Painful situations, trauma, and Experiences: 4/8/16

Painful situations, traumatic, and Experiences: 4-8-16

How as child we block out painful situations, trauma, and experiences! We see events that occur in our lives and the reminders that we are not good enough by events that happens way before he were able to even process what was happening to us. Let say that as a child you had a learning difficult which was deemed by your teachers and then confronted by your parents that you were incapable of learning something that they were teaching. We have all been there at some point, it could Math, English, science, reading, etc.

          Fundamental you really only to need to learn math, your chosen language, writing and reading, everything else is an expansion of these basic concepts. But what if your visual learner or physical learner or processor in concepts of e idea’s, of any individual subject. 

Our learner style is as different, as the people on the planet. In every culture learning is a different experience. What if your only introduction to education was at home and there was no learning. Now days we see that the earlier, that we introduce things to children the better they are at continuing a living a life of learning with idea’s and imagination. 

We continue to force our child into school that don’t allow for the “why’s are we learning this” and what does it really mean. We have what’s called Spiral math, which is apparently supposed to repeat itself until it’s understood. What happen to learning math until, it was master on some level! Or understanding that English is spoken different in the United Kingdom or even China, are we really studying the American English and why does it change every 100 years or less,to reflect the evolution of people.  

Why do we keep teaching our children that in order to know something we need preschool, elementary, Middle school, High school and then college degrees, or multiple degrees, before we know something! Our children, we as children, came in knowing on some level what we would be doing in our life time, it may be block or forgotten or you’re doing it already. I have found that people don’t faced things that they have difficulty with and don’t challenges their own thoughts in regards to things that come up for them. Now I have blocks, at times regarding writing on demand or writing about a subject that I have had no prior knowledge about and I, myself can’t BS my way through it, even if I attempted too. 

See my blocks come from events, that I encounter from when I child. I remember hearing my teacher tell me mother that I could not learn or that I refused to do the work in class. I remember being punished by my teacher and had to sit in the front of the class were there I really could not possibly learned. Because I then facing the board, which looked like a blur when you look directly at the television with your face to the screen. What my teacher did not realize is that something had happen to me and then as my parents should have realized was that I was not the same person. See I was traumatized for about a year, until my little mind decided to block out memories that did not know how to process. One would think that the peoples who knew best would question what happen to me or get me help.

Instead, I was punished at school and then punished at home for being defiant and then I punished myself because I could tell anyone that my life was threatened and my parents’ life too. All because some man exposed himself to me and then threaten to kill my family and myself. I have had many flash back to that day, many times over the years. Because I did not believe myself, because I was always saying things and questions thing, I was told I was making thing up. That I did know anything, because “Children were seen and not heard” motto existed. Which is out dated program that still exist on some level even today.

          If you think about the ways that schools are run today, how many of our children love learning in school or they there because that what we do. Are, our school district expanding our children minds or our they left to sit, put in their time and never really learning to think about life, their place in it or how to make a better world for everyone. 

Have we all become so brain washed that No other person matter other than our pockets and families. Why is it 40 some years later, we reflect back on our life to see that we done so much or so little in our thinking, that we pass the same information to the next generation, generations after that. Why are we demanding so much from our children to processing so information that we ourselves do not question why we do what we do! That ok, it was pass to you from people who mentored you and now were re-cycling the same old thinking.  

Unless some event, experience or trauma posed it to you, made you look within and what hell was happening around you or too you. And suddenly you either look for the answers or just stay in the same mind set, re-creating the same old thinking. How many times were you told NO, or you can’t or you don’t know anything, of you don’t have enough education, or that you are not good enough, why would want to do that or money is big one too, bla, blab, bla. 

See as parents we are the first teacher for our children then grandparents, family, teachers, neighbor’s and then life. If we’re not going question the things that happen around us why should we expect our children to do any differently, why would we expect a single government, or anyone person to question their life and how we lead as example. We are not trying to reinvent the wheel or send rockets to the moon, that already been done. 

