have looked for information to explain it and to confirm it, and to date, I have not verified what happened to me or verify what I was told.
I woke up from sleep after attending an event and not sleeping for 24 hrs straight to feel like I was not in my body but backwards, and I could see rainbow colors around things. It happened for one day and has not happened since that day.
I have seen orange light around someone's hands and even felt my own hands channeling some type of light, energy, or I was not understanding why it happening at the times that it was and because I think I was inundated myself with so many books that my mind has not caught up or it the events of things that have happened in the real world. That I was experiencing one thing, and on the other side, my world is experiencing extremes of what the frick is happening. To only figure out how to walk between and not feel like I'm straddling realities or losing my sanity.
I have seen tall beings in my room when I was fighting to get custody back, and there were at least three of them, and they had to be over 10ft easily. (2013-2014)
I have been at my desk that I now sit at, and felt what would be like wings that surround me, and I believe I had this event, because I said I don't know what the energy of AA Michael! I do now. People ask how do you know, I am not sure, because as there are fake people in are world, there are fake ones in the spirit world. It takes practice to feel the difference. Only you can tell the differences, because I have messages from being and they sound off, so I don’t post them, or I question them.
I went to an event for 3 days of hypnosis, and I have no idea what happened there, but I barely slept and constantly had to go outside and ground myself, even considered sleeping outside one night because I felt like just spinning and spinning. To one point, one of the facilitators got extremely upset with me, and I tried to explain what was happening, but he snubbed me altogether. In fact, I told him he would write 3-4 books; he was working on his 3rd at the time that I stated this, and he asked how I knew, and I told him that I have been like this my whole life, and that he questioned it, even with him doing hypnosis as a profession. He questioned me on how I could know things. This is not my first encounter with someone dismissing me or what I do. If I could explain how to do say a-z, I would, but I can only write it, the best that I can, in the hope that someone can relate. (2023)
Then have to attempt to explain it when I don't clearly understand myself, and even recently I sped at hyper speed back into body one night and just watched things fly by me, whether they were people or things, or colors. I have no idea, other than the speed at which I was moving.
Building - So I used to have this dream many times of going to this building or house, a Mansion, it was rather large, and in it there were all these hallways, and it was dark and gray and not much light, and there were all these children there. I asked someone, and they never told me what it was. I think it was the lost souls of children, children who fragmented due to trauma. I am not 100% sure and have found nothing to support it. I also don't know if I was taken there for my own inner child soul or something else.
Falling off a cliff - I had a dream that I was driving with someone I knew, and we drove off the cliff, and where falling, and I again called out to God to save me. My take on it was that the person I was friends with was not supposed to come with me, and I had to let them go.
I have a dream that someone and I would go to this woman, there would be a house, a tree, and maybe cutting wood; every time we went there, she would be reliving the day. Like Groundhog Day. I think we were there trying to get her to cross over based on the house was not of the current time and seemed much older in time.
Dreamtime and seeing white dragons in the sky and knowing that they were returning to earth. (2025)
Along with the Blue children, I had an experience either before or after, where I full image of a deer in like in Harry Potter, appear before me, this again is in a waking state and during the day. Was it my own father in spirit, like Harry Potter, was it a spirit Animal or Guide! Questions.
I was also meditating, and what would be a tribal Mayan man crossed in front of me, feathers and all, fully dressed in the entire, as such would be. I have had various images, a metal Spanish plume hat, and a hawk gauntlet glove for Falconry. Are these past lives (which are real, currently living, running simultaneously)? I just note them in my books.
I have two portals appear, once it was a black square, and it was as I was waking up, and another orange one that appeared in front of a class that I sat in for college philosophy. (10 yrs apart)
This same class, different day, a man appeared and seemed to split in two directions. I then encountered someone who told me about a friend's son, and I explained what I saw, and she stated that the parents want him to do something, and he wanted to go in a different direction. So he was being pulled in two different ways.
As a note that whatever personality the deceased had here, lover, cheater, funny, jerk - they come through with those characteristics. I had a spirit show me exactly how much of a Ladies' man he was, and there was no boundary with him.
Animals - So I have encountered animals that have been abused by humans, first a dog, and then other was I went to a farm for retired race horses. I could not touch the animals due that I would not have stopped crying, and the pain that they endured from the abuse that they encountered from their owners. My son was like Mom, pet them, I could not explain or bring myself or even if I forced myself. I don't think I could handle the level of trauma they experienced at the hands of people.
