06-18-23 Rage -Shadow work

  So this morning, I had an incident that enraged me, and because the guides are always trying to get me to speak and share my story. I think writing is a form of speaking, if not publicly speaking or in front of a group of people it is a form of expression and expressing one's thoughts. In a world that is quite frankly trying to silence us, instead, of actually listening to different points of view. So here goes, I try to explain as I go.

I woke up and as I was putting eye drops in my eyes for itchy eyes from an allergy. My neighbor's child went into full-on meltdown mode. He has autism and does not communicate the same as most. An Aware parent using their intuition and functioning from a balanced emotions would have known that this child what this child was experiencing. Since we are not taught to use intuition and our natural ability to sense things like energy(actually you are and don't realize it). This child flipped out and I felt it and preceded to react to meltdown mode or what is more discharge of energy of what smaller annoyances of being angry and release them. Along with not being taught about having clear boundaries. The following is my breakdown of looking at why I reacted to it. Other than being an empath and empathic. Can I be sure what I picking up - not really, but I am pretty dam close to what this child was experiencing and sensing what was happening.

If I lose you - I am sorry. I pull information from what I know and experience. At the time I was asking the guides how I am supposed to help women! 

I wrote what I felt at the time: control, frustration, anger, rage, fricken losing it, oblivious neglectful parent.

Whether this is mine or both this child's: What he needed was to feel safe, comforted, pay attention, listen to (not always about speaking) overwhelmed, and trying to express his feeling and emotions.

So I had to look at where is my life this has happened to me. I.e. my parents primarily. Since our own beliefs precede us by generations before us and the power and influence that it has on us and stuff that was engrained by conditioning by family, friends, and society. If we dig deep into ourselves to how we are imprinted with these beliefs and systems of beliefs and culturally. 

What is a child meltdown or adult meltdown- overwhelmed by something, or being empathic to energy. By questioning the overwhelmed by what exactly is triggering it? Anger, frustration, being controlled. Children are in generally walking sponges, and so are uneducated empaths or being empathic - which most of us our. (see article on types empaths in search bar) or maybe I will just repost it. Anywho! Children and adults of any perceived disabilities - Which I don't necessarily see as a shortcoming or a defect as doctors, the mental health industry, or any education system makes claims to. We are indoctrinated in that there is one shoe for all people. We look pretty funny walking about will one shoe. We need humor because the world is crazy, or a beautiful mess for change.  

This flipping out banging and stomping on the floor - why does any child do that? Attention or Anger! Now I could be wrong but I am sure I am not. Like most of us, our parents were not emotionally balanced. They were not warm and fuzzy or much less loving. They were not those parents projected at us on TV or at friend's house, or grandmom or grandpop. Now the banging and stomping - I have trauma around banging or slamming things. I learned that by banging or slamming things that was how anger was dealt with and that banging met threats of physical harm or even death for control over me. Physical harm or punishment has been engrained into us from childhood, school, and society, even allowed it. For example, your bad sit in the corner, go to your room, at school move your desk to the corner, go to the principal office, detention or what was the paddle at school, go stand in the hallway or the end of the line, etc.. extremes Jail, threats, torture, war's, I think you get the point. 

All these things provoke emotions - hide, it is not safe, I/we did something wrong, it is my fault, your the problem, I can't trust them or myself, control over, leave me alone, no one cares about me, no one listens to me, I need to take care me because no one else is going to do it. They don't care about me or my feelings, they don't love me. I am not good enough, I am not smart enough, I don't listen, why bother no one cares, I am bad, or a bad person, etc...

If you dig into it -really dig into it - your mother carried you - saying this baby is making me sick or is a pain in the body or is going to be something of a child, this child is defiant, does not like sleeping, or by doctor's, your child is not normal and has Challenges Autism, ADHD, ODD, not keeping up with other children, siblings, etc... Grandparents, oh they are not like so, so, or this doing this or that... remember the one shoe... We repeat what we learned instead of challenging it. And the ones that challenged the status quo - were the problem child or children, or problem kids. I was labeled that child. 

