04-30-23 Spiritual awaking vs. neurosis

  04-30-23 Spiritual awaking vs. neurosis

Can a spiritual awaking look like neurosis? Yes. Some of us are highly attuned beings. Like an antenna picking up a radio signal. Now if I use the metaphor like a hard-boiled egg. You have either developed ways to protect yourself. From childhood to the present. You turn off to navigate your childhood and or for reasons only you know. Just like cracking the egg, there is a crack that causes an opening. Since we are not taught this in the form of meditation or by a skilled person that understands what is happening to us and what we experiencing. We can be affected by feeling everything. 

It can be overwhelming, as what is your and other people's energy. I have used the analogy of standing on the sidewalk in an airport, or NY city, as an example to explain this energy and what it feels like. I don't believe you should have to protect yourself, since you came from source. But this planet is using technology against people and for control. I have looked for books or by Internet, to help myself when these energies, when they are amped up. 

Whether it is technology or planets moving in and out of positions. Other than learning to shield yourself and meditation, even guided meditation. The other way is grounding into the earth and being in nature by asking the trees and earth to transmute the energy. Sounds crazy, but it works - since after all we are part of a web of life and are organic in nature, which like the planet we carry similar structures of DNA with the elements, animals, and earth. In other cultures, they are taught that they are connected to all of life. Not so in Western culture, unless you go looking outside of the norm.  

Here is an example to can feel that someone is looking without even making eye contact, you can feel someone present physically or deceased, or even higher being. We are not taught that the body is a sensitive body suit capable of feeling, picking subtle clues from the environment. That chill up the back, or arm, the eye twitch, these are innate to us, but just because someone else does not see, hear, feel, or experience it we brush it off because we have been taught to disregard what is a natural part of our being to navigate life and not listen to very body and mind. 

Here is an example: So, let's say you follow someone on Youtube like a tarot reader or whomever, if you pay attention these people also experience that energy - sometimes they will be on camera and sometimes not, depending on the energy, that happening in the world. You ever have a bad day and think what is going on, when there is absolutely no reason for you to be having a bad day, or things don't work out. Maybe it is connected to the planet or the planets in the sky or people's own energy. 

Now I am saying that there is no neurosis, which could be a past life coming through to heal something or something that someone has agreed to experience, in this life. or it is the energy on the planet. And the Health industry is not necessarily about healing the spirit. It is a business just like anything else. If were to look at this from a cultural view - we had medicine men, women, shamans, herbalists, and what doctors were, vs. now. And mental health is another one that will tell you it is a mind issue with real testing on family history, diet, body imbalances, environmental factors, etc. is never considered. 

Ways to navigate: go into nature, by the water, even playground (general children have higher energy) because they are not bogged down by worry, making the money, cleaning the house, etc. Go to the store at off times, when fewer people are there, or early in the morning. Go on vacation off time- out the season, or middle of the week when there are fewer people. 

Since people are unaware of their mental trash busy-ness and the boomerang of thought and action, as to what they say or do, changing the way you do things and asking yourself if is this the right time to go to the store, or vacation. Movies go at off time, - have a hard time explaining to someone who just doesn't understand, tell them you want to enjoy this with less people, or as in having a gut feeling, there are only so many times before not doing something that raises eyebrows, be honest and they will either understand, or maybe they will not, and they are not one for you. 

You can soothing music, crystals, Polyrhythmic or Bilateral music, and incense oils.. .. sorry to say your coping skills like alcohol, smoking, drugs, or wine will not help you in the long run. They will only make you want more. Instead learning skills that benefit you vs creating a need to pop this, drink that, etc. Oh, and it is ok to ask for space, most have lived with poor boundaries by our parents and society, it is actually quite normal to want space, time, and ok to be away from people to recharge. If you have issues about being with just yourself that is another conversation altogether. 

Also, your born will guides and their job is to assist you, but not do the work for you with lessons. Ask for help or help to shield you, by turning the volume down, so you can function. You ask your any question or god - you do you. Write down, ask them, ask them to show you, if don't understand, tell them you don't understand what they trying to show you, tell you...etc. 

I am not a doctor- I am a person that has experienced this and done work and research to understand it and be able to write about it - when people want to keep this information to themselves or as a hidden agenda against humanity, by not telling them who they are and the genetic history. What I can do, anyone can do. It is part of you for you to navigate life. 

You don't drive around with knowing or using GPS- so why would you not use your own GPS - God program (within) system. 

4-28-23 Cold and Allergy

 Have you ever found yourself saying "I always get sick or have allergies" this time of year? Well, have you never thought about when it started? How many years ago it was? What was happening at the time? 

In Louise Hay's Book - Allergy is about - who are you allergic to? or are you Safe. 

                          LH- Cold - Flu - is Mass belief of negativity and Fear (hence one person is not well at work, then everyone is ill) Just saying! 

In Julia Cannon's book, it states an allergy are a past life trauma. Based on Dolores Cannon's work. 

                               JC-    Cold are indecisive, need to make choices and not doing so, feeling sorry for self, delay activity, overworked, and need to rest, 

Others have written similar books too. (medical intuitives) 

Doc I have this ???/ - the doc should tell you to say to yourself: You are healthy and well and get more rest and eat better food and more water. Because you are more powerful than you been told. (I am not a doctor) These are my thoughts only. 

Other than a diet of too much dairy/ or sugar/Carb over earth-grown food, like fruits and vegetables, and the fact that the body is something that we are taught to just feed vs. a whole part of us. Since I woke up feeling I was hit on the head with allergies this morning, or that they have been spraying in the air to alter the weather. 

When you think back to childhood and by the end of April it was not 40 or below each morning (at least not in my state). Global warming that is nonsense, if it is warming by any thought, it would be warmer and not colder. Just saying, not the earth is actually changing and has been changing over thousands of years. 

But that is social programming that it ozone, carbon, co2, and (I don't fly rockets, I don't make the cars, cut down trees, or ship freight overseas to have cheap labor and back again) But I will be told it you/me and not big guys creating these problems. Anywho! My thoughts on colds or even allergies are the body telling you are doing too much, mentally, and physically, and you are out of balance with both your body and mind and need to rest - it is like speeding down the highway and your blow a tire. Why are rushing to go home? did the house move (humor) (kids I get) but if you moving so fast and not enjoying your ride or at least getting there, are you going to be a better parent with your kids! I think not. Then there is homework, dinner, activities, etc...no wonder you don't feel well. Or just stressed out.

So next time you feel allergies or Cold - what happened in the last 1-3 days, because they say that it is the between time for a true incubation period. As for whether I get this allergy or cold every time this year? just maybe it is connected to something like in a past life, a trauma in this life or you need to eat better or stop trying to super person because is going to keep happening tomorrow and the next day. How about you slow down and enjoy life because that is what you really want! Or maybe think about why you are running around like a chicken with your head to do it all again tomorrow! Oh, I hope you never see what driving at 85+ mph looks like in an accident, it is not pretty. And really worth your life or someone else's. 

