Back in 2013
when I had custody of my son taken from me on a contempt court order, my life
collided again. I went to see a counselor. This counselor (doctor) asked me if
there were addictions in my family and when I told her that there was alcohol
abuse, she wrote me an Rx for Alcohol medication, even when I told her that I
had 2 drinks in the last 10 years at that point, and now 2 in last 19 years.
This is how Frick-up the system is.
I went for help to process the trauma of what
happened, and they gave me medication that had nothing to do with why I came
there. It was easier to medicate me than try to help me through the trauma of
the experience. Yet, I have seen
Mothers and fathers call their children little f-er and mothers leaving their
children under the age of 5, home alone to care for themselves, to go spend the
time at a methadone clinic and so dope up these children learn to fend for
themselves. Or the fact that I have seen children burned or punished because
they were hungry and not fed, locked out of apartments, or houses as
punishment. I have seen children cry all night while left alone while their
parent/s disappeared. I have seen children locked in closets for being Gay and
not like their siblings. I have seen and watched display sex actions at ages
they should not.
I have seen
children drugged down the street because they are having a meltdown with
special needs. I witness a mother only feeding her child cereal because the
child needs special care with regard to autism and then left in the bedroom
with no connection to others or her and then peeds himself and she then screams
at him and thinks it is an attack on her, instead of coming to the term that
her son needs more direct care. I have seen children sit by their doped parent
while they wait to see if the parent wakes up.
Or the mother who stays with an abuser and locks her kids in the closet
while the father beats the mother after coming home from the bar. I have seen
and witnessed children abuse their own siblings, and act out what they have
experienced. I have seen children left in dirty clothes and not washed for
days. I have seen children as of age 9-10 have no idea how to use a fork to eat
with. I have seen children paraded naked in front of strangers. I can’t count
the number of times that I have called the police after going to the store and
seeing infants and 2 years old left in the heat of a hot car when the parent
went into the store. +
What is the
point of this: I am speaking for children because I lost custody to my ex for
not telling him I was leaving (per courts with PFA) after he assaulted me in front of my
children, this was not the first time over the years that I left him and came
to him for help after a situation with my family. And have since learned that
it is generation from parent to child and on and on, until someone stops the
cycle, or they take their own life through drugs, suicide, or prostitution they
get lost to the streets or far worst. I
have suspected children of physical and sexual assault without any proof of the
fact. When I experience these things, it was not because I was working
somewhere, or with children. It is openly done, right in public. When I started
to witness some of these things that I observed I had to question some of the
things that have happened in my life that led to some of the men I dated. What
is the impact going forward, and how do we even being to address these traumas and
some are so buried that their mind is blocking them until a time comes that
they might even begin to process it.
This is not
God doing. This human doing it is against innocent human children. This is not
new this is years of even adults living with secrets long forgotten about and
so suppressed that they have no idea why they are ill, drinking, drugs, or
dating the wrong men, and how they get into these relationships they do. All
because we fail to see them as people who will one day become adults, in over
distracting world. Belittling either parents, or people for control or power over another to cells phones, peer pressure, fitting in, or human souls that
you gave life too. Then of course we
condemn them, the children because we are failing them. And honestly, the
system is so broken that they could handle the influx should they seek help.
* God has given us free-will to make choices -you chose the Devil or Angel, If you were God embodied how would treat people is the lesson.
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