It about getting real with ourselves and healing to bring about a world for all people. If you want your power back then take it back. The people who mentor you to get you this far in your life, have done their job. If you want Solidarity, 

(define - union or fellowship arising from common responsibilities and interests, as between members of a group or between classes, peoples, etc.:

To promote solidarity among union members.

2. Community of feelings, purposes, etc.

3. Community of responsibilities and interests.

Than find it, it’s Within you and has always been there.

The Voice Within : Emotional or Memory trigger 4/4/16, update 01-16-2021

Emotional or Memory trigger 4-4-16

 

One time or another we have felt like we were punished by an unruly god, our beliefs about our god were questioned to no end, wondering why this happen or what did we do to deserve any situation that had us question god for answers. If may have been illness, or death or traumatic events that questioned that deeper part of ourselves. We all come here remembering that we lived in harmony prior to existing this time around. But as we soon learned it’s not all that it’s cracked up to be. We expected a life full of love of cherished moments with family, friends and stranger that united us all. Maybe you were fortune in that you lived a life unscathed of events that changed your life. 

 

Maybe you found grace when none was to be found. We lived in a world that demands are time, patients and the numerous challenges set before us; whereas our very soul needs to learn to forgive the people who tied us in knots.

Our emotions to these events leave scars far beyond the surface of outer appearance. Try as we might these wounds, even if buried within us, we need to love and give attention to them.  Knowing that these things were experienced by us and that we agreed to journey; even as it weights on our shoulders and continues to live within. We can release the emotional pain; we need to understand that we must first forgive ourselves for the pain that lingers in soul. 

 

These events never leave us, they are imprinted on our very soul. We helped to create many of the situations that cross our path and some we come in with to experience. I read many times that the strongest soul come in, to carry the burden of many. We believe in the good and hope that it always returned, and we cast shadows at things that we deed bad. But if we learned to understanding that we all have walked the path of good, bad, evil or indifferent, would we be better off. I really don’t know. 

 

What I do know is that if you don’t learn to heal those wounds within you/us this world will continue as it is now. If we use history as example – there is nothing new, whether it been 50, 100 or 1000 years the same struggles go on. The issues surrounding our planet have forced us into overdrive by people’s minds and we can’t expect change until we agreed with ourselves that we hate, we expect war, expect to be control, or we expect anything to happen to us. 

 

Every day we are giving moments to change a course of action within us, but admitting it’s very difficult with other people, when they think they solely exist for themselves. The word nirvana, utopia, peace or harmony are very powerful words that create what we all achieved to have in our life, but as soon as someone or something happens to us, we see if indifferent. 

 

What if I were to tell you nothing is ever done to you, you experience something, anything and because we taught to encounter that from the smallest part of our brain, we continue to expect that same response as its “Ground Hog Day” the movie, until we learn to move beyond our own limiting beliefs, it’s going to continue. Now, many may say that what about rape, war, murder, drugs, abuse, mental illness, poverty, etc.. These are symptoms of a bigger problem. They are all about you, if you believe that they are deemed as bad, then they will be seen as bad. But have you never questioned why they occurred? They happen because they also experience that same events and it just keeps repeating, because as a society we don’t want to face that there are people who need help to break these cycles. Babies, child and people don’t wish for bad stuff, it happens to them, too. 

 

See we honor that the bad because we have be taught over and over again that we powerless to even change ourselves. That if we turn a blind eye it does not exist and that we should all be punished because we deemed ourselves bad. We all make mistakes and we punish to no end, but who are we really punishing. We were giving a life, not to worry at how much money one could possibly make before we die, to live like their no other person on the planet. We were giving life, breath, a mind, heart and soul. I certain don’t want to live a life that I did attempt to do all that I could for my own piece of mind or another who may need assistance. I think that if you ask anyone that you may care about “did they give up something”, so you could become who you are, what would they say? We choose who we love but we can also choose to hate, be anger or at another, wish people off the planet, because others have forgot their way. If we are a model, who’s setting the example. 