4-27-23 What people don't say (energy on the planet)

4-27-23 What people don't say (energy on the planet)

 So the last few days I have been struggling with the energy that I am feeling. To the point that found myself in the fetal position last night. As I lay there questioning why I was experiencing feeling unsafe and needed to protect myself. To basically tell myself that I am safe and did not have to protect myself. I am extremely sensitive to everything. In my research I found no way of shutting it off or turning the volume down, so to speak of. 

This brings me to how others explain that it is all light and love, and god is in every aspect. Which I am not disagreeing with, but what no one explains is that or those feeling that you get from other people. Now most people have had radars go off when meeting someone, or just don't pay attention to their intuition by ignoring what they're feeling, understandingly there are multiple reasons why people don't listen to intuition. Mostly because you're conditioned out of it.  

So, I have met people who are slimy, or contort as they battle themselves, or walked into a store and got pain in the stomach, or go into coughing spells, speak to someone and get an instant headache (ex: work) and so sick that I have to be taken home. People don't speak about these experiences and it said that nothing can affect you and I beg the differ. I don't know if has to do with transmuting energy or sensing someone's truth about themselves. 

Why it is happening and how to control it. I only know about shielding by white light, violent purple flame, or encasing egg of light, and call on AA Michael to shield, as I do this for myself but still, I encountered these energies that I experienced with other people. It is as if I am seeing a truth that they don't see for themselves. 

I have seen labels like energy vampires, energy leaks and toxic people, narcissism and I looked into shamanism and thought this was some type of initiation. I am going to pose that it is a natural thing, maybe not all people but that we all have the ability, call empathic, sensitivity, or inner Gps, and it is just another thing that is not taught for us to navigate. Now if I lived in a more tribal community where we actually have elders and wisdom keepers who would teach this, not that they don't exist but being a walking antenna and the teachers or claims that they teach are chasing the money or only given part of information.

When there are so many walking around thinking it is them and something wrong with them when it is not. Then to have to figure it out, as what the blank was that! I know, because I experienced these things and have yet to find a person or book to explain to me what it was. I also wonder if I had this since birth or from my childhood being that I had to keep my radar on because of the trauma that I experienced or navigate my surrounding. It does happen every day so much, but enough for me to pay attention. That at times, it has affected my ability to do things. 

Now grounding goes along with shielding, both of which I forget to do daily. And the fact that am trying to create some stability in my life. Which has is been a revolving door of jobs, cars, homes, and income up or down. To wondering why this is a problem for years and applied the outside world with 911 and to the current day nonsense world. And people seem to keep functioning from that fact, that these events happen and we keep going, like nothing is happening and the effects of these events. To where you are the last employee to get hired and first to go when shit it the fan. Which causes a ripple effect, I had to explain on my own resume that this storm Sandy, 911, and laid off because the sky was falling (humor), etc. 

To compare these things in my life as some type of spiritual initiations, because if I truly look at my life from a timeline perspective, I have to wonder how I am even alive through the things that I have gone through when the rest of the world is its business as normal. A word that I would delete from the dictionary and people running in the rat maze or Pavlov's bell. Then explain to people hello the world shut down. I had a family member die and it require my attention and I not suppose to react to your inability to be aware, connect events and no I don't have all the answers. But I look for them. 

I want to note that even with my own writing I can only give limited information because there could be other reasons why people feel slimy, maybe their diet, their thoughts or it is their personality. I can only give examples of my experiences. 

04-25-23 Discernment-two

  This morning I heard London bridges are falling down and my fair lady. I have posted before about London and believe it has to do with monarchs and keeping people in shackles of fear, much like most of the governments. As for the fair lady - this could be about that same system or upper echelon of power. I am not sure at the moment, whether is a woman or figurative metaphor. But what I do want to say in regards to this information is this came through creepy, I don't do creepy. Over the years I have seen and witnessed things both in sleep and in the world. I honestly can not handle it anymore. The madness of it all. 

The one thing that I will you is that true guidance is Not Creepy! Now you can that above message think what you want. I don't pay attention to the news or event around the world, less it enters my world and When I get information that I channel or speak about it is because I learned that differences in tone of information, It is not fear-based, fear-filled, or creepy. Maybe that is the point, as to why I am bringing this up. There are being that is not of light Christ conscious that will give you information that is not valid. 

I am to the point in my life where I don't want to see in my sleep or even in the world around me. Not that you can get away from it, because it is everywhere and bred in the news and we are feeding it by not discerning what is of love and what is fear. The is nothing on the news feeds but fear and drama, or anything seemingly good in the world. Which is far from fact. 

Every day we go about our lives and these things don't happen to us. And are grateful that don't happen. My heart goes out to people who are in these shootings, schools, and many horrific things, but they are not my point of focus. 

These outlets of news media get ratings from viewers and sponsorship, it is just like click bate, but you are choosing it over finding truth or focusing on positive things that occur vs. The doom and gloom is the running narrative and what is right in the world. Slim as the choosing, is it is there. Now I could take the message as truth, but instead, I using an opportunity to explain true guidance and that if you focused on the negative maybe we need to look at what we're getting from it. 

Most of all playing in the drama, gossip or victimhood, or attention to have a conversation or political stance and instead connect to people to bring the perception of change to our behavior to fit in. I rather not say anything than be the bearer of constant bad news. That is not the world I want to live in or would I think anyone wants to, but the media wants to keep you in constant fear of what exactly? To control your mind when you are a thinking being with the right to say I choosing love over this nonsense. The guides say we just keep giving our power away to things that don't deserve our attention, people, news and bad behavior, beliefs, and people just don't want peace, to be happy, love, or a different world. 

The guides say if go to a restaurant and you are served bad food - you don't go back. So why are feeding you your soul with these thoughts and things? 

And take your power back- you are a divine being that came here to be the change and break the programs that kept you thinking you were less than God. That it is false teaching and will be known. 

04-24-23 Affirmations and Intuitive

 

*I saw an image of peace talk with Russia and Ukraine right before waking this morning. (no time reference to when) 

Born with the wings of the heavens you must fly like the master's you are. 

Fear, worry and anger cancel Positive manifesting 

The past is gone , you have the presents in the now. 

I am light, I am the love, I am soul having a human experience. 

04-23-23 Affirmations & questions

 You born to fly, so go do it. 

I ask for guidance to open my eye and mind to what is true and what healthy living looks like for me  and what changes I need to make, to do so.

Can you get out of your own way?

If you desire is for happiness, why are you stopping yourself?

Go beyond what you think is possible. 

4-21-23 Channeled: You are the Love of God

With all the teaching from every Master being that has ever walked the earth, at this point. Why is it that we don’t realize that we are the Love of God and walk in that truth of it? Instead, we are told over and over that we have done something wrong, from the bible to and through our childhood to the present moment. When we learn to understand people are working from the broken parts of themselves by the reaction to their own trauma from others. Justly, there is nothing to justify their actions, other than their own pain that they have experienced. 

Call what you will: control, greed, manipulation, abuse, mental, emotional, physical, sexual, and spiritual, these traumas destroy the very fabric of what it is to be human. To walk as God's embodiments on earth. For thousands of years people have stepped forward to teach what God wants us to know and that it is all love, that he created. From everything that is around us to the universe at large, so why do we continue to deny the very essence of our being? 