Here is a true story when I was in high school I had an Ah moment- when I realized that I pledging the allegiance - and realized that I was pledging to ONE nation under God. Talk about One world order and I questioned does God only see one nation. Mind you I was sent to the office many times for both detentions in school and out of school because I would not do the pledge of allegiance because it was not my belief that God did not see us as one nation over another. This is all the things taught to you and me. 

Now to emotionally unaware parents, because people are not taught to think or question, and to follow the status quo - i.e.- memorized these spelling words, these math principles, read this book, and write a book report - not what you learned from it. What is science - where does the food come from, why are trees important, why you are taught that sky is blue - when it changes colors, etc... Why algebra is more important than learning about how money works... Because our parents, and grandparents experienced what - wars, the great depression, financial crisis, threats of bombing, integration and migration, race discrimination, women suppression, social class, wealth or poverty, farming to wall street, that people in corporations or industries of now tech company are more important than the food that we eat or water, or the size of house or where your house is. Far left, right, that street, that person, that neighbor, that race, color, sex, etc.. ( I still work through these things) 

As children now adults we take on our parent's shit- Their temperament vs our own. If they lack skills with time management, control issues, their emotions and feelings, their financial knowledge, skills dealing with anything, cooking, money, learning things, adaptability, fears, happiness, joy or basic living condition, cleanliness, or hygiene to their habits and hobbies and whether they communicated and what the type feeling and emotional language was. (like types of Love language a book, too). To do we really know how to communicate for ourselves?

Here is an example now after my meltdown this morning and my frustration of wanting to move from where I live. I have had cup filled by the banging and then expecting my neighbor to be considerate when that is not even in their awareness and expected them to change when clearly it is my stuff and not them. I am responsible for myself and not them and why I expect them to change is a lack of knowledge on my part. Since I can only change myself first, hence why you put the air mask on first. (never flew but the analogy works) Now it is egoic? If I care for myself first, over another is only egoic, if it would be causing harm to another to benefit myself first. (that could be situational)

If you consider that you were told since you were a child or pre-birth that you are wrong or not enough or lacking in some way (that is egoic that we think we have power over another when that is control and not love) - which is far from the truth because God does not make mistakes, that is humans thinking, God/Goddess doesn't makes mistakes. That is taught in religion and by anyone or anything that states they know the truth. The fact is only questioning things to know and learning to tap back into your natural guidance system and seek truth or a better understanding of who you are is the only way. 

You don't push or drag the horse to water, you guide, and actually, that may be wrong because animals have a keen sense to find water because they are not worried about material stuff and what other animals are doing, unless there is danger. Animals are still connected to the planet, unlike us living in concrete jungles. A parent should guide, because even thou we know that our children will become adults and adults have children and children grow to be adults. Ineffectively, we fail to be the change and challenge the status quo because of what: lack of education, lack of thinking, lack of understanding, and lack of ourselves. Hence teach a person to Fish, but does not state go fend for yourself mentality, as a service to self like the elite, in the world. Change can only happen when one person changes their self.

So what does this have to do with Rage which is anger, angry, or Fear? As a child/children, we did not have the skills to know what was our parent's stuff or were taught that it was us, or we accepted as it is our truth, of who we were when our parents were disconnected from themselves. So, we suppressed ourselves and our truth, and our own abilities to stay connected to our self and God, source and guides, by not trusting what was natural to us, because we are taught that if you disagreed, challenged, or crossed - an adult figure you would be punished, threaten, ignored, not listen to, not loved, or love, be respected or cast out into what?? left for the street, for death. As an adult, this is done with work that you do... fired, loss of money to support yourself and your family, lose your home, lose your relationships, loss of respect, loss of your dignity (WORTH). Worthily of Love, God's love which is within you, not some text telling you you are going to go to some damnation. 

Oh, here is something else with the meltdown this morning, I left my apartment because I had to and I have heard some pretty horrific shits done to children, who are now adults and I just freak the f out, not because of people but my own experiences of this to them and myself. So I leave, go to the store, and get coffee and I am asked by someone who knows me, and out of politeness she asked me how am I. I just left what I was dealing with and out of restraint knowing that I was ready to blow and explode and I sucked it up and said I just need to move. 

