4-27-23 What people don't say (energy on the planet)

4-27-23 What people don't say (energy on the planet)

 So the last few days I have been struggling with the energy that I am feeling. To the point that found myself in the fetal position last night. As I lay there questioning why I was experiencing feeling unsafe and needed to protect myself. To basically tell myself that I am safe and did not have to protect myself. I am extremely sensitive to everything. In my research I found no way of shutting it off or turning the volume down, so to speak of. 

This brings me to how others explain that it is all light and love, and god is in every aspect. Which I am not disagreeing with, but what no one explains is that or those feeling that you get from other people. Now most people have had radars go off when meeting someone, or just don't pay attention to their intuition by ignoring what they're feeling, understandingly there are multiple reasons why people don't listen to intuition. Mostly because you're conditioned out of it.  

So, I have met people who are slimy, or contort as they battle themselves, or walked into a store and got pain in the stomach, or go into coughing spells, speak to someone and get an instant headache (ex: work) and so sick that I have to be taken home. People don't speak about these experiences and it said that nothing can affect you and I beg the differ. I don't know if has to do with transmuting energy or sensing someone's truth about themselves. 

Why it is happening and how to control it. I only know about shielding by white light, violent purple flame, or encasing egg of light, and call on AA Michael to shield, as I do this for myself but still, I encountered these energies that I experienced with other people. It is as if I am seeing a truth that they don't see for themselves. 

I have seen labels like energy vampires, energy leaks and toxic people, narcissism and I looked into shamanism and thought this was some type of initiation. I am going to pose that it is a natural thing, maybe not all people but that we all have the ability, call empathic, sensitivity, or inner Gps, and it is just another thing that is not taught for us to navigate. Now if I lived in a more tribal community where we actually have elders and wisdom keepers who would teach this, not that they don't exist but being a walking antenna and the teachers or claims that they teach are chasing the money or only given part of information.

When there are so many walking around thinking it is them and something wrong with them when it is not. Then to have to figure it out, as what the blank was that! I know, because I experienced these things and have yet to find a person or book to explain to me what it was. I also wonder if I had this since birth or from my childhood being that I had to keep my radar on because of the trauma that I experienced or navigate my surrounding. It does happen every day so much, but enough for me to pay attention. That at times, it has affected my ability to do things. 

Now grounding goes along with shielding, both of which I forget to do daily. And the fact that am trying to create some stability in my life. Which has is been a revolving door of jobs, cars, homes, and income up or down. To wondering why this is a problem for years and applied the outside world with 911 and to the current day nonsense world. And people seem to keep functioning from that fact, that these events happen and we keep going, like nothing is happening and the effects of these events. To where you are the last employee to get hired and first to go when shit it the fan. Which causes a ripple effect, I had to explain on my own resume that this storm Sandy, 911, and laid off because the sky was falling (humor), etc. 

To compare these things in my life as some type of spiritual initiations, because if I truly look at my life from a timeline perspective, I have to wonder how I am even alive through the things that I have gone through when the rest of the world is its business as normal. A word that I would delete from the dictionary and people running in the rat maze or Pavlov's bell. Then explain to people hello the world shut down. I had a family member die and it require my attention and I not suppose to react to your inability to be aware, connect events and no I don't have all the answers. But I look for them. 

I want to note that even with my own writing I can only give limited information because there could be other reasons why people feel slimy, maybe their diet, their thoughts or it is their personality. I can only give examples of my experiences.