Why do people act out the distortion that God does not care what we do to the planet or the people and species that inhabit the planet? That we would rather destroy everything than ask the question? Am I loved by God and am I a human, walking in the love of God present. Seems rather simple but to the contrary we do the very opposite of what it means to be the love that is set forth.  

We know in the deepest part of ourselves that it is who we are but continue to dismiss that only certain people walk-in love of God or that God only chooses people who are willing to hear. That you must go to church or seminary to understand God's love, and that only these religions know the words of God. That no one other can possibly understand what Love is or God is, and it is everything. 

There is no separation of anything, all ideas, all forms, and experiences are of God, yet many choose to force doctrines of vengeful God, if don’t do this or that, repent or your sinner or you sin or God, forbids you to question that we which as be presented as God and right action, or God will dam you to internal Hell. That you will never be loved by God for anything that you do, so why bother? You have already been told that you’re going to hell. 

What a misconception of truth. God created only love. It is the distortion of Man that has put his needs before that of God. You have been told over and over that you will carry the sins of the fathers and mothers before you and that you will pay for retribution and be punished for your actions against one another. Without ever realizing that there is no one or the other. God created all, as equal to the image that God set forth. There are no species on this planet other than the belief to seek dominance over others. 

Things were given to you to flourish from, not dominance of. Words have been twisted to play one against the other. For the one that has more is the controller of what! The power is in yourself to see the errors that men/women can create. You look outside of yourself for answers and for guidance, never turning within yourself and questioning does this feel right? How you only see fit that only people in your family, friends, and social group are to be loved by you and that all others are just meager outcasts of What, which you find fault with. 

Yes, you may find things that are unpleasing, or not aligning with your beliefs and what is “considered normal”, by what you have established as normal. On various points that may seem true, but it is not factual. For God created all. And the nuances of.  If you were sent to a country that has less or more, would not feel of sorts. You would be that odd person out because that is what you have known. You live in your bubble of that what I know as the only your truth. That there cannot be anything other than what you know, but there are differences, all around you every day and yet, you never even look at them. You even teach your children that the world is this way or that way. 

That we lost the meaning in what we give things or what it means to be a human, be it male, female, or nameless. Does it make them any less? Only in your eyes. Which are the same eyes that God gave you to observe yourself and the world that you inhabit. You have lost sight of the meaning of love and what love is. 

That love is what you are and not act. The act is something that is lost to misunderstanding in as a Divine Union of two people and that it is not a solemn Vow that you have taken before God, that one can use for control, manipulate, or dominate another. How can that be true, if you were created equal? Yet you use it each day over others, relationships, and your children. No one owns anyone, you are all divine being living an earthly experience to remember that you came from God. Nothing more or not less. We bid you a good day, for now. 

Is it not said, ask, and it is given? So, why are you looking to the outside world, when I am with you because I created you. 

4-17-23 From the Soul

If I was to write a book that touched your soul, I would tell you how much you are loved. Regardless of what has happened. That no matter what has occurred, what you did, that you are special in your own right. The people around may not have see or appreciated the beauty of the being that you are. And the love is all there is. I have never separated from I have always been there every step of the way.

For I am you. I live with you and live within your soul, that I have forgiven you and listened to the sorrows that crossed your path. I believe in you when no one else did. I have carried you when you didn’t have the strength to do for yourself. I loved you since the day you were born and I love you when you pass on from here to the next step in your journey, for I will never leave you. 

The world may see what it wants, yet I know the truth about who you truly are. You may wander and fall sometimes and that is part of life, but I will be here to witness the growth and steps you took to keep going forward. Some will fight, some may argue, some will not be nice, and some will be downright cruel, but I will never leave you. For I am you. 

It may get dark and there will be light that shows the way there, through the cracks that you had no idea that they existed. I will send people to awaken and remind you that all is not lost and the light glows even more brightly. For I am you. Love is all you have, and love is what you will always be. There is nothing between us because I only made love for you to see. 

So, when your soul grows weary from the steps that you took, know that I am still there, in the mind, in the heart, in the body because we walk as one and nothing less. For I am you. The stones may be thrown, or forces try and take the beauty and your heart or your soul, I will still be there and walk with you every day, even when the mountain seems too high. I will climb that mountain with you, even when it is a molehill that you could have stepped over. I will still be there. 

Walking and holding your hand and your heart when there seem like there is nothing to keep you going, or the wind has become too much to bear. I will still love you and I will still be there. Encouraging you to keep going and when all seems lost, I will still love you and still be there. Dreams may come and go. Family, friends, and lovers all but disappear I will still be there, for love is always there.

 I will watch you as you sleep and dream, I am still there, in the depth of despair I love you the same and I will still be there, for love is who you are, and love is what I am. So, live boldly, and dream big because I am with you, and love you just the same. For I am you and you are loved, none the same. Wide-eyed and bright there is nothing to fear because love is the only tear that releases the love that is near. So go on and be the love that is all so dear, because the heavens know that love is not fear, but who you are in disguise, playing a part, for love is all there is. 

04-14-23 Channeled – Divine Female

Are Men falling behind on the evolution scale? With the rise of female coming online to take back their power back to be the way shower over the dominance of the male.  Never in any history has there been women standing up for their rights, as equals, and for equality. Every time there is a forward movement for women, it is short-lived. With the masses living in the past of what was and what it is now, to what could be. The exchange of ideas that women represent, and present has unlimited power to raise the bar, so to speak.

The movement is empowerment to stand like the mighty oak tree and put to rest for once and for all this debasement of the male holds all the power and wisdom, when that is not rightly so. When much destruction of planet resources and the inequality of life that is currently being presented on the planet, people will raise their voices for it is necessary to bring back in balance these two energies and aspects of the divine-human.

They have been out of balance far too long and the ability of the divine female to step forward and speak on behalf of all, and the imbalance that continues to face the injustice that has plagued the previous generation to submit to the male, as being the only wisdom keepers of justice, equality, and harmony. (Life is but a dream) It will seem radical at first and many barriers with still need to come down. But she will rise and take with her the power and her rightful place.

There will be no turning back, the fem-male will not be silenced anymore for the injustices that have been bred throughout the generations. The divine female is equal in all aspects and will be heard, whether you like it or not. They will not submit to the fallacy that once hinders their mothers, grandmothers, and future daughters to come. You will see this rise of power to the distort the female will not stand any longer. They hold the wisdom, and it will be known.

The Transgression, distortions, injustices, treatment of, aggression, and inequality, they will rise, for all to see. CL

Women working from the masculine energy will be called into question. Power over another is not balanced energy. Power over either sex will be tried and tested, for the time has come for the unification of these aspects.

Watch and observe

4-13-23 I couldn't decide what I wanted to write

 Today, I can’t decide what I am going write about whether it is Color and then let’s talk manifesting, why and why it does not happen. Then I thought let’s talk about home and what that is or feels like, to the saying that “if you want it done, you have to do it yourself”, and what that is and why it happens. Maybe it is pre-Eclipse or mercury retrograde seems to be happening in my world, at the moment.

~Color now this one is pretty obvious, this grey battleship color that is all over the place, from designing a home to painting your house or cars. What does the grey feel like for me it is Depressing – They paint battleships that color, prisons are that color, and mental health people feel, see grey. Their emotions are grey, flat, dull, you get the point. There is no variance. Life is just sad. 