When I really wanted to do throw that other shoe... and maybe this is leftover shit from toxic relationships and my parents, who by the way are the catalyst for me doing this work and wanting to heal myself of the sickness pervading our planet and knowing this as a child and indoctrinated into this same system, until I realized I was part of the problem, when my world collided, and how like above I have sucked it up from other people projected toxicity and mistreatment, which I am not proud of, that I was a part of it, knowing what I know and forced to fit into or try to fit into, to seek forgiveness for the people who did what did and find forgiveness for myself and just release it, in a healthy way. 

To learning, that I have to suck it up and put up it, with it as female, being told that girls don't act that way or I am too sensitive or I am overthinking it, or some other BS that I am somehow again wrong for feeling and having emotions about things. I have a motto if don't want my truth don't ask, and been fired from a job for this very reason, I even asked beforehand, are you sure you want me to sit in on this meeting because I am not going just sit there and say not something, because if it is just to make other people happy or comfortable, forget it. I will weigh my words carefully, but I am not denying something for you to have a leg up on an ego trip. That part of me went when people left me for homeless and took my child from me and forced me to choose to have a place to live over my other child. I had a funeral a few weeks back for her when spiritual stuff gets, way too much for me to handle. 

So that is how I do shadow work. With fewer words than written here, but more or less this is what it looks like. 

Books on the subject: Debbie Ford, Bryon Katie, there another woman who it is a more scientific view, but when I look into her it from the aspects that these different personalities of other people were still separate outside of you - when if God created all things than all people are you. Hence you are the creator, co-create, and a mirror reflection of yourself. See (mirror-mirror) on the blog in the search menu. 

6-12-23 Misinformation about psychic or intuitive, medium and channels

 To do this work most people come to it by being curious, having an experience, or inner calling. It is not exactly what you see on your Television, computer, or cell phone. Television is exactly that, it is made to entertain you. 

You do not be need to be a vegan, do yoga or even chant or have a discipline 

You do not need to have a degree or higher education 

You do not need to live in a cave or the woods, hut..etc (some tribes still do)

You do not need to pay people hundreds of dollars to train you, including tarot cards

You do need to shave half or even part of your hair off!

You do need not to tattoo's on your entire body with things that have a connection to this work (that is a personal choice)

Not all will do this work that study it.

Not all who study will go into business.

If your desire is not for the highest good and is to only have power over another, well say good luck.

You need to do some type of meditation to quiet the mind.

You need to work on yourself and do shadow work on yourself.

We all don't get the same information and yes we can be wrong. (because things change)

We don't get your darkest and deepest secrets unless guided to question something. (that would not be in public view) Yes, there "should" ethics and integrity.  

No the guides and your loved ones don't stand around staring at you or watching you, all day. 

No, we don't know everything about you or your life.

Not everyone has the highest good for the people they work with. 

Doing this work is about trusting the information and yourself.

People will not always believe you and will call you crazy. 

Not all believe this is a God gift

You do not need to be religious in any form. 

Not all use Tarot cards, crystals, or any paraphernalia for this work.

Drug paraphernalia is not needed or recommended, Alcohol is a choice and not necessarily needed for this work. 

We live in normal homes with normal things and don't believe all the crazy things you see in a movie or even on the boardwalk. 

It is not taboo to be curious about it. 

It is not dark magic or the work of evil spirits, etc.

There is no reward for doing this work, no fame, no glory, not even money, no favor to God, source, even going to heaven, etc.

Even calling yourself spiritual is not necessarily a pre-op for this work. Because you are a spiritual soul having a spiritual experience on earth.

This work pre-dates our know history of what we have been told. 

Yes, our governments have studied it and know about and use it. 

No, there is no right or wrong, or single person who holds all the answers, and anyone who tells you so, is not speaking the truth 

Can two psychics, intuitive, numerology, tarot readers or astrologers, healers, shamans, and shamanic, channels get very different answers, yes! Why? information is up to interpretation by the person or person hearing it, or feeling it. Discernment, discernment, discernment. 

