I just realized that in my job search currently that I have pretty much been looking for a job or home for 18 years, along with the impact of spiritual stuff that was happening to me and the countless jobs that I left for various reasons including childcare and medical illness, that refusal by the various employers that did not want not pay me raises and honor the law regarding attending court orders or seeking medical attention for myself and or children, after an accident.
And those same laws for helping and protecting me created some of the worst obstacles for the single parent. Not counting predator bosses or fellow employees male or female who say or do things that create a stressful working environment and the law protects these predatory people. For one it is taught as acceptable behavior or personality, or it is a trait from generations of penal thinking, which is penis thinking and now Women carrying those aggressive behaviors against other women.
How the whole system is rigged again you, to work 40 hours per week and the different support systems available, that actually might help you or receive help from. Could in fact cause you to be homeless before actually benefiting you to any one degree. While I see these jobs for remote work and these lovely blogs about the benefits of working from home and thought about all women who have lived in the past and present struggle with these very basic needs and the systems criminalized single women who left their partners for any one reason and I am not excluding Men but in general, Men are not demonized the same as a woman.
How the various markets of housing, food, and transportation - basic necessities are being raped by the powerful again, and sorry to say it but how these Gen X, ZR..et,123 (not all) are seeking to become billionaires like the Steve Jobs of the tech world, Hollywood, music, sports industry without question the moral or ethical implications of raising someone rent because it looks better is their long term goals or their portfolio of global domination to rule the world. Hello, that is already happening, young blood!!
Or how I had a Male judge say I should go get a job serving food at a diner and I said Why? And you see head turn in the courtroom! No disrespect to anyone who serves food, but clearly this Judge thought that was my contribution in life, and that apparently it was the only thing that I was capable of achieving in life was to serve food to a sorry donkey ass like himself. While he plays in Judge clubs of twiddle things. When the courts took my son away that it would not have a bigger impact on my life or his brother's going forward. The ripples afterward and as pick myself up off the sidewalk to get on the train. And peoples' train of thought just moves on and I am like what the hell just happened?
That my son who I had raised was torn from his mother to be put solely with his father and then separated from his brother and apparently in the court world and most stupid people's lives, is just like any other day. To then sit before a therapist or counselor, who has no training to assist a person with the loss of a child taken by the very system that is supposed to protect them, and the parent/s and somehow your life is supposed to be normal. And the counselor, if you look at the word by its definition is for a psychological problem, and the therapist - (the rapist) again for a disease of the mind, in some form, but this was created by courts and by a man I fled from for trying to assault me.
And the Government or courts state, I am capable of normal fricken life, and the mental health professional is pop this pill, come back next week or two days from now. The spiritual community is like it's all light and love and you chose this life contract and with my intentions, it is what creates my reality. Being pissed off spirituality looks like the same anger by the unware non woke person and I am supposed to find comfort in what exactly! It's a bad day.
And I am conflicted because one I am tired of looking for a job and a home, I live next to a wackadoodle who thinks it is ok vacuum at a time when most people going to sleep, and my thunder-footed other neighbor and her child, who wear normal shoes but sounds like she has weighted boots for walks on the ocean floor. I am ok, it is all God and I am supposed to do what with this information. And I am supposed to be the observer and not the reactor because it is all god being a god!
There is no separate just the concept of such as good, bad, good, and evil and it is perceived in the worlds. And traumas have to do with dishonoring the female, and the planet and not understanding that love really is that which is a divine connection to the source, knowing, god, and each and everyone is God. I am supposed to tell this story in how many ways when clearly I can't keep my job or place to live, where I want to be, versus wanting to throat punch people and attempt to explain my life to people by the example of my resume. When if we all learned and were taught this, that we are the creator Gods from the beginning, the only people who would feel ostracized were the ones seeking to destroy the planet, or separate people, and God's Will is our free will and you chose how you use it.
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