I have never seen a grey farmhouse in my life, other than our present reality. The last thing that I would want to do is come home to a grey dull house with no life or color. Just me and my observations. So here is a thought where in nature is grey, owls, birds with some grey, and trees can have a grey tint. But nothing is completely grey in color. Even the concrete is not grey, except cinder box – but then they build prisons with that too.

 I understand that it is the modern twist – or it is to sell paint that no one wants. I have a piece of furniture in my home that is grey, but it is lined with colorful books. I surround myself with color in my home and my choice of clothes each day and use it when I am feeling off, to eating colorful food. When it comes to surrounding myself with color and working with Charka’s energy centers in the body and wanting to uplift myself grey would not be my choice. 

~So, you want to be a millionaire and manifest the Hollywood lifestyle, that car or dream home or fly around the world. That is what the secret book and movie explained. The problem with this is misalignment. What is misalignment – well if you have fears around money, relationships, wealth, and core beliefs that are opposing have these things. You might manifest a cup of coffee. This lottery winner ends up back in the place they were or even less.  

Rome was not built in a day. If you don’t question your beliefs about things that you want in your life, why would they happen? Oh, that is the luck of the Irish – sorry bad humor or not. Since none of us really understood the game Monopoly and well depending on childhood and what was said to you about money, instead being an energy of exchange for one thing or another. You go work in exchange for that energy you get paid. 

Employers make money on your energy to produce something, well they pay you what the value is they think your time is worth to them. So, if told as a child that nothing is free in life and you work hard for it, then there is a core belief nothing is free, and it is hard work. Air is free, just saying.  Now the law of attraction teaches differently that it is focusing the mind to draw that experience to you. Matrix, I believed explained the same concept. The movie Field of Dreams – explains this same thought process. If want anything you understand why you want it or how to get that, learn that, and become that. 

If you don’t understand money and how to balance it and work with it, how to handle large amounts of money. To also what happens if you lose money from a bad choice or decision? Do you fall to pieces or pick yourself up and do it again? There is not a business out there that has not experienced both loss and gain. A life lesson you cannot have one without the other. You cannot know a bad relationship from a loving one, everything is balanced. 

~So here is my bumper sticker for today– I would make millions on people’s driving skills: No bees, No trees – no humans. It is better than my car is not a bull-eye for crappy driving skills. Hence, one of the reasons the car camera was invented, among others things. 

~Home what is home? I like to think it is where dreams are made and it is a loving, supportive environment. This is not the case for most, and I think movies often portray it as something that it is or was not. Currently where I live is where I live. It is not home, and I have tried to make home for the time being. My childhood home was dysfunctional, and it was not until my life crashed in every way possible that I had to look at what I was taught and experienced that was affecting my life. 

I have said that I knew that I was not from this planet, and along with that I always felt I was born into the wrong family. I still think it to this day, about how very different I am from my siblings, and have come to understand that it is not an outside thing for calling a house a home. It is what is on the inside that I consider home. If I can find home or peace within myself even when the crap is hitting the fan then home is the heart and not something that can really be made up to be a home, you are already home all the time. 

We live in a world that places everything outside of us. Even the logo that “happiness comes in a box”, on what I call the duck trucks when they back up. Humor is the only way to get through life. Don’t get me wrong I have pretty rough days and if I said things are airy fairy well that is spiritual bypassing. That not really doing the work of understanding where behavior, thought, or belief is coming from. 

~“If you want it done, you have to do it yourself”, Where is this thought, and the belief comes from, and why it is not necessarily the truth! I caught myself saying today. Why, I was frustrated at the fact some people were not doing what they should have been doing and resolving a situation. Being a Sag., I am get it done and move on. I don’t need to drag things out unless it is a conflict. Something I don’t enjoy or like dealing with someone is never going to get it, even explained in six degrees in any direction.  

Where does this come from, first it is control, you are taking control, because if we trace it to childhood. That wonderful childhood with helpful parents did not exist. Somewhere on the planet they do and that is the true reality, we learned that if anything was going to change – you have to do it yourself because people were not around to help. 

This creates over-dependence on that I can’t trust people to do what they say or should, could, or would be doing.  Well, it is out of my control. And sometimes it is about allowing things to unfold because there could be something at work that we don’t see or understand. Surrender to the moment. Sometimes we need to step back and look at it differently. We live in a fast world completing for constant attraction to or distraction for our attention, because it is power in the moment. 

Now if we were all robots, we could blame it on bad machinery. But we're not robots, we're humans, and when the robots take over and want human rights that is when we should be concerned. Also, learning that whatever created “ I have to do for myself” by control it, is from a space of needing help, be it situational, emotional, and or feelings. I can’t tell what was because I didn’t live your life. When learning about why we do things, then change happens because you realize and catch yourself. When we should be asking for help, stepping back, or having trust and faith in another person or even our Godself. 

And if don’t know you are the god self-created by God and the rest of them were his messenger to let you know so and the holy trinity is the mother, father, the child – but that is another story. 

Here is a question how will you know what the difference is between AI writing or painting versus a human writing and painting? I ask this question because I stop for food today and was kindly walked over to the kiosk to place my food order and I turn to the person and said no thank you, I will go elsewhere. It is coming whether we want it or not. That will brings its own problems! 

04-13-23 Quotes or affirmations

 Life is about change 

Everyday is different even, when you can't see it.

Beliefs can always be challenged 

To Luminate you have to be the light in the dark. 

Channeled: I have no idea when I channeled this for it was in the box affirmations. *The universe is complex and beyond what the human mind can conceive and in the search for answers, you will only come up with new questions. Why not enjoy yourself and the enfolding of what is around you and in you. 

( I think I was questioning why I was experiencing one of many things that seem like it had no relevance to a spiritual path)

Often comes after you need it- experience/ wisdom

4-11-23 Inner Inking

 Before the virus hit most people in this field and others; well for lack of words stock up on things, some are still saying to Prep and prepare. Why we did it because we knew it was coming and could feel and sense it. I for one stopped - firstly because I don't have room for a year's worth of food or supplies. Secondly, I know that most people can't do it, because of their financial situation, housing, etc. The other side of this picture is that your claiming Lack and telling the universe that I need to stockpile food or supplies because there is not enough. If thoughts are intentions- then what are you intending to happen, individually or globally? 

This is even pushed on you by the media as shortages. This did happen because people were not working to full capacity. For the most part people here in the US have access to food (there are exceptions). I am not saying to not keep food on hand or supplies. But when you pose these ideas of lack against the big corporation, is it being pushed as an agenda of lack into their pockets? Knowing that Earth is experiencing changes both natural and engineered to create situations affecting the weather and water, earthquakes, and land. (see butterfly effect) simply put can the wings of a butterfly cause a typhoon.! But when the general public comes to the thought that there is a lack of something or the 100th monkey effect - it either creates a behavior or new behavior and how it becomes a general consensus. 

Back to prepper - nothing against them - let us look at the idea of this thought and behavior. Let's just say as a simple explanation - you were raised with not enough of something. This is applicable to food, money, care, love, support, etc-  from your parents who by the way were raised by your grandparents who experienced wars, illness, bomb threats, and social and economic challenges. Let's go deeper let us say in a past life or many, that you live in a life that had these same situations or a fall of a civilization. Is possible that these memories are underlining a thought that is affecting your actions. 