You do not need to be female, male, any age, color under the rainbow, or sex to do this work. Religion, religious or political affiliation, married, single, or follow any type of associative order. 

I am hearing that is enough. 

06-12-23 Intuitive information

  Asian Loon painting - Fakes are being made. 

Smelling sewage? 

Name Virginia

I saw a camera with one of the long-distance lenses. 2x

Name: Maribela 

I have heard the word degregated, degradation - at least four times. I question that use of and am not sure and the guides keep saying the word too, me. As of yet have stated why? 

Stoic Philosophy

When the Canadian smoke from the fires was in my area - I saw the smoke but I smelled plastic not smoke. Any who has been around a campfire knows that smoke rises and as to why it was hazy from Canada to Virginia is a whole other question. Now I am not a weather expert or what the wind patterns were during the fires but why the air patterns were across and down seems oddly strange to me. Because the only time smoke travels downwards is when you forget to open the flute on a fireplace or have no clue about wind patterns which HS Science. 

During this time whether it was the weather - but the sun was deep orange color.  

I saw this word during sleep - I have no idea if spelled right or what the meaning is. Allpoe or allppo. When translated I get Al Capone. I don't think is connected, by the guides will give words that lead elsewhere. I feel like this is a saying and I am connecting the dots to it. 

I want to note that if I put a book or any information regarding some information, I don't have affiliation with these books, authors, or links. My sole/soul purpose is information only. As a single parent, I did not have thousands of dollars to pay other people when I needed to understand what happening to me. But I could find books at thrift stores, libraries, and purchase books at used book stores or online now with Amazon, which did not exist 20 years ago or most of the platforms that exist today. As for the people who did know left me high and dry, and maybe that was my lesson to seek on my own or I would have expected to be hand fed without doing the work for myself. 

So I when to Castle this past weekend and when I was there I had an encounter with a ghost. What are ghosts, spirits that for whatever choose to stay here instead of crossing over. This ghost tried to scare me and I told it (male) that you don't scare me. You only startled me at a small pond on the ground of this castle. I ask it - if had anything to say, but it disappeared - he apparently was more of an annoying spirit who just like to scare people. I did not see him only heard him and I don't deal with ghosts who are here to just scare people. 

Don't believe hype around Alien invasion - Our governments have been back-engineering UFO or Afo since maybe WW2 or the 50's and various pilots have been disclosing this for years and if want to control the people, create fear of the masses. They been around longer then what is disclosed. Do your research, because the Bible uses the Alien in too. Along with Famous art work and from cave writing to Egyptian hieroglyphs.  

added: book A stranger at the Pentagon _ pdf file -free

PS. I made a purchase at Mom & pop store and they were using a app SquareSpace, what I found strange is that I did not give out any personal information other then to use my bank card and somehow I received an email with my personal email for the receipt, which I got by paper at the store. Now the question remains how did they have access my personal email account that is linked to my bank account without my authorization - I hear lawsuit for privacy violation. Oh Woman, asked by turning machine around directly at me, as to how I wanted the receipt. 

06-07-23 Intuitive information/Channeling

 Evacuation? 

I was directed to Zeitgeist movie by Peter Joseph. I have watched this movie before and is quite an eye-opener. This brings to mind the creation of the IRS and Jeryl Island regarding the Federal Reserve creation. Why I was directed to these YT videos is a whole other question. Previously I would have to say that attention to them was for rabbit hole and questioning my fight for the right for custody of my son that was taken by a system without just cause. Now I can look at it as an elaborate scheme to create the destruction of the family unit and create Fear and separation, which both causes are the basis for control by various systems at play and over people. 

But as a Mother no matter what these systems create I will always be connected to my child. These systems want you to believe that you have no power and that you are at the whim of the controller to create fear in you or others. The fact is your divine being, playing in a bigger part in the grand scheme of things and there is no separation. That separation is a falsehood too. You not be separated from creation, because creation, god, source, nameless, knowing created you. Whether you spend time healing yourself or doing research does negate that you are connected to God, source and universal, and everything in its entirety. 