 

 All beliefs are learned and what do you believe that holds you to believing that people are not equal in the eyes of your god or their god. We been taught to look outside of ourselves for the answers instead looking within. Forgiveness is a precarious word for humans, they tend to think it, as weakness of themselves and others. What if forgiveness is right there with love! When we forgive, we honor the truth of ourselves, it’s not about forgetting. It is releasing yourself from the pain, hurt or the unkindness that was experienced by you. You can’t change people; they have to want to change themselves. And true healing happens when we release ourselves from that person, situation or from the people who rather you play in their reality of drama. 

 

So the next time your trigger by a person, or event try to figure out what is causing the emotions, it because it’s happen before or that you can believe that they could do something like that, you might find that you once did it too. Or you might say, I could never do that. That fact is that in the face of situation you could and may have even done the same, even if you don’t remember doing it. Your soul knows and it’s never wrong. Otherwise you would be here now.

 

The Voice Within : Children and your love ones that have crossed over...

The Voice Within : Children and your love ones that have crossed over...: Children and your love ones that have crossed over 4/4/16 My son was about 2 years old at the time.   I don’t know what spark ...

Children and your love ones that have crossed over 4/4/16

Children and your love ones that have crossed over 4-4-16

My son was about 2 years old at the time.  I don’t know what spark him to begin speaking about my father. All I know it that verbatim he when into great detail explaining how my father pass away. See children our funny that way, if you tell them be, they will tell you things beyond their age. It just happen to be that this day was no difference than any other day. It was the weekend and I cleaning up and I think he may have asked about my Dad. I explained that he was in heaven. Now my son begin to explain to me what my father was doing before he pass, going into detail explaining that he was cutting timber off a tree prior to the day he taking ill. My son that explained that he collapse in the bathroom the next day and taken to hospital for internal bleeding. Now I was in shocking listening to my son who was two or three, explain the time leading up to the pass of my father. 

My son continued in that my mother and I were at the hospital up to the point of his passing and in so most that I told the doctor that my father did not want to be on machine to be kept alive. When my son explained all of this to me, I just listened and I don’t believe I emotionally responded. I just agreed and he went on playing. Not long after I took my son to see my Mom, when I asked him to explain to my Mom would he had told me. And just like he had told me, he repeated down to the exact words, he had said to me. Now both my mother and looked at each other and explained that I have never told him the story and anything in regards to my father passing.

 The thing was my son was right on all accounts and even details. It was like my son was talking to him directly and he was right there in the room both times. See my son was born 5 years after my Dad had passed and nothing could have prepared me for this conversation, other than I was open to listening to him speak. See children have an uncanny ability to still see our love ones. I don’t remember if the day had any important but it is still a memory that I hold dear to me, because it just goes to show that they are ever near and watching over us, even when doing the dishes. So the next time one of children or grandchildren say something far beyond their years, allow them to be and be open to what they say it might just surprise you, just like it did for me that day.   

Emotional or Memory trigger 4/4/16

Emotional or Memory trigger 4-4-16

One time or another we have felt like we were punished by an unruly god, our beliefs about our god were questioned to no end, wondering why this happen or what did we do to deserve any situation that had us question god for answers. If may have been illness, or death or traumatic events that questioned that deeper part of ourselves. We all come here remembering that we lived in harmony prior to existing this time around. But, as we soon learned it’s not all that it’s crack up to be. We expected a life full of love of cherished moments with family, friends and stranger that united us all. Maybe you were fortune in that you lived a life unscathed of events that changed your life. 

Maybe you found grace when none was to found. We lived in a world that demands are time, patients and the numerous challenges set before us; where as our very soul needs to learn to forgive the people who tied us in knots.

Our emotions to these events leave scars far beyond the surface of outer appearance. Try as we might these wounds, even if buried within us, we need to love and give attention to them.  Knowing that these things were experienced by us and that we agreed to journey; even as it weight’s on our shoulders and continues to live within. We can release the emotional pain, we need to understand that we must first forgive ourselves for the pain that lingers in soul. 