Your job is to question it. Since we thinking, feeling, sensing intuitively being versus running around saying the sky is falling and it never going to exist again. Now, it is not rocket science in the fact over 25 years and longer that products have become smaller, cars higher, housing higher, bills higher, and well everything higher to the point where we are now. 

Now financial analysis person would see the highs and lows over the last 123 years. The real question is sustainability by our use of the resource we have at hand. Let's say I create a product that fills a need, but I don't create a natural way of disposing of that product when its use is over with. I have now created an environmental problem or social problem, or economic problem. To who creating all this - is them, is us, is corps', government, some secret group or elite or military.  When we came here to be the change per guides. 

Now for a better lack of words: who is running our governments, corporations, banking, schools, and utility companies, - and what are doing about it? Have they really improved anything? What are they doing for the people and will they ever?  Money is the name of game and not people - even though it is people who generally work for these corporations to support their own life. What is a human life worth? Apparently not much because the bodies of people in our governments, and the corporation would want all of life to succeed, because the quality of life is improved for all. Not people jet off somewhere or in a bunker or rocket to another planet or influencer that degrade what is to be a woman or man in the world. For the sake of greed and power and why we seeing upheaval in different parts of the world. 

People have had enough and want change. One person can't move a mountain but an entire community or village can. I give you an example my son graduated from high school during the ceremony the principal noted all children going to colleges, armed services, and technical or training school while assigning percentages to children 20%, and 30% and this last group was dismissed as if they didn't exist. I looked around as I was listening to this speech and was taken back that no one even realized what was just said. With a full school stadium of people who watch and listened. And broadcast via social media. This is an influential area. This principal who has Ph.D. but she failed to see how in her own speech the impact on our minds and our children's. (are you questioning what is being said via media) 

Why we don't listen, see or change things is because we have to look at ourselves and the impact that we have on ourselves or the world around us. We are distracted by cell phones, the internet, media, commercials, shopping, having, doing, surviving, fear of the what if's, etc. Dog eats dog world. When most of us do not want that world. We want the world that we dreamed of or better. So what is the answer to this moral dilemma- well it is individual to you and everyone. Now you can say I don't think about it and turn a blind eye but at some point a choice with be made. Hell, we are bred to follow the line, sit quietly, don't speak up, when it is not your turn, don't challenge your parents, school, or what is true, or question what is it that I am feeling, observing, or experiencing 

If reality is the inner making of thoughts, maybe time to take a wider view. 

04-11-23 Intuitive information

 Last night I heard a say guide that - A man who wants for nothing is a man who has everything. Explained:  man is both female and male. Wants for nothing is the realization that everything comes and is from within yourself. Just like writing a story, the story comes from within you.

I kept hearing Blackbirds in the Dead of Night song- when I looked it up the song is about race riots, civil rights, and segregation of African American in 1968, which was when it was written. When I asked the guides about this and the use of - they don't see people as separate. They are using as a reference point that 55 years ago, we were fighting the same battle for equality. This leads me to the Civil unrest they gave me next, and the upheaval that is coming, or what is the beginning of. 

Rucker's or Rutgers Stadium? 

I was shown Justin Timberlake and Gwen Paltrow in a movie - ? Justin was in the water and Gwen was earth and air - like in mirror images one above the other. No idea what that means. 

I also heard - another bites the dust- another song about a fall to the ground or someone's death- Soldiers on the battlefield, gang violence, and the person walking down the street. the guides say that is being propagated. 

They also want me to bring up the weed and seed program, which used to clean up the area, which has its stakes for a developer to bring luxury living to drive the market down in the area to come along and purchase them at a below market rate to turn them into higher quality of living. By creating areas of destitute, drugs, violence, and fear of your safety to prime real estate. This is not done in a year - it is years in its planning. I am hearing that it is done in proximity to - commute, riverfront, local venues, etc... 

04-09-23 Joy in the simple things

 Happy Easter.

I was thinking this morning, about how we miss the simple things in life. Yesterday I saw these tulips and thought should I get them? This morning I said I am going to go get them, if there still there. They were. How we have all these opportunity to just be in the moment. Drinking coffee or tea outside on a beautiful sunny day or just listening to the birds, to how we spent our days as a child on Easter. Egg hunts, Easter hats and putting on best clothes to mark the day. Trying not to eat so much candy that got stomach aches, or parent said you will spoil your dinner.  Going to church or not, for this day we knew that it was spent with our family. 

Just the simplicity of the small things. As I text my children and brother wishing a Happy Easter and wondering what gives them joy in a moment? When the tulips that I brought seem like they were adding to the moment that I was feeling. It was not the running around, or cooking all day or having company, or not. Having to get somewhere, do something. Just the joy of the joy in the moment. 

Having a wonderful and joyful day today. Enjoy the simple things and simple moments. 

04-06-23 Strange, weird, and creepy (some are repeated in earlier writing)

So, I have said many times that I going to do post this, and I don’t care anymore, I am tired of holding onto it. When I don’t need to. I have done this since about age 4 when I backtrack through my life and started to connect the dots. So here is a list of experiences for most of the life that I had. Good, bad, indifferent. These are just the ones that come to the  top of my mind. 

Baby left in church parking grass that kept seeing, yet I was too small to cross the road.

Something or a person chased me when camping and it was creepy.

I almost drowned as a child because I got disoriented underwater and experienced a light or maybe it was the sun and managed to get to the surface.

I fell like two floors out of a tree and experienced that I could have ended up in a wheelchair in this strange falling seconds before I fall to the ground.

When I high school, before I go to work, I experienced while laying down and seeing the room with my eyes closed – like I was floating around the room or walking through walls.

I say things and they would happen, within days.

I would plan to go do things with friends from work and be detoured and get lost even when I knew where I was going, to never arrive.

I had roses bloom on the bush in the middle of winter, several times over the years.

I once came out of my home that I previously own to find feathers, on my car or the ground. Like a bird got hit, and not a bird to be found.

I have opened the refrigerator to have a feather come flying out when I open it.

I have taken a night class and spoken with a guy for what seems like an hour, to go and get home 3 plus hours later.

Someone took me to the theater, and I remember seeing the beginning and the end, but can’t tell you anything between that time. When asked what I thought about the Broadway play,  I had to make something up because I had no memory of it.

I have been down the river with my children, and something walked right through me, I was told by someone that most don’t survive something like that. Today, I found no information available with anyone having a similar experience. Whatever it was did not want me there.

I have seen people stand on the side of the road and ask my mom about it and she did not see anyone.

I have seen a car in the creek, but again no one saw it, other than me.

I have canceled numerous outings at the last minute with guys that I dated because I had a vibe about it.

I would know walking down the street that certain had black clouds or illness within them. Even now I avoid walking past different places for this reason.

I have left the store with a friend to what I  describe as disk-like lights in the sky, that was red and my friend blew it off.

I have walked into a store, or by a person or people and gone into a choking fit and taken to my knees.

I have had a blackout in a store, almost one time at work, and caught myself.