And once you question this fact that you are never separated, always connected and everyone was created from God, source, universal and it's entirely. Life is seen then seen with different eyes. You begin to question everything and find understanding as to why people do what they do and whether their choices were the cause or reaction to what defined them as a person. We tend to live in our own bubble never questioning what happen to people, the shoes they walked, or the things they endured or overcame to stand right where they are. We call ourselves educated by the degrees that we hold, by the reality we fail to see that every person is a divine being no matter what the situation may look like to you. 

We have agreed to a complex game with ourselves, to learn this lesson, after forgetting that we all came from God, source, etc. Yet do you walk -(channeled) around each day conscious of the fact that your family, friends, co-worker, that person at the store, or in your travels as they are divine beings? Most are walking around that is wrong, that right, that bad or good and they should go jail or what have you. You have learned to define what you see in the terms of what you learned and not think or question, the bigger picture of what you are observing. You have taken it upon yourself to view what you are seeing with spectacles that there is only black and white and could not possibly be a deeper story or vision of what it is that you are observing. Words are limited by your perception, in that you reside in a lopsided view of the larger picture. 

When one questions what is really going on here or who am I beyond this body, am I thinking body and mind or mind thinking as a body or is there more to this reality and existence, that I have yet to learn and do I have the ability to access information and can challenge what I have been told. If you take the smallest atom and magnify out it could be seen as any object. Just like a plant or cell, there is much more to it than just what is observable. Start observing your reality from your God lenses and that there must be separation to exist. Just like the plant or cell or any object that is observable, on closer examination, there is much more going on. We bid good day. 

Why do you believe your only person born of God? Where do think your Soul came from? 

Note: I had a new guide step forward in meditation and he's sharp on the tongue and blunt. 

06-06-23 Random intuitive information

  Catfish - Fake online profiles

I had a strange dream back on 5-23-23 whereas I road with tracks in them. There are electrical strips in the road and maybe it is in the future, that car charge by being on these strips, there was an indication that a normal car of the present day would have difficulty driving on these roads because were slightly raised above the ground. Sci-fi or the future of travel. 

Channeled Message

We wish to greet you:

Good day, all is well in the angelic realm, and present is known throughout the ages, (time is Illusion). The time has come to move forward and Up. To lighten the load, so to say. Much has been spoken about the earth's changes and changes with events. These brave times on your planet. Much has been traversed and there is more to come. Weathering the storm is not easy. Much needs to be unearthed as lies of deception continue to come to the forefront. Much has taken place to shift the energies like tides rolling in movement on the shores. This exists in all planes of existence. It is just not the planet that is affected by the changes. The entire universe is in a dance with what could be called a cosmic clockwork, working in tandem with the ever-shifting planets. All is well for great strides are being made by all who continue to shine their light. This is a great feat to live in truth of your being, much is perceived to be on course to gain momentum. We wish you good day for now. 

The use of Up in the above message is explaining that the vibration energy on the planet raising, to awaken more souls. 

Tick? no idea why I saw this. Image of 

• I told the following:
• Life is Paradox- life is a mystery - don't waste your time trying to figure it out.
• Humor - keep a sense of humor- it raises your vibration
• Change- life is change 
• Act don't react
• a Warrior acts -only fools react
• Keep the wonder -get curious and explore

You are immoral (so there is no reason to not feel safe)

Storytime: I have had people in the car get pissed off when someone cuts me off or pulls out in front of me. They would say why are not upset, (this is not all the time) but I say I rather they are in front of me, so I watch and be safe than from behind me, because that is when accidents happen. The moral of the story we don't know why they miss judged pulling out in front of us. We all have stuff that we're encountering in life, be glad that they did hit you and that you have the awareness of the fact that -shit happens.