The last time that I experienced that level of pain in the body was my brother's car accident, and he was placed in a medical coma. Just being there sent me into non-stop crying. (my search bar- brother’s accident)
I lived in a building that was once a mansion. I would experience half body, why is a good question. I would see the top half of the body or the body with no head and just legs down. I believe at some point it may have a facility for bedridden people, because apartment doors open out rather than in.
I think I worked in a house/building that was either a funeral parlor or connected to body disposal.
I once had an entire building appear that had not been there before, and not the day after. You want to talk fringe shit. Windows appear on the building and then suddenly disappear. What entire wall morphs like a portal in front of you? Trippy is not even close.
I have had two round spots of hair missing from my skull. I was told by the doctor that stress causes it. The thing is that I had no hair found on my bedding or anywhere else. You tend to know or find the hair, considering you comb or brush your hair every day. I then had to shots to have the hair regrow in those spots, both were on the same side of the head. I am not saying that something nefarious happened, but one has to wonder what DNA is actually in the hair shaft itself.
Google states that illnesses, like autoimmune disease, and a few others. I have never been given a diagnosis of this illness, which is really your body attacking itself, or you attacking yourself. Then again, I have only seen the doctor two times in the last 15 years, once for a cut that needed stitches and a very weird check-up, and the doctor pushed every known test on me. When I asked why, and constantly prognosis of the what-ifs, she became irate with me that I would question her ability. Never given any reason to justify the cause for the assistance of these tests. This is where medicine has become big pharma, in farming illness vs. right health, and a balanced life. And if there is illness, it is there to teach a lesson, self-love possibly. It's kind of funny as I look at the words now, karma, dharma, pharma.. Pharma was plants, karma is the actions, dharma - one's duty and the righteous path in life.
The attacking self could be a Critical parent, a neglectful or abusive parent, left to figure out by yourself, and when an answer was needed, let's say school, you did know, or forgot, creating an I am not good enough from any of these things, by people who either are supposed to love or guide you (teachers), because we live in world of instant gratification and memorization, instead for true critical thinking, integration and for possible informed inquiry. (This can be subconscious, because told to listen to everyone else, instead are self self-first). Add in other beings, and that whole different line of questioning. Note edit: this is my view only and I am not a Dr. or Psychologist, counselor, tried that root and deterred by very arrogance, view of it.
This type of inquiry also does not allow for a query with regard to the family unit. As to what is happening behind the scenes, home life, stability, and security are. We tend to think of the terms home life and changes: death, birth, illness, divorce, accidents, at a later stage in life, as causes, when it is not, and never the truth. Life begins in the womb and continues until we leave this world, and again, not allow for the generational dynamics and generational trauma of what are parents experienced and grandparents, that were never discussed and processed, and healed.
Many of the above are mentioned in the blog somewhere, I think. I write these because I don’t compare notes with people. I find some people get upset, or their ego is, without a doubt, in the way. I don’t claim to be an expert or even a teacher. I write what I experience, when you have no one to ask, and books, really, don’t go into details, and being left to figure it out is just as frustrating, from one person who still gets things like What is this for? I get a lot of random things, and no, I don’t follow them all.
I questioned intuitive information all the time, because one should. If I write something and I hear it, so the question becomes, am I seeing/hearing it before, or am I manifesting it, which is it really for the posts or verification for myself? To question Why aren't things happening, as in manifesting for me? True learning of anything is always being the student; there is never a fixed answer or question, or just being present and observing.
Edit Note: Again there is no chosen one, every person has chosen to be on Earth now. Yes, some are teachers'. Everyone has the abilities to do this and more, just has Jesus, taught. I am not any different then anyone else's writing, experiencing, channeling or do healing, or speaking about these things. As for world chaos, I was told more then once, that regardless of what media creates as fear this planet will never be destroyed. Whether you want to believe in ET's or Aliens or whatever, they will stop the destruction and disarm. They are not here save us, we are here to save ourselves from destroying ourselves and planet.
And my experiences started long time before I even started meditation. It could be because my soul chose it. I really don't know, at this point. Meditation or even guided meditation helps - because we senses beings, meaning are senses are overloaded, Data, noise, traffic, could smells, media, ends chatter, lists of goals, doing, etc.
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