I have gone on interviews and felt grossed out by the person’s presence.

I have had something bite me like a cat and I have no cat. Highly allergic to them. 

I have an experience of working somewhere late at night, saw a ghost of a boy in knickers not from this century.

I saw a famous painting and two days later – someone was telling me that grandchild has asthma, and the painting was about a mother and a dying boy with tuberculosis, and knew instantly that asthma was connected to previous life with regard to tuberculosis.

I got an email for a podcast and witnessed a large white snake around a person's neck, and then send an email back – they remove me from the email list because I question what the hell that was.

Recently, as of the last week or two, I removed from another claimed healer site, because I question a post that they wrote and literally wrote things about a person they encounter and claims she is a healer and should an awareness, yet publicly crucifying this person.

I have had spirits show up standing at my desk at one job. Showing a Tiger tattoo down the arm.

I have walked into work and did not see the normal people and walk to the back of the building and experienced people who by no terms were human, more like a walking horse head or beaver, and animal features, I thought I was seeing animal totems. At one time I was working with a therapist (open to spiritual) and she said I walked into another dimension.

I was training for one job and while I was talking to the guy, he morphed into a large spider-like creature and I sense that he sucked energy from the people around him, I quit the next day.

I have spiritual people morphed – which is form transpose when they work with angels.

I have seen my parking lot covered with white flowers in the middle of the winter, as of this year. And no trees with any leaves on them. 

I experienced a house disappear. Windows that were not previously there, show up at another place I live in.

I have witnessed while waiting for a bus buildings appear that were not there before, or again after.

I have seen an Angel in yellow – standing to my right. Then a year before or after someone said something to me twice about a yellow angel and two different places. 

I have multiple times seen tall white beings in my room while going thru a horrific time in life.

I have had white beings show themselves when the pain coming up in me was so terrible that I want to leave this planet and ask God to take me.

I have experienced something floating above when I sleep to turn my head and ask to God protect me.

I have had knocking on the walls and – told years later when my son handed a note and in the note, it was for danger, and I never told him about it. Because at the time he was small and was sleeping next to me.

I experienced something over the apartment where I live that flew over and hit the ground and never heard a fire truck or anything. (During the day)

I have experienced a massive ship over my apartment, also during late morning.

I have seen crystal cities in my sleep.

I have said decrees in my sleep and watched things just lift off people.

I have been awake and at this very desk and watched the wall morph into crystal walls.

I have had people talk to me at a restaurant and turn to say something back and the waitress looks at me strangely.

I walked down the street to find a book that I know was left there for me to find.

I have gone to the park and twice bibles were left for me.

I have seen half ghosts in an apartment building, that was once a famous person's mansion, to find that it housed some type of nursing home for people in the past.

I have tried to take my children to Bowman’s Tower to told as I turn on the road to enter that I needed to turn around because one child had a connection to the land, and I have told that I could not take my other son to Valley Forge Park for the same reason. My understanding it would trigger events that were not supposed to happen yet or trigger a memory of some sort.

I woke up to speak another language that I don’t speak at present.

I have a vision of events that would happen fully wake and not meditating – happen two days later, like I am watching a movie, as a warning to me.

I have a memory of not being from this planet, my whole life.

I have seen a white room with a dental chair – that I think is on a Ufo.

I have had ghosts walk through the door and then through the apartment like I was not even there.

I have black orbs come through the wall - along with green, blue, and white orbs.

Twice,  I had been sleeping to wake up to the brightest white light.

Edit: Two times I had birds fly into the window and I knew that the person had passed.

I have experienced hundreds of birds in the trees - at one time. (twice this happened)

One day change son school schedule and I went to school at the time like 50 Ravens sitting outside the school, as we walked in. 

The strangest part is that people saw things as a child, ghosts in closets, hallways, or down in the basement, and still deny this happened to them.

Back in the 90s, I was at hypnosis training and an older man came up to me and ask to read my hand and told me to stay away from the paranormal stuff (ghosts part). I have a woman from India who also ask to read my hand. 

 I have been blessed four different times, once visiting a friend at the hospital. Twice at Spirit, Mind, and Body events that thousand attended, before the virus and one was from Holland Netherlands, an Amish or Mennonite pastor, to years later by a Latino pastor. I am not bragging, but these people just walked up and ask me if they could bless me while I was in these places. 

04-05-23 Intuitive information

Mark Horowitz found dead

Why people don't forgive because then have to look at themselves, as part of problem and not the solution. This does not mean that you forget what has happened, it is you learned to understand that are working from a hurt part of themselves that they themselves have not healed. Also if they allow forgiveness, they have nothing to hold over you, because you are no longer problem, they are.  

04-04-23 Truths of the Children

 

Back in 2013 when I had custody of my son taken from me on a contempt court order, my life collided again. I went to see a counselor. This counselor (doctor) asked me if there were addictions in my family and when I told her that there was alcohol abuse, she wrote me an Rx for Alcohol medication, even when I told her that I had 2 drinks in the last 10 years at that point, and now 2 in last 19 years. This is how Frick-up the system is.

 I went for help to process the trauma of what happened, and they gave me medication that had nothing to do with why I came there. It was easier to medicate me than try to help me through the trauma of the experience.   Yet, I have seen Mothers and fathers call their children little f-er and mothers leaving their children under the age of 5, home alone to care for themselves, to go spend the time at a methadone clinic and so dope up these children learn to fend for themselves. Or the fact that I have seen children burned or punished because they were hungry and not fed, locked out of apartments, or houses as punishment. I have seen children cry all night while left alone while their parent/s disappeared. I have seen children locked in closets for being Gay and not like their siblings. I have seen and watched display sex actions at ages they should not. 

I have seen children drugged down the street because they are having a meltdown with special needs. I witness a mother only feeding her child cereal because the child needs special care with regard to autism and then left in the bedroom with no connection to others or her and then peeds himself and she then screams at him and thinks it is an attack on her, instead of coming to the term that her son needs more direct care. I have seen children sit by their doped parent while they wait to see if the parent wakes up.  Or the mother who stays with an abuser and locks her kids in the closet while the father beats the mother after coming home from the bar. I have seen and witnessed children abuse their own siblings, and act out what they have experienced. I have seen children left in dirty clothes and not washed for days. I have seen children as of age 9-10 have no idea how to use a fork to eat with. I have seen children paraded naked in front of strangers. I can’t count the number of times that I have called the police after going to the store and seeing infants and 2 years old left in the heat of a hot car when the parent went into the store. +

What is the point of this: I am speaking for children because I lost custody to my ex for not telling him I was leaving (per courts with PFA) after he assaulted me in front of my children, this was not the first time over the years that I left him and came to him for help after a situation with my family. And have since learned that it is generation from parent to child and on and on, until someone stops the cycle, or they take their own life through drugs, suicide, or prostitution they get lost to the streets or far worst.  I have suspected children of physical and sexual assault without any proof of the fact. When I experience these things, it was not because I was working somewhere, or with children. It is openly done, right in public. When I started to witness some of these things that I observed I had to question some of the things that have happened in my life that led to some of the men I dated. What is the impact going forward, and how do we even being to address these traumas and some are so buried that their mind is blocking them until a time comes that they might even begin to process it. 