Thinking and Observable: I want you to think about this for a moment (we have all done it) Did you ever fly off the handle at a child or anyone, do you realize that you just told that child or person, that you are wrong, as a person, your not worth my time, I don't care about you or you don't matter. You don't know what that impact of your blast did to that child or person. You sent a message that I don't love you, I don't care, don't respect you..etc. I going to tell you something that no one will ever tell you and that is when you pass from this life to the next, every emotion will be felt (by you) and the impact it had on that person/s. Now there are times when it is needed like when one crosses boundaries or imminent danger of something. If you want to save yourself some karma both good and bad. Take responsibility and apology and explain to that child why or the person, that you are stressed or worried or whatever the situation is. (Make it right) We live in a time where we just flip people off for no apparent reason and wonder why in the world there is madness in the world. We don't tend to think about why this is or the impact of our behavior. And yes there will be people who never connect the dots, as I have a responsibility, as a soul to be the problem or the answer. 

I am everything.

So, I asked the guides will AI expose deeper truths or will there be a second Dark web running. I have not gotten an answer, so far. 

Original Causation - Everything that becomes or changes, must do so owing to some cause, for nothing can come to be without a cause. "Plato"

Anitia? 

Irish double this in the Steve Jobs movie I forgot to note- I sense we will be seeing more this coming forward. It is a form of Tax evasion. There is a list of companies in the movie. 

Schism -? Of what? 

Codex-codices? 

Poland

I said Glumber? no idea, why? Or if this made-up word or what it is exactly. I could not find a reference point, in the Cambridge Dictionary or Etymology dictionary. 

abdication- renounce one's throne? or responsibility or duty? 

6-2-23 I quit

  Today, I just quit! I quit figuring out why my life just is not working and why things are not showing up. Yesterday I was given when death comes a knocking (a song). The funny part is the singer's name is my Mom's nickname and then I saw Bolo tie, which of course my Father had and I have no idea what has come of it since my Mom passing. Now something or someone is apparently dying. Who or what? and does it even matter, because it is already in the process of happening? When and where and whom? is the greater question. 

Then I hear this morning the Doors - break thru to the other side. I am like what am I breaking through to? Really! How about guides just tell me where to go and I will show up. Because somewhere between Friday's cry day and being very angry, I am questioning if is it the book Roar Like a Goddess that I am reading and how I was raised or not raised to believe that I even matter in the grand scope of things. To evaluate my entire life, and what I can remember, against what I know about my extended family and their experienced and history overall. To my weekly meltdown of WTF is it that I am doing? As my emotions from one day to the next are up and down and sometimes within the same day. 

To this morning I am shown a woman in dreamtime stating to her husband that she wants blue cabinets, and seeing them at a table in the kitchen and the Home Depot man off to the left and I am like why am I seeing this and what does it have to do with me. To me than seeing a situation with extended family and I am saying don't want to know or see that, I can see both ramifications of it and need to learn the lesson about self-love, to is he a Master teacher learning in a most extreme way or predatory creep and why is it that another person is allowing this to happen and is this ancestry lesson of sex is sacred and lack of parents to speak about sex in the 21st century like a dark deep secret, yet the sex in question, none of would even be here today. Unless you are injected by or with a needle. 

To having to rethink my observation of shadow work and women staying away from men, because men are what, falling behind in the evolution of respecting their partner and reliving the dynamics of his or her parent's relationship of power and being submissive, dominant, or oppression and how people are failing to see the interconnection to cause and effect. That everything you do is a reflection, to effect a cause and reaction. Hence you piss someone off, cut them off in traffic or disrespect them, scream and yell at them that it not not suppose to cause a reaction, for them to get piss at you or someone else, go home tell the partner, if they listen to them at all, for them to either say your overreacting or a simple domino effect. To how all of life is connected by a simple concept and we are running around not being mindful of that fact. 

Even last night before I went to bed - I live in an apartment and it absolutely amazes me that people have no idea that other people are living next door to me. One has Ocd and is opening and closing the door, the kid behind me, jumping on the floor because Mom is doing what is anyone guess, yet the child is doing this to get her attention and the other side of the apartment is jamming out by stomping on the floor. This all sounds like a very bad orchestra of drumming, so out tune that they have no idea I hear all of this and wonder how is it they think that because they're in another apartment that we are not connected to the rest of the building. And I am saying to the guides get me the hell out of this complex or I might have get a Air horn to make my point, because management will tell me that I should talk to them (did that-not pretty) and I am like I will be calling the police instead at which point the police will get annoyed over nonsense and I am back to what again. Abc or 123 there is an interrelationship of it all. It is not rocket science. 