These events never leave us, they are imprinted on our very soul. We helped to create many of the situations that cross our path and some we come in with to experience. I read many times that the strongest soul come in, to carry the burden of many. We believe in the good and hope that it always returned and we cast shadows at things that we deed bad. But if we learned to understanding that we all have walked the path of good, bad, evil or indifferent, would we be better off. I really don’t know. 

What I do know is that if you don’t learn to heal those wounds within you/us this world will continue as it is now. If we use history as example – there is nothing knew, whether it been 50, 100 or 1000 years the same struggles go on. The issues surrounding our planet have forced us into over drive by people’s minds and we can’t expect change until we agreed with ourselves that we hate, we expect war, expect to be control, or we expect anything to happen to us. 

Every day we are giving moments to change a course of action within us, but admitting it’s very difficult with other people, when they think they solely exist for themselves. The word nirvana, utopia, peace or harmony are very powerful words that create what we all achieved to have in our life, but as soon as someone or something happens to us, we see if indifferent. 

What if I were to tell you nothing is ever done to you, you experience something, anything and because we taught to encounter that from the smallest part of our brain, we continue to expect that same response as its “Ground Hog Day” the movie, until we learn to move beyond our own limiting beliefs, it’s going to continue. Now, many may say that what about rape, war, murder, drugs, abuse, mental illness, poverty, etc.. These are symptoms’ of a bigger problem. They are all about you, if you believe that they are deemed as bad, then they will be seen as bad. But have you never questioned why they occurred. They happen because they also experience that same events and it just keeps repeating, because as a society we don’t want to face that there are people who need help to break these cycles. Babies, child and people don’t wish for bad stuff, it happen to them, too. 

See we honor that the bad because we have be taught over and over again that we powerless to even change ourselves. That if we turn a blind eye it does not exist and that we should all be punished because we deemed ourselves bad. We all make mistakes and we punish to no end, but who are we really punishing. We were giving a life, not to worry at how much money one could possible make before we die, to live like their no other person on the planet. We were giving life, breath, a mind, heart and soul. I certain don’t want to live a life that I did attempt to do all that I could for my own piece of mind or another who may need assistance. I think that if you ask anyone that you may care about “did they give up something”, so you could become who you are, what would they say? We choose who we love but we can also choose to hate, be anger or at another, wish people off the planet, because others have forgot their way. If we are a model, who’s setting the example. 

 All beliefs are learned and what do you believe that holds you believing that people are not equal in the eyes of your god or their god. We been taught to look outside of ourselves for the answers instead looking within. Forgiveness is a precarious word for humans, they tend to think it, as weakness of themselves and others. What if forgiveness is right there with love! When we forgive we honor the truth of ourselves, it’s not about forgetting. It is releasing yourself from the pain, hurt or the unkindness that was experienced by you. You can’t change people, they have to want to change themselves. And true healing happens when we release ourselves from that person, situation or from the people who rather you play in their reality of drama. 

So the next time your trigger by a person, or event try to figure out what is causing the emotions, it because it’s happen before or that you can believe that they could do something like that, you might find that you once did it too. Or you might say, I could never do that. That fact is that in the face of situation you could and may have even done the same, even if you don’t remember doing it. Your soul knows and it’s never wrong. Otherwise you would be here now.

4/01/16 a Message for: Me chelle, Michelle, Chelle

4/01/16 a Message for: Me chelle, Michelle, Chelle

Recv’d at 9Am  today:

 Message normally have significant to the date, holiday, upcoming event or healing that needs to occur for the intended person or people involved. When I get a message I experience the emotions of the message of the person:

Profound sadness and vulnerable. It’s like my heart is aching for a major loss (lost) of self.

My life became an utter mess and I got lost in drama of what was happening to me. My family fell a part, my life went into a shams. I didn’t know where to pick up the pieces. I pushed people away and I pushed myself away from feeling the love that was around me.

 I didn’t mean to cause so much pain for everyone else.  I just could not see through the darkness of my own creation. If, I could take it (out) all back I would, but that’s not possible now. Just know that I loved you with all my heart and really never expected this to happen. It is with the greatest love that I leave you now, I will always love you and be by your side –in all matters of the heart.

Love/ lovely  me.