This is not God doing. This human doing it is against innocent human children. This is not new this is years of even adults living with secrets long forgotten about and so suppressed that they have no idea why they are ill, drinking, drugs, or dating the wrong men, and how they get into these relationships they do. All because we fail to see them as people who will one day become adults, in over distracting world. Belittling either parents, or people for control or power over another to cells phones, peer pressure, fitting in, or human souls that you gave life too.  Then of course we condemn them, the children because we are failing them. And honestly, the system is so broken that they could handle the influx should they seek help.

* God has given us free-will to make choices -you chose the Devil or Angel, If you were God embodied how would treat people is the lesson. 

04-04-23 What do you want in life..

 04-04-23 What do you want in life.. 

The guides always ask me what is it that I want. I have even been told that I am going to be famous, and I am like I just want a home and a partner who respects me and help to do this work; along with money to support both. As for being famous seems overrated, living up to other people’s expectations is counterintuitive. And currently, I don’t if it is me or someone, I am picking up on, but my writing seems a like dyslectic. Here is my theory on being dyslectic – let’s say that prior to this birth you live in another country or maybe not even on this planet, just roll with it for a minute. The life lesson would be there is something different about you, not that society tells you to fit into a box of normalism that quite frankly, does not exist. The only things that are normal eat, breathe, and sleeping and some people don’t do that. I have other working theories that I have yet to prove, but that is for another time. * I realized I didn't really explain this well. If last reincarnation you lived in different culture or off planet and the soul remembers, it you would have difficultly with the language because just other places on the planet, you would not speak the same as people in any area. * 

So, currently, I have no job by society's terms because in my last job a woman who was a narcissist who made a point pissing me off every day, then my mom passed away brought a shit storm of problems and me talking 60 plus people each day and intuitively picking up on them and their energy was becoming a problem, and I am not a machine, so I could not keep up the pace every day. So, finding a job that takes into consideration my over 30 years of experience, to make the money to meet my needs is a problem, at the moment.   

And the reality is that we forget, since 911 the world has been in the swinging pendulum of destroy, rebuild, and scaring the stuff out of us, and continue to roll with as if nothing has happened. When I see people walking around with a mask on, your choice, but it is very present in these people’s minds. It is not different than the doomsday planner and prepper. Really, this is God's domain. I stopped doing predictions because people become attached to the negative aspect of them and instead knowing that we have the ability not to create them. But with weather technology to manipulate and create natural disasters, that like say the various airports had no idea the planes would fly into the twin towers. Conspiracy or not, that is not for me to tell you what to believe. 

Just like climate change, now if you ask a truther, who is not afraid of professional disgrace, which is what truthers are whether directly involved or witness to, who speak out. (ie Snowden guy about data collecting, tracking people) Because they realized people are being lied to. I for one don’t try to tell falsehood and question material, even if I have to sit on it for years. Because I have gotten intuitive information and seven years later, I have met the person who had or was involved in that experience. And sometimes information it was on a different timeline that was avoided. Meaning we avoided it. For example, you have seen someone in a long time and there they are. And the conversation in your head would be I live somewhere else, I've been busy with my own life, or whatever comes to mind. The point is they exist at one point in life, friend, foe, etc. And here they are again. As for me, I would be asking why is this person showing up and what was my life like before. Is there a lesson or is this a random event? 

So, I will use myself as an example I walked away from everyone that I knew, for lack of words it was abusive, committed assault, and dangerous to myself and my children. When my mom died, I had to come back involved to a degree with these people, who did these things to me and revisit the trauma that I experienced by them. Over the years, I have done a lot of work on forgiveness, and empowering myself. I still don’t know if they are karmic relationships or catalysts for me to do this work. My point is Things are not always what they seem. 

I just got (perception) is 9/10 of law-? now google states it as Possession is 9/10 of law in the absence of clear and compelling testimony or documentation to ...etc… Why this just came through – no idea. Since most of what I speak about is in the aethers meaning what exactly... I can’t fact-check it – I can only present it. Just like guides saying I will be famous, and I am ok, ok… I have never thought about or considered it until they said it. And I am still ok, ok, whatever.  I just write what they give me and or tell me.

 As I try to explain or teach, express all the information that I have in my head over years to connect the dots because I know the work that took to get here. Even within the community of spirituality and it is always about discernment and weeding what is true for yourself and finding the answers to people’s thoughts or questions. When society and media want to cattle prod into this is the truth. But if you watch for scripting, you find they all use the same wording. And soon we will see it in AI because we need to learn to tell the differences. Humans will always be smarter than AI or technology because we have a direct connection to aethers, God, source, guides, or straight-up knowing. 

For example- those lines of what look like jet streams in the air – we'll-called cloud seeding – when don’t live near the airport- they spread in a line – in which the weather normally changes in a few days or the next, depending on how much they spray. Allergy did check the cloud seeding! why do you have problems with allergies? Along with why are you programmed to buy only bottled water when water is not safe to drink in your own house? When you can buy filter systems, even cheap ones. Control water. Or how your own body is water and like a dried-out sponge your muscles are in pain because you don’t drink enough water, to remove the toxins from your body from germs to the food you ingest. People wonder why have chronic pain or inflammation. I am a doctor don’t quote me. When most doctors don’t consider what your eating or drinking, as a source of problems, or less than 40 hours of training in nutrition (I did get this from a doctor with a Ph.D.). So what do you want in life!

04-04-23 FEAR

04-04-23 FEAR

 I was going to write affirmations today, but I decided to write the ridiculousness of how people fail to see the social engineering that you and I experienced of FEAR. From your childhood to wherever you are now, for you to be in experience of Fear. From your parent to the reality that you inhabit. If you control the world, control the minds of the people to not question, control the water, food, housing, and financial market - to create illness and death, separation, and war. These are core attributes designed to keep you in a state of Fear. Critical thinking has been lost to stupidly and complete ignorance. 

Nothing can hurt unless you allow it, I know it sounds like an oxymoron - (contradiction) to what has been experienced, so far. But where do these beliefs start in your childhood? Religion, cultural beliefs, and dysfunctional families passed from one generation to the next without ever questioning whether are these true for me. If the media tells you the sky is falling, here is the bridge to jump off of. Were raised to believe we are powerless and victims to the situations that we encounter, yet all these are for waking up and questioning, what the frick? is going on.

Why are the people our supposed governments doing about it? Accepting chasing an ex-president yet having one that we have by all accounts is an idiot and should be in a nursing home to live out the rest of human life. Threats from China who want to rule the planet (didn't we have a psycho like that before), and by all rights we added to it, by shipping everything overseas for cheap labor. And the mentality that people will work for whatever price. Let's just hang a carrot in front of them. Pavlov's Theory of Classical conditioning. - which was produced before the great depression and World War Two.

In the meantime, in my own life, walking through the mess that people have created for themselves, and their life is overwhelming, and I am like what are you thinking? No disrespect but when you go through enough stuff, one should question why is this happening to me, why am I experiencing this? I understand for a higher perspective people need to be shocked to the core, to challenge and confront it, to awaken to what is happening and what is my part being on the planet at this time. To oh, let me wake the blank up. To divine love from the heart to addiction, relationships, to neighbors and all the people frankly are being that your brothers and sisters to God created everything.