Fundamentally, it is complex and one that I also quit trying to figure out because if the greatest scientists of the past and present can't agree, why should I even attempt to explain or understand myself, when I have no idea where I am even going or doing with this information? As I watch certain people step back from making videos or even this gnawing feeling of wanting to change where I live, what job or work to do, why I encounter situation after situation, and to the fact that I am just tired of spinning in circles. To me sounds like a broken record and people projecting at me, why don't have a job and I am in my head saying do you really think that I not looking for a "real job", and what is your definition of a real job? 

When people including myself are tired of being disrespected, bullied, controlled, and manipulative tactics used to get work more or pay us less, threaten us, or the treatment of people want to use to get me or another to live less than a standard of life, where we can't even afford to move. And spirituality teaches that it is belief in a lack, thereof something, and being money is everywhere and you have to be enough or get rid of lack, question where these beliefs of lack, enough and worthily come from, I am like it is a fricken program running generations of families, with limiting beliefs to it is a cosmic joke that you agreed to play. Haha isn't that funny and the middle finger raises and wtf. And why are the guides showing me stuff that has nothing to do with anything? Why do care if someone wants blue cabinets? 

Is this in my future and as to why I didn't see the face or yesterday I had a vision of seeing through either my eyes or some else eye's what looked like my Mom bedroom, which of course does not exist any longer and see the dust under the mirror to dresser and stack of stuff and poles or fishing poles and why am I see through their eyes. To me remembering that I once had a conversation with someone and actually entered someone's eye - sounds strange and a little scary when I jerked myself back and realized that I entered into the eye and did he sense me doing it and if there had been a mirror, what did it look like? Why are the guides not explaining to me what is happening and why can't I find anyone to help me understand, all of this? 

So for today, I am quitting! For a lack of better words to how after yesterday's post I could spend a few hours feeling blissed out without a care in the world and then someone walked by me cursing like they live in the hood and knocked me out of that feeling by a person who's thinking is that talking like that shows that lack of knowledge and more ignorance or lack respect for self. I am not disrespecting anyone if you are this person, but it does show a level of self-inquiry. And I would have not understood this unless someone confronted me regarding it myself, not my mouth but with a tag necklace that I wore because I could not confront this person who openly belittled me every day and then me working to stop doing it to myself, this was what I learned and experienced growing up. And it has been bittersweet having to rewrite programs and to understand, where this comes from and how it is passed down through multiple generations, until someone stops and looks for the causes of why things happened to you. When all is Love and no other. 

So while I correcting the grammar :I got Metrodome!!! 

6-1-23 Insight -Oh Danny Boy

 I heard - Danny Boy - do you hear me calling - or versus do you hearing the pipes calling. I heard do you hear me calling, which led me to research the song. Now anyone with Irish ancestry knows this song as a farewell song to the deceased. A song of remembrance. My thought is that we tend to forget our roots and that people worked and struggled for what we have today, in our lives. To how we have lost touch with our deeper roots and connection to the past and planet. That all is sacred and we should not take a death for us to remember the people or our past for a prayer to heaven or a song to reconnect with our truth. That the limited time that we have here should be spent as if we are walking on heaven's earth and treating people as such, as the heavenly beings that we are. 

I also realized that part of the phrase of the song - When calls the heart and how four simple words seem to get lost nowadays. When we forget to listen or even be moved by the heart. That birth and death should not be the synopsis for life, that all of it counts, and what you put out in the world with be returned to by your own actions. When we don't question the meaning of life or what is important to us, we lose sight of those little delights in life, that bring us joy and happiness. To how we have forgotten who we are and why we came here in the first place. Life is for the living and to not fear of something that may never come to pass. If anything we never learned to breathe through the heart and reconnect to our own present, when it becomes too much. 

For someone thinking but this is funeral song, well that is true. But can I change the passing of another, No. I can honor them for who they were and what they meant too me and respect that they now leave on another adventure. Which is one belief that most people agree with is there is a heaven or eternal life that we return to somewhere. Even if only to the earth, as dirty and stardust.