When you take away the dogma of what religion tells (4000 religions on the planet) - us - we came from the same place. Really, looking at things, fighting equality in health since Obama, Women's rights from the beginning, because God forbid, they stop having children the world and people cease to exist, and creation could not include a female and very male distortion of only a phallic can possibly run the world or our governments. As they rape and pillage the world and its inhabitants, to oh let’s rocket in space so trash another planet, because we will not address or fix what has happened to one were on. Praying to God to save us, when God is with us, and indoctrination that you are nothing short of slave labor to the few on the planet. All to keep the wheel of illusion spinning.

When we all need to just stop and challenge the fear - from food shortage to the government taking medical away from people who need it and meteors coming toward the planet- really, we can pull satellites in space to monitor other countries and produce communication around the world - but we pollute the food, water, air and kill off as many people as we can, because they are harvesting your Fear to control your mind. then use your mind against you to create illness, chaos, and craziness and manipulate you to think that you don't have a voice or a choice. By engineering, things and the people who speak about them are just right crazy or off the rocker, until it happens to you as your world, continues to collapse, and pray that the people who will step forward to rebuild it know what the hell they are doing.

This is all prompted by my frustration - because guides want me to work with women, move to higher ground, and I am how and where- because when using your intuition (inner knowing) it will naturally guide you. Your internal GPS God program system or call it what you want. You know what is going to happen, or an inner road map for you to see your own connection to everything.

This, of course, is prompted by a dumb ass letter that got from my apartment complex about a person's personal objection to having to use wash and dryers with households that have animals and now having to use allowed machines - this of course is based on one's personal belief and now instead resolving it for all the tenant's. Mind you, this person has using the washer and dryers since before the virus and it has not been a problem before now. When the illness you are experiencing is your body telling you that your out of balance. And not that we taught that you can heal yourself, with the exception that if from birth the soul has chosen to learn life sessions in that form.

All the while I have been calling in for years - asking for help with this work and cringing at it. When you realize the depth of social engineering and control that has been at play. When most who do this work think it or display it - with such polarity and distaste that times I am sickened by lack of compassion, because if they truly understood they would question their own "social media standing", by understanding Universal laws.

Here is a question ask your parents or grandparent how they were taught to hide under their desks in the case they dropped bombs on them. A Conditioned response. Do you not think that you don't carry a cell's memory in DNA, since you were born from their DNA? 

04-03-23 What if ...

04-03-23 What if…

What if from your birth to now you were taught that you were a Divine Being of God, would you have changed your life in the sense that you have created your life, the choices that you made, the things you did or didn't do? Would you have been kind, and showed compassion and understanding to all, verse only people you agreed with?

 I arguably ask the guides or tell the guides that this is the dumbest thing. We come to this planet to assist in raising the vibration of the planet to God, Christ-like consciousness, with our contracts/soul agreements to release karma or experience emotions and feeling, to create from love as the fundamental base for everything. To create our reality to unity consciousness, and then to release the traumas of those experiences to the realization that everything is a divine being, to everyone is connected regardless of what you see. That at the core is love, it is all there is, and it sounds cliché'. And yet this is the simple point of all this, to when is it going show up in the material world versus an ethereal (heavenly) concept?

 That every being is the key to own heaven, why is this simple concept completely unknown? To I don't unknown if this is even correct wording because we do know, on a soul level and why we are not mindful of it in all our interactions. with it complexity of boundaries, love of self, and standing in truth. From people acting from wounding and ego to greed and need for power and control over others.

 I wonder would we be living differently? or different Reality. Yet, this concept is further from what is being witnessed, or is it? That we have become the causality (cause and effect) of this unknown knowledge of being a Divine being. Without investigating whether it is true for our own.

Does God live within me? 

04-01-23 Precipice of Change (Inception Point)

 

The guides have given me the word precipice- now this word means to more or less a very steep cliff or mountain. They seem to speak in words more than visuals, not that I don’t see images, or stories play out, but rather what is, what I consider annoying words. That I have to do some figuring out what they are saying to me, to be able to explain it to another and I like really!

I also realized that sometimes my writing may be cryptic at times, which to me seems like a one-sided conversation when I am translating information into readable material. I have been researching this information for 20 years, trying to understand why, how and this information comes to me since I was four years old. 

What is my part in it and what I am to do with it when better, or more well-known individuals express or not expressing the information that comes to them via intuition. Why it seems taboo or crazy, or just not taught from childhood- to where people presently are in their life. Why it continues to steep in mystery. To how do I get the average Jo/e to even begin to just understand and bring them to the use of their own intuition. 

So, what is their use of Precipice of change, we all are walking off a cliff with no bottom, and the present and potential of the future is unknown. That we all blindly walking around waiting to see what will happen or continue to happen when we all have the ability to affect reality. That if we continue in the mindset of ego, greed, control, and fear that it will project us in continuation destroying ourselves and the planet, or that there is another reality of compassion, love, and connecting, that benefits humanity, equality, and altruism for all of life. That winner takes all serve no -one. 

Along with the perpetual need to consume is affected that planet at a harming rate, or of stance or chance, we can awaking to the fact life is not what was or could be, but more of mind-control to have us not even to know what our own heart is telling us. To the simple question is this generating fear and why, what to fundamental of basic living – housing, food, water, transportation, medical care, care of the body, including eyes, and dental this seems never to be a dress either. 

To how is it that we live in a time that is so technologically advanced that we still have people living on the streets? Where of course does it say in any religious doctrine does it say that people should starve, suffer, or be without, when the planet is abundant in resources but controlled by who exactly, I thought we left that behind with the foundering fathers. To this ego – let them work for it- where people fail to see if it is for all that includes them. To elitest – whomever they are – well I guess that they will just build robots for the shit they won’t do, because robots don't need money, or think about cleaning up their shit. 

In the tarot deck the fool card in the picture is walking off the cliff into the unknown, maybe this is what the guides are talking about that we are walking about in the precipice in the unknown. That as humans we have a choice to create a culture based on the betterment of humanity and the planet or continue to feed a construct that really is imploding on itself. And our we going to change with it or continue to sleep as our government, corporations, and mystery elite people control the minds of the world, for the elitist global control. How many dictators does it take to put a light bulb in- none because they are self-serving only to themselves!  As your eyes roll, let's just say it is better to be informed than to be blindsided. Starting questioning why is the food being taken out of children’s mouths, or elders, why are trying to stop medical care for life-saving care, or medication, and why is this happening. 

How is it that are children or grandchildren going to live in a home, if most can’t afford an apartment, let alone a home? And who is running the market on housing, if we go back to 2008 did, we not see a collapse of the housing market, which was preceded with the fall-out of banking industries, 911 followed by a few years later with a War. I can go on and on about every illness presented from now, back to the late 80s. I not writing this to create fear because fear is created by us and is not real, it is used to control people and the mind of people. 

Fundamentally, we were taught to write, read, and do the math, which are basic concepts – were we taught to think about changing what is perceived as reality if we are living in a living consciousness that is all around us. In the matrix we see Neo alter reality with thoughts, where are